Wow really long chapter this! I thought since it was the 10th chapter then it should be long cuz orignally I was gonna cut it in half but I changed my mind. So yeah rambling but read on and enjoy! Hopefully

It was odd for Helen to be sitting drinking tea with her 'dead' daughter and Bigfoot, she had never thought that could ever happen again but there she was. Not that it was a particularly enjoyable moment, an awkward silence hung in the air in which her companions kept shifting uncomfortably and eyeing each other suspiciously. It saddened her that they were no longer at ease with each other but understandable if she took into account the past she couldn't remember.

"I should go and find Nick," the Big Guy offered after finishing his tea, "and you two should both rest."

"Okay," Ashley agreed readily handing him her empty teacup but guiltily refused to meet his gaze.

"We'll talk again tomorrow then," Helen stated firmly with a smile that felt forced as she followed Bigfoot out of the room, leaving Ashley to sleep.

"You're not to bed are you?" her friend commented deadpan.

"I'm afraid not," Helen affirmed his observation, "I have far too much on my mind."

"Like mother, like son," he muttered taking the empty cup from her, "what do you intend to do with Ashley? She cannot stay here."

"Why not?" Helen wondered.

"She could kill us all," Bigfoot explained.

"She won't," Helen snapped defending her daughter, "I believe that her... insanity came from the same or similar creature to the energy one that changed John and if I can find away to remove it then she should return to her usual self."

"Helen..." he began giving her a look of dubitation, "I don't recall an energy being inside of Druitt or Ashley, this is another 'Kate' thing. It didn't happen."

"Kate is real," Helen said firmly, "and so is the energy being... Is John...?"

"He died," Bigfoot answered giving her a slightly apologetic look, "20 years ago. He attacked Ashley, it was self-defense... She teleported his body here, he's buried in the garden."

Helen had been expecting the possibility that he might be dead but she still felt a pang of sadness for his loss, despite everything he had done he was still her very first love. She had actually been hoping to help him, when they were done with Hollow Earth she was sure between her and Nikola they could have figured out a way to exorcise the energy elemental.

She shook her head of such thoughts, regret was not useful especially when she had so much else to deal with. What he'd told her actually made sense, if the host was dead than the creature would have needed a new one and if Ashley teleported them all… then it was likely her daughter wasn't a monster.

"The energy being and Kate are real," Helen repeated forcefully.

"A magical energy being that no one noticed," Bigfoot stated returning to looking doubtful, "and a Cabal agent Kate Freelander. That name sounds made up."

"I know but its not," Helen told him feeling slightly annoyed by his lack of belief, although if their positions were reversed she'd probably be acting the same way he was, "I'll find her. Show you that there is some truth to my memories, there must be a reason they're different to actual events."

"Sleep on it," he offered skeptically, "and figure out what to do with Ashley, no one's safe while she's here. She could snap again and even if she doesn't, if he comes for her he might kill us for protecting her."

"Figure out what to do with her? She's not a wild animal," Helen complained put off by his tone, "why are you so cold to her of all people? You've known her since she was a baby, you delivered her."

"And because I hesitated to shoot her, Patty and Will died," he explained averting his gaze sorrowfully, "I failed them. I can't fail again."

"I'm sorry," Helen muttered as he shuffled away.

Helen sighed with a mixture of frustration and depression, half the people she knew were dead and the other half seemed so different, add that to the fact that her memories seemed false and her world seemed a lot more complicated and not in a particularly good way. She still wasn't quite sure what to make of everything but was determined to find out if anything she remembered did exist.

Her gaze wandered to a stray computer sitting unused a few feet away, she approached and after a second of deliberation began a search in the DMV database for 'Kate Freelander.' Biting her lip nervously she was rewarded by a '1 result found' which she immediately clicked on, to her amazement she found that Kate did exist; the same appearance, date of birth, family, criminal record that she had had before plus the extra 21 years of data. The only difference was that she hadn't come to work at the Sanctuary like in Helen's memories.

Helen quickly discovered her address and decided there was no harm in going to check it out. She left instantly before she could talk herself out of it, it was dark by now outside and it was raining heavily. The city had changed somewhat and it took her awhile to find her way to Kate's address but find it she did, a simple apartment near dead bridge.

She wrapped her coat around herself and headed towards the building, stopping abruptly when she saw Kate talking on her cell outside the building. Helen smiled despite herself, despite having aged 21 years she still instantly recognized her friend.

"Hey Kate!" she greeted her enthusiastically but was given a blank expression in return.

"I've gotta call you back," Kate hissed quickly into the cell before shoving it in her pocket and focusing her attention wholly on Helen, "do I know you?"

"It's me," Helen offered her smile falling hopelessly at the lack of recognition,

"Helen Magnus. We used to work together."

"Err… No we didn't," Kate replied scowling, "Wait, Magnus? From the Sanctuary?"

"Yes," Helen agreed enthusiastically praying she was remembering her.

"The Cabal will pay a helluva lot for your dead body," she smirked pulling a gun and pointing it squarely at her, "any last words?"