By: Katthiea Uraboku is Boy x boy, if you don't like please don't read thank you

This war of mine

Chapter 10: Truth harder than lies

Yuki ran into the bathroom, holding his stomach hard and coughed violently into the sink for ages. Luka thank goodness had appeared to go grab Yuki something to eat and wasn't there to worry over his practically choking lover. Yuki had remembered a lot just now; most he wishes he could forget but now remembered they would be very strong and fresh. Yuki looked into the sink he had been leaning upon, blood was spattered all over the sinks surface, he acted on instinct and ran over to close and lock the bathroom door, which he did just in time of Luka's return.

I know it won't by me long but hopefully enough time to wash away the worse of it...Luka will smell it soon though...

Yuki was thinking this as he washed the blood down the drain, knowing it would only worry Luka even more than he already was for him. Luka knocked on the door and said "Yuki is everything okay? I brought food" so Yuki replied quickly only to taste iron from his blood. "I'm okay feel free to start without me Luka I'm just washing up a little" for a second he thought this had convinced Luka everything was fine but then "Yuki I can smell blood, are you hurt?"

Darn you Luka's keen sense of smell...

"No I'm coming now...see" Yuki walked out as he spoke and smiled at Luka who despite wanting to believe looked very worried. "Ha-ha come on Luka, Do you know what Tomo made us for dinner?" Yuki asked happily.

Maybe I should say something? I mean he will find out they all will...I wish they didn't have to know but, making people forget I made that mistake once I can't control people's memories ever again...Luka will be shocked but he'd understand...plus I'll need his help...

Regia you really have no idea what you done do you?

Yuki looks over at Luka who is feeding Sodom some bread, "Luka, the truth is I have something I need to tell everyone. I remembered more about my first life and I think its best everyone knows. First I'll tell Takashiro and the Zweilts but after will you help me...tell him to?" Luka knew straight away who Yuki meant and was not too keen on the idea, of Yuki being anywhere near Regia but decided to nod anyway.

He hates the idea...but...

"Thanks Luka, this will all be worth it in the end, can you imagine the war actually over?" Yuki smiled at him and Luka pondered "No but my imagination is terrible, all I know is as long as you are there I will be content and more so" Luka answered.

What...How does he say things like that, it's...my cheeks are red...

Luka smiles at Yuki's cute reaction and holds him tight.

"If you are this irritated, you shouldn't have let the human worm free, Regia-dono" Elegy states quite clearly her disagreement with Regia's plans. "I agree, we had him, you should have killed him or at least kept him till he told you what we needed to know" Cadenza says this while lounging in a chair next to Elegy.

Rubbing his temple Regia is beginning to lose his patience, yet only Luze seems to have noticed, "All of you need to be quite, I'm thinking" Regia spoke impatiently. Regia would admit it but he was having trouble coming up with a plan, his conscience had come to greet him with a harsh punch to the gut and Regia felt confused about why he went so far and now why he felt guilty.

"Be quite? You need to start answering questions or your orders are going to be unheard Regia-dono" Elegy was not pleased with his temperament and was becoming more frustrated herself, "Why not go and get the boy again, like last time? It was so simple" She suggested but Regia did not respond.

"Are you ignoring me?!" Elegy reached out for Regia but before she could even get close Luze had took hold of her wrist, in such a strong grip she knew not to move at all. "What are you doing? Surely you wish to know what he is thinking" she asked Luze who was unfazed by her raised voice. "Regia will tell us when he wishes or it is necessary, for that reason I have chosen to follow orders, not that it should matter" Luze explains and Cadenza agrees that picking a fight though fun is currently a waste of time and effort.

