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Chapter 5b ;)
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…FLASHBACK…
April 6, Confession day (The untold story…)
She laughed a little when we looked at each other and said, "Your face is so red."
"Eh?! Well yours too."
"So does this mean we're girlfriends now?"
"I-I think so…"
"Should we tell them?"
"Huh?! NO!...I mean, it's not that I don't want to, I want this just for ourselves for now."
"I understand. Either way, as long as we're together it's fi – "
She suddenly just stopped talking and started to look very worried, as if she remembered something bad.
"Mugi? What's wrong?"
She walked a few steps away from me and said, "Um…Mio-chan I…there's something you need to know. I'm sorry I didn't say anything, I was really planning to tell you everything before confessing but I got too excited when you suddenly said you love me and forgot about it. I'll understand if you get mad at me or take back everything you said."
"What are you talking about Mugi? That won't happen, whatever it is…," I said with a smile on my face while feeling very nervous. But despite that I was telling the truth.
"How do you know? You don't even know what it is…"
"Because I…," I hesitated for a bit because I'm still too shy say it, "I…lo-love you." I looked down blushing.
Mugi's face brightened up a little when I said those words. Her smile was very sweet and beautiful, especially if there's a little blush on her face that came with it. She hugged me again and said, "And I love you too…"
"S-So what is it?"
She let go and said, "The truth is…I…I'm getting married."
"…eh?" When I heard that, I felt like I just woke up from a very wonderful dream. The feeling of disappointment and hurt instantly took over.
"I'm really sorry Mio-chan…"
"T-Then you already have a f-fi…f-fia…fi-fi…," I couldn't say it.
"I…I do."
"T-Then why…why did you…? Why didn't you just reject me or something?"
"I was so happy to know you love me…I forgot. If ever I didn't, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't because I really do love you too."
"But you're getting married…"
"I know. I'm so sorry…," she started to cry, "…we just confessed to each other a few minutes ago and here I am already hurting you and making things very hard for you."
"I…I can't believe this…I-I don't…I don't know what – "
"Please Mio-chan…don't hate me," she said after taking my hand. "I love you and I want to be with you but I don't want to lie and keep this or anything from you."
"But you're engaged Mugi," I reminded her again.
"One year…"
"What?"
"Will you stay with me even for just one year?"
I stood there, still feeling hurt from what she told me but it hurt even more to see her cry like that. I wasn't mad at her, if she kept it from me then I would probably have been very mad and instead of hate I was actually a bit confused. I need to calm down and get my head straight.
"One year?"
"Yes…my marriage isn't until after graduation. I know it's just a short time but I'll take it if it means I'll have a chance to be with you. One year is better than none at all. I love you but a year is all I can give Mio-chan, if you're not all right with it just tell me honestly I'll completely understand. We'll just forget everything that's happened here."
One year or none at all, that resonated with me nonstop. "But what about your fiancé?"
"We only see each other occasionally because he's very busy…"
"Won't that be cheating?"
"I guess…it is. I…I'm probably giving you a bad impression now, huh?"
"Well…I – "
"But believe me, you're the only one I love Mio-chan and not him."
I can't believe my heart is skipping a beat at a time like this, I said to myself as I blushed from what she said. "If you don't love him then why don't you just say no to the marriage?"
"I'm sorry…I…I can't do that," she said looking away. "You see, he's a childhood friend of mine. Our parents aren't really very close with each other but they're friends. When we reached middle school and they saw us still getting along well with each other that's the time the idea of us getting married came to their minds so they declared it. I didn't want it but I couldn't say no for a number of reasons. First, I saw my parents were very happy with the idea that I'll be marrying him. They really like him, they trust him and are very attached to him – he's like a son to them. Second, if we get married it'll have a great effect in my parents' businesses. Our parents are competitors, you see. So if we get married, instead of rivals they'll become partners. And third, it's because I know that he likes me ever since we're kids. I never gave him answer yet after he confessed to me but when they decided our marriage I didn't have the chance anymore."
I see so that's why mostly because of her love for her parents, I thought to myself as I continue to listen.
"I love you so much Mio-chan but I love my parents so much too. I know I'm being too selfish right now but I really want to be with you even if it's just for a little while."
