Chapter 10
"Hey, Miles, I'm home."
"Miles?"
"Aw, you're asleep already!" I heard him saying as he stood at the doorframe; my back was facing him, but I wasn't asleep though. I was wide awake
"I'm awake." I said coldly.
He sighed and moved closer to me, I felt him hovering over me as he gave me a kiss on the cheek, "I'm sorry, babe, but we had a lot of work today."
I finally faced him deciding to let it go for now. "It's okay,"
"You're not mad at me?"
I shook my head fighting the tears so hard; I didn't want them to even show themselves to him.
"No, Nick, come on, I'll prepare your dinner, and you tell me about your day while eating." I stood up leaving him to change as I prepared him the dinner and called for him. I don't know how I managed to control myself for this amount of time…
"I'm starving." He said as I chuckled. God, that takes a lot of stamina to get out.
"So, how was your day?"
"Nothing much," he began eating, "Just work and work and more work. So, how was yours? What did you do while I wasn't here?"
"Nothing, much too, I went to work, enjoyed my time there, got Gabby and came back, Demi came over for a while, TV…"
"Seems like you had a fun day unlike-"
"Oh, and I read some of Selena's diaries." I said casually and looked at him desperate to see his reaction to this one.
He froze there for a moment and gave me an awkward smile. Normally, I would have let it go, but tonight, I noticed…
"Selena's diaries?"
"Yeah,"
And he was back to his normal self, wow, he really can act.
"And what did you find in them?" he asked.
"Just ordinary things, wait I'll read you some." I said with a smile.
I just read him one of a good day we've spent together with Selena and she was expressing her feelings on how happy me and Nick were together… I skipped a part where she's wrote that it made her feel guilty for what she did…
"Oh, and listen to this one on the day she was pregnant, God, this girl was just so funny," I laughed flipping a page, "she stopped writing for a while and this was the first thing she came back with… her being pregnant."
"We don't really have to read those right now, Miles, I miss you and-" he said as he was finished eating and now we were sitting on the couch.
"No, no, it won't take that much, it's actually funny and kinda cute, I already read it." I said cheerfully.
He then nodded finding no way out.
I looked at the page and started reading out loud…
I'm pregnant.
I can't believe this is happening.
Yeah, I know I recently did it, but just did this have to happen? Do I need a constant reminder of the guilt, disgrace and shame?
I wanted to get rid of it… he wanted to get rid of it…
But I just couldn't, it was there, there were heartbeats… I couldn't just stop them. This is my own child's life we're talking about.
"I can't see how's this funny, listen, let's just go and-"
"Just wait, Nick, you'll laugh a lot, she's just starting it emotionally."
And so, I made the decision of keeping it, of course there was yelling and screaming from both of us, but I'd made my decision… I deserved that and he deserved that… we both deserved this punishment.
Until this day, I still can't believe I had done this… and the worse part is we weren't fully out of it, both of us, we were aware of our actions… yes, our minds were clouded and we were drunk and high, but we knew what we were doing… we knew we were cheating…
"Miley, stop,"
"Wait, here comes the funny part." This time I dropped the act looking at him with a cold face; he knew what was coming…
I and Nick both knew we were breaking Miley's heart. But we still did it.
"Stop," he whispered closing his eyes.
I ignored him as I no longer fought the tears as I let them slip down my face one after another…
We were crushing her little dream of the perfect life with her beloved one.
That night Nick cheated on Miley and I broke every best friend rule known to the world.
"Miles…"
"Isn't this just funny, Nick? I rolled on the floor laughing when I read it."
"Stop, Miley…"
"She says she was pregnant with your child."
"Stop, please,"
"Isn't that supposed to be Gabby? The girl I am raising?"
"Miles…"
That just broke hell loose, my head snapped towards him with a death glare as my hand flew in the air colliding hardly with his cheek.
"Don't fucking call me that." I screamed.
It was then that I realized that I was sobbing hardly and he was crying too. Ha, cry, baby.
"Miley, let me just-"
"How could you?" I screamed ignoring whatever bullshit he wanted to say.
"I-"
"Wasn't I good enough? Aren't I good enough, Nicolas?"
"Miley, baby, it's not like-"
"Baby? Are you still calling me that? Lying?"
"Mi, I love you." His eyes widened as I let out a humorless laugh between the sobs and tears.
"Love me? Right, if you loved me, you wouldn't have lied to me, if you loved me, you wouldn't have had a kid with some other… and acted as if we're the most perfect couple, if you loved me, you wouldn't have cheated in the first place, Nick."
"Can we just calm down and talk everything out?" he said with his tearful face.
"No, we can't, Nick." I shook my head with pure hurt, disappointment and hatred.
"But, Miley, please, it was just one time, I swear."
"One time is enough, Nick. It still resulted in a child."
