I Do Not Own Axis Powers Hetalia. Please Review and Thank You. Ivan is Russia's Human Name. Pairing is Ivan and Toris.

Choices and Impulses

By waterrain

Maybe Good Bye

Ivan held a blade cross his wrist, he didn't press down, and simply felt the coldness of the blade. He wondered briefly if it would hurt or if it wouldn't really hurt because of the amount of vodka in his system.

"Only way to find out, da." Ivan commented simply before pressing down hard on the blade and he only felt nothing. He glanced down at how blood was coming out, the blade now covered in blood, and Ivan sighed softly.

"Maybe this is Good Bye." Ivan said to himself and he placed the blade down. He stood up, walked over the sink, and ran cold water over his wrist. His violet eyes closed as he thought about the way life was going for him. Vodka is what keeps him going and moving around. It keeps him from feeling lonely.

"After all vodka bottles can't leave you." Ivan whispered softly and he can recall the night Toris left him to go back to his homeland of Lithuania to visit family it was about two years ago. To be honest Ivan doubts that Toris will return to him.

He had let his butterfly go free and could only wait to see if his butterfly will return to him or not. Sure Toris called once a day, but Ivan felt as if he wouldn't return to him. His cell ringed and Ivan used his left hand to answer it.

"Hello."

"Ivan, I'm back. You changed the locks and I can't come in since the door is locked."

Ivan rushed to the living room and opened the front down to see Toris.

"Toris, It is good to see you." Ivan said cheerfully, he hugged the smaller male tightly, and kissed him on the lips before pulling away.

"What happened to your wrist, Ivan?" Toris asked in a worried tone and he wondered what Ivan had been doing before he had arrived.

"The blade slipped, da." Ivan commented simply and he smiled at Toris. "I'm happy that you have returned."

Toris knew that Ivan is good with cutting up food and he highly doubted that it had just 'slipped', but at the moment didn't question him about it.

"I missed you." Toris told him and he kissed Ivan's wrist that was still bleeding slightly. "I will help you take care of your wrist. We can talk afterwards, okay."

'Not good bye after all.' Ivan mentally thought, he smiled for his Toris is back, and he no longer felt empty inside for Toris has come back to him.

"I missed you too." Ivan said to him and after about five minutes. His wrist was cleaned and wrapped up.

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