Now, after hearing everything I know that the right to do here is to say 'no' or at least give some time to think about it. It's stupid to choose to be with her and then break up after one year, that's so ridiculous. If you already know the fate of your relationship and it's not good, would you still go for it? Of course not. Plus a year worth of happiness, sadness, laughter, pain and memories with the one you love is not something you can easily let go. We'll both have a very hard time afterwards so choosing to say 'yes' would be a very bad and wrong idea. I need to do what's right…I have to…
"Okay…," I suddenly said.
"…what…?" I can understand Mugi's surprised reaction – I surprised myself too.
"Let's do it…"
She quickly took my hands and said, "R-Really?! Are you sure Mio-chan?!" tears began to build up in her eyes again.
"Yeah," I said with a nod and finally smiled at her, "I know there'll be a lot of consequences for our decision in end or even probably along the way and the right thing to do is not do it, but that doesn't feel right for me…because I…I love you too Mugi and I want to be with you too, even if it's just a little while. One year is better than none at all."
That's right, this is the path I have chosen to go to. I know it's most likely to be the wrong one but I guess I just love her too much or maybe I'm just being stupid. Either way, it will still mean we'll have the time to be together. And…it didn't feel wrong to say 'yes'.
She covered her mouth with both of her trembling hands and started to cry.
"Waah! D-Don't cry!" I started to panic and quickly reached for my pocket to get a handkerchief, "I forgot I'm still in my horse costu – "
Mugi then hugged me tight and just cried on my shoulder, "I'm so happy."
"Me too…," I said hugging her back.
"Are you really sure about this?"
"Yes…"
"There might be times that I'll have to choose him over you…," she said
"I know…I'll understand…"
"…and it'll probably be very hard and painful in the end…"
"I know…but even so I won't have any regrets."
She hugged me tighter and kept on crying.
"Now, stop crying Mugi you're going to make me cry too."
She finally laughed and said, "I'm sorry…I can't help it," before wiping her tears.
"Now that's better," I said after seeing her smile again.
"Let's make this the best year of our lives," she said happily.
"Yeah. But before anything else, there's something I want you to do."
"Sure, anything Mio-chan."
I smiled and said, "You have to tell me all about your fiancé. If you spent time with him tell me everything what you guys did."
She blinked a couple of times as she stared at me before saying, "O-Okay but are you sure you want to know all about him and everything we do? Not that we'll do more than what we plan to do."
"Yes I'm sure. I want to know what kind of a person you'll be marrying. Also, since there'll be times that you'll be alone with him my imagination might go wild if I don't know what happened. I'm sorry for demanding so much…even though I'm just – "
Mugi put her finger on my lips and said, "It's no problem. I'm the one who put you into this so I won't complain. Plus you're my girlfriend you have the right to know who I'm with and what we did. I won't hide anything from you, so don't worry okay?"
I blushed and just nodded.
"Come on. Why don't we go back? Ricchan and the others might be done with spying the other clubs."
"I'm sure they didn't learn anything."
So we got our animal heads back on and decided to keep it on to hide our reddened faces and eyes. If Ritsu sees this she definitely wouldn't let it go. We went back by the bulletin board first to see if the fliers I dropped were still there before going back to the clubroom. When we got back we both tried our best to act normal and thankfully we we're able to do it without any of them suspecting anything.
…PRESENT…
Clubroom
"So don't get mad at Mugi she told me the truth right from the start and gave me a choice. And I chose to be with her…it's my choice," I said as we all sat on our chairs.
"Then is that why you guys don't want to count and celebrate your monthsaries senpai?"
"Yes, it's because we don't want to be reminded somehow of the time we have left. But I did have fun in planning."
"So what kind of a person is this Hiragi guy?" Yui asked feeling a bit curious.
"Well, he's a nice guy – a gentleman. Very talented, fun person, smart, responsible, popular, a perfectionist…pretty much the ideal man of every girl. He's like 80% Nodoka and 20% Ritsu."
"Oh~"
"No wonder you're quite fond of him Yui-senpai," Azusa commented.
"Eh? What do you mean?"
"Your story's very romantic and all you two but don't you feel sorry for Hiragi-kun? From what you said about him, he's a great guy and I think he doesn't deserve such treatment even though he doesn't know about it," Sawako-sensei said.
"We both know that we're at in the wrong here but it's only for one year and we already talked about it. We'll be very careful not to be found out."
