I apologize for any lame mistakes. I am VERY tired right now and I'm doing everything I can not to fall asleep over here. I just had to write this awesome chappie for y'all. So, I hope y'all enjoy. Oh, just a reminder of something: some things in my chapters will be happening in the previous chapters. And a lot of things are happening at the same time. For example, Joey, Mokuba and Kaiba's scene and Yami, Bakura, and the other's scene..all happening at the same time. Just wanted to make that clear. Also, we get a new POV this time around. Now then, enjoy the chappie!
Endlessly:
I could love you endlessly, I could fall in love with you and we could keep a miracle alive. Every time I look in your eyes, I get lost inside of your soul. What are you doing to me? Don't you know that I hate you? Don't you want my blood on your hands? Don't you want me to scream? Don't you realize that it's too late to bring me back life? I'm already further than death. I'm drowning in my desire for you and my need to kill you. I want my hands covered in your blood, I want your skin underneath my fingertips I want you to reach out and touch me, I want you to burn me alive with your beautiful eyes. I want to hear your voice when I go to bed at night, I want to lie next to you and watch the world go by. I want to end you for good, I want to make you suffer, I want to see the look in your eyes when you look up at me when I hold the knife above your heart. I want you to know that any claims of hope you had of us is nothing but fantasy we'll never have. I want you to be the one that kills me, I want my blood on your hands.. I want you to end me I want to feel your passion. I want to feel your soul wrapping around mine. I I want to know if you feel this too. I want to know if I can kill you now. I want to feel you underneath me I want to feel something besides this loneliness I feel inside. I want to bring the demon out of you.
I want to know if it hurts when I cut you up inside. I want to know if you really hate me or if I really hate you. I want to make me scream, I want to feel the power within me grow. I want you to knock me out, I want you to defeat me. I want something so much more from you than I could ever get. I want you to bleed, I want you to scream. I need you to know you're driving me crazy. I need you to know my soul burns passionately for you every time you give me that look I think I'm going to lose my mind. I want you dead, I want your soul to scream, to earn itself to me. I need you to know this isn't a game anymore. And what would you think if I told you that loved you this whole time? What would you say if I told you I never wanted to hate you, that I never loved you at all? What if I was playing with your mind?
What if I was lying right now? What if I told it was too personal to tell you how I felt about you? What if I told you that everything you've done to me was nothing more than just a wicked fantasies you dreamt of? What if I can't take it back? What if I don't want to? What if everything I said wasn't a lie? What if I tried to bring you back? What if I really did love you? Would you love me back, even though you think of me as a fool? Am I fool to fall in love with you? What if I told you that loving you is so impossible, it's not reality. I couldn't take it anymore. You burn me alive, I'd give myself to you if I could.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh. If I did, then Yugioh would have ended with Bakura and Yami admitting their undying love for one another and Seto would have pulled Joey into a kiss to shut him up because Puppy and Darkshipping rock!
Warnings: My usual, y'all know what that means, but for those of you who happen to be new to my awesomeness, it means there's lemony goodness!
Summary:
Moments away from destroying Zorc, Yami hesitates, asking Horakhty if she can set Bakura free. She agrees, telling Yami that in order for him to pass into the afterlife, he must break his enemy of the darkness, and he only as a year to do so.
Chapter Ten: Indifference
[Mokuba's POV]:
Seto and I invited Joey out to lunch. At first, he was reluctant to go because he felt undressed, but I convinced him of it. Besides, if someone said something to him, Seto would say something. Or I would anyways.
I tried to talk to Joey about Bakura. I haven't seen him since he woke up. Seto says I shouldn't worry myself over the thief, but for some reason I can't help myself. I feel like I need to worry about him. I'm not sure why, maybe it's because I care for everyone. Ever since we-Seto and I-were forced into the orphanage after our parents died, I've always wished the people around me would have a better life than I did.
I'm not saying I had the worst life in the world. I had Seto, and we had a lot of fun. But, we grew up without parents under the rule of Gozaburo Kaiba. He was ruthless and merciless to my brother. He never tried anything with me, he'd yell at me sometimes, but Seto would intervene and then he'd get beaten.
