Nope twilight is so not mine

A/N OMG I am so sorry u guys that I have not updated in such a long time I have been so busy and yes I know you guys hate me but I am sure it is not as much as I hate myself. And if there is anyone out there that thinks that I am not going any were with this story then you're so wrong cause it is going to get so dramatic and all of that. Well I should just shut up I know you guys want to hear the story so here it is enjoy.

BPOV

It has been exactly 3 weeks since me and Edward stayed up all night. And yes Edward and I are dating now.

He has taken me some were every day after school it varies from the movies to the beach then dinner and all of that he is the best boyfriend I could ever ask for.

I am surprised at how cool the Cullen's have been since I moved here. I am just finishing the last of my makeup I am doing it the way Alice taught me.

Flash back

"Bella you have to let me do your make up today" Alice said

"Alice I can do it don't worry about it" I told her I was kind of scared of what she had in mind.

"Nonsense Bella I know a way to really bring out your eyes and I know that Edward will like it" she gave me the look when she said Edward.

I sighed "fine"

End of flash back

I went down stairs and sat at the table Esme had made so much pancakes I don't know how she expects us to eat them all but oh well they do look really good. Everyone was sitting at the table.

I was sitting next to Edward like I always do. I don't know where it came from but suddenly the day of my mother's death hit me I like a car.

All the pain that I felt that day it was like I was feeling it all now. I did not even take one bite of my food. I caught the tear that had trailed down the left side of my cheek I tried to hide it by resting my elbow on the table and the side of my face in my hand.

I could not take it I don't know why this was happening this was really hitting me hard.

I put my right hand under the table on top of my knee I curled it in to a fist I was closing my hand so hard that it started to hurt but not as bad as the pain I was feeling on the inside.

I felt Edwards hand rubbing mine that was under the table. Soon my hand loosened up and now we were holding hands and resting them in top of my leg.

I looked up at him he was looking at me his face was full of shock, sadness, and understanding.

I got up from the table avoiding everyone's eyes I quickly walked away I did not even look behind me; I could feel all of their stares burning into my back.

I went to my room locked my door and turned my music up to 20 I know I promised Alice that I would keep it down but, I felt like I needed it to be this loud when it is this loud since I can't hear anything else it is like all my problems melt away.

I was listening to the song by secret handshake the one called all for you. (I hope you listen 2 that song cuz it is so cool I no u will love it).

I looked at my clock I did not even have to leave for school until 40 minutes. I went in my bathroom I looked in the mirror I was hideous my makeup had smeared all the way down my face.

I washed all of it off and tried again. When I was done it did not look like I had been crying. I still had 30 minutes left so I just lay on my bed.

My IPod just went down the list of secret handshake's songs the one playing now was I wish.

I guess now since I have 15 minutes left I should go and face the world. I opened my door Edward was sitting on the floor learning on is bedroom door.

"Bells" he said while standing up "don't worry I am fine sorry about that".

He came into my room he used his body to push me up against the door closing it in the process.

I was standing there with my back pressed to the door and his chest pressing up to mine. His elbows were leaning on the door on both sides of my head. My hands were just at my sides because I did not expect that.

"Bella I was so worried about you are you ok what you want me to do" he said in a rush I really had to listen to catch it all.

I did not even get a word in because he began again "Oh Bella I" but cut him off with my lips.

At first he did not respond I had surprised him. But then he began kissing me back with such love and passion. I poured every bit of love I had for him into that kiss.

"Isabella…" he whispered, pulling back only far enough to gaze into my eyes. "I love you. I've loved you from the first moment I saw you" His hand wound into my hair, the other still lingering on my cheek.

"I love you" I said Wrapping my arms around him, I wound my hands into his soft hair, and poured every unspoken word trapped within me into a kiss that lit the world on fire.

"As much as I would love to not stop I am sorry to say we have to go to school" he said pulling away his face full of much sadness.

"Oh yah duh so is Alice waiting for us" I said probably looking just as sad as him.

"No Jasper came and got her about um…..15 ago" he said while looking over at my alarm clock.

We made it to his car luckily not running into any of Edward's parents. The drive to school was a comfortable silence.

I am starting to like his fast driving we always get to school before it starts no matter how late we leave.

We got out of his car he came over to my side. I leaned my back up against his car. He was standing in front of me but not quite touching.

"So are you going to tell me about this morning "he said getting a sad face while remembering. "Oh yah I am so sorry again I just I don't know what happened it was like one second it was fine then the next then………… my…….. mom………" I said looking down taking a deep breath.

He pulled my chin up so I would look at him "Bella I am so sorry" he said getting sadder. "Don't worry about it you always know how to cheer me up" I said winking at him.

He started to kiss me again but not with as much force like this morning. Before we could get really into it the bell rang.

He sighed "well I guess we got to go" he said licking his lips. I kissed him one more time "okay baby" I said he smiled at that.

He started walking me to class I did not notice until now that almost everyone in the parking lot was looking at me even Alice oh crap.

Well there it was hope you enjoy oh and

sorry it was not that long

you guys should check out those songs

Review if you feel like it.

-Rose