Author's Note: Omg, I almost forgot about this fic. ^^; but hurray only three more after this! XD I should really just finish it up shouldn't I? Karen's tricky though! :O What is there to hate about her, she's awesome! Anywho, here's chapter 10- devoted to bashing poor defenseless Nataku. T_T
.
Your head on my lap is barely moving even as you breathe and your eyes stare blankly ahead.
Is this what you wanted? Did you even know this is what would happen? Who would wish a fate like this upon their daughter? You thought you were sacrificing everything to save her, without wondering if it might not have been kinder to let her die.
And here this body before me has been robbed of its own right to a peaceful death. Of course, in a way it fits. The body you refused to let die has been paired off with a soul you marked for the same cruel fate.
I shift my knee slightly and you look up to me with a brow drawn in worry, your eyes filled with the fear of abandonment.
"I'm not going anywhere." I run my fingers through your hair soothingly as you lay your head back down, reassured, if only for the moment.
Children grow up for a reason you know. We spend so much time lamenting the loss of innocence, the loss of wonder that children seem to hold for the world without understanding what was gained in return. Love, memories, self; you've robbed your only daughter of all of these things by creating a perpetual child who now, out of fear of abandonment, is a slave to a cause he doesn't understand and will never have the age or experience to understand.
Your fingers flex slightly in your sleep, reassuring yourself that the coarse denim of my jeans is still there.
Kazuki will die anyway, you know. Just as Nataku became a slave to my will out of desperation to have a father, so he will sacrifice his life out of desperation to protect a mother.
A child doesn't belong in this dark world as it bows out of the universe.
"Kazuki." I ruffle your hair slightly and you look up at me with sleepy dream-colored eyes. "Let's go out for a bit."
We wander the town square as twilight darkens the shadows and lights the street-lamps.
"Want some soda?" I offer, buying us each a can.
You don't need to know that the soda cans are going to be used to destroy this part of town tomorrow. It's nice to see you smile shyly as you gulp down the sugary drink beside me.
You and Kazuki were used to create one entity… I wonder if when Nataku dies if your souls will be separated or remain one entwined being as they are now. I wonder if in separation Kazuki will agree with your choice to kill yourself and donate your body like that. After the hell it put her through ultimately, I hope not.
I don't even know your name, but Kazuki should hate you.