"But-"
"You know what, when I found out, I was completely broken, and I couldn't believe it… I said to myself that maybe if I heard you saying you're sorry, I'd calm down, maybe when I hear you say you love me, I'd believe it like always, that maybe you didn't really mean to hurt me… but here you're saying it all, but it doesn't change anything, if anything, Nick, it's making it worse." I said as I threw the ring at him and passed him to the bedroom.
Yes, I just threw his engagement ring at him.
I came out of the room with a huge suitcase and Gabby to see him still standing there staring at the ring while the tears kept flowing down his flawless face…
I walked towards the door as he finally snapped out of it and noticed I was leaving.
"Where are you going?"
"You didn't think I'm staying here anymore, did you?"
"Miley, please just hear me out."
"There's nothing to say, Nick." I shook my head and walked one more step before looking back again, "Oh, and I'm taking Gab with me."
"You don't have to… she's not-"
"No, honey," I said sarcastically, "You don't deserve the gift of having a child." I said feeling the anger just erupt inside of me, "Neither you nor her, you both saw her as a punishment, you idiots. Gabby doesn't need you or Selena in her life, she doesn't need a drug dealer mother who betrayed her best friend or a father who was yelling at his fiancée that he is not ready for kids while her best friend is heavily pregnant with his own. She's gonna be much more fine with me."
I sobbed and turned around again reaching for the door knob as I felt a gentle touch on my arm, I froze for a while and then looked back to meet the begging big brown eyes glistening with tears.
"Don't go, I love you." He whispered to me.
I stared at his eyes for a while, I know all I could see was pure hurt and honest… he meant what he said, I know that… but I just can't let it go like that… he caused this mess.
"I honestly thought you did." I said as I opened the door and without hesitation stepped outside slamming the door behind me. I heard a thumb on the door indicating Nick punching his fist on the door as he sobbed and called my name out.
I just couldn't deal with this right now, I shook my head and left quickly with tears streaming down my face. Gabby was up, but thankfully, she wasn't crying. I didn't take my car… I just knew I can't drive right now. So, I just walked and walked until I reached Demi's place… it wasn't far, just a couple of blocks away.
I knocked on her door sobbing; it was late and I knew I was making a lot of noise, but I just couldn't help it.
Finally, the door opened revealing sleepy Demi, her eyes instantly grew wide with confusion as she saw what a mess I'd just turned into in the few hours we've been separated.
"Miley? What's wrong?" she said as she dragged me inside noticing my suitcase which just caused more confusion to add on her features.
"What happened?" she asked sitting me down on her bed . I tried speaking but the sobs were just too loud to allow me get out words.
"It's gonna be fine, Miles." She hugged me trying to calm me down.
"It's fine, Miles,"
"No, it's not." I finally managed out.
"Just relax and tell me what happened so we can think of the solution."
I nodded as I took out the diaries from my handbag and handed it to Demi opening the right page.
She shook her head looking at me, silently telling me that I didn't have to read anymore.
Well, thank God, I did. I wouldn't have known the truth if I didn't.
"Fuck!" she exclaimed gasping as she read the lines.
I only continued crying not making any movement.
"Oh, God," she had her hand over her mouth, "I'm so sorry, Miles." She hugged me tightly as I cried on her shoulders… we stayed like that for about half an hour until I finally calmed down a little.
"I can't believe they did this to me, Demi."
"This is just…"
"Horrible."
"I'm here for you, Mi,"
"You said Nick was there for me earlier…"
"I did, but, don't worry, nothing will go wrong again," she hugged me again.
"Does he know? Nick, I mean?"
I nodded, "Yeah, I left him kicking and screaming there." I rolled my tearful eyes.
"Well, he deserves that." She said amused trying to lighten up my mood a little.
"Thanks, Demi." I gave her a small smile; the biggest I could manage to have right now.
"For what?"
"For being there all the time, I've had you nuts this last interval of time."
"Are you crazy, Miley? What are friends for?" she hit my arm playfully, "Come on, go sleep right now, and I'll take over little miss here and tomorrow we'll think and talk about everything." She said pushing me to a laying position on her bed.
"Where are you sleeping?" I asked her confused.
"In the guest room… I actually have been wanting to try sleeping there for a while." She said making me chuckle. She left closing the door behind her as I closed my eyes letting one more tear fall down… but Demi was right; I needed sleep, because as soon as I closed my eyes, I drifted into dreamland, and thankfully, it didn't contain nightmares… it was actually beautiful dreams on what was supposed to take place… but right now, those dreams were million times worse than dreadful nightmares.
A/N:Here the drama just began ! :( Gabby is actually Nick's... I know a lot of you expected that, but I hoped with last chapter you thought it was just drugs involvement.. :) So, what do you think will happen next? So, now the may now everything selena has done, but what about Nick? Selena's dead but he's not. And please guys just tell me your opinions, I love reading them :D