Would You Take Me Back?
If I said I was sorry, would you take me back? I know I've been a bit of a prat, and said some stupid things, but you must know I didn't mean any of that. You mean so much to me. When I'm with you none of that stuff in the past matters anymore. When I'm with you, I feel like I'm worth something.
You gave me a chance when nobody else would; can't you do that again? Do you remember the moment we met? I was so sure you'd glare at me, or say something horrible, or just ignore me like most people do at the moment. But instead you just smiled at me, as though I were a normal human being, and not a monster.
I've never actually apologised to someone properly before, but I will apologise to you, because you're the one person who means more to me than anything else in the world. Pride and shame and fear and everything that's prevented me from apologising in the past is irrelevant compared to the chance that I might lose you.
I'm not very good at this, so I really hope you'll be kind to me. I don't know what I'll do if you're not. Oh well, in a few hours I'll know. I'm not going to say sorry now, because it's going to take every ounce of courage I possess to do it later on, to your face.
I love you.