Running Away to Confront It

Sasuke can't surpass his brother. He tries and tries, but he just can't do it. His brother will always be better than him, stronger than him, more worthy, likeable, popular, loved than him. Itachi (how he hates that name) has killed his entire family for him. Killed them for Sasuke. They don't exist for him anymore. They're all too enamoured with Itachi to acknowledge Sasuke's existence. So, they are dead to him. Carefully murdered by his oh-so-wonderfully kind and self-sacrificing older brother. Itachi had told him that whatever his apparent delusions were that he'd osctracised Sasuke from the family (they weren't delusions! They were real!), if Sasuke really had nothing to do with the family it was probably for the best, because the family were rotten to the core- as if that's true. Itachi just doesn't want Sasuke to get angry. Because he's always been better than Sasuke, always. So Sasuke decided that he was going to be better than him for once, prove that he's worth something. And that's when he decided that he was going to try kill his brother. But whoever he killed can't have been his brother (it was his brother), it can't have been (it was), because it was too easy, way too easy (it was Itachi), his brother would not have died so easily, he was so much better than Sasuke, it's impossible (how could it have been Itachi?). But it was, it had to have been, it looked like him. It was him. And he smiled. He smiled. Sasuke killed him, and the bastard smiled, like it was his plan to be killed all along. But how could that have been? It doesn't make sense. And Sasuke realizes that he loved his brother and why did he kill him? Why did he kill him? He was the only one of his family who acknowledged him anymore, why did he kill him? Sasuke wants to kill the person who took his brother away from him (himself) and he tries, but they keep stopping him, and he wants to kill himself, because why is he living anymore? His family finally acknowledged him, noticed him, but now they hate him, don't want anything to do with him, are horrified with him, have completely disowned him. Sasuke can't believe it. Even in death, Itachi is better than him. Even now, when Sasuke's killed him, Itachi beat him. Sasuke can't believe it, and it kills him.

Sasuke can't surpass his brother.

Patient File

Name: Sasuke Uchiha

Number: 345-664

Wing: Manic Depressive

Ward: D-12

Crime: Murder

Psychologist: Dr. K. Hatake, Dr. K. Yakushi/Dr. Orochimaru

Notes: Annoyance. He's confusing, depressing, delusional and antisocial. -KH. Sasuke-kun seems to have both a superiority and an inferiority complex, in that he beleives himself to be better than everyone, and yet highly inferior to his now deceased brother. He seems to switch between believing his brother is dead, and yet still better than him, and denying his brother is dead, saying that his brother would not have died so easily. He is extremely suicidal, and a close watch needs to be kept on him at all times. He is a complex case and needs more observation. -KY

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A/N: Okay, so it's late. But it's here. I dunno, Sasuke's was hard. But I'm content with it, even though it seems very confusing. Just to clear it up, Itachi didn't really kill his family. Sasuke says he did because he thinks the family pays more attention to Itachi than they do to him, and therefore by being so clever or whatever has successfully managed to 'kill' the family for Sasuke- no one pays any attention to Sasuke, at least in his fevered mind. Sorry; I'm not the hugest Sasuke fan. Especially when he is indirectly threatening Gaara, Temari and Kankurou. *glare*

This one is dedicated to lovesrainscent, because she begged me to somehow get Kabuto in the story. Well, there he is- and a lot more clear than Kakashi is. Yeah, Kakashi's just lost all patience with Sasuke and has foisted him off onto Kabuto and Orochimaru- largely, just has him for the group sessions now.

Please tell me what you thought. I hope you enjoyed it.