I know he did more to Seto though. Although, my brother has never mentioned anything about it. You can see it in his eyes. I see that look in Bakura's eyes too. Maybe that's why I want to help Bakura because he reminds me so much of Nii-sama. I don't know what Bakura has gone through, but I know it has to be something bad. I feel like I have to help Yami help him in some way. I'm just not sure how I can. I mean Bakura isn't someone one messes with.
Unlike Seto, I've always believed the things Yami, Ishizu, Marik, Mariku, had told us. About the Shadow Games and how Yami was a 5,000 year old Egyptian Pharaoh. According to Yami, Bakura was a tomb robber and called himself 'The King of Thieves'. Kinda strange title. I mean why would anyone want to be king of stealing? Then again, Bakura's always been strange to me.
Then there's that whole Hikari/Yami mess. Mariku is no longer here, being obliterated by Yami. So that leaves two pairs: Yami and Yugi. And Ryou and Bakura. Yami and Yugi are extremely close. They've always shared a close bond with one another helping each other in every way they could. This is the reason why they're unbeatable. Both of them are amazing at games to begin with and, when working together, they're unbeatable.
Unlike Yami and Yugi, Bakura took over Ryou's body against his will. I could always tell the difference between them even when no one else could. Bakura is good at hiding things, but he can't hide that look in his eyes, not from me at least. Not when I see it everyday.
I look up at Seto, he's chewing his food slowly. While Joey's scraffing his down.
"Must you eat like a pig?" Seto nearly gags.
Joey swallows his food. "It's just so good…" he exclaims picking up some more food and eating it.
I laugh. "I'm glad you're enjoying your food Joey."
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[Yami's POV]:
I walk downstairs to where Yugi, Tristan, Duke, and Anzu are in the living room.
"That he liked it," Anzu says.
"I liked what?" I ask making everyone nearly jump out of their skin.
"Y-Yami when did you come down?" Yugi stutters.
"Not long ago." I reply. "What's this this talk about me liking something?"
My friends exchange glances. I sit down on the couch.
"When did you get back Anzu?" I ask changing the subject seeing as how no one is going to give me any answers. Not that I'm expecting them to honestly. I think I know what they were talking about. They're right, I did enjoy that kiss. A little too much.
"About an hour ago," she responses.
I nod. 'Did you have fun?"
"I sure did! My dance instructor said I'm the best in the class!" Anzu beams.
"You're definitely going to get accepted into dance school in New York City." Yugi says.
Anzu looks at my Hikari, beaming with pride. "Thanks so much Yugi!"
"So what do you guys want to do? I'm bored." Tristan yawns, stretching.
"Well, we could always play 'Uno'" Anzu says thoughtfully.
"I've never played that game." I admit.
"Well then by all means!" Yugi exclaims jumping up. He goes to a room where Mr. Mouto keeps all of his games. He comes back a few moments later with a deck of cards.
"We should sit on the floor in a circle." Yugi says. We obey. "Alright, besides Yami, everyone else is familiar with the rules of 'Uno' right?"
Everyone nods.
"Good, okay basically what happens is that we start with five cards each. The person that goes first will lay a card down. The card will have a colour and a number. We take turns either trying to match the number or colour. If the number is different than the card's colour, then we have to switch to that colour. The point of the game is to get one card in your hand. When do you that, you say 'Uno' and win the game. If you don't have the colours or any numbers to match the card in the pile, you have to draw from the deck until you do." Yugi explains.
"Alright, sounds simple enough." I say.
Yugi deals the cards out placing a 'red three' down. I look at my cards. Luckily, I have a few reds. I place one down.
"Dammit," Duke mutters grabbing some cards. He smirks, setting a 'wild' card down.
"Oh dammit! I knew I was forgetting something," Yugi laughs nervously. "The card that Duke just set down is called a 'Wild' card. Basically what it does is it allows the person who laid it down to change the colours of the cards to any colour they choose."
"Exactly, and I'm changing it to green." Duke says triumpantly.
"It's back to red now," Anzu says placing a red 7 down.
I must admit, this game is a lot of fun. Every time I think I've won, someone throws down a different colour and I'm forced to draw more cards.
"Where's the mutt?" I hear Bakura's voice sneer. It causes me to freeze. I look up and there he is standing in the living room with Marik next to him.
