Author note: okay so I wanted to put it my note up here for today. Anyway I hope you enjoy this chapter it was my goal to maybe have your heart strings tugged at. Comment and tell me what you think. I really love looking at your reviews it really makes my day and keeps me writing. It's inspiration. (Oh and for the Magnus lovers don't worry he will soon join us in the story, don't worry!) One more thing Clary name started out as Clary Fairchild but when she met the Kyle's' it was changed to Clary Kyle. (NOT EDITED once again I'm too lazy)

Chapter 10: Monster You Made Me (Pop Evil)

Rushing to the front desk I quickly put my hands on it and breathed out Chris's full name.

"Sorry only parents and siblings are aloud at this time" She said.

"Please you got to let me in" I pleaded as Jace and Alec crashed into my back from running into the building.

"No I'm sorry that just can't happen. I can't let you in Ms."

"I'm his biological parent" I cried "You have to let me in" The secretary pulled up a form on her computer.

"You're Ms. Clary Kyle"

"Yes I am now let me in" She nodded then looked at the boys behind me.

"Which one is the biological father I can't have both of you go in" I was about to lie and say he wasn't there when Jace spoke up.

"I am" he said and I gasped turning around to face him. "I'm the father"

"how-"

"What room" he cut me off.

"Room 303 just down the hall and around the corner." Jace pulled my arm and we left a stunned Alec behind.

"How-how did you know?" I asked.

"So it's true, it's me" I nodded my head as we hurried along down the hall. He continued "I'm not an idiot I can put two and two together. I met a boy a week ago he had said something about not looking like his parents. I knew something was weird I didn't figure it out until I got home. He looked just like me as a kid" He sighed then stopped in the middle of the hall pushing me against the wall.

"He looked just like me Clary, with your eyes. He was five years old, five years ago we slept together then you vanished off the face of the earth. Anyways he told me his name was Chris and he also told me he had an Aunt with red hair, I had thought I saw you there but I wasn't sure. I wasn't going to make a fool of myself to you if it happened to not be you. Then over the phone in the office just now you said his name Chris short for Christopher, my middle name. That confirmed it for me, the boy in the coffee shop was my son. And I didn't even know"

"Jace I wanted to tell you" I put my hand on his arm. He shrugged it off then grabbed my arm pulling me into the room.

Chris looked wide awake his eyes flickering over the room. He had a mask on pumping air into his lungs. His eyes landed on me and he started to smile.

I rushed over to cover him in kisses.

"Listen bud I got to tell you something. It's about all of us" Maia got up and put a hand on my shoulder then nodded her head to the door way. The doctor walked in studying the charts.

"Hi, I'm Doctor Paige" She smiled taking out her stethoscope listening to his lungs. "Well at first when they brought him in we had thought he had Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary disease or COPD. Upon further simple test it turned out to be a bad Asthma attack. We have him on a breath mask and he should be fine in a couple hours. Just to make sure we want him here over night. Since he has history of lungs malfunctions we want to be positive this doesn't turn into anything worse." Doctor Paige shook our hands. "He can have as many guests as he wants now"

She looked towards Chris and smiled down at him patting his hand. "It was very nice meeting you. You were one of my best patients" She handed him a lollipop then made her way out the door.

"Thank you Doctor Paige" I called as she headed out the door.

"Jordan what happened." I asked him looking over at the couple.

"Chris was at recess and he was playing baseball with some of the other kids. He collapsed after running three bases. He couldn't breathe and struggled till he passed out. Then the ambulance came and we were called" Jordan said.

"We called you on our way here" Maia added. I looked over to Jace and looked him into his eyes. He was studying Chris and I could see the compassion for his son in his eyes. Making my decision I turned to Maia.

"Maia" I grabbed Chris's hand "I think it's time" Tears made my way to my eyes. Hers widened and she shook her head.

"No, no you can't take my baby away!" she cried.

"Maia! I'm not taking him away. But now that Jace is here he needs to know the truth" Jace stepped up and took Chris's other hand. Maia turned her head into Jordan's chest.

"Hey bud" Chris squeezed my hand then turned to me, then back to Jace.

"Honey" I called softly. His attention was back on me. "I know this is hard for you but I want you to know I love you very much" Chris's eyes watered slightly. "Maia also loves you very much and she will always be your mommy" I looked him straight into the eye. "But I am also your mommy. I was the one who carried you for nine months, and I-you came from inside of me" I stumbled to fine the right words.

"Mommy?" He rasped pointing at me. I nodded my head tears falling down my face silently. "Mommy?" he again rasped and pointed to Maia. She burst out into sobs nodding her head.

"Yea we are both mommy" I kissed his cheek.

"Who's" He took a big breath. "Daddy?" he asked. Jace looked shocked but pulled himself out of the trance he was in then kissed his forehead.

"That's me bud, I'm sorry I wasn't here for the first part of your life. But I would like to be there now" he said and rubbed his hand.

"Daddy?" He once again pointed at Jace, then Jordan. Again we nodded then Chris nodded and took his hands from me and Jace. Chris pointed at the door looking me straight in the eye.

"Leave" Chris rasped. I gasped and reached out my hand to his shoulder but he shrugged it off and turned on his side from me.

"Leave" He repeated. Jace pulled on my arm slightly tugging and I started to cry once more as I looked at Chris's back.

"Chris" I cried softly. When he didn't acknowledge me or turn to look at me I went out the door. Once I was outside Jace came out to. I leaned on the wall holding my head then slid down into a sitting position on the hospital floors. I curled my head on my knees and let out everything sobbing into my jeans.

"He doesn't want me" I sobbed. "My baby doesn't love me, he hates me. I ruined everything"

Jace joined me on the floor then put his arm around me.

"Clary-"But I cut him off.

"Don't" I pleaded. So he stayed quiet.

He pulled me into his lap and just held me as I cried into his chest.