"Luze...stay here, you two your dismissed" they leave without much fuss but elegy still complains a little as reaches the door. "Can I help you Regia-dono?" Luze asked with his head slightly bowed, "I'm unsure tell me Luze have you ever heard of a human myth about an untouchable human?" Luze looks confused but answers "No I haven't". "I see...Humans who believe in this myth, think that a Human with the soul of a Great deity will come down to earth and banish all evil, untouchable by all who have malice in their hearts, their souls will become instantly pure" Regia looked at Luze to see his reaction "A foolish Human story based off fake hope" Luze answers.

"Yes for years that is what I believed as well but is only now I realize how some myths are brought to life by sheer hope, humans are truly annoying" Regia expressed his last thought and said "Your dismissed Luze" he left without complaint but was curious.

There was more blood this morning, this won't be easy but I have to ask Takashiro...

Walking into Takashiro's office Yuki and Luka are the last ones to arrive, for a meeting Yuki had called himself, "Oh, I kept you waiting sorry everyone" Yuki sates as Toko gets him to sit next to her with Luka. "Its fine Yuki, you're not late we were just early, curious about what you have to say I think" Takashiro laughs a little at his own words.

"So we are all here, what can we do for you?" Takashiro asked seriously as he leaned forward a little.

Okay well there is no point in hesitating now...

"Takashiro I intend to explain completely but I will need it from you as soon as possible, Takashiro I need the Echnotch" Takashiro was still in the same place but his smile had faded a little. "Yuki if you're worried about it because you were once it's guardian have no fear it safe" Takashiro stated the obvious but Yuki shook his head "It's not that, Okay this will confuse you a lot, more than you already are but I'll do my best to explain" Yuki looked at Takashiro and at the Zweilts around the room.

"In my first life I was what humans now call Angels, as an angel it was my purpose to spread light throughout the earth along with thousands of others of my kind. We followed our purpose given buy our father or God as Humans call him to, keep humans safe and the world uncontrolled by darkness" Yuki looked around to see everyone was listening but was also confused.

"Many things happened in this first life, so much that I don't think I could tell them all but one thing that did happen was Yomi. In order to survive injures I had and not hurt anyone, I turned myself into a young newborn human, except into the Giou clan as Giou Yomi I remained in human form waiting for my soul to recover its strength" Yuki looked at Takashiro "The injures I got that night they were too much, I wouldn't survive no matter what I did so I saved Regia, Though he forgot about me being an angel"

"Wait...Regia knew?" Hotsuma asked surprised "Yes, He found out by mistake but he didn't tell anyone, he understood what it was like to be seen as different good or bad" Yuki answered. "I don't understand Yuki-Chan what does you being a...an-angel have to do with now, or the grimwore?" Toko asked completely lost.

"That time I died, my original body did die and ever since then I have had human bodies, human lives, but my soul is still the same and that means recovered it is powerful. My soul is too powerful for this body, it'll only be a matter of time but you all know what will happen, my soul will end up ripping this body apart if I don't have the Echnotch. With the Grimwore I can do what did before as Yomi human but not"

Yuki finishes explaining and Takashiro looks unsure of what to say, "I've been coughing up blood for days now, please Takashiro if I don't get the grimwore I'll die and all of this will have to go on again" He looks at Takashiro when he says it so he can tell how serious it is.

"Yuki if you have been coughing up blood you should have told me, this could be because of the infernos" the doctor said worriedly as he came near to insist on an exam. "No it's because I started to remember more about my first life as Yomi and the angel I was too. The memories their too much for a human body to handle its why god's light can't handle much pain. Where's the Echnotch Takashiro?" Yuki looked back at him despite the doctor fussing about.

"I'll get it for you; 24 hours will you be alright for that long?" Yuki was surprised that Takashiro was so willing "Yes I'll be fine Thank you" Takashiro looked over to Ibuki and said "If you would contact the main house and prepare a car, I will finish here and prepare myself" "Yes, please excuse me all" Ibuki left in a hurry.

She's probably shaken about all this not just because of me but, because of Takashiro she's worried for him...I don't think he has noticed he is so focused on what is happening...and it's not like I of all people can blame him.