"Why do you care?" Tristan growls.
"Hey, I was just asking a question. You don't need to get so hositle." He says sitting on the couch. "By the way, you should really lay down that wild card. Make sure you turn it to green."
Tristan gives Bakura an inquiringly look but obeys. Everyone else groans in frustration.
"I don't have any greens!" Yugi exclaims with a pout, drawing more cards.
I throw a green card down.
"Figures you'd have one." Bakura smirks.
"Is there a reason you're bothering us?" Duke snaps drawing some cards from the card deck.
"Nope, just bored." Bakura says.
There's more to it than just that. He's up to something. The game is won by Yugi.
"I won! he cheers.
"Congratulations Aibou." I say, smiling.
"Why do you call your Hikari such a stupid name?" Bakura asks.
"Because you and I are partners. He's my Hikari." I reply.
"He's not your Hikari anymore. We're not bound to the items." Bakura points out.
"That's true," I concur, "but I still consider Yugi my Hikari because he is the other half of my spirit just as Ryou is of yours."
"That weakling could never be half of me!" Bakura hisses.
"Ryou is not weak!" Yugi exclaims..
"Then why isn't he here?" Bakura asks.
No one says anything. What are we supposed to say? Bakura can read anyone like a book. He's always been good about things like that. I guess you'd have to be living the life he did.
"Exactly," Bakura says, "he's afraid of me."
"We're not going to let you hurt him." Duke snarls.
"Now why would I waste my effort on such nonsense knowing I'm going to win?" Bakura laughs."Now then, Aibou." he says in a mockingly sweet tone that makes my skin crawl. "Why don't you and I have a duel?"
"Why should I duel you?" I ask.
"Yeah he's just going to kick your ass." Tristan snorts.
"Oh? Do you want to duel me instead?" Bakra sneers.
"I'll pass." Tristan says.
Bakura laughs. "So Pharaoh, are you up for the challenge?"
"Tell me one good reason why I should duel you." I say.
"Because if you win, I'll call you and your friends by your names." Bakura says
"And what if I lose?" I ask.
"Then you have to tell all of your friends your deepest darkest secret." Bakura smirks.
Silence fills the air as I take into what Bakura just said. If I win, then Bakura has to call everyone, including me, by my name. Marik had tried to get that to happen before, but look how well that turned out. But, if Bakura wins, I have to tell my deepest darkest secret. I know I'lll win, but…
"Now, why should I have to tell anyone my secrets?" I hiss.
Bakura shrugs, crossing his legs. "Why not? Oh wait! I know! You're scared!" he cackles.
"If he can beat you in the 'Ultimate Shadow Game', I think he can beat your sorry ass right now." Tristan sneers.
"Winning once, twice, or even a million times in a row does not guarantee a person's victory." Bakura says narrowing his eyes at my friend.
"That's true," I say.
"So are we going to duel or not?" he asks tersely, "I'm bored."
"We'll duel," I say. "On one condition."
"What?!" Bakura snarls.
"If you lose, you have to call me Atem." I say.
Bakura gives me an inquiring look for a moment, then composes himself. "Whatever, get your deck out."
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[Yugi's POV]:
Yami came down and we played 'Uno' he was pretty good for his first time, of course, that doesn't surprise me. Bakura and Marik came down and now Yami and Bakura are in a heated duel with each other. Betting against one 's amazing how close they are. Every time I think Yami has Bakura, the thief knocks Yami right back down.
As I watch this duel, I notice something different about the way Yami and Bakura are interacting with one another. While Yami shared a body with me, I had always sense something within him that only sparked when Bakura was around. It was confusion, hatred, and something else I can't seem to place.
They stare at one another, begging their adversary to act, they challenge one another in every possible way. I think Yami craves that. Perhaps that's the reason that he doesn't want Bakura to leave? No, there has to be more...the way he looks at him…
And what about the fact that Yami wants Bakura to call him Atem? I mean, if he wanted us to call him that, we can. I don't mind. I just got so used to the names 'Yami' and 'Pharaoh' it's hard to remember my yami actually has a name now. I had asked him about this before, he said we can call him whatever we want to. We agreed it'd be best to call him 'Yami' as it's the name that brought us all together. So why does he want Bakura to call him by his real name and he doesn't care if we do or not?
