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Olivia sat in her apartment looking around. It looked much better. It felt like home again. The pictures of Brian brought back all the good memories. She was thankful they had many great memories together. Olivia missed him so much, but these memories were all she has left. And she was never going to lose them.
Olivia lay sideways on the couch rubbing her belly. She watched as Amanda folded all the baby clothes and receiving blankets and put them into the basket. SVU had been very busy for the last while, Olivia had to call Brian's mother to come stay with her for a couple weeks. Today Cragen, Nick, and Fin were setting up all the furniture in the nursery. Olivia was 9 months pregnant; she could go into labour any day now.
"You must be excited. Your baby will be here anytime now." Amanda smiled at her as she put the folded onesie into the basket.
"I am. I'm nervous to though. But mostly excited."
Amanda smiled. "I'm excited too. I'm never going to want to go to work; I'm just going to want to come see the baby."
Olivia laughed. "I am expecting to have people here all the time."
Before Amanda could respond Nick, Fin and Cragen walked out. "The nursery is finally finished." Nick sat beside Olivia's feet.
"I want to see it." Olivia started to shift to sit up.
"Liv, you're on strict bed rest."
"I don't care. I don't want the first time I see baby's bedroom to be when I come home with the baby." Olivia took Nick's hand and he pulled her up.
They all followed Olivia slowly down the hall to the nursery. Olivia opened the door and tears filled her eyes when she saw it. The rocking chair was in the far corner next to the window with a blanket draped over the back of it. The crib was along the wall directly across from the door. In the crib was a few little stuffed animals and mobile hung over top of it. The dresser was on the wall across from the crib, next to the door. It was a small room, but it was perfect.
Olivia walked in and sat on the rocking chair. "Thank you. It's perfect." She whispered.
Amanda walked in and began putting the baby clothes into the drawers. Fin put the last of the bottles and other baby supplies on the shelf above the change table beside the dresser.
Olivia pointed to the bag beside the crib, "Nick can you put that by the door for me? It's my hospital bag, I don't want to forget it." Nick nodded and grabbed the bag and left the room.
Cragen felt tears in his eyes. Olivia was getting the one thing she had always wanted; a baby. It made Cragen sad that the man Olivia loved couldn't be here with her. It hurt him to see her hurt. She was doing well since the loss of Brian. She needed to stay strong for her baby.
Olivia yawned, "Well I'm getting tired. I should try and get some sleep because I may not be getting much of it soon."
Everyone chuckled and Cragen helped Liv stand.
"So who is staying with me tonight?" Olivia still held onto Cragen's hand.
"I am babygirl." Fin smiled at her. He was happy to be able to help Olivia.
Olivia smiled. "Well then babysitter Fin could you please tuck me into bed?"
Again everyone chuckled. They all said goodnight to Liv and that the hoped the baby would come soon. They could all tell how uncomfortable she was feeling, even though she wouldn't admit it to anyone.
Olivia laid in her bed talking to Fin who was standing beside the bed.
"Liv be honest, how do you really feel?"
"Honestly my back hurts like hell. I can't lay on it, too much pain. My feet hurt and I have barely been walking. I'm so tired because I can't sleep because of my back. I just want the baby to come. I'm so uncomfortable."
"I'm sorry Liv. The baby will be here soon."
Olivia closed her eyes and nodded. "I'm going to sleep, goodnight Fin."
Fin said goodnight and walked out to the couch, falling asleep himself.
It was 2:13 am when Olivia felt the first contraction. It was small and not painful, just uncomfortable. She sat up in the bed. She didn't know whether it was the beginning of labour or just Braxton hicks contractions again. She decided to stand up to relieve the pressure off of her back.
Once she was on her feet she felt it. Her water broke. Olivia began to panic. She was nervous. She didn't know if she could do it without Brian by her side. Olivia felt another contraction and reality hit her. She was in labour.
"Fin!" she felt tears in her eyes. She couldn't tell if they were tears of happiness or because she was scared.
Fin burst through the door; obviously he had just woken up. "What's wrong?"
"I'm in labour. My water broke." Her voice shook as she spoke.
Fin's eyes widened. He took her hand and slowly led her from the room. "I'm going to drive you to the hospital. I'll call Cragen in the car." Fin picked up Olivia's hospital bag on the way out and slowly helped Olivia to the car. They stopped once for a contraction, they were beginning to be painful.
When they arrived at the hospital Olivia was put into a room. She was dilated 4 centimetres. It could be a while. Fin sat by her side and held her hand through every contraction.
The door opened and Cragen walked in with two cups of coffee. He handed one to Fin and drank the other one. Olivia was leaning back in the bed, her hair plastered to her face from sweating. Olivia leaned forward and moaned grabbing Fin's hand as another contraction began.
"Breathe Liv, breathe."
