Ok, so sorry yet again for the delay. I'm just going to upload a new chapter of every one of my stories, because for some reason, I can't upload them from my dorm, which completely sucks, so I'm going to tell you now that it'll be a while for updates, but hopefully not that long where you all lose interest. (P.S. i'm putting this on all my other stories, so if you read more than one of mine, you'll already know this ;) )

So, I was having extreme writer's block with this one, so this is a little 'filler' chapter, but I think it has some key details. Yeah, I'm just going to go into it.

I DO NOT OWN LAW & ORDER: SVU; DICK WOLF DOES.

Olivia let out a small sigh. She couldn't believe it, her little girl was alive, and out there somewhere in Italy, and all this time, Erin and Maguire had let her believe that Regan was dead. Not only was she angry, but she was also hurt. Hurt that her best friend could lie to her, especially about something this important.

Olivia wiped her eyes free of the tears that had unconciously fallen. She continued to stare at the picture of the baby, she hand in her hands, smiling when she saw just how much Regan truly looked like her. Olivia grabbed one of the two pictures that lay on the empty passenger seat of her car, and lifted it up so that she could see Regan. Her smile grew wider, as her fingers gently traced Regan's small body. Her hair, the small amount she had, was dark brown, peeking out from the hospital issued baby beanie. Her skin was almost as tan as Olivia's, and, even though she was only a baby, Olivia could tell she would be just as curvy as she had been growing up. Olivia grabbed the last picture, and chuckled, seeing Regan looking at the camera with her eyes open. Her eyes, which were identical to her father's, the same cerulean blue she saw everyday, staring at her from her partner's desk, were open, looking at the world for the first time.

Olivia let out another sigh. Now that she knew Regan was alive, she knew she had to find her, tell her what happened, let her know that she never knew she was alive. She wanted to be able to see her little girl, and hope things would fall into place, as they should have seventeen years ago, but the more she thought, the more she knew it wouldn't happen. Regan was probably living a happy life, with a family that she probably thought was her own. A mother who she believed gave birth to her, and a father, a father who would be there, and love her.

She didn't doubt that Elliot would love Regan, she just knew things between them would always be different if she told him the truth, and their friendship was not something she was willing to risk. She knew it was selfish, but she was only sparing him. He was married, there was no need to ruin his relationship with Kathy, over something that had happened eighteen years ago.

Olivia continued to stare at the picture, not taking notice of the person standing outside of her car, looking at her through the window. Olivia jumped when she heard the knock on her window. It startled her, making her drop the picture of Regan on the floor. She turned to see who was outside her car, smiling when she saw the familiar face. He opened the door, and leaned on it, a technique he had learned to keep her from driving off. "How'd you know where to find me?" she asked, trying to hide the fact that she had been crying from her voice.

Elliot looked at her and smiled. "Because" he began, bending down to pick up the picture she had dropped, making sure not to let go of the door, a mistake he had made earlier in their partnership. "I know you Liv. You always come here to think." He stood up, and flipped the picture in his hands, so that he was able to see what was on the other side. He took one look at Regan and knew, he just knew, that Olivia had been hiding something big from him. "Olivia, who is this?" he asked, showing Olivia the picture of the baby, the one she had been staring at moments before.

Olivia didn't know how to answer. She could tell him the truth, get it all out now, but she knew he would hate her, and that was definitely not something she wanted to happen, especially now. She could lie to him, something she had only done to him once, but she knew she wouldn't be able to live with herself if she lied to Elliot. Olivia sighed, loudly, before looking into Elliot's eyes, the same eyes Regan had, the same eyes she had stared into the night they made love, the same eyes that told her just how much he was still in love with her.

"Elliot, I, uh." She grabbed the picture out of Elliot's hand and put it on the seat that held the other two. "Elliot, she's, uh." She broke eye contact with her partner, quickly looking down at the floor of the car. "Elliot, she's my daughter." She didn't look up, but she could feel her partner's expression change.

"What?" he whispered, leaning in closer to his best friend. "Your, your daughter? Olivia, you had a baby?"

Olivia looked at Elliot, and could feel the tears coming back to her eyes. "Elliot, I'm so sorry I never told you. It's just, she died and I didn't want to bring it up" she blurted out, trying to avoid eye contact.

Elliot looked at Olivia, before taking a deep breath. Olivia saw, from the corner of the eye, as he walked away from the car, shutting her door. She let the tears fall, fearing she had just cost her relationship with her best friend. Did he know she was lying, or was the fact that she had kept something from him the reason he hated her. She put the keys into the ignition, but stopped, hearing the passenger door open. She looked to the side, and saw Elliot climb into the car, making sure to scoop up the pictures and place them on his lap. She gave him a small smile, knowing he wasn't going to leave her now, not when he needed her the most.

