Title : Misty

Rating : T

Disclaimer : I wish to god I owned them, and the story lines, but unfortunately I do not.

Summary : When Blair finds herself pregnant, she and Chuck must make a heart wrenching choice.

Time : Season 2, episodes 2x01 – 2x05. What if Blair had slept with Chuck in episode 2x03 after all?

Chapter 10 – Those Who Hope

Head to rump, your baby is about 5 1/2 inches long and he weighs almost 7 ounces. She's busy flexing his arms and legs — movements that you'll start noticing more and more in the weeks ahead. Her blood vessels are visible through his thin skin, and her ears are now in their final position, although they're still standing out from her head a bit. A protective covering of myelin is beginning to form around her nerves, a process that will continue for a year after she's born. If you're having a girl, her uterus and fallopian tubes are formed and in place. If you're having a boy, his genitals are noticeable now, but he may hide them from you during an ultrasound.

"Blair, sweetie you need to get up"

Lily said as she shook the sleeping brunette gently. Today was her first day back at Constance, something Blair had been dreading since she'd been released from the hospital for a second time. After being on strict bed rest for 3 weeks, the doctor had finally given her the Ok to return to school, not what Blair had been hoping for.

She was 4 ½ months along, 18 weeks and so far she'd done the entire pregnancy practically on her own. Lily had kept to her promise and she hadn't seen sight or hair of Chuck, Bart was once again out of the country on business so there was no real need for him to be at the apartment, not that Lily or Serena would allow him within 10 feet of Blair. They'd stayed up with her countless nights as she cried her heart out, or yelled his name out in her sleep, he'd done enough harm to both her and the baby already they wouldn't allow anymore.

Opening her eyes slowly, she groaned as she slowly pulled herself up. "What to Expect when Your Expecting" had been right, with her belly growing a little more each day, sleep was getting more and more difficult, sleeping on her back was impossible, leaving her to of course sleep on her side.

"Think I can take one more day?"

She asked with a small tired smile, already knowing Lily's answer. She was more then thankful for Lily allowing to take her in, she knew if she'd stayed at her mother's any longer, she either would have miscarried or continued to not eat. Since moving in with the Van der Woodsen/Bass's, she'd been watched to make sure she ate, and unless she had a bought of morning sickness she didn't get rid of that food shortly after. Although she still had a mild case of Preclampssia, the risk for both a miscarriage and gestational diabetes was down to nothing. For now at least, her and the baby were safe.

"Your father would kill me if he found out I allowed you to stay home another day, I'm sorry sweetie but you have to go."

Running her hand along the soft bump she'd acquired over the past few weeks Blair nodded, sighing quietly to herself, now wishing that she had gone to France with her father instead, sure he'd be back in 3weeks for Thanksgiving but there was no Gossip Girl or Constance in France, just Cat, good old Cat.

"Everything...every thing's going to be alright isn't it Lily?"

Lily's features softened and she tucked a strand of Blair's hand behind her ear, she knew today would be especially difficult, not only was she returning to school, but she was also meeting up with the lawyers to discuss the adoption after. Something she wouldn't admit to but everyone in the house knew she was dreading.

"Of course it is, it'll be tough, that's something I won't try to sugarcoat for you but your doing the right thing. I personally don't think I could go through something as big as this, but it was a different time when I was having my kids. Your giving not only your baby a good future Blair, but yourself one as well."

Blair knew she was right, but a part of her felt as though she was doing the wrong thing. Who knew if she'd ever be able to have children again and here she was willing to give this one up? Lily was right, they'd both have better lives in the long run but a part of her felt like the evil step mother in Cinderella and Snow White.

"Though, and don't hate me for this, I think Charles has the right to know. I don't condone for a minute what he did to you but he is her father, he deserves to know what your planning."

She knew she was right, but part of her couldn't. He'd hurt her more then she cared to admit, and for the past 3weeks she'd been forcing herself to get over him, even if at the last minute she decided to keep the baby, she'd made a promise to herself that she wouldn't accept any help from him, nothing what so ever. Her days of relying on Chuck Bass were long since over. It wasn't just her life she had to think about anymore, it was her little girls.

"But, what do I know? I've been married much to many times, I know you'll do the right thing Blair. Contrary to what your mother believes and says you have a good head on your shoulders, you'll make the right descion.

One could clearly smell the scotch radiating off of Chucks' breath as he got out of his limo, getting liquored up was how he spent his days now, regardless or not if he did good in school this year he knew he'd graduate, Bart would see to it, so it's not like it mattered if he showed up. The only reason he did now was to catch a small glimpse of Blair, whenever it was she returned to school.

