A/N: In this chapter would be violence. I just wanted to warn you all. In this chapter I am returning in Sookie's head and minds. All mistakes are mine and I am trying very hard to avoid them.
This chapter is a little bit longer then my usual chapters. It is more then 5,500 words. I hope it wouldn't be too long for you. There we go…
LIBERTY TO LOVE
Chapter 10
I turned around and gasped loudly. It can't be truth!
I wasn't alone in Eric's bed. There was man who was lying next to me. He probably heard my gasp because his hand on my stomach tightened and he pulled me near to him. Then he slowly opened his eyes and smiled sheepishly. And what a smile it was. It appeared and his whole face lightened. He looked irresistible. I couldn't say anything. I couldn't move away. I just stared at his face. My eyes moved from his mouth to his hair. They were tangled but looked perfect on him. His hair color was like mine, maybe a little bit lighter. Then my gaze wandered to his eyes. I couldn't stop myself and gasped again. His eyes slightly widened but he didn't try to move himself or me from the bed. Those eyes were like ocean. I was lost in them. They were blue and so clear that I couldn't breath. You know like you see iceberg in the middle of the ocean. It is perfect and beautiful. But you can see only small part of it.
Those eyes were like two perfect, beautiful and magnificent icebergs. I knew that what is under them probably will be my death but I couldn't stop myself. And nobody will be able to safe me. That was for sure.
I felt like everything stopped around me. There I was lying in the bed with man who I don't know and I felt like it was good. I didn't want to leave bed or look away. I wanted to touch him because my skin burned where he touched me. He didn't say anything to me and it was perfect. Silence was our ally. Air around us was ticker and it was almost difficult to breath. But reality was a bitch. And she always makes everything very complicated.
Suddenly room's door opened and I felt like someone punched me and ripped one of my four limbs.
"I don't know about what are you talking, Pamela. I didn't see him and I am sure that he isn't here." Lafayette said and walked in the room. "What the hell is going here?" he asked with a shock in his voice and I sat up. I saw his mouth and his eyes wide open. Not good. There also was standing a very pretty girl next to him. I guess her name is Pamela. Shit! Of course he has a girlfriend. I hope so that she won't be another Debbie.
"What a fuck, Eric. I left you alone for 4 hours and you are having some chick in your bed? And I can see that you are not too tired for her." Pamela said and crossed her hands. Oh fuck. It is going to be very bad. I couldn't stay here any longer. Not because I am not in my room. And even not because there is a man in the same bed with me, and his girlfriend founded us. I have to get from here because man in the same bed with me is Eric Northman. My new roommate. Probably now ex-roommate.
"Uh. I am sorry. I probably should go." I said and got out of the bed. Of course I just had to forget my robe in my room. Nice, Stackhouse. Very nice.
"Sweeth…" Lafayette started to say something to me but I didn't let him to finish.
"Please, not now." I said and looked in his eyes. He just nodded and let me go. I looked at Pamela and I tried to apologies without words because I couldn't say anything to her right now. She looked at me and after some time she moved her gaze to Eric. And I was absolutely sure that I couldn't face Eric right now. I know we didn't do anything. But I felt awkward and uncomfortable.
I left the room and started my walk of shame. Why everything is so complicated? I had to say something in that room. Hell, when I saw Eric in the same bed with me I had to leave the bed and the room. And I don't have place to live. Again! Alcide doesn't talk to me because my pride is more important then my friends. I probably destroyed Eric's relationship so he definitely would want that I move out. Lafayette probably thinks that I am too much trouble. Conclusion is that I could not live with normal people more then 2 days.
I walked downstairs and thought what I am going to do. And then I heard voice, which made me to stop and look at the person in front of me.
"I knew that everything is your fault bitch!" Debbie hissed. How she got in the house? And what is wrong with her hair? Her hair was even more ugly then the last time I saw. I just hope so that she didn't kill her hairdresser.
"I don't understand about what are talking." I said to her. I really was confused.
"Yeah, you are dumb. But not that dumb that you didn't understand about what I am talking. He is my man you slut." She said and poked with her finger in my shoulder. Fuck! She and Eric are together? I feel like I am in a black hole. Well, if Eric is the same Eric I know that wouldn't be a surprise that he have more than one girlfriend. But Debbie Pelt? For real? And what about Alcide then?
"This is misunderstanding. I didn't do anything, Debbie."
"Shut up! You can't act, so just stop. I can't believe that Alcide left me because of dumb bitch like you. I am better then you!"
"What? Alcide isn't with you anymore? And why it is my fault?" now I really felt like dumb person. I didn't understand about what she is talking. Alcide and me? Are she forgot to drink her medicines again?
