Tony felt like he had been hit by a bus. As he tried to process the information he had just learned. How could he have a son with Ziva? The typical pregnancy lasted nine months and the last time he saw her was in September. Which was only five months before and it was late September too. Not to mention he had pulled out before penetration. Unless she was pregnant before but he hadn't seen her in four months before. Then he remembered that night. The night the team turned in their badges. The night around nine months ago...

Flashback

Tony walked out of NCIS HQ. Possibly for the last time. For the first time in almost twenty years he was a civilian. He had no idea where he could go. The chief in Peoria made it clear that he never wanted to see him again and he couldn't come back to Philadelphia. Not after what happened before he left. Maybe he could go back to Baltimore. No too many bad memories there. Maybe he was sick of law enforcement anyway. Constant death and destruction. Having to be the one at the door at four in the morning. Telling people that there loved one was dead or severely injured. Of course giving up law enforcement meant finding a whole new career. He could always go back to his major in physical education. He could get his license renewed over the summer. He got everything renewed and updated every few years. He figured it would be a good fall back position. He figured if he ended up in a chair or with a limp he could still be a coach. He felt somebody tap his shoulder and whirled around to see Ziva behind him.

"Hey Ziva." Tony greeted.

"Hi Tony. So what are you going to do?" Ziva asked.

"What do you mean?" Tony asked.

"Now that we aren't federal agents anymore?" Ziva asked.

"I don't know maybe re-up my phys ed degree. I got some money saved up. Enough to get me through six months. More if I live modestly. I've been saving since I got the plague. You know hospital bills and all. I don't want to end up broke." Tony explained.

"You'll be alright." Ziva replied.

"So what are you going to do?" Tony asked.

"Go back to Israel at least for a little while." Ziva replied.

"When do you leave?" Tony asked.

"Tomorrow I know it's short notice but my lease is up and I need to get out anyway." Ziva replied.

"Oh well uh do you want me to help you pack?" Tony asked.

"That would be great." Ziva replied smiling.

"I'll pick up some food and a couple of beers and head over to your place." Tony replied.

"Sounds like a plan." Ziva replied.

Tony set the last box down in Ziva's living room. He couldn't believe she was really leaving. He wished that he could stop her but knew it would be useless to challenge her. He sat down beside the boxes and reached for his beer. Only to have it snatches from his hand.

"Hey can't a guy drink the beer he paid for?" Tony asked.

"You won't be needing it. We are meeting everybody at our usual bar for drinks." Ziva replied.

"Even Gibbs and Ducky?" Tony asked.

"It's a goodbye thing. I wanted to keep it quiet Jimmy told everybody." Ziva replied.

"You told Palmer?" Tony asked.

"A friend of Breena's is a missionary over there. I am planing to stay with her until I get settled in. also he is easy to talk to and I thought he would keep it secret." Ziva explained.

Ziva fumbled the key as she tried to unlock her door. Tony laughed and she told him to be quiet just a little too loudly. Both of them had way too many drinks at the bar. Luckily Gibbs had noticed, called a cab for them and took Ziva's keys. When the cab arrived he instructed the cabbie to take them both back to Ziva's place. As the elevator in Tony's building was broken again and Gibbs was sure that he would fall and break his neck in the stairwell trying to make it to the fifth floor.

"I guess I'll crash on the couch." Tony slurred.

"No come in my bed. We aren't co-workers anymore. We can do whatever." Ziva slurred.

"I like the way you think Miss. David." Tony slurred.

End Flashback

He was sure that he had used protection but they were both so drunk. If he hadn't been madly in love with her for eight years and literally the only reason he hadn't been there for her throughout the pregnancy and the first weeks of his son's life. Was because Ziva hadn't told him about it. He would have been ashamed of himself for taking advantage of a co-worker.

"Tony are you alright?" Deena asked.

"My son how old is he?" Tony asked.

"Lior is two weeks old. He was born the day before his mother died." Deena explained.

"Oh God did Ziva die from complications from the birth?" Tony asked.

"Your boss didn't tell you how she died?" Deena asked.

"No" Tony replied.

"Tony, she was murdered." Deena replied.

"By who?" Tony replied.

"They don't know. She came home from the hospital with Lior and a few friends of her's from Mossad came over to visit and she was dead on the floor. She was completely doused in acid. That's why we had her cremated." Deena explained.

"She was so beautiful. Who would do that? No Ziva." Tony cried

"I am so sorry Tony." Deena replied.

"Tell me about my son." Tony whimpered.

"His name is Lior Jackson David. Well you already know that." Deena replied.

"How do you pronounce his first name?" Tony asked.

"Li aw er." Deena replied.

"What does it mean?" Tony asked.

"It is Hebrew for I have light and Jackson is for your boss's father." Deena explained.

"What else?" Tony asked.

"He was born on February 15th 2014. He weighed six pounds even at birth and was nineteen inches long. He is healthy and strong just like his mother." Deena explained.

"Can I meet him?" Tony asked.

"Of course." Deena replied.

Tony followed Deena into the bedroom. Where his son was resting in a crib. Lior looked exactly like his mother except he had Tony's green eyes. Tony reached into the crib and stroked his son's soft olive colored cheek. He knew that this was going to be a long road and he would have to crawl back to NCIS with his tail between his legs. At least for a little while but he was going to raise his son. He was going to be different from his father. He wouldn't leave his son in a hotel or ship him off to boarding schools and camps. Just to get rid of him. He vowed that even though baby LJ would never really know his mother. He would know about her. He just had to figure out what to do next.

"Hi Lior. I'm your daddy and I love you very much." Tony whispered.

"Ahhuuhh" Lior cooed.

"I am sorry your mother isn't here anymore. She was a beautiful and amazing woman and you already remind me of her so much." Tony explained.

A/N: So far so good with Tony and his son. Don't worry Tony and Emily will fix things soon and Tony will be back at NCIS. He just has to deal with and sort our a few things first. Next chapter should be up Wednesday. Please review and thanks for reading.