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A/N: I just want to say that I'm really sorry for not updating for months, the time just seemed to fly by without me even realizing that it was passing. I've been kind of sad lately, and I honestly don't know why, I just have. I'm fine though so don't be worried or anything. I'm not suicidal or anything, just a little depressed, and I'll be fine. :) I just wanted to let you know so that if I don't update for a while it's not because something bad happened or that I gave up on my stories, it's just because I don't feel like updating and right now I'm trying to avoid doing things I don't feel like cause it just makes it worse. Sadly I can't avoid school, lol. :)

Anyway I wrote this chapter awhile ago, and it's actually unfinished, but I'm just going to post it as is even though there was supposed to be more to it and it's really short.

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Most of this chapter was started a while ago, so my writing may be a little different for the second half of it.

Bella nibbled on her carrot sticks as she watched Jasper cooking her dinner, fried chicken. She was a mess, but she was content, and at the time she didn't feel dead. She knew that Jasper felt more than guilty for the injuries that he had inflicted on her when they were lost in the moment, she was trying her best to convince him though, convince him that she liked it- no she loved it.

That was the only thing that she knew she loved, Jasper's hands gripping her wrists so hard they bruised, his tongue on her skin.

She didn't know anything else anymore. She had thought she loved Edward, but then she left her and she grew close to Jasper, who she began to find some very strong feelings for. But then. . .when she had found out what the vision meant, well that had just brought back so many feelings, emotions that she didn't understand.

It was hard. Knowing that the only person she had ever loved was happy with someone else.

She was pulled from her thoughts by the sound of a plate being placed softly on the table in front of her. She looked up and was met by Jasper's tentative smile. She smiled back widely and took a large bite of the steaming hot chicken, forcing herself not to wince as she moved her bruised wrists for Jasper's sake. She knew that he could feel her pain though, because he gently placed one of his cold hands over her wrist.

"I am so sorry Bella, I have no idea what I was thinking-"

"I told you Jasper, I don't care. It's not even your fault, I like it. Don't beat yourself up," Bella said, pushing his hands away to dig into her meal.

"But it is my fault, Bella, you have to see that-"

"Well I don't, so I guess that's just how it is," Bella said, putting down her fork and standing up. She took Jasper's hands in hers and and held them to her cheeks before leaning in and capturing his lips in a soft, sweet kiss. She pulled away before the temptation to turn it heated became too much, "I don't blame you for anything. You are the most amazing person that I know. Once we get through all of this. . . .no matter who we find love with, whether it's each other or Edward and Alice. . . .I want you to know that I lo- care about you. So, so, so much. You've been so kind, and I feel so horrible right now. . . ." Bella trailed off, trying not to let the agony she was feeling show in her voice.

"Bella. . ." Jasper murmured, wrapping his arms around her and holding her close to him, tracing reassuring circles on her back with his cool hand. She looked up into his eyes, the same agony she felt burned in his eyes.

"We have to find them," Bella said softly. They had been putting it off too long, it was just going to get worse.

Bella sat on the couch, watching as Jasper blurred around the house, packing some last minute items, as they weren't sure of how long they were going to be staying with the other Cullens. Jasper had already called Maria, telling her to meet them at the house at noon.

Bella and Jasper had decided to refrain from changing her for now because that would mean spending at least another week at Forks, if not more if things got out of control. The longer they stayed, the more likely it was for Charlie to get curious and stop by the house, something that they had both agreed he would do.

And of course there was the risk of Jasper being seen at the store when shopping for food for Bella.

After a while Jasper settled down on the couch next to Bella and put his arm around her.

"Try to get some sleep love, they won't be here for another hour or so," Jasper said.

Bella just nodded and snuggled up closer to Jasper, letting herself drift off into a deep sleep.

"Bella, love they're here, but you can keep sleeping if you would like and I'll carry you,"

Bella's eyes fluttered open and were greeted by the sight of Jasper's beautiful face just inches from hers.

"I'm fine. I don't want to sleep anyway," Bella said, offering Jasper a small smile before sliding off of the couch and letting Jasper take her hand as they walked over to the door.

A/N: Thanks for reading and I'm really sincerely sorry about the length. :)

~~KHC