"I know everything. Yesterday he said that he wants to be alone for some time. He didn't want to see me. He said that he needs space. Nobody leaves me! Nobody!"
"Ok, Debbie. And why it is my fault?" everything became very familiar. I need to be calm with her because she really is dangerous. It is like scene from movie "Misery".
"Oh he tried to hide information that you live here now. You move in and he suddenly wants space? Are you thinking I am fucking stupid? And now I have proves and you will regret that you even thought about my man. He is MINE!"
"What proves? I didn't do anything. Alcide is my roommate. That is all."
"Cha, cha, cha. You are standing here with those clothes and now are 7:30 am. I know that you slept with him. And I think that is even better. Because now he knows what he did. I am much better then you whore. I know sluts like you. I am sick even looking at you. Nobody wants you for round two. I am sure of that." She said and on her face appeared creepy smile. That isn't good at all.
"Debbie, you are delusional. I slept in Eric's room. And nothing is going between Alcide and me."
"You can only dream about Eric. You are so not his level. And I know that he is away and he doesn't allow to anybody to sleep in his room. So stop lying you ugly bitch." I had no time to argue with her. It is desperate to explain her anything. I just turned around and started to walk towards my room.
"You will not leave me here. I will show you where is your place." She said and I heard when she lifted something from the floor. And then I felt. She spilled something over me. I didn't have an opportunity to turn around and liquid now was on my hair and my back. What the fuck she is going to do now?
I turned around and looked at her. She was holding something in her hands. But it wasn't bottle with liquid. She was holding a lighter. Fuck! That means that on my hair was something inflammable. My eyes started to search a bottle with liquid. I knew that smell but I wasn't sure what it was. I spotted a bottle near her feet and it was lying on the floor. It was a bottle of turpentine. Oh, God! She wanted to burn me.
I couldn't scream for help. I couldn't move. I just looked at her and saw that she wasn't here. Yes her body was in front of me. But her mind was somewhere else. I was scared. I didn't know what to do. She was determinate to remove me from her life. Literally remove me. I caught my breath and waited. Maybe she realizes what she is doing. Only thing I still have is my hope. Hope that she will stop. Hope that someone stops her. Hope…
Suddenly front door opened and Jesus walked in. He saw me, and my eyes and right away understand that something is very wrong. Debbie turned around and spotted him too.
"Oh I would love to have some audience. Jesus, when I would finish with this whore, can you make me coffee. I want to chat to you while I wait to Alcide. He will need me after he realizes that I am perfect woman for him." Debbie said and turned her attention again to me. Jesus was in shock like me. Debbie extended her hand towards me and lighted lighter in her hand.
After that everything changed very fast. Jesus grabbed her and lighter felt from her hand. Thanks God that it felt in opposite direction from me, and the bottle with liquid. She started to scream, " I kill you bitch. It isn't over! I will find you WHORE and destroy you! HE IS MINE! I WILL KILL YOU!" she screamed and tried to escape from Jesus embrace. I was tired of her voice. But I couldn't do anything.
Suddenly I felt very heavy. I couldn't stand on my feet anymore. I felt on the ground on my knees and hugged myself. Then I felt something vet on my cheeks. Fuck, I was crying. I couldn't see well what was going around me because of those fucking tears. I promised to myself when I was still a child that I would not cry when someone could see me. And now? Not only Jesus could see me but that psycho Debbie started to laugh because I was crying. I just want to punch in her ugly face that she would shut up.
"Sookie, look at me! You need to go and have a shower. Can you stand up?" I heard Jesus asking me. I wanted to say something or go and have that stupid shower but I couldn't. I was so scared because I just kneeled on the ground. My hands didn't move. My legs were numb. I barely could breath. I have to do something. I knew that.
"Amelia" I whispered. I knew that only she could help me this moment. She would know what to do that I would start to react. I needed her.
"Ok. I can hear that someone is coming from upstairs. I will say to Lafayette that he call Amelia. She will be there as soon as possible. I promise. But now I need that you talk to me. Can you move?" Jesus asked with concern in his voice. I didn't know if I could move my head. I said Amelia's name. So I have to try. I am stronger then this. I concentrated and moved my head in the sides slightly.
Then I heard another laugh from Debbie. I couldn't see her well. But I saw her body. She was struggling in Jesus embrace. Yeah, bitch you can dream about it. I knew that Jesus is strong guy and in his job he has to hold patients, so he will be good while somebody comes to help him.
At last I heard someone on the stairs. I felt better but I started to cry more. Fuck, I hated to be victim. And I couldn't see anything again. I hope so that someone starts to speak because I hated to be in the dark.