Olivia closed her eyes and cried out once it finished. She started crying. "I want to be done. I can't do this anymore."
Cragen walked up to her, "Olivia you can do this. After all this is done your baby will be here. Just think of that."
Olivia's Doctor re-entered the room. "Olivia how are you doing?" She sat down in the chair beside the foot of the bed.
"How do you think I'm doing?" She glared at the Doctor.
Her Doctor laughed. "Well I'm going to check and see if the baby will be here soon."
Cragen kissed Liv on the forehead, "Your doing great Liv. I'll be in the waiting room...waiting." He let himself out.
The Doctor checked Olivia. Olivia held Fin's hand.
"Okay, I would say we are ready to deliver the baby."
Olivia's eyes filled with tears. This was it. Before she could say anything a strong contraction ripped through her. She screamed out and squeezed Fin's hand. Fin winced but didn't say anything; he knew she was in so much pain.
Ten minutes later they were all set in the delivery room, Olivia was panting and getting tired.
"Okay on the next contraction I want you to push for ten seconds."
Olivia began to push when they contraction began. Fin and the Doctor counted to ten and Olivia fell back on the bed when they finished.
"Good girl! The head is crowning. One more big push and the head will be out."
Olivia cried out as the next contraction began, and she pushed.
"The head is out! Okay, Olivia, next contraction, push as hard as you can and your baby will be closer to being here."
Olivia cried out in pain as she pushed. Fin and the Doctor spoke encouraging words to her. Olivia didn't hear any of it. She gasped and leaned back as she felt her baby leave her.
The sounds of her baby's cries filled the room. Olivia cried as the Doctor lifted her baby onto her chest.
"It's a little girl!" The Doctor smiled.
Fin felt tears in his eyes. The Doctor allowed him to cut the umbilical cord. He sat in his chair as he watched Olivia interact with her baby girl for the first time.
"My little girl. Just what daddy wanted." Olivia stroked her daughters black hair.
"How about we weigh and get her cleaned up while you think of a name." The Doctor picked the little girl up off Olivia's chest and carried her away.
Olivia looked at Fin crying.
"She's beautiful Liv."
"Yeah. She is."
A few minutes later the Doctor walked back with the little girl swaddled in a blanket, she had a little toque on her head. The Doctor told Olivia the weight, length, and the exact time she was born. Olivia smiled and told the Doctor the name she had chosen for her baby girl. Fin smiled and told Olivia he was going to tell everyone about the birth.
He walked into the waiting room and saw many people sitting, visiting. All were anxious to hear about the birth of Olivia's baby. Cragen and Munch talked in one corner, Alex Cabot, Casey Novak, and Melinda Warner all chatted. Amanda Rollins had her head leaned against the wall, silently thinking. The one face Fin was shocked to see was Elliot Stabler. Cragen must have called him. He didn't even know Olivia and Elliot were talking again.
Fin cleared his throat, "Hey guys."
Everyone looked at Fin and practically ran over to him.
"Well?" Munch asked, he was so sure Olivia would have a boy and name him John.
"Baby girl Cassidy was born at 8:27 am on March 17th. She weighs 6 lbs and 4 ounces and is 20 inches long. She has a head full of black hair and she is the cutest most beautiful baby ever."
Cragen wiped tears from his eyes. Olivia had her baby. Elliot also wiped tears from his eyes and smiled. He was so happy that Olivia was finally a mom.
Casey asked the question everyone had been wanting to know, "What's her name?"
Fin smiled. "Olivia named her Brianne after Brian. Her middle name is Nicole. It's the name Brian loved for a girl. Brianne Nicole Cassidy."
Everyone smiled. It was a beautiful name.
"I took this picture of her and Brianne." Fin held up his phone for everyone to see, it was a picture of Brianne crying on Olivia's chest, Olivia crying at the sight of her baby girl. She was stroking her head. It was a picture that showed Brianne's first minute of life, and it was a beautiful thing.
Olivia smiled remembering Brianne's birth. Today was October 17th. Brianne was 7 months old. It was a year since Brian died.
Olivia looked at the alarm clock. It was 7:19 am. Her day should begin any second now. Just as she thought that, her daughter's baby talking filled the room from the baby monitor. Olivia smiled. Brianne had just begun "talking". Soon Brianne's chattering turned to her cries. Olivia stood up and walked down the hall to the bedroom.
Brianne was kicking her legs and crying at the top of her lungs. "Shh. Bree its ok, mommy's here." Olivia bent down and picked her daughter up, kissing her head.
Brianne didn't calm down much, "Are you hungry?"
Olivia walked to the rocking chair in the corner and breast fed Brianne. Olivia felt tears in her eyes. It was going to be a hard day. She missed Brian so much and it was hard doing this all alone. She hoped this day would soon pass.