I know Bakura's just messing with Yami. He doesn't care anything about him. The fact he's even daring to call him by his name is shocking as he's always called him 'Pharaoh' or 'pompous bitch'. I don't know what went on between them in the past that they have to hate each other so much, but I'll do whatever I can to fix it.
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[Bakura's POV]:
I got the Pharaoh just where I want him. Sure, he's winning, but that's all part of my plan. I decided that the best way to do this would be for me to lose this bet. If he sees I'm 'trying' then he'll 'help' me and so will his posse. However, that doesn't mean that I'm letting him win easily. I know how much the Pharaoh loves a challenge. A real challenge. No one can give him one like I can.
Perhaps this is why he saved me? Maybe he was going to stay on earth the whole time and without me, he wouldn't meet that competitive desire he needs to fill. He needs someone like me to push him beyond his limits. Despite that I hate him, I love fighting against him because he gives me the thrill of my life. And, I guess I give him that same feeling.
Our eyes lock, for some reason, my heart quickens. I'm not sure why. He's always made me feel things that I've never felt before. Even when I was told what his father did to my village and I had so much hatred for him, the moment I saw him, I felt...strange.
I always pushed those feelings in the back of my mind though. Those were feelings of weakness. I had to get my revenge. I didn't have time to ponder on stupidity such as that. But, now these feelings are coming back to me. The feelings of wanting him. I'll admit, he's always been attractive to me, but I had more important things to do besides have sex with him. Besides, what if…
What if I fell in love with him?
Then what? I can't afford such nonsense. No, the Pharaoh can fall for me all he wants. The sooner he does, the sooner he falls.
I draw another card. Our life points are so close to one another it's not even funny. I have the lead right now, but that won't last long.
I smirk, drawing a card. "You better bring your 'A game' up, Pharaoh, or is my deck just too powerful for your weak one to defeat?" I mock.
Those crimson eyes dance with anger and frustration and I shiver inwardly. I love that look. I love to see him mad. It's beyond sexy. But, I have learned to control myself. He won't be able to resist my charm though. I'll make sure of it.
He plays his Dark Magician and two face downs.
"Well, hello, Mahad. It's lovely to see you again." I laugh. "Ready to get defeated by Diabound another time?"
"Just play the game, Bakura." the Pharaoh snaps.
"Very well," I say bringing Diabound Kernel to the field. "Looks like our strongest monsters are up at bat. The only question is: which one will win?"
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[Joey's POV]:
Lunch with Kaiba and Mokuba was amazing. Kaiba and I, as always, argued, but it wasn't as much as it usually was. Our eyes met a few times, he seems different..not sure what's up with dat, but I suppose I could ask Mokuba.
Speaking of Mokuba, he's passed out from all of the games we've played and sweets he's eaten, snoring softly lying limply on the couch, his head resting on my lap. We're both in the game room. The TV having a movie in it the credits rolling up the screen. I don't move, running my fingers through the boy's hair.
"What are you still doing here?" Kaiba asks, pulling me out of my thoughts.
"K-Kaiba, what are you doing here so early?!" I exclaim in a hushed whisper so to wake the raven haired boy sleeping in my lap.
"It's ten o'clock at night." Kaiba snorts. "How long has he been asleep?" he asks pointing to his little brother.
"About an hour." I reply.
Kaiba nods, walking from behind the couch picking Mokuba up gently into his arms. The boy grumbles something before snuggling into his brother's chest. I can't help but smile fondly at the two. Kaiba turns, heading out the door. I stand up, heading out the door as well, but Kaiba has stopped.
"Have you heard from your sister?" he asks.
I blink. Why would he care about that?
"Yeah, the other week. She's coming in soon. She's in Canada." I reply.
"That's good," Kaiba says. "I'm sure you miss her."
He starts to move, but I stop him this time.
"Hey, Kaiba?" I ask.
"What?" he asks.
I'm not sure what I want to ask him. So many are running through my mind. I choose a safe one.
"Why does Mokuba want to save Bakura?" I ask.
Kaiba looks over his shoulder at me. "That should be obvious, mutt. Now then, shouldn't you get back to getting with your friends?"
