Chap. 10 The thought of losing you
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The team let Morgan spend as much time as he needed alone with Penelope.
The following hours were spent quietly. That's when Agent Fisher spoke quietly.
"He loves her deeply, doesn't he? And it's reciprocal." He stated.
Rossi turned towards him.
"Yes they're in love with each other; it took them just some time to figure it out."
"I knew it, ever since the beginning, the looks…. And Saturday Pen and I spent the afternoon together, but I knew her mind was elsewhere… it was with him."
"She didn't want to hurt you…" JJ began.
"Oh she didn't do anything. I just hoped that since Morgan didn't say anything…. I'm ok with that. She's a great woman. He's lucky."
"Yes. We're all lucky to have her in our life."
Then Derek went out of the room, his eyes were red from crying. Hotch took a step towards him.
"I… I just need some fresh air. Please if…"
"We'll call you. Do you need some company?"
"No thank you." He whispered and left quickly.
"Do you think he will be ok?" Reid asked worried.
"Pen has just to come back and everything's going to be ok."
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When he left the hospital, Derek went straight to her place. He sat a moment on the couch remembering the good moments they had shared; and when the envy became irrepressible he went to her bedroom and climbed into her bed. He wrapped himself in her sheets. He needed to inhale her scent, with all the tubes and machines around her; he could hardly touch her hand. He stayed there for what seemed hours burying his head on her pillow. When he couldn't stand being without her in her place he went out and drove to the church.
There he prayed for her health, for her wake up. He prayed God to bring her back to him, he sworn that if she waked up and if she didn't want to talk to him, he would let her some space. He just needed her to be alive, he needed to know that she was safe.
He prayed for more than one hour, then he felt his phone vibrating in his pocket. His heart raced when he saw the ID.
He quickly went out.
"Yes Hotch." He said with a trembling voice.
"You should come back. She flat lined but they succeeded in revive her. She needs you."
"I'm coming." He replied his voice barely audible.
When he climbed into the SUV, he leaned his head on the steering wheel, tears falling freely down his cheeks. The thought of losing was just too much to bear.