"I'm sorry" he whispered, keeping his head tilted away from her so that she could not see how glossy his eyes had become. It upset him, that Olivia, the only other person who wanted a baby more than him, was denied that chance, but even more so, that she had had a baby with someone else, especially after their night together. He thought they had something, but obviously she didn't feel for him, what he felt for her, or so he thought.

As much as she tried to avoid it, she knew the question was the elephant in the room, or in this case, the car. There was no way around it, and she figured it best now, if she just answered his unspoken question. "Complications during delivery" she whispered, staring out the front windshield of her car. She saw from the corner of her eye, Elliot turn to face her, before continuing to speak. "I, uh, I passed out and went into labor. She died the same day."

Olivia could feel the tears on her cheeks, yet she made no attempt to wipe them away. Elliot, seeing his partner crying, turned, and reached over, cupping her face in the palm of his hands. "Olivia, I'm so sorry." He used the pad of his tumbs to wipe away his partner's tears, causing her to look at him. Their eyes locked, and before he knew what he was doing, Elliot's lips were a few inches from Olivia's, his hands on her head, keeping it steady.

Olivia's breath hitched in her throat. She was scared, scared as hell, about what would happen if he kissed her. She knew she loved him, but he was her partner, and he was still married for Christ's sake! Despite her better judgement, she closed her eyes, anticipating when she'd feel his lips on hers. She had always wondered if his lips were still as soft as she had remembered, the way they gently grazed her skin when they had sex. Her thoughts became cloudy, when she felt his hot breath on her face. Her mind was screaming at her to pull away, slap him, anything to not go through this again, but her body just wouldn't respond to what her brain was saying.

Elliot, noticing how she had not pulled away, continued to move toward her, slowly, also anticipating the feeling of her lips on his. "Liv?" he whispered, stopping so close to her, he could hear her breathing become irregular. "You have to know that Kathy never ment anything. I'm so sorry, for everything."

"Elliot," Olivia whispered, giving her a partner a small smile when he wiped the newly fallen tears off her face. "There's something you have to know" she whispered, opening her eyes, staring into the beautiful blues she knew and loved.

"Later" he whispered, before gently brushing his lips across hers. Deciding to ignore her brain for once, Olivia closed her eyes, as she allowed him to plant another kiss on her mouth, this one filled with more love than he had ever known he had for her. "Liv, I need you to know" he mumbled against her lips, before pulling her back, allowing him to stare into her beautiful brown eyes. "I love you." He pulled her close, wrapping his arms around her, before giving her another sweet kiss.

Olivia, shocked, and a little overwhelmed, only sat there, wrapped in Elliot's arms. Half of her wanted things to continue, let them go from where they had left off, but she knew it wasn't the right thing to do. He had a wife, and she had a secret, a big secret, and until they each told the other what they needed to hear, she knew there was no way for them to be together. "Elliot, I, I,"

Before she could finish, her phone began to ring. Startled, she scooted back, and away from Elliot, pushing him slightly, just so that he'd drop his arms. She quickly grabbed her phone from the dashboard, and tapped the screen, answering it. "Benson" she said into the phone, waiting a few seconds to hear the voice on the other end speak. "Yes, I understand. Thanks Captain." She quickly ended the call, before putting the phone back on the dashboard. "Erin's not going to press charges for assault, but she wants to talk to me."

Elliot looked at Olivia and sighed. Whenever things became either awkward for her, or she didn't want to talk about something, she changed the subject, but Elliot wasn't going to allow that, not tonight. "Liv," he said, placing a hand on her right thigh, making it known that he wasn't done talking about how he felt.

"Elliot," she began, placing her hand on top of his. She looked into his eyes, and silently begged him to not bring it up, if not for her confusion, than for her sanity. "Please" she whispered, hoping he would see how desperate she was not to talk about it at the moment. She had other things on her mind, more important things, and she didn't want another "distraction".

Elliot sighed, before nodding. "Take your time Liv" he said, before placing a kiss on the crown of her head.

Olivia took a deep breath, grateful that he understood, or at least was trying to understand, what she was going through. "Thank-you" she whispered, watching as he got out of the car.

"See you at the apartment?" he asked, hoping he wouldn't have to sleep in a motel for the night.

Olivia nodded, before starting the car. She watched as Elliot walked back to his car, seeing as she took the squadcar, wondering if it was a wise thing to keep the truth from Elliot. She knew he deserved to know his daughter, and some part of her wanted that to happen, but first she had to learn about Regan, and the only person who could give her the information she wanted, was waiting at her apartment, along with an apology and a piece of Olivia's little girl.

o.O who's waiting for her, and what do they have? And will Olivia ever let Elliot in and tell him the truth, or will he go on believing Olivia had sex with some other guy, and got pregnant? Review to find out. You guys know the rule, 10 reviews for the next chapter ;)