Chapter 10
They told me everything that happened, hardly skipping anything.
Not once did they say about my parents, "What about my parents?" I asked and they saddened a little. I never really knew my real parents, but now I was curious.
"Bella, I really don't think you want to know about your parents, sweetie. It's usually because to go without remembering, because once you bring back all the memories they never leave your mind." Esme said.
I clearly understood what she was saying and I knew that it I would never forget it, but that's the consequence I will have to live with to remember my parent, "I know." I said and she nodded her head and started.
"Well, we don't much about your parents but," She paused, "we know the way they... died." Esme was having a hard time just saying the words and I knew I would feel even worst once I found out what killed them. I knew they were probably dead, but by what? I didn't know, "We were actually driving to the orphanage when we heard a loud crash coming from a different street. Being Carlisle, we had to go and see what happened. There, we saw a crushed car and a big-rig truck. I stayed in the car while Edward and Carlisle went to see it; Carlisle wanted me to."
I wish I could read what was going through Esmes' mind at this time, to know if she wished she would have gotten out.
"There was two dead people in the car," She paused again and let that sink into my mind, which it really wasn't. It was like a defensive wall was up, making everything information was pushed away. I heard the words, but I couldn't make sense of them. My parents died in a crash, that's all I know.
"The truck driver was killed, too. I think he might have been intoxicated and that's why he crashed. But Edward disappeared over the bank near the car and he came up with a beautiful baby." She smiled a small smile that didn't quite reach her eyes.
I wasn't smiling back, I couldn't bring myself to it. I was with my parents when they died. I was right there with them. I lived through the crash when they died. The people that loved me, "How did I live?" I asked in a whisper. It was a good thing I couldn't cry; I'm sure there would be tears in my eyes.
"Well, you had a few cuts because you went through the glass, but it was mostly smashed by the time you went through."
I frowned and I felt my un-beating heart break. Here I am, living as a vampire with two beautiful children. I won't be able to die in a car crash,, but my parents were able to, and that's what happened. I was the one that lived out of them. Why couldn't we have all lived? I would be with my parents.
I thought of that. But I wouldn't have these great people as my family then.
I was run over by emotion. I couldn't say anything. I was trying to keep my face in a flat mask, so not to show what I was feeling, but of course I failed.
"It's okay, Hun." Esme said and walked around to hug me. She pulled me into a tight embrace and everyone in the room looked at me with pity in their eyes.
"Are you okay, mommy?" Matthew asked reaching over and touching my nose. I faked a smile for him and nodded.
"Yeah, I'm fine, Matthew." I touched his nose back and he laughed, hiding his face in Rosalie's thick blond hair.
"Do you think we could go visit them?" I asked in a whisper.
"Yes we can, Bella." Esme said.
"I mean... Me?" I wanted to go alone, to visit my parents myself. I wanted the privacy. I know they wouldn't say anything while we were there, but I would still know they were there, no matter how quiet they were.
"Of course you can." She gave me another small smile.
I stepped away from the counter. I didn't know if I should go threw the living room, where Edward was. I know he would want to come with me, but I wanted alone. I just walked through anyway and didn't meet anyone's eyes. Someone else could tell them where I'm going. I'm pretty sure Edward was paying attention to our conversation, but who knows. Maybe he was too wrapped up in what was happening in the living room.
I decided I would take Edwards Volvo and I was surprised when I found the keys already in the ignition. It was like someone knew I was going to what to go somewhere...
Alice.
I had to smile a little at our future seeing pixie. It wouldn't have been to good to go back into that house. I wouldn't have went in. I would have ran. I'm sure the people in the house that don't know what's happening would have questioned the girls and if I were to walk into there they would be looking at me with pity probably.
I started the Volvo up and pushed the button on the visor for the garage door. It raised slowly and I eased on the gas and drove up the windy driveway. I came out onto the road and drove in the way of the local cemetery.
I drove for about 5 minutes, since it was a small place, and saw the small cemetery, Forks Cemetery. I pulled to the side and got out of the car. I took the keys out of the ignition and through them on the front seat. I shut the door and looked at the headstones in front of me.
I walked through the small arch that lead into the cemetery. I walked to the far edge of the cemetery and started going through the rows, looking for Swan.
I lost hope that they weren't in this cemetery as I came upon the last row of head stones. I thought that maybe I should have asked them what cemetery they were buried in, but I was hardly able to speak. And Alice would have seen where I was going. If I was going to go to the wrong one I'm sure she would have called me to tell me. Since she didn't call I might be in the right one.
I sighed and started up the last row. I came up on the last ten and still didn't see any Swans.
That's when I saw it, the third to last one. I ran to it, a smiling gracing my lips. I stood there in front of the grave and read it, SWAN, it read across the top. In the middle it had an engraved picture of Renee and Charlie. Then they had a little girl between then and I noticed that that little girl was me. I looked towards the bottom, where the dates where. It said:
Charlie
1953 – 1992
In loving memory of the Chief of Police
That would have made him 39 years old when he died. The next on said:
Isabella
1986 – 1992
In loving memory of a great daughter, friend, niece, and granddaughter
I stared at my name and date. I never died. I never did. If I never died then why is my name on this headstone? I was taken before the anyone knew about the crash. Did they think I vanished into the woods? Or maybe I was killed by an animal? Did they ever look for me? My name shouldn't be on a headstone because I'm here, looking at it. If I was dead I wouldn't be able to see my own name on it.