"What the hell just happened here?" Lafayette started to shout. Oh God! I was so happy to hear his voice again.
"Not now, Lafayette. Call Amelia and then go and wake up Alcide. I will hold her but I need some help. Someone needs to pick up Sookie and get her in the shower. It is necessary to wash her body. You need to wash all turpentine. I will be with her as soon as someone will hold this psycho. We probably will need ambulance." Jesus said.
"Fuck. You said turpentine? How it got on her? And how much?" someone asked. I didn't know whose voice it was. But it was very melodic and manly voice. I could listen it forever.
"Not now, Eric. She needs to get in the shower now! Lafayette, give him your shirt. He must be covered. We don't need another problem." Jesus said. Fuck! Eric! Why me? And of course like other men in this house he has to be shirtless. Thanks God I can't see that because I would be red like tomato now. He must be very quick because after couple of seconds he was in front of me on his knees. I couldn't see anything but I perfectly could see his icy blue eyes. And now I must go with him in one shower. Can it be even worse?
"I will help you Eric." I heard woman's voice now near me. Fuck my life. It is too late to light that lighter? Now Eric's girlfriend wants to help me. Perfect. I just needed one more girlfriend who hated me. And Eric's girlfriend has a good reason to dislike me.
"Amelia" I said again. Why she isn't here with me?
"Who is Amelia?" Eric asked.
"Sweetheart she will be here very soon. But we can't wait. Do you understand?" Lafayette said to me. Yes I perfectly understand that I am in very bad position. But I really didn't want to go in one shower with Eric or his girlfriend.
"She can't talk Lafayette. Eric, just hurry up. Amelia will be soon with you and everything will be good, you know that Sookie. I will come to look at you with her. Nothing bad would happen with you again. I promise. You remember that deal is a deal?" Jesus asked me and I found some strength to nod.
"I will pick up you and carry you in your shower. Pam will help with your clothes. Everything will be fine. Do you trust me?" Eric asked looking in my eyes.
"For fucks sake, she can't talk, Eric. She barely moves! This is not the time to chitchat. You will have plenty of the time to charm her. Now start to do something." Eric's girlfriend said whose name probably is Pam. And I can bet that her arms were crossed in front of her or they were on her hips.
"Not now, Pamela!" Eric hissed and picked me from the floor. He started to go in the not official Lafayette's bathroom but then Jesus just shouted that Eric should go in Sam's bathroom. So that means that it is Sam's room again. Not mine. Now I really wanted to cry. Eric carried me in the bathroom, putted me on the cabinet and looked in my eyes.
"Yes" I said to him and saw confusion on his face appearing. Then like light bulb turned on and he smiled at me. I really like that fantastic smile. For a second I forgot everything. Debbie Pelt, that I don't have where to live and his girlfriend Pamela. Just for the second.
"Go now, Eric. Leave us alone. I will help her." Pamela said from the doorway.
"Just don't be too handsy, Pamela. I warn you." Eric said sternly.
"Of course, Eric. She is beautiful but I am not like that."
"I hope so. And you better listen to me."
"Yes master. You can go now." She said and moved from his way. Well, their relationship was very strange. Master? And handsy with me? Maybe it is good that I am not longer living in here.
"At last we are alone. So can you move or I have to undress you?" she said looking in my eyes. Well, she was kind of nice. At least for now. I tried to move but I still couldn't.
"No. I still can't lift my hands or move my legs. I am sorry. I am such a trouble. Thank you for your help." I said and someone stormed in my room. Or at my ex room.
"Sookie? Where are you?" Amelia started to shout with panic in her voice.
"We are here." Pamela said coldly.
"Oh my God! Are you all right? Why you are not in the shower? Jesus said that you have to be in the shower! Why are you not listening to him?"
"Well I will leave you alone. I will be in this room. If you need any help just call me." Pamela said and winked at me. Well, even if she has strange love relationship with Eric, I like her anyway.
"Yeah, you can wait on the Sookie's bed or chair. If I need your help I will call you." Amelia said and looked at my body like she wanted to see if I have any visible injuries.
"It is your room, Sookie? I thought it is Sam's room?" Pamela asked. Well. Great. Now she probably will become Debbie number two.
"Of course it is Sookie's room. Now please close the door. We will need some privacy." Amelia said and started to remove my clothes. Pam just raised her eyebrow but didn't say anything and left bathroom.
When my clothes were removed and I was standing in the shower I saw how nervous Amelia was. Her hands trembled and she wasn't looking at me. When my best friend is upset or has some kind of trouble she always concentrates in one thing. In this case the thing was I. Now I was able to stand by myself and I could move my hands. But it was still very difficult to remove turpentine so she had to help me.