He was told on no uncertain terms that as long as she was staying with Serena, that he wasn't allowed at the apartment, not until they knew she was strong enough to handle him being there without winding back up in the hospital. Though tempted to stop off unannounced he knew he'd face a fight if he did, instead he settled for sneaking in while they were all sleep, he'd stand in the doorway of the room Blair was staying in and just simply watch her sleep, something he'd always enjoyed and now needed to keep his sanity.

"B, I've got complete faith in you. Your Blair Waldorf, you'll be able to handle today better then anyone else I know."

Serena coached Blair as the limo pulled up in front of Constance, although the two normally would have walked to school, with Blair's preeclampsia it was decided that it was much safer if Blair was off her feet as much as she could be, leading to them taking the limo instead.

"I don't know if I can face him S, not today of all day's. I can handle Gossip Girl, I can evil handle those bitches out there, but him, I don't know if that's something I can do."

Wrapping an arm around her best friend, Serena gave her a small side hug. She new Blair was apprehensive about all of this, returning today would only be worse knowing that Chuck Bass was lurking around campus probably 10 steps behind her, but she'd devised a plan, Nate and her would be by her side all day, and in the few classes they didn't, they'd have someone else, they'd planned it for weeks.

"Listen, you don't have to worry about him. The only class you have with him is English Lit, and he won't be there, I can guarantee it, he's never there, he won't be today. Me and Nate will be with you in every other class. He won't get within 5 feet of you, or my little niece."

Placing a hand on her evident bump, Blair nodded with a sigh. She was more then ready just to tell the driver to turn around and bring her home but that would mean he won, something she wasn't going to allow him to do.

Getting out of the limo after Serena, she linked arms with the tall blond, just because she was pregnant didn't mean they couldn't do the normal things that they'd done before. Walking slowly, along side Serena she tried to ignore the stares she got, the whispers she heard, she was Blair Waldorf though, she could handle it, she had to handle it.

The sudden glob of yogurt hitting her head brought back way to many bad memories of the previous school year. Looking up at Serena she willed herself not to cry, but she felt the tears welling up. Serena taking the hint from the color of Blair's face, quickly led her to the bathroom as fast as she could.

Hearing the door slam behind her, Blair rushed into the nearest bathroom stall she could get to. For once it wasn't herself making her throw up, this time it was real, both morning sickness and stress of the day already getting to her, she was crazy to think it'd all be Ok if she stayed. Going to France was sounding better and better now.

Serena holding her hair back, not yet cleaned up the yogurt, and rubbing her back didn't seem to do any good, as Blair wretched up everything and anything that was left in her stomach. The tears stung in her eyes, and her throat was raw but her stomach wouldn't stop. After a few minutes, Blair finally pulled back, sitting down completely on the cold tile floor, her head resting against the stall wall, as her rapid breathing started to slow again.

"I'm sorry B, I never in a million years though they'd do something like this again"

Serena rambled softly, as she pushed some sweaty hair out of her face, deep down she hadn't been sure if Blair coming back so soon was a good idea or not, none the less she'd gone along with what she thought was best for her, leading to finding out it wasn't.

Shaking her head at the sound of the bell, Blair shut her eyes resting her head back against the stall wall, class was all she needed now. No doubt that her teachers would also make like a living hell for her just as her classmates were.

"Just go to class S, I'll be fine...I'll meet up with you in a little. I promise"

Serena was reluctant to leave her best friend, but she knew one more late in her French class would lead to a detention something she wasn't in the mood for. Slowly getting up, she sighed looking down at Blair, the yogurt still present in her hair

"If your not in class within the next 10minutes I'm coming to find you, or I'll text Nate to find you."

Blair simply nodded, her throat was still raw, all she wanted to do was curl under the covers with Tiffany's and sleep the day away, but of course she wasn't allowed that. Pulling herself up slowly, steading herself for a minute as the dizziness wore off, she walked over slowly the sink. Washing the yogurt out of her hair, she hardly noticed who'd walked in when she heard the door open, assuming it was Serena, she continued to wash the yellow substance out of her hair.

"Serena, I told you I'd be in class in a minute"

Not getting a response she looked up in the mirror, terror struck her as she saw none other then Chuck in the mirrors reflection. Swallowing hard, she wanted to scream but couldn't. Gripping the sink tightly she begun to shake, she didn't want this, she didn't need this, the baby didn't need this.

"Before you scream, or yell or call for your precious friends, just hear me out please."

Chuck Bass asking for something instead of taking it, now that was a change. Gripping the sink still she turned around, the jacket she'd been wearing finally opened, her obvious bump now exposed, to the last person she wanted to see it.