I looked back at the engraved picture of the three of us. We were happy then. We were a family. All three of us were laughing.
I looked at the last name on the headstone.
Renee
1955 – 1992
In loving memory of a great women
She was only 37 when she died in that crash.
I let out a quiet sob.
I stood there for a good half an hour just staring at the grave, "Hey mom and dad." I said, speaking for the first time, "I'm still here. I never died. I bet you guys were wondering why I never joined you in heaven, aren't you? Well, after the crash these great people took me in. They aren't really people, but they still cared about me. They're actually vampires," I chuckled a little, "I had a little crush on one of them, Edward, when I was little. Mom, you would have laughed I bet. You would have found it cute. And dad, I don't know how you would feel. You would probably think it was cute, since I was only a little girl."
"I grew up with them and I had a great life with them. They're like real family to me." I paused, I felt like I was going to come to tears, only I couldn't go to tears, "I grew close to Edward. And I know you guys would like him. He's really sweet and caring. He is a real gentleman. But I guess they all are since they're so old. Dad, you would have approved of him, I know it. Mom, you would have loved him too."
I know I wasn't to organized with my explanation, but I didn't care and I knew they wouldn't care either. I was talking to my parents, that's all that matters. I know that they can hear me and they are listening, where ever they are. I might not be able to hear them, but I don't need to hear them. I know enough, I know they loved me. That's all I need to know.
"The family is great overall. Carlisle is so caring and he's the doctor," I chuckled again, "I needed that when I was human." I could picture them laughing and nodding in agreement, "And Esme, oh mom, you and her would have gotten along so well. She's motherly, caring, she's everything a mother can be. Then there's Emmett. He's a big guy, but don't let his size fool you; he's a big teddy bear. Then he is with Rosalie. She..." I was lost a words to describe her, "Well, she is pretty, very pretty. Um, she can be mean, but then she can also be nice. There's Alice and I'm pretty close to her. She's smaller then me and has spiky hair. She's hyper and loves to shop. She's with Jasper. He's quiet usually. He's nice though. Then there is Edward. I could sit here all day and tell you about him, but I'm not going to do that."
I looked up in the sky. The sun was starting to sweep the horizon, so I thought it would be a good time to leave.
I knelt down on the ground a looked at the headstone. I spoke to it like I was speaking to my mom and dad, "I'll be back soon." I looked at the empty spot on the ground in front of the stone, "And I will bring flowers to plant. I miss you guy." I kissed my hand and rested it on the headstone for a moment, "I love you."
I stood up and slowly walked back to the car.
I opened the door and grabbed the keys, then I sat down and closed the door. I sat there for about five minutes, just thinking over what happened today. I shook my head and started up the car. I drove back home and pulled the Volvo into the garage.
I took a deep breath before getting out of the car and going into the house.
I opened the door and I was surprised there was no one in the living room. I walked in and shut the door. There was no noise in the house, not even the heartbeats of my beautiful kids.
That's what I didn't tell them! I forgot to tell mom and dad about my kids. I sighed, next time.
I walked around the house, listening.
"Ahh!" I heard and ran to the window. There they were. Everyone was outside. I went over to the door and walked outside. I smiled when they came into view and I ran over to Edward, who back was facing me, and leaped onto his back.
"Miss me?" I asked and kissed his cheek.
"Of course I did, love." He said and smiled, but didn't ask for any information. I stayed on his back and watched at Emmett ran around with Renesmee on his shoulders and Matthew was on Jasper's. I sort of seemed like they were playing a version of tag. I just watched and enjoyed as my babies had fun.
I kept thinking about my parents too. I know I would; It would always be in the back of my mind.
I got off of Edwards back and sat on the ground, still watching my kids. Soon after that Matthew spotted me and started wiggling on top of Jasper's shoulders.
"Mommy, mommy!" Matthew yelled, "Wet me down, Japer." He said in his baby talk. His shoulders and sat him on the ground. Matthew ran towards me, but he caught his foot on a small rock and fell towards the ground. Everyone ran towards him to try and catch him, but he ended up in my lap anyway.
He looked up at me a laughed, "You're just like me," I said and kissed his head.
"Where did wou go, mommy?" Matthew said looking at me.
"I went to see someone." I said.
"Will I get to see the someone?"
I shrugged, "I don't know."
He didn't say much else. He just snuggled into me and watched Emmett run around with Renesmee still.
I think we stayed out for another half an hour and that's when I noticed that Matthew fell asleep. I cradled him in my arms and stood up, "I'm going to go upstairs and tuck him in." I whispered to Edward and he nodded. I started for the house and Edward followed.
He opened the door for me and I walked in. We went to the living room and headed up the big staircase. They had there separate rooms here, but they are both next to Edwards old room, one on each side. Edward opened the left door and I walked in. I didn't bother turning anything on. I just sat him in his bed and took off his shoes, "Good night, Matthew. Love you." I kissed his forehead and so did Edward.
We closed the door and went back outside. I walked up to Emmett and he stopped running; First time in the last 30 minutes, "Good night Renesmee. We're going home." I said and kissed me hand and put it on her leg.
"Good night sweetie." Edward said, smiling.
"Bye mommy! Bye daddy!" She yelled.
"Have fun getting her to sleep." I said to Carlisle and Esme and they shrugged.
"We have all night." Esme said and winked.
I laughed and they waved good bye to everyone. We intertwined our hands and ran home through the woods.
All righty! How was that! Age 6 in next few chapters! :) Review!