"Hopefully I and Ibuki will be back by tomorrow early; if not then you'll know the Elders are making a fuss first" Yuki hugged Ibuki goodbye and looked up at Takashiro "Be careful" Takashiro smiled and said "Always"

I wonder where he went...

Yuki was looking for Luka since he realized, he was no longer around as Takashiro left.

Maybe he went to the gardens? Or his room to have a shower?

Yuki walked around the gardens where Luka and Sodom usually were but he was disappointed when he couldn't find him. "He headed towards his room, maybe in a bit of a sulk" Yuki looked over to see Sairi standing near, "A sulk, about what?" Yuki asked curiously. Sairi walked up to Yuki a looked at him as if he was trying to control the air around itself, "You of course, what else does he feel anything for?" Yuki wasn't sure whether to be embarrassed or ticked off but he made sure to say what he believed. "Its true Luka doesn't show his emotions as much as others but, it's because I'm important to him that I can tell you easily I'm not the only thing he worries about. Luka has learned to trust others, which isn't easy to do, he has had Sodom by his side for a very long time, so don't assume how he would feel about anything Sairi" Yuki finishes speaking and Sairi says "You even love him in this life so much that you would defend him over us wouldn't you?"

This question surprised Yuki, he had never thought of having to chose between the Zweilts or Luka but the fact is true that had before and he chose Luka, despite knowing was betraying the clan he was going to do it, in his previous life.

The guilt Yuki felt all of a sudden was strangely familiar...

"Why are you asking me that know? Bring up a part of my past you know I can't change any more than I already have, what do you want me to do apologise again or get down on the floor and beg? Or should I let the Elders lock me up in a room like last time? Would that make you happy Sairi?" Yuki asked this with a sarcastic smile and tears on his face, realizing what wound he had opened he stepped forward "No Yuki, I'm sorry I..." but before he could finish Yuki slapped his had away "Just leave me alone" Yuki ran back into the mansion as fast as he could wiping tears from his face.

Why...that was so long ago and yet he still hates me for choosing Luka over him...he thinks I was being selfish and he is right...I was but...he is still being selfish dragging such a thing into another life...why can't me and Luka just live in peace?

Yuki stopped running at the top of the stairs near his room, feeling sick and dizzy. He takes hold of the wall in order to balance and coughs up more blood into his hand.

I don't have time to worry about that right now; it's getting bad really quick and yet all I can do is rely on Takashiro...My soul I can feel it rejecting this human form...it's painful...

"Yuki!" Luka is looking down at him from where he leans against the wall; "Oh Luka good, I was looking for you, I thought we should talk and that you'd have questions" Yuki looks up and explains his thinking. "Not right now" Luka says surprising Yuki a little "Oh are you busy?" Yuki asks "We need to get you cleaned up" Luka leant down and picked Yuki up as usually liked he weighed nothing and carried him into Yuki's bedroom.

No... I haven't explained anything yet...it'll shock him...

"Luka wait..." but it was too late the second he put Yuki down, he pulled Yuki's shirt off to get him a clean one only to realise why Yuki wanted to speak first. Yuki sighed "They are not as bad as they look...their bruises, a human form is too small for an angel's soul unless it has something protecting it, the bruises it's just my soul trying to find room, and honestly I'm fine" Yuki explains to a shocked looking Luka. "How long will you stay fine?" Luka asks "Takashiro will still have plenty of time to spear, days Luka you don't need to worry, I feel fine despite it being a little stiff" Yuki moved his shoulders round to show his stiff movements.

Please don't make such a worried face...I really will be alright...I trust Takashiro to come back safe with the Echnotch...

"Your look worried still? If it's about the blood it's happens for the same reason. Honestly stop making that face Luka" Yuki smiles at him and puts a hand on Lukas cheek, "What else can I do?" Luka asked waiting to help Yuki in any way he can.