I stare at him, he's turned around now, Mokuba snoozing comfortably into his arms. Our eyes locking with one another. I know I should go back to see my friends, but for some reason, I don't want to. I want to stay with Kaiba and Mokuba. But Kaiba hates me. The only reason I'm even allowed to be here is because of Mokuba. Otherwise, I'd never be able to come over.
"Y-yeah." I say. "I'll just-"
"I'll have Gerald drive you home." Kaiba says.
"Nah, it's fine…" I say brushing past him. I can feel his eyes on me, but I don't dare look back.
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[Yami's POV]:
Bakura and I are neck and neck with lifepoints. Diabound Kernel, who apparently is Pegasus' version of Bakura's Ka, is a formidable opponent. But he's no match for Dark Magician and Dark Magician Girl. I know he knows this too, I'll have to be on guard.
What is Bakura's intentions? For some reason, I feel like he's holding back. He's not fighting me with everything he has. It's almost like he wants me to win. But why? Bakura isn't one to give up the throne of victory. All of his life, he's been trying to destroy me, to make me miserable. Did Marik say something to him? Is Bakura trying to open up? No, that can't be it. Bakura would never open up, especially towards me.
But then again, I've never really opened up either. How can I expect Bakura to when he doesn't know much about me? How can I help him if he doesn't trust me? I have to build my trust in him. I have to let him know that I care about him-enough to where I don't want him destroyed.
Bakura hates me because of what my uncle did to him. I can't blame him for that, but he let his anger control him, consume him. And now, the darkness that that anger formed is destroying him from the inside out. I have to help him. I can't let that happen to him.
The game is won by me in three more rounds. Bakura and I stare into each other's eyes. When I look into them, I feel strange. I feel things I've never felt before. Everything in my entire being is begging me to reach out and touch his face, run my fingers through his hair. To hold him, to touch him. It's terrifying me to feel this way.
What is Bakura thinking? The look in his eyes, it's different than it usually is. It's like I can see into his soul. I can see the hurt, the pain he's endured all of his life...and something else. What, I'm unsure of.
Bakura is the first to recover from our eye conversation, pulling me back to earth.
"Whelp, looks like you win Atem." Bakura cheers mockingly clapping his hands together. "You should give yourself a pat on the back."
"Oh like it'd take much to beat you?" Duke mutters.
Bakura turns towards Duke, snarling. "Really now? Would you like to see how much it'd take for me to beat you pest!"
"Bakura, stop it." I chatise. "You too, Duke. All of you." I look at each of them. "Now then, since Bakura call us by our names."
"Yes!" Tristan cheers.
"But," I say.
My friends look at me, doubt filling their eyes.
"We will address him by his name as well." I say.
Bakura laughs. "Oh I'm so lucky I get to be called my name by the P-I mean Atem."
I glance at Marik who's giving me a smile. I can't help but smile back. It's amazing how close Marik and I have gotten. When we first met, he was trying to destroy me, now he's trying to help me. He's my friend, and I love him dearly as I do my other friends. I look at Bakura, who's standing up now stuffing his deck in his jean pocket. I stand up as well placing my deck on the table for now. Marik goes up the stairs, Bakura following behind. He looks over his shoulder. Our eyes, once again, meet. I feel those feeling returning. He turns, heading up the stairs after moments.
'I'll save you from yourself. I'll save you from the darkness that controls you. And to do that, I'll become your best friend.'
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[A few weeks later…]:
[Serenity's POV]:
It had been a week since I had gone to Domino City to see my brother. To my astonishment, there were two Yugi's! Luckily, everyone informed me of what was really going on. Apparently, the thing that Yugi wore around his neck was called a Millennium Puzzle, some artifact made 5,000 years ago and there was a spirit named Atem, or Yami, living within its chambers. Apparently he was a Pharaoh who defeated an evil. The evil, being a creature called Zorc, who Bakura, the spirit of Ryou's Ring, brought into the world to destroy Yami.
I had asked Yami how Bakura was here if he had defeated Zorc as he said that Bakura and Zorc combined their spirits together or something like that. Yami then informed me that he had gotten permission to save Bakura. And I can see why too.
Because he's in love with him.
