Edward POV:
As if she hadn't been through enough. I loved her, left her and lied to her. I made her believe all of the things about herself that were not true. That she was unlovable, unworthy. The whole time not knowing that it was because I loved her too much to stay. I wanted her to have a normal life. As it turns out that normal life would have killed her. It would have killed me. I knew we were meant to be together. I could feel it in my bones, but we had a long way to go before we could be happy together. Before we could be carefree like the other night. It all comes down to honesty. If I had just told her that I was too dangerous and leaving for her own good. If I had only told her about Alices vision! Maybe she wouldn't be falling to pieces again. And maybe I wouldn't be regretting returning. Given the opportunity I would accept death, if it meant that she would be happy. But I wasn't lucky enough to be given that choice. She sat staring out the window. It wasn't the best view but I knew how much she envied the sun. It was in that moment that I made a choice. A choice that would change all of our lives. I watched as she envied the sun but didn't go outside because she didn't want to go anywhere without me. I watched as a smile came across her face as the weatherman predicted hot temperatures for the next few days. I walked beside her and kneeled down. "I know some great hills around here. I was thinking tomorrow we could go up and do some hiking." She put her left hand on my face and nodded. "That would be nice." I kissed her cheek and began looking for a blanket we could take tomorrow. "Edward?" "Yes Bella?" She walked over to me and held my hand. "I wish you would see how beautiful you are in the sun. It's like nothing I've ever seen before." I smiled and knew if I was human I would be blushing right about now. "I don't think so." She smirked at me and stood on her tippee toes to give me a kiss. I didn't want to stop. "Edward?" She muttered as I began to kiss her neck. "Yes?" "Did you mean what you said?" I shrugged a little not knowing exactly what she was talking about. "Which part love? Help me out here?" My hands trailed down to her waist where they stayed as she asked "About doing things my way?" I held her tight and she felt me nod while my face was buried in her neck. "Why?" I mumbled. "Just wondering." I gently picked her up and her legs wrapped around my waist. She began to kiss me with such passion that I don't know how we managed to make it to the bed. We spent the remaining hours of the night making love.
Bella POV:
The next
morning I felt him tap my shoulder. "Bella love, did you still
want to go hiking?" Of course he knew I wanted to. It was the only
time I could be outside with him and watch him be himself. "Ah
hmm" I somehow muttered. He sneaked in closer to me and pulled my
hair away from my face and gave me small kisses on my cheek. The
kisses glided lower to my neck; my shoulders and I knew I had to stop
him. "I'm up!" I said while sitting up frantically on the bed.
"Just let me have a shower and I'll be right with you." Ten
minutes later I was dressed and ready to go. "Wow that was a quick
shower!" He smiled and picked up a backpack. "Where did you get
that from?" He laughed. "Downstairs next store have a camping
store." I smiled and he picked up the blanket and I asked "How
did I miss that?" Before I knew it he was beside me holding my
hand. "Hiking isn't really your thing, I can see why you missed
it." An hour later we reached a great spot. It was secluded but
there was a great enough view of the weather and I couldn't wait
for the sun to rise properly so I can see him shine. He laid on his
back and I was on my side just watching, waiting for it. "Bella
you're making me nervous." I giggled. "It's been so long
since we've been in a forest together." I didn't want to
remember what the last time was like. I wanted to make new memories.
"So what are you studying at college?" He asked changing the
subject. "Actually I was in the works of studying to be a doctor.
And before you say anything yes I was working on the whole not being
able to stand blood thing." He laughed and touched my hair that
was hanging down on his chest. "What sort of field?" It all
seemed kinda coincidental now.
"I wanted to specialise in
paediatrics." He met my eyes. It was so strange how I was able to
feel guilty about something that I didn't do. I didn't sleep
with Jacob but I knew it hurt him the idea that I was going to if I
didn't see him. "I wish I could give you children." He said
while wrapping my hair around his finger. "I just want you." I
leaned in closer and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. I meant it.
Nothing else mattered to me now. I didn't care about medical
school. I didn't care about having kids. I didn't care about
sunlight. I only cared about him. He stopped the kiss and called
out "Charlie!" I frowned and suppressed my laughter and said
"No, it's Bella." I began to laugh when he rolled his eyes.
"No I mean Charlie doesn't know where you are, he's probably
looking for you." I smiled and tapped his nose with my finger. "I
don't live with him anymore. I live at the dorm. I only come home
on weekends or on random nights that I just feel like being at home."
He looked relieved and kissed me again. I paused before kissing him
as I felt the sun shine down on us. I watched as his beautiful face
lit up. His marble body became so defined. The diamond skin he hid
from the world was there for me to see. I smiled because at that
moment it was all so clear. I felt like I might cry, this time
because of happiness. I watched every millimetre of his face and
realised his beauty was too much for my human eyes. I closed them
and held onto him. I impatiently waited for him to kiss me again.
This time when he did he moved his body on top of mine, this time
letting me feel some of his weight.
He unbuttoned the top of my shirt and his lips found their way to my chest where he smirked. I wondered what he was thinking, that was until his hands distracted me. I couldn't believe how simple it all was, the solution to everything. How did I miss it? "Edward?" He mumbled something so I pulled his face closer to mine. "Edward?" "Yes?" He asked holding himself back by kissing me again. "I want you." He smiled. "I want you too." I shook my head. "No I mean I want you. I choose you. Everything else, it doesn't matter anymore Edward. I can't live without you, I don't want to. Edward it's time." He backed away from me and sat up. He stared at me while I began talking again. "You told me you would change me if I wanted it. Did you mean it?" He nodded. "It's time." I sat up and pulled him back to me.
