If you're expecting the next chapter I'm sorry and just so you know no I'm not entering another hiatus.
I'm just going to say it sometimes it's hard to live your life. It's hard to keep a smile after everything life throws at you. It's hard to stay positive at times. For me that is an understatement. I'm sick and tired of going though this almost every single month. Every month I keep thinking everything is going to get better. I try to live my life. I keep thinking that nothing can get worse. Tonight I was proven wrong. Things got worse. Like like time I'm not going to say what happen but things did got worse. I might go and say I'm fine or nothing I can't handle but I would be lying. I'm not. It's..hard. I keep thinking why? Why is this happening to me? What did we go to deserve this? I'm seriously questioning my life at the moment. I don't know what's going to happen to me or my family in the coming weeks. I'm scared really. Nobody and I mean Nobody should be going though this in their life. Nobody should be experiencing what I'm going though. Nobody should feel this negativity that my family face. Especially during this time of the year. A month and holiday where family should be together and be happy together. A time to be happy to be alive. Sadly I don't know if we're going to experience that this year. The future is uncertain for me. Physically I'm okay but mentally I'm in pain.
Now I'm bet you're wondering why I'm saying this? Haven't you done this enough times? Is it for pity? No. I feel like I should be saying this. I should be saying no matter how hard life is for you, even if you're hurt or even uncertain of what's to come. Don't give up. You have others to help support you and help carry you though dark times.
For a fun fact I'm someone who worry about someone other safety before myself. Why am I saying this? Well it's because for what I'm going to say next.
I hope you all stay safe and I hope none of you would ever EVER go though the things I'm experiencing.
Goodnight and see ya later
~ShadowSelfCyber