I've always known. I can sense things like that. Being a hopeless romantic that I am, I can always tell when someone is in love. The feelings are mutal, of course, Bakura nor Yami are going to admit to such things...yet. Like my brother and Kaiba. Joey's been crushing on Kaiba for a long time. They'd make each other so happy. But, I can't push this. I have to watch how they interact together.
Bakura has been spending a lot of time with Yami and his friends. He was a bit iffy with me. It was like he didn't remember me, but how could he when he's so in love? I stifle a giggle, but Joey hears it.
"What's so funny, sis?" he asks his mouth full of some of the sub he's eating.
"Nothing," I smile 'innocently'.
I can't tell Joey the reason I was giggling. I think the best thing for me to do is talk to Anzu about this. She'll know what to do. Maybe even Yugi. Yes, I'll do that.
"I'll get you guys together," I murmur under my breath.
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[Anzu's POV]:
For the past two weeks, Bakura and Yami have been 'hanging' out. Yami said it's the only way he can get Bakura to open up. Marik informed us that he had finally convinced the thief to be near Yami, if only he were around him and they weren't alone...as Bakura would kill my friend.
We're a the park. Joey, Mokuba, Tristan, and Duke are playing catch with one another. Yami, Bakura, Yugi, and Marik are at the other set of picnic tables. Kaiba, of course, isn't here.
"What did you want to talk to me about, Serenity?" I ask taking a seat in front of my friend. I open my can of soda slowly sipping on it. It's nice out here, especially under the shelter over the picnic table area.
Serenity looks over me, staring at the other picnic table. It's about ten feet from us. I turn to see Bakura hold up a piece of paper and Yami standing up throwing a book down angrily while Marik and Bakura burst into a fit of laughter.
I turn towards Serenity.
"They're so happy together." Serenity says.
"Who?" I ask.
Serenity sighs dreamily. "Yami and Bakura of course." she says.
I do a double take. What is she talking about?! Yami and Bakura are enemies! I mean sure, Yami is helping him and Bakura seems to be opening up more, but you can still sense the hatred inside of him...and something else….
"What makes you say that?" I ask.
Serenity snorts, rolling her eyes. "Anzu, you out of all people should know what I'm referring to." Serenity says, eyes locking with mine.
"Y-you think that…." I try to say, but my voice gets caught in my throat.
"Oh, I don't think it, i know." she grins in satisfaction.
"Know what?" I hear Marik ask.
Said Egyptian flops down beside of me.
"I'm sure you know Marik." Serenity says.
"Oh? You mean Bakura and Yami being in love?" he asks. "Anyone with eyes can see that."
"What makes you guys so sure…" I trail off after both of them give me a look.
"It's so obvious Anzu!" Serenity exclaims.
"But they've hated each other for so long and…"
"All the more reason to believe they do love each other." Marik points out. "What's that saying? 'There's a thin line between love and hate'? They're on the line."
'Well, don't you think we need to get them off of it?" I mumble looking down at the table. I'm not sure how to feel about this. Ever since I met Yami, I have liked him. He's always been so strong and confident. Something that attracts me deeply to a man. Then, I found out that he was lusting after Bakura and those dreams shot down. After a few days, I realized that Yami's happiness was everything to me, as our the rest of my friends.
But it's just...Bakura? I trust Yami to know what he's doing, it's just...how can I trust Bakura? How can I trust him with one of my best friend's hearts? I don't. But, maybe Bakura isn't truly evil, maybe he's good. Maybe I need to give him a chance. I want to see what Serenity and Marik are talking about.
"Indeed, but it's not going to be easy." Marik says. 'For right now, Bakura refuses to be near Yami by himself."
"How do you guys know for sure that Yami and Bakura are in love with each other?" I whisper, hand clasp around the can of soda.
"It's the way they look at each other." Serenity says.
"But won't Bakura hurt him?" I ask not looking up.
"He'll try to." Marik says.
At this, my head snaps up, I stand swiftly to my feet."Well, I won't let it happen!" I shout.
"We're going to have to." Marik says. "It's the only way for Bakura to accept the truth."
"The truth to what?" I ask sitting back down.
"About what really went on in the past." Marik replies. "About how he feels about Yami."