"Amelia." I said but she was too concentrated in her new job.
"Amelia." I tried again. No reaction.
"For God's sake, Amelia Broadway, look at me!" well she heard that. She looked at me and I could see that she was crying all the time while she helped me. "Honey, what's wrong?"
"What's wrong? Sookie are you out of your mind? Some crazy chick attacked you in your house. She wanted to kill you! And now I don't know, what is going to happen next. You probably should be in the hospital and far away from there. Why I listened to Jesus." She started to ramble.
"Hey. Look at me. I am fine. Yes, she attacked me but now everything is fine. And it is just turpentine. I am not going to die or something. And Jesus will come here and he will look at my back. And then we will know if I need to go in the hospital. So just relax. If you want you can go in bedroom and talk with Pam. I am going to be fine in here alone." I saw how difficult everything was to her. She was more scared then I. I didn't joke when I said that we are like sisters. Probably like conjoined twins with only one heart.
"What? Don't be ridiculous. I won't leave you here alone. When I came in you couldn't stand by yourself. And now you want that I leave you and have some chitchat with that chick? No Sookie I don't think that you are all right if you talk nonsense." She said with determination in her face. Yeah, we were both stubborn.
"Amelia, I am good now. Please, leave me alone in here. When I finish I will call you, ok? And you can go and talk with someone else or not talk. I don't care. Just go and do something." I didn't want to be ungrateful or rude. But I really wanted some alone time.
"Ok, I will go. But I will be in your room near door in bathroom. Just call my name and I will be near you as soon as possible to be. You can be so stubborn sometimes. In those times I really don't envy to your mother."
"Yeah, same to your dad."
"What? I am not stubborn. He is like mule. And I can't help it!"
"Whatever you say, Amelia. Please shut the door." I said when she was leaving. Not stubborn. Yeah, and I have little pony under my bed then. Well I will have to wait till Amelia decides to have a baby. And I hope so that the baby will be a small copy of her or his mother. Then we will see who is stubborn.
I had my shower and after that I was able to move again like usual. I don't remember if I was so scared before. And I hope so that I won't be in the same position ever again. I am scared even to think about what happened today. I was so lucky that Jesus showed that moment. If it wasn't him I don't know where I would be right now. Probably in the hospital. Just I don't know in which floor, whit burnings or in the fridge. I probably should shut my mind and really don't think about it.
I picked my robe, which I usually wear with my pajama. But of course I left it in my bathroom yesterday. And I don't know if I should be happy or furious. Happy because I have my robe and it is very nice. My pajama probably is in trashcan and I at least have my robe. Also, now I have what to wear after my shower because I really don't want to go nude in my bedroom. There are at least two people in my room and one of them is a stranger. I should be furious because in the morning I had my shame walk or something like that. Yeah, it was my pajama but if boys agreed not to walk only with they underwear so I probably should follow that rule too. It was really a very tiny pajama. And I didn't wear my bra under my tiny top. Urg…
When I emerged from my bathroom I found Pam and Amelia in my room. Amelia was sitting on the chair in the corner of the room. I found it very unusual. She always is trying to be a star of the room and now it looked like she wanted to be invisible. Pam was lying on my bed with a huge grin on her face. Wait a minute! Is Amelia blushing?
"Why didn't you call me?" Amelia started when she saw me. Right now I really hated this side of her. I have one mother and it is too much sometimes to me. And now the second one?
"Because she is not an invalid. She perfectly fine by herself." Pam said.
"I didn't ask your opinion. You saw her before I got in here. And you still think that she is fine?"
"Amelia, just calm down a little bit. I didn't need your help but can you find me clothes to wear?" I asked for help because I really didn't need more drama today.
"I don't want to go in that closet ever again." Amelia said. So she wanted to help or not? And she sometimes acts like a child.
"My clothes are still in the boxes. You don't need to go in my closet. You will find everything in laundry room. Thank you." I said and she stood up and walked from my room.
"She is afraid to go in the closet? She is claustrophobic or something?" Pam asked when Amelia left us alone.
"It is not important right now. There was something in the closet when I moved in and now she is blowing large burble of nothing." I said and Pam just nodded with even bigger grin on her face. " I just want to say thank you. You helped so much today and I am very grateful."
"Yeah, Sookie. You probably won't be so grateful in near future but I was glad to help you." She said and looked at me. Ok, it was kind of scary. I don't know what did she meant about my gratitude but it didn't sound good. But who could blame her. She founded me in her boyfriend's bed today. And I wasn't alone. Maybe Pam won't be like Debbie. But probably I wouldn't stay for so long to see if she would be Debbie's follower.
