thank you for all of the reviews from the last chapter. I know you probably all are wondering about a lot of things. just ask me and i will tell you, if it doesn't ruin the story.

Just to clear things up, Bella didn't go over EVERYTHING that happened while she was in custody. She went through several more torture things (like the scar on her neck from the first chapter), she just didn't tell Edward everything, or they would have been there forever. Also because she can only handle so many memories at once. I am trying to make this story as real as possible, and i hope it feels like it could have actually happened! Thank you and enjoy!

EPOV

I was beyond shocked. This innocent little child had gone through all of that? I looked down at her in amazement and realized she was sobbing quietly into my chest.

"Bella…"I said softly, "I am so sorry" All of things she said started to slowly replay themselves in my head. I could feel myself getting angrier by the second. How dare those things put her through that type of torture? They had to be punished. They had to be ripped apart as slowly and as painfully as possible. And I had to be the one to do it.

"What were their names Bella?" I demanded. I needed to know who I was going to kill for causing this angel so much pain.

"Laurent, Victoria, and… J-James" she stuttered fearfully through her sobs. I rocked her gently against my chest, trying to soothe her with my touch.

"Bella, I am going to take you back to the house. Can you get on my back?" I asked her, making sure not to make any sudden movements. She nodded. As soon as she got on I whizzed through the forest as fast as I could, dodging obstacles the whole way. I ignored the car and headed straight towards the house. I couldn't waste any time if I wanted to kill them. Or else I might change my mind and chicken out. I could hear Bella's broken sobs from behind me reminding me of her pain. I ran faster.

"Alice!" I said once we were in hearing range, "Take Bella. I have some things I have take care of." She ran out quickly and grabbed Bella, causing her to wince a little.

"I said carefully" I snapped loudly. Alice looked at me and glared. I read her mind to see what happened while I was gone, but she was repeating the same phrase.

Edward, I don't think you should go off yet. I had a vision of what happened, you can't just leave her like this.

She didn't understand. Every second I was getting angrier and angrier. I had to kill something, I had to harm someone.

"I will be back." I sneered venomously at Alice, "I told you that I have to do something." She flinched at my harsh tone but reluctantly turned around to let me leave. I bolted towards the forest a couple miles and then stopped.

Sobs started to come from me, shaking my body. All I could think about was what happened to Bella. I started to pull the trees from the ground, ripping them to pieces and getting angrier by the second. I pretended they were Bella's captors. They deserved to die. Everyone deserved to die that harmed Bella in any way. I vowed to myself then and there that anyone who harmed Bella in any way was going to be torn apart by me. I laughed at the pictures in my head of me hurting them. I had to hurt them. They would receive the pain they caused Bella tenfold. They deserved it. I laughed at the pain I caused in my mind.

I ran faster, punching trees and causing a path of destruction wherever I went. The world deserved pain. It made Bella hurt, so now it was going to hurt just as bad. Karma is a bitch, and now it is the world's turn to hurt.

I let out an evil laugh as I smashed the flowers and signs of life around me. I mercilessly killed any animal that crossed my path. I could feel my whole being becoming relieved by each thing I destroyed. I thanked God that something was as in as bad a pain as Bella. I destroyed the innocent animals, ripping off their heads and greedily gulping in their blood. I felt some drip down my face, but didn't wipe it away. IT was proof of my victory. Then, I went back towards our meadow.

I saw the innocent flowers swaying gracefully in the wind. I could smell the delectable animals basking in the warmth of this fine fall day. I smiled to myself. Then, I headed towards a nest of baby birds in the tree. I looked at all their smiling innocent faces. They didn't deserve happiness. If Bella didn't have it, no one could. I tore the nest from the branch and wringed the birds necks one by one. I felt an odd sense of happiness when I heard the soft thud of their bodies hitting the ground.

The wind shifted and a familiar scent approached me as I was basking in my victory.

"Edward," Jasper said hesitantly, "calm down. It will all be fine." I turned and gave him a threatening glare. I ran towards him and clamped my hand around his throat, shaking him back and forth in my fury.

"FINE?" I yelled into his face, "Nothing is ever going to be fine! NOTHING!"

I felt his webs of calmness crawl towards me like poisonous spiders hunting for their prey.

"Don't you DARE try to calm me down Jasper!" I yelled at his face, grabbing his throat harder, "don't you dare."

Edward, I heard him plead in my mind, you are hurting me.

I felt my hold slacken as I fell to the floor and started to shake.

"She doesn't deserve it, Jasper" I said, hoping with my whole being that it was all a dream, "she doesn't deserve it."

"I know, but the past is in the past. The only thing we can do now is try to make it as easy as possible for her." I looked at my brother and saw him rubbing his neck, wincing a little at the pain I caused him. I sighed.

