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Still don't own Twilight….

I apologize if my knowledge of cancer treatment is off, I thank my lucky starts that I haven't personally been though it, so I hope I don't offend anyone if I gets things a little off….

On that note, hope you enjoy!!

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BPOV

Things were going to be hectic these next few months. I found out that the cancer hasn't spread anywhere outside of my breasts, I was very thankful for that. Dr. Morris referred me to an Oncologist named Dr. Jackson and I had my first appointment with him a few days ago. He went over all of the treatment options that were available for cancer patients. I told him that I didn't want to have chemo or radiation, I wanted to have a double mastectomy. He didn't agree with it at first but after talking about it and seeing the family history of breast cancer in my family he said that the final decision was mine, and I was going to have them removed.

Don't get me wrong, I've thought about this a lot. Even before I was diagnosed I had thought about it. Breast cancer was very prominent on my mothers side. Her mom had it and so did my Aunt. The chances of me getting it were obviously very good, and so here I was, 25 years old and I have cancer.

I had to push back the promotional things for my album. The record company completely understood. They still wanted to release it even though there wouldn't be much publicity for it. I told Ben to let them know that was fine with me. I was going to stay near Forks for this, to be with the people who would help me the most throughout all of this.

Edward and I were officially a couple again. Much to Tanya's disapproval. What a bitch.

I had to go meet with the surgeon today and to see when I would have surgery. It was scheduled for 2 weeks from now. Having it set made it all seem real. I mean, I know I have cancer, but knowing that I'm going to get the girls removed, it was a little hard to swallow.

I was afraid of what Edward would think, I knew he loved my boobs, he told me quite frequently actually. I was just worried that once I had them removed he wouldn't find me attractive anymore.

The next couple of weeks were going to be horrible. I knew I had a lot of stuff to get done. I was thankful for Ben, he handled everything with the record label, they were great about everything. I mean, how could they not be right? It's not like I asked to have this horrible disease. Trust me, I would much rather be singing in smoky bars getting hit on my creepy men then have to go though this.

One night, after one of my pre-op appointments, Edward and I were in bed and I broke down. Edward wrapped his arms around me and held onto me so tightly.

"Bella, love, I know that this is really hard for you, but I want you to know that you can talk to me about anything. I want to be here for you Bella, just please know that ok?" he said whispering in my ear.

I turned over so that I was looking him in the eyes.

"I'm scared Edward. I'm so scared. I'm scared of everything. I feel that my whole life is going to be taken away from me. I try to keep a positive outlook on this, but it's so hard. I just wish I could go back to when everything was so simple, where I wasn't sick and we didn't have to worry about this."

" I know you're scared Bella, I'd be worried if you weren't. But you have to know that you will pull through this, I will be with you all the way, so will everyone else. You are not alone in this, you will never be alone in this. I love you so much Isabella Swan, words don't do justice to the feelings that I feel for you."

"Won't you miss them?"

"Them?"

"You know." I said gesturing to the girls.

"Oh. OH. Honestly? Yes, I will miss them, will I love you any less? No fucking way. You are perfect, you will be perfect. And if you feel that you want to have reconstructive surgery, I'm going to be there with you then. Come to think of it. " he said while cupping my breast, "I think you need to go up a few sizes."

"You're an ass you know that?"

"Yeah but I'm your ass." he said while kissing down my neck.

"Don't start something you can't finish Cullen."

"Who said I was stopping?"

I was spent, I couldn't form a coherent thought. I fell asleep in Edwards arms, this seemed to be a new pattern for me. Not that I was complaining.

EPOV

I couldn't believe Bella thought I would love her any less after her surgery. She was always thinking of other people. I wanted to take her away before it was time. I had spoken to her doctor and was told that as long as Bella was feeling up to it there was no travel restrictions. I wanted to do this now because I wasn't sure how she was going to be feeling after the surgery or what treatments they had planned.

I knew they said her recovery time would be weeks, but as far as treatment goes, they weren't sure if she would have to do radiation or chemo, that all depended on what they found when they went in.

I had asked Alice to help me get this together, Bella and I had been spending so much time together lately I didn't have time to get away to get things settled.

I was going to take Bella to Hawaii for a week, and be back 2 days before her surgery. What she didn't know was that she wasn't going to come back the same person. I had it all planned out, and I was praying this would go off without a hitch.

I was taking Bella to Hawaii to get married. She and I had talked about a lot of things these past few weeks and I knew that she wanted us to get married, she just didn't realized how soon.

Not only were Bella and I going, so was my family, and I even called Charlie and Renee. They said they wouldn't miss it for the world.

Alice had told me everything was set. Hotels were booked, she had a perfect dress for Bella, all I had to do now was get Bella to Hawaii. I had a feeling it wouldn't be as hard as I thought.

I had woken up before Bella so I wanted to make her breakfast. I made her favorite food and placed a single daisy on the tray and took it upstairs.

When I walked into the room, the sight before me took my breath away. She was laying on her stomach and her hair was all over the place. The sheet was laying loosely across her hips, her back was bare and I could see the rise and fall of her body as she laid there asleep.

I put the tray down on the desk and went over and placed kisses all over her back. She started to move under my lips.

"Umm, what a way to wake up." she said while turning over on her back. She sat up and kissed my lips.

"What smells so good?" She looked around the room and noticed the tray on the desk.

"You made me breakfast in bed? Oh Edward, can you get any more perfect?"

"I try love, I try. Actually. I think I may be able to. What would you say to a little get away? You know, take our mind off of things before your surgery?"

She just stared at me. Shit, she doesn't want to go. What do I do now, she wasn't saying anything.

"Bella?"

"When do we leave?"

'Tomorrow night."

"Where are we going?"

"It's a surprise."

"You know I don't like surprises."

"Tough shit, I'm not going to tell you."

"Please?" she said giving me her puppy dog eyes.

"Nope, not going to work. You'll just have to wait and see."

"You're no fun you know that?"

"That love, is where you are wrong."

"What do you mean?"

"Wouldn't you like to know."

I went over and picked up the tray off of the desk and brought it over to her. I knew she was hungry, her stomach was rumbling.

"Eat Bella, I'm going to take a shower, why don't you join me when you're done." I said while giving her a quick peck on the lips.

"If I join you now will you tell me where we're going?"

"Nope." I said while walking into the bathroom.

"Bastard."

"Hey, I heard that." I said while turning on the shower.

God, I hope this is a good idea.

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Next chap. Hawaii

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