He doesn't have to do anything but I know that feeling, of feeling helpless to help someone you care for there's really nothing else like it...in that guess maybe I'll be greedy...

"You want to help? Then let me be greedy...I won't be able to sleep with all this going on so help me fall asleep Luka?" Yuki said this and lightly placed his lips on Luka's, for a moment he hesitated but Luka quickly placed himself above Yuki who lay flat gently on the bed. Yuki moved into Luka straight away not hesitating at all to show Luka that he is fine and that this is what he wants.

I'm being selfish but...I want him to hold me...

As if sensing Yuki's desire, Luka without asking simply smiles and begins to kiss, suck and lick the bruises on Yuki's front from his neck all the way down to his hips, "Ha-ha, not there that tickles" Yuki says when Luka glides across his hip bone "Does it?" Luka says this with a smile and glides across the same place but a little harder making arch back in order to stifle the laugh.

No fair...He totally did that on purpose...

Still with a smile on his face Luka lean into Yuki and said "You say you're the one being greedy but I'm pretty sure I'm the one getting spoiled here, not that I mind" He that kisses Yuki hard and passionately so that he forgets how he was even going to respond to Luka. Yuki slips his hands up across Luka's Torso and undoes his shirt, giving him full view of Luka's amazing body, and Yuki realized something.

He pulled away from Luka "This scar is from what Regia did? It's still around" Luka looked at a worried Yuki and smiled "Now who is worried? It should disappear within the next few days, I haven't had chance to focus on healing it" Luka said simply. "Ah then are you..." but Luka placed his lips on his again "Three months without you yes I'm more than fine for this, especially that you also want me" Yuki went a little red but decided to say what Luka wanted to hear "I love You Luka" Yuki kissed the scar from Luka's neck to chest, but was pushed down onto the bed for more kissing.

Luka and Yuki spent the night loving each other, until eventually Yuki became tired and fell asleep with Luka beside him.

Even if you give me that look Toko there's not much I can do...

"So you can't eat at all anymore? Why?" Toko asked confused and concerned about Yuki, who had stopped eating since Takashiro left. "I can't because its worse to eat than to not eat, I know your worried Toko-Chan but honestly I'm okay, I just lost some weight over the last few days and feel a little hungry now and then" Yuki explains to Toko as best he can "The thing is my soul can't last by eating human food anyway and since it's been so long since I've eaten probably I'm hungry and need energy that's all this is".

Toko nodes to show she sort of understands.

"If you don't mind me asking what does your soul or should I say angels eat then. Maybe I and Tomo can figure something out?" Tachibana asks from the corner of the room with Tomo the cook listening in, "Ha-ha about that, there is a reason I haven't said what it is but let's just go with it would hurt me to eat it now...being human I mean but thanks Tachibana"

Moreover I think all of you would be terrified to find out what Angels need to consume...

The phone rings and Tachibana answers it to find Takashiro is calling "Yuki he says he is a few streets away from the mansion, he won't be long now and he says he is sorry it took so long the elders wouldn't leave him alone about well everything that's going on" Yuki nodes and takes the phone at Tachibana's signal "Hello Takashiro you don't need to apologise, in fact I should be thanking you for going to all this trouble, I'm sure the Elders didn't want the Echnotch to leave their sight" Takashiro laughs "Yes well I was more than prepared for that and learning you have Yomi's soul means there's a chance they could gain another gatekeeper so they hand to try in the end"

"I'm not sure I'll be able to use it the way they want me to but I'll be more than healthy enough to help" Yuki smiled and then asked "Are you almost here then?" Takashiro answered "Ah...yes we're..." but is cut off by a terrible screeching sound. "Takashiro? Takashiro-san?!" He looked towards the Zweilts and the Luka; they had already made their choice.

We are coming Takashiro and Ibuki, wait for us!

So I decided to end this chapter here because the next part I want to write is quite action packed and well big ha-ha, I hope you all had a lovely holiday, see you next chapter :) xx