"I am sorry," I said, ashamed from my actions, "I lost control" He nodded.

"I understand. For a second there I thought I was a goner." He mumbled. I looked at him pleadingly, begging for him to understand. He nodded as another thought crossed my mind. In all of the madness I had completely forgotten the person I was avenging. Bella. I looked at Jasper, and he froze sensing my change in emotion.

"Is she bad?" I asked. We both knew who I was referring to. I saw him cringe as he tried to block his mind.

"Jasper, is she okay?" I asked, my voice rising to a hysterical level.

"S-she fainted." He said, shielding his eyes from me by looking at the ground.

"What are you hiding?"I demanded from him viciously.

"Nothing." He said, trying to sound convincing I searched his mind. He was thinking innocently about Alice.

"Tell me!" I yelled at him, "please" I added softly when I saw him flinch. He hesitated.

"She fainted after you left." I nodded, "she asked us where you were, and when we told her you weren't here she nodded her head."

"Then what happened?" I asked, he was still blocking my mind from the images.

"Right before she fainted she said" he started to trial off, looking at me to make sure I was stable.

"Tell me What. She. Said." I said slowly, taking the time to convey a threat in each word. He stared at me with an expression of pure pity on his face.

"She said 'Of course he wouldn't want me'" he whispered, it was barely audible as the wind engulfed his words into its unforgiving torrents.

I froze and felt so much pain rake through my body that I feel on my knees. I had made her think I hated her by leaving. I was a monster. I deserved to die. I deserved all of those painful deaths I thought up for others. This can't be happening. I should have killed those humans at the Volturi, and then I wouldn't have caused this whole mess. I had to make her whole again. I had to tell her otherwise.

I got up and started to run as quickly as I could towards the house. I needed to see Bella, and I needed to see her soon. She had to believe me. She just had to.

"EDWARD!" I heard Jasper yell behind me, "Don't go inside!"

I ignored his protests and started to run faster towards the house. I felt the wind blowing past me wildly, and I could smell my former trial. I followed it for a while and could still hear Jasper screaming something behind me. It didn't matter what he said. I had to get to Bella. I had to get to her so I could reassure her I wanted her. I needed her. I had to – Then, I smelt it.

The most appetizing scent I had ever smelt. Bella's blood. All of the sudden Jasper's protests stopped, engulfed further by the unforgiving wind. I started running faster towards the house. Faster towards the sweet liquid that awaited me when I got there.

I felt something hard as rock collide with my chest. I looked down snarling at my attacker. He had me pinned to the ground. I tried to push him off me, but another one came to help him hold me down. I twisted and turned, I had to get away from them. I needed her blood. My snarls got more vicious as I tried to bite them. One punched me in the side of my face. My whole world shook at the punch and spots came across my vision. Then I heard a familiar voice.

"SNAP OUT OF IT!" Emmett yelled, "We already have enough problems without you trying to kill everyone!" I froze as I realized my actions.

"GOD DAMN IT!" I cursed loudly into the night. "WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO BE MY SINGER? MY GOD, COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN JESSICA OR SOMEONE REMOTELY LESS APPEALING?!" My two brothers stared at me in shock.

"Bella is you singer?" Emmett asked, memories of his singers running through his mind. He smiled fondly at the memories.

"Yes she is Emmett," I hissed, "I would appreciate it if you didn't replay those memories in your mind. Especially right now."

"Oh, sorry man." He said, holding up his hands as an innocent gesture.

"That sure explains a lot" Jasper mumbled to the ground.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked Jasper, testily.

"Well, it certainly explains the fact why you are so obsessed with her." I gaped at him.

"I am not obsessed with her!" I defended myself, "I just don't like seeing her get hurt." He looked at me disbelieving.

"Edward, don't get any ideas in your head about her. It wouldn't be a good relationship for either of you. You don't know what is talking; it could be your nature or your heart. You might just want her blood."

I thought his words over in my head as we headed back towards the house. He had a point; I might just subconsciously be obsessed with her well being because her blood is calling to me. Maybe I just want to protect her so in the end I can be the one to kill her and drink her up. I groaned. To think I had actually liked a human for themselves. It was such an in your face answer that I am surprised I didn't come up with it. I wasn't falling in love; I was just fascinated and obsessed with Bella's blood.

Well, that certainly made things easier for both of us. Now, she wouldn't have to risk her life just to hang out with me. We could still be friends, just not on an intimate level. I could never do anything with her; or it might just be the end of her.

I felt myself sadden at my sudden realization. I would never be able to touch her luscious lips, never be able to feel her soft skin press against my ice cold body. We were complete opposites, fire and ice. We couldn't live with each other, or one would die. But we couldn't live without each other, or the other would never exist.