Chapter Ten: I just want to be alone

"Buffy…Buffy snap out of it." Wes said as he tried to get Buffy to snap out of her daze. "Buffy come on snap out of it." Wes said as he tried once again.

"Wes I'm sorry, but can you leave me alone?"

"Uh yeah sure," Wes said as he got up, "I'll be out there okay?"

Buffy nodded as Wes left the room. Buffy reached across the bed for her purse and pulled out her cell phone.

"No dude seriously," Clem said as he smacked the table.

"Whatever mate you couldn't have screwed her." William said as he laughed with Greg.

"Whatever you guys weren't there." Clem said.

"Neither were you." Gunn said as they continued to laugh.

"Oh wow that was a good laugh," William said as he walked beside Clem, "don't sweat it man, we've all been there."

"Shut up Will," Clem said as he gave William the finger, "Dude you're vibrating." Clem said as he walked away.

"Hello?" William said as he answered the phone.

"William, it's Buffy."

"Buffy…Hi….um what's up?"

"Well a lot actually."

"A lot?"

"William where are you?"

"Out why?"

"Because I can barely hear you, can you go outside or something?"

"Yeah hold on," William said as he covered the speaker, "Hey guys I'll be right back."

"Is that Buffy?" Gunn asked.

"Yeah I'll be back in a second." William walked out of the bar and lifted the phone to his ear. "Sorry about that."

"Nate…you remember the night we…well you know."

"Yea…what about it?"

"We didn't use protection."

"Oh," William said. 'Shit please tell me we're in the clear,' William thought to himself as Buffy started to talk again.

"Well I went to the doctor…and…I'm pregnant."

William nearly dropped the phone at her admission.

"William, are you there?"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes Will, I went to the doctor remember."

"Shit Buffy! Shit!"

"I'm sorry Will."

"Damn it, now I'll have to tell Cordelia what happened and she'll leave me and I'll have to move to New York. Damn it!"

"What?"

"Well now I have to make changes, damn and I had everything ready. Cordelia is going to kill me."

Buffy looked at the ceiling as tears fell from her eyes. "No Will."

"What?"

"Well you weren't there before and I did fine. I think we'll be okay without you."

William got quiet and thought bout what she was saying. "Are you sure?"

"Oh my god," Buffy said as slammed her fist down on her bed.

"What?"

"You did not just ask me that after you just spent the last 2 minutes whining about how your life is going to ruined. Did you ever even consider how mine is going to be messed up after this? No you didn't. You're such an ass Will!"

"I'm sorry Buffy."

Buffy sighed, "William this is your child, and I'm telling you this now because I know how hurt you were about the twins. I want you to be in this child's life."

"Buffy I can't do that."

"Why the fuck not?"

"I'd have to tell Cordelia what happened and I can't do that."

"Oh I see how it is. You're going to make this kid your dirty little secret. Well you know what William fuck you. You go and have your perfect life with your trophy wife and I raise this child with the other two you fathered."

"Fine do what you want."

"Fuck you William." Buffy said before she hung up.

Buffy stared at the comforter as she let the phone fall to the floor. She has always known that William was a good guy who made a few wrong decisions, but she'd never known him to be so mean and cruel. She had finally made the right decision. She'd let him into her kids lives and it's been a good one. And now when she was giving him the chance to see one of his children grow up…and he refused. That hurt her more than anything else. Buffy lay back as she absorbed the knowledge that William didn't want this child. She put her hand on her stomach as she thought about the baby that was growing inside of her. "Don't worry baby we'll be fine. We don't need him at all. Everything is going to be fine."

"I just can't believe it." Willow said as she walked around the living room.

"I know, but its fine. I mean really he doesn't want a part of this then fine I'll go it alone." Buffy said as she sat in the chair watching Willow pace.

"You know I'll help, Tara and I are always here for you."

"I know that and thank you."

"Are you going to tell the twins?"

"Yeah, as soon as they finish lunch."

"Do you want me to round them up?"

"Would you?" Buffy asked at Willow nodded them walked into the kitchen. Five minutes later she walked back into the living room with the twins.

"Auntie Willow said that you wanted to tell us something momma." Hayden said as they walked over to Buffy.

"Yeah baby I do. Now you know how you are always saying that you want a little brother or sister?" Hayden and Rory nodded. "Okay well I have something to tell you. Momma is having a baby…in other words you're getting a brother or sister." Buffy said as she smiled at the twins.

"When momma when?" Rory asked.

"About 9 months from now sweets."

"Where from?" Hayden asked.

"Here," Buffy said as she touched her stomach.

"How?" They both asked.

Buffy laughed.

"Well that's something I'll tell you both about when you're a little older okay?" Willow said as she scooped up Rory.

"So do you guys want to go to the park?" Buffy asked as she scooped up Hayden.

"Let's go." Willow said as they headed out.

"William, I'm home." Cordelia said as she walked in the apartment.

"Hey baby," William said before he kissed her.

"So do you want to know what I was doing today?" Cordelia asked as she walked into the kitchen.

"Of course," William said as he walked in behind her.

"Well I want dress shopping."

"Dress shopping? For what?"

"For my wedding dress silly."

"Oh…well god you're going to need one of those."

"Well I wasn't sure at first, but since things have gotten better lately. I just figured why not."

"Yeah…so Cordelia can we talk?"

"Uh yeah sure, let's go into the living room." Cordelia said as she took his hand and walked into the other room with him.

"Have a seat." William said. "Okay now Cordelia I want to talk about Buffy and the kids."

"Oh I called her."

"You what?"

"I called Buffy."

"When?"

"Yesterday while you were out, she wasn't exactly chatty."

"What time did you call her?"

"Eleven, I was surprised she was awake. It was sort of a spur of the moment call."

"What did you two talk about?"

"Well I told her that I wanted Rory and Hayden in the wedding and she started crying and talking about hating liars and someone was scum."

"Oh,"

"But what did you want to talk about?"

"Nothing…just nothing."

"Okay then I'll start on dinner."

"Okay baby I'm gonna watch some TV."

"Okay I'll yell for you in a few." William nodded as she left the room.

"Oh god," William said as he sighed.