"Your glowing"

He breathed out, not being able to control it. He'd only seen her in the light of the moonlight streaming in through the window of her room at Serena's, the heavy comforter always covering up her midsection. Now in the day light, he couldn't take his eyes off of her, she was more beautiful now then she'd ever been. She wasn't a stick anymore, she was curvy and beautiful.

"Chuck, please"

She begged swallowing hard, his eyes were practically burning holes into her body, making her more self conscious about it then she already was. Quickly closing her coat, she looked down at the floor, wanting just to leave the bathroom, and get as far away from him as she possibly could.

"No...don't"

Chuck whispered as he walked over to her slowly and cautiously. He could feel her shaking before he was even close to her, gently moving the coat aside, he rested a hand on the soft bump, it was crazy especially for him but he could swear he could feel it living inside of her. Looking up he made eye contact with her, the tears evident in her eyes.

"Don't"

She begged, hesitation in her voice. She was so scared of allowing herself to get close to him again, she knew in the long run chances were he'd only wind up hurting her again, she didn't know if she could handle that pain again, she was almost certain she couldn't.

A sudden flutter underneath his hand, connected their eyes together. Almost as though the baby knew her father was there, his thumb rubbed small circular motions on the spot where the butterflies had started to make movement.

"That's the first time she's done that"

Blair whispered, both being comforted by the movement of Chuck's hand, and the sensation that the baby was making inside of her. She'd never kicked before, her doctor had told her it was only a matter of time, since she was healthier now, it just hadn't sunk in that a little life was growing inside of her till the the swift movement it made.

"Blair, I'm so sorry...I never meant to put you through all of this, I never meant to put our baby's life in danger like that, never."

'Our Baby', it was an odd thing for Blair to hear, especially out of the mouth of Chuck Bass, after all he'd put her through in the past 4 ½ months, she still felt completely compelled to him, he was her drug and she was addicted.

"Why?...Huh, why Chuck?"

She questioned, her eyes filling with tears once again. Even with this touching caring side of him, she couldn't help but think of all the stuff he'd done to her since she found out she was pregnant. Where was the guy that stood up for her that night at Eleanore's? Or the one that was willing to defy his father and be with her and the baby no matter what? Where was the Chuck that was different when he was around her?

"You broke my heart Chuck, you broke my fucking heart! Give me one damn reason I should believe you, give me one damn reason!"

The tears streamed down her cheeks as she questioned him, the pain in her heart only escalating as she watched him, she couldn't understand how he could do this to her? It wasn't just her he was putting through all this, it was there baby to. An innocent little life that didn't deserve so much pain and distraught its first few months of life, it wasn't fair and it wasn't right.

"Because, because I love you Blair."

3 words 8 letters, it'd been all she wanted to hear from him, and never thought he actually could. Expecting something such as 'Because I'm Chuck Bass', never did she expect those 3 words, another small flutter from the butterfly inside of her gave her the proof she needed, almost as though it sensed what was going on between her parents, and wanted to make things right, wanted to bring them back together again.

"Because I love you Blair, and I want it all with you."

Before either one of them knew it, their lips were pressed against one another's. Her arms wrapped around his neck, as his arms linked around her waist, pulling her closer to him. The desire that both had held back for so long was finally released as his hands ran up the back up of her shirt, as she ran her nails along the sensitive hairs of his neck, causing shivers to spread between both of them.

"I really am sorry for everything Blair"

He whispered as they pulled back, his arms still firmly wrapped around her. For the first time in months, having her back in his arms he felt complete, he didn't care if the entire school walked in on them now, for this short moment in time she was in his arms, she wanted to be with him.

"I want to be with you Chuck...but I don't know if I can be"

The words cut through him like a sharp knife, here she was back in his arms again, and now he was close to losing her again, both her and the baby, the two most precious people in his life.

"Blair, no please, you can't do this. It won't happen again, it won't, it won't"

He protested as he held her closer to him, he couldn't lose her again, he couldn't. If he lost her he had nothing, his father wanted nothing to do with him, his best friend would rather hang out with trash from Brooklyn, all he was the Upper East Sides, youngest Playboy, no one understood him or took care of him like she did, no one.

"It's going to take a lot of time Chuck, I have plenty on my plate as it is right now, I don't need the add on stress of having to worry about what your doing behind my back."

She wanted to be with him, but the day she'd come out of the hospital she'd made a promise to the baby that she wouldn't let him put them at risk again, that she'd get a life where she didn't have to worry about those sort of things, even if that meant growing up in another family.

Leaning up she kissed him softly, before pulling back, untangling her arms from around her neck, finally picking up her bag. Walking slowly towards the door, she stopped as she held the doorknob, looking back she swallowed hard with a sigh as she looked him in the eye.

"Don't break my heart Bass"

She whispered before walking out, leaving Chuck in his own thoughts.