She sighed and crossed her arms, "You kids…I don't know what I'll do with you, unbelievable. Well if you guys understand what you're getting yourselves into then I won't say anything more. You are to take responsibility for actions."
"Mio-chan…," Mugi called still crying, "I'm really sorry…because of me...you and Ricchan are fighting again."
"It's her fault being violent and impulsive and hot-headed."
"Well Ritsu-senpai has always been the impatient kind."
"She needs to learn," I said and drank my tea that's gotten cold.
"But still Mio-chan – "
"It's fine Mugi…it's okay – "
"No it's not!" Mugi surprised us all when she raised her voice. "Stop pretending it's fine when it's not! It's not okay! I'm not okay with it! Why are you even so nice about this?! I know seeing that photo hurt you and having another fight with Ricchan made everything worse! It's my fault this happened! It's my fault for getting you into the mess! Mine! So get mad at me or something…at least cry Mio-chan…," she snapped at me.
"You're right…seeing that photo did hurt me I mean I love you after all so that's inevitable. I already know that you guys kiss but actually seeing it was a whole different level."
"Then why are you still smiling?!" Mugi pointed out.
"That's because I know the truth."
Mugi finally stopped agitating when I said that.
"What truth senpai?" Azusa asked.
"I don't know if it's just me but Mugi has some certain mannerisms when she kiss. She always holds my face or hugs me and smiles when we do it…," I said and blushed heavily; I can't believe I'm saying this to our friends. "Well it's not like I could see her smile but I can sort of feel it, you know?"
"Oh I know what you mean Mio-chan!" Yui excitedly said.
"Me too senpai."
"Eh? You and Ui kiss?!" Yui said shocked by the news.
"Uh…y-yes we d-do – "
"Since when?! Why didn't you say anything?!"
"Please let's just move on and finish this conversation. I hate the feeling that I can't relate to any of you," Sawako-sensei said irritably.
Mugi just stared at me looking very surprised, maybe she never noticed her little quirks when she kiss until I told her.
"Anyway, so when I saw that photo she's not doing it with him, she's not even holding his hand so…I think she didn't really mean that. I don't know…maybe it's just me and I could be wro – "
"You're not wrong…," Mugi suddenly corrected. "I know I feel happier when I'm kissing you but I didn't realize I have habits."
I smiled and said, "Now you know why I'm fine with it…well sort of."
"You have a lot of confidence don't you Mio-chan?" Sawako-sensei said to me then looked at us both, "Don't you feel a little guilty for the guy? I mean he's out there right now thinking that he has a perfect relationship," Sawako-sensei reminded again.
This time Mugi was the one who answered, "Right now…no."
Mugi's straightforward answer was totally caught everyone off guard, even me.
"Ha?! What happened to the kind and nice Mugi-chan that we know?!"
"Don't get me wrong sensei. Of course, there's the guilt but right now I just want to spend every day happily with Mio-chan as much as possible and don't want to think of anything else. Hiragi-kun and I will be together when we get married anyway, so I can make up for everything later for the rest of my life."
"But still – "
"I totally agree Mugi-chan," Yui said suddenly interrupting our teacher.
"Eh?"
"I can't say that I'm for it but you do have a point senpai. I mean it's just one year and as long as you guys are careful not to get caught."
"Wait you kids – "
"You won't have the freedom when you're married…you don't even have much right now so might as well do what you can before marrying," Yui commented.
"Now look here you kids – "
"Sensei, I don't expect you to understand and agree with us but I still hope that you won't come to hate us and tell other people about our relationship specifically my parents," Mugi said.
"Heck yeah I don't understand! *Sigh* I give up! Fine…do what you want. I know you two will take responsibility anyway. But that doesn't mean I'll hate you, you're my students after all. I'll do what I can to protect you."
We all got our smiles back and thanked Sawako-sensei.
"Just so you know, I hate you guys for rubbing in my face my lack of experience in love!"
"What about Ritsu-senpai?" Azusa reminded us our other problem and ignoring our teacher.
Mugi held my hand and said, "I'm really sorry Mio-chan it's my fault. I hadn't been too selfish then – "
"Do you regret it then?" I asked innocently.
"Huh? Well I – "
"Me? I don't regret anything. I chose to be with you so don't blame yourself. Don't worry about Ritsu, I'm sure things will work out with her soon like last time."
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