We were silent till Amelia came back with my clothes and Jesus. She handed my clothes and sat down on the same chair again. Maybe Amelia was in shock too. It is probably not easy to see your friend like a mummy or zombie.
"Well I leave you with your doctor and that feisty friend of yours." Pam said and smirked.
"You know that I am not a doctor, Pam. You better go in the kitchen. We all are kind of hungry you know?" Jesus said and smiled.
"Not funny at all, Jesus. There won't be anything delicious. Everything that interest me is in this room." Pam said walked out of the room. Amelia just sat in the corner with her moth wide open. I couldn't believe what I heard and started to laugh.
"What was that? She like female version of Lafayette." I said and looked at Jesus who had huge grin on his face.
"Lafayette is a female version of her. Wait and you will see it." Jesus said to me. Yeah, probably not. " Now lay on the bend on your stomach and I will look at your back." I did like he said and after 5 minutes of more questions and examination I had free pass. Everything was kind of normal and I can stay home. Just for how long?
I picked my clothes and went in the bathroom again. Amelia picked underwear, blue yoga pants and big gray jumper. I put my hair in the ponytail and went back in my room. Well, now my bed and corner with a chair was empty. Jesus and Amelia were standing and whispering something near my window.
"Ok, guys, now I am here so you can start talk loudly again." I said with my hands on my hips.
"This room looks amazing. Isn't it, Jesus?" Amelia asked. Yeah, good move. For now I ignore that she changed topic even though I don't know about what they were talking.
"Uh-huh. You did nice job in here. I still could not believe that Lafayette helped you and you did everything so quickly."
"Alcide." I just said.
"What?" Amelia and Jesus both asked in the same time.
"Alcide called my brother Jason and asked for the money to buy some paint and everything else. And then he just painted everything. Closet too, so you can go in there if you want Amelia."
"Lafayette didn't say that you asked Alcide for help." Jesus said a little bit confused.
"I didn't."
"Oh" Jesus said. Yeah, join the club of confusion.
"He is still alive?" Amelia asked. Jesus mouth opened and I started to giggle.
"Of course, he is still alive. I just don't talk to him right now. I know he wanted to help me. But I hate that macho bullshit. He isn't my brother, my father or granddad. He is my friend. And friends talk to each other. Right?"
"Jesus are you sure that she is alright? Because she isn't Sookie that I know." Amelia said and Jesus was lost what is happening between us.
"I am fine. But I know that Lafayette made something delicious to eat. So I am kind of hungry. Can we go to the kitchen?
"You should stay here. I will bring something for you." Amelia said and started to walk towards the door.
"Nonsense. I am not an invalid. I want to leave this room and talk with others." Well I didn't want talk with everyone in the house. But I missed Lafayette.
"Jesus can you help me in here?" Amelia asked and pointed in me.
"Sookie, Amelia is right. You should stay here. Lay down and we will help you in everything. You probably are exhausted and want to sleep." Jesus said. I have only one thought in my head. BULLSHIT!
"You can stay here but I am going. I can see that you both should lie down and get some sleep because you are now so tired that you can't even lie properly. " I said and left them both in my room.
I was near the kitchen when they both caught up with me. Well, probably they didn't feel sleepy at all. And then we all heard the same thing when we reached kitchen's doorway.
"She will not live with us! I object it Lafayette! I said that Sam's room would be for my sister." And surprise, surprise it was Eric who expressed his feeling towards me so loudly.
"Who died and dedicated right to decide who lives here?" Amelia asked to loud and everyone turned theirs eyes to us. Lafayette smiled in a sad smile. Tray was relieved when he saw me. Alcide ignored me like I was invisible. I could see shame on his face. Pam just smiled and looked in my eyes. Yes, now I understand what did she mean when we talked in my room. Or probably former room. And Eric was angry. His eyes were on fire and lips were in the thin line. And then suddenly I saw something else. His eyes met mines and I saw an apology. WTF?
"That did last owner when he died and my brother bought this house. Right, Eric?" Pam said now with boring expression on her face, but her eyes told me that she enjoyed every minute of this situation.
Why nobody said to me that Eric is the owner of the house. Now I really have to found new place to live. And wait a minute! Pam is his sister not a girlfriend? Please, Ashton Kutcher, show up right now!
A/N: Note for those who never saw turpentine. You won't die from it except you will try to bathe in it or start drinking it. But turpentine has a couple of side effects, which aren't very pleasant. So be careful with it!
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