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What if I walked without him? What if I ran without him? What if I stand without him?

I couldn't, I couldn't go on. Not without him.

What if I lived without him? What if I loved without him? What if I die without him?

No I couldn't, I couldn't go on. Not without him.

He left my sight tonight, and now I don't feel right. I can't let him out of sight. Without him I'm no one. No, not without him. He is the reason I live, and without him I can't go on.

What if I lie without him? What if I rise without him? What if I dream without him?

No I couldn't, not without him. I can't move on. I have no reason without him. He has left me grounded, and now he is gone. I'm floating, and he is not here to pull me back to earth.

Not without him.

Abby watched as Gibbs left her apartment, only leaving her and Tony in the room. He was really going on this mission, and that was the last time she was going to see him for a while. He wasn't going to be here. Not for a year. He'd left her in a state where she needed him more then ever. She didn't know if she could hold out without him; keep herself together until he was back. She didn't know what he was going to come back to. Was it going to be someone who didn't know how to live anymore? Someone who only did enough to survive, but not live? She didn't know, and now she just wanted to sleep. Sleep for days, even weeks before she woke up to face the world.

She couldn't do that though.

"Abby?" Tony asked reaching and putting a hand on her shoulder.

"He left me again..." She murmured mostly to herself. She didn't look at Tony, she didn't look at anything. Gibbs truly left her again, but this time was worse. And she had never thought that possible. She had barely survived the first time. He had always been her anchor, the one she could go to about anything. When he was gone, she felt bottled up.

Now she felt like she couldn't breath.

"Abby, calm down." Tony said as her breathing became shallower. He stepped closer to her, and she finally looked up at him. The fear in her eyes caught him off guard and a gasp was caught in his throat. This was worst then the last time, and that had been bad. Reaching for her once more he took the goth into his arms. Her sobs started and he braced himself for the future. He didn't know how long it would take Abby to get back to normal. It had taken long enough last time. Now was different, he had left her when she needed him the most. Right after one of the most scarring moments of her life. He had left. He was angry that Gibbs had accepted the mission. And he knew that Gibbs could of declined. What made him most angry, was he was going to be gone longer then the last time.

Abby started to pound on Tony's chest letting out her anger, and her angst. He tried to grab her wrists in an vain attempt to get her to stop. She just twisted out of his grasp and threw the nearest object. The picture frame's glass shattered at impact, leaving the picture inside looking like a sad remnant of what had happened. Abby continued to sob as her hands slowed. The hits became less and less. And soon she was on the floor, Tony with her.

"It's going to be okay..." Tony whispered running his hand through her hair. She sobbed quietly for a few more minutes, until it died down. Soon she was sleeping in his lap. Tony started to hum a tune he remembered from his childhood, from before his mom died.

This would be all for now.

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