Sup guys! Whose excited for the new episode of Nikita tonight! I am! Though Micheal's new hand kinda creeps me out a little O.o Anyway here is chapter 10! Hope you guys like it! Oh and before I let you guys read, I just wanted to let you know I have a new twitter ForeverMina44, that I suggest you check out and follow because I will be posting updates on my stories including this one and I will even post some sneak peaks ;) Alright that's all I got for now, enjoy!

Shoutouts!: Alright there were two cast members who guest starred in TVD, so Congrats to nicolebetkhodu, Wootar16, yagmuysu, and Guest 17 to giving the name one of the correct cast members! and a double congrats to Alexandra Udinov for giving the name of both of them! Oh and of course the answer is: Dillon Casey (Sean) and Melinda Clarke (Amanda)! Gold stars for everyone who guessed and reviewed! Thanks guys!

Disclaimer: I don't own Nikita, unfortunately.

Chapter 10: Loose Cannon

Sean paced outside of medical watching Alex through her window. Every glance he thought he saw her twitch, but when he stopped to stare, she was as still as a rock.

Owen walked up to him, "Hey man. Take it easy. When she's ready, she'll wake up. Give her some time."

"I know, it's not her I'm worried about anymore." Owen raises his eyebrows. Sean pulls his attention away from Alex for a moment, "I'm not sure if I'm ready to face her when she wakes up." He says looking at Owen. "What am I supposed to say?"

Owen sighs, looking at Alex. "I know I just met you, but from what I've seen, I believe you really do care for her. That's all Alex needs, someone who can look out for her the way you do. You don't need to say anything, just be there for her." He pats Sean on the back and walks away.

Sean looks back at Alex. "I'm here, Alex. I'm not going anywhere. Please wake up."

Owen walks into ops where he sees Birkhoff, Ryan and Sonya gathered at the round table.

"How's Alex doing?" Birkhoff asks, knowing he was just there, since he had told them earlier.

"She's still sleeping." Owen tells him.

Birkhoff frowns. "That's not good, she should have woken up already."

"What do you mean?" Owen asks worriedly.

"Sonya, can you bring me over Alex's medical charts?" Birkhoff asks turning to Sonya. She nods and leaves to get it. "There was signs of blunt force trauma… I'm afraid she might be in a coma."

Owen's eyes widened. "What?" What the hell did Amanda do to her!

"Hey," Ryan says giving them a reassuring look. "Alex is a strong girl, she'll wake up soon."

"I hope so." Owen says.

"What about you?" Ryan asks. "Have any luck remembering your past?"

Owen shakes his head. "I only know what Amanda told me. My name is Sam, I was a soldier and I killed all my friends." He sighs as Sonya walks back in, handing Birkhoff Alex's charts. "All I remember is Amanda with a needle."

"Funny, you mentioned that." Birkhoff says, a sad look on his face. Owen, Ryan and Sonya look at him worried and confused. "Alex's toxicology report showed some unknown substance in her system."

All the color drains from Owen's face as the words entered his mind. Unknown Substance? Could Amanda have done what she did to him to Alex too? He shakes his head refusing to believe it.

"Does Nikita know about this?" Owen asks suddenly.

Birkhoff shakes his head looking at him confused. "No, I don't think so. Why?"

"Good, don't tell Nikita anything until we know exactly what the substance is." He tells them. "She needs a break from worrying about Alex so much."

Michael walks in, eyebrows raised. "Don't tell Nikita what?"

Nikita walked by medical again, determined to see any updates on Alex. She saw Sean still hovering by the window.

"Sean, you should take a break. Maybe get some lunch?"

He looks at her. "I don't want to leave Alex."

Nikita sighs and looks at Alex. "Any improvements?"

"No, she's been still this whole time. Every now and then I think I see her twitching out of the corner of my eye, but I could be wrong."

"Don't lose hope, she'll come around. Come on, let me make you a Veggie Shake." Nikita nods her head toward Division's cafeteria. It's been awhile since anybody ate down there, but all the appliances were still hooked up to the kitchen. "Come on, just one Veggie Shake." she says smiling.

Sean smiles back. "I guess it wouldn't hurt to leave Alex for 5 minutes."

A Division doctor came to check on Alex in her room. He changed some bandages on her cuts and bruises. Suddenly Alex grabbed his arm with such intense force.

"Hey!" He tried to shake her grip off.

Alex's eyes opened with alarm. "Where am I?" She shouted.

"You're in Division!"

"Division?" Alex asks confused. "I have to get out of here!"

She tries to get up but the doctor pins her down. "You're not going anywhere with these IVs hooked up to you"

"I want out of here!" Alex screams as she pushes the doctor away and rips out her IVs. "Get me out of here!"

Alex starts running down the halls of Division, confused and lost.

Sean was walking down the halls, on his way back to medical when he saw a glimpse of a girl running passed a hallway ahead of him. "Alex?"

He starts running after her. Taking a shortcut, he runs directly into Alex's path as she collides with him, knocking them both to the floor.

"Alex!" Sean yells, out of breath. "It's me! You're awake!" He exclaims, excited to see her again. "I'm so happy you're back!" He hugs her tightly.

Alex looks down at him confused. "I… uh, I'm so confused." She lifts herself off of him. "This is Division?"

"Yeah, I know I said wouldn't be apart of Division anymore but I had to make sure you were safe."

Alex looks around feeling dazed. "Where's Nikita?" She asks.

"She went to the training room." Alex shifts her eyes in the opposite direction, distracted. "Hey Alex, are you okay?"

She looks at him. "I... need to find Nikita." She turns around and starts running toward the training room.

"Alex wait!" Sean shouts after her, but she was long gone.

Sean runs into ops, a big smile on his face. "Alex is awake!"

Birkhoff sighs in relief. "Thank god, I thought she was going to be in a coma forever."

Sean looks at him, confused. "What? A coma?"

"How is she?" Michael asks changing the subject.

"Well, she was acting strange…she looked confused and was running around Division looking for Nikita." Sean explains.

"What!" Owen exclaims looking at him. "You let her run around Division by herself?"

"What's wrong with that?" He asks again confused.

"Alex, just woke up from a very traumatic experience, she's confused and had no idea what's going on." Owen replies angrily. "It's not safe for her to be running around by herself, she could hurt herself." Sean frowns, instantly feeling guilty. Maybe he should have followed her...

"Don't worry." Michael says noticing this. "You didn't know."

Ryan nods. "We need to find Alex before she hurts herself."

Nikita was in the training room by herself, doing some yoga to relax. She had her eyes closed, blocking out the sounds of the world around her.

Distant footsteps was approaching but Nikita ignored it. Suddenly she heard a loud crashing sound next to her. She opened her eyes. "Alex?"

Alex had run right into a training dummy, knocking it to the ground. The girl was laughing. "I'm so sorry Mister! Not again."

"Alex!" Nikita exclaimed, running up to the girl.

Alex looked scared and backed away, tripping over the fallen dummy.

"Alex! What are you doing here?" Nikita asks worriedly.

"I… I had to see you." She says, unsure of her next words. "Make sure you were in Division."

Nikita narrows her eyes. "Of course, I'm still here."

"Why?"

"You know why, Alex." Nikita responds, thinking Alex meant why she was still there waiting for her to wake up.

"I need to get out of here." Alex says, getting up. "This isn't right."

"What do you mean Alex?"

"I can't be here." She says, backing away from Nikita.

"Alex." Nikita approaches the girl. She didn't know what was wrong with her, Alex was acting strange. All she wanted to do was hug her, and tell her she's safe now. There's no need to be afraid of Amanda anymore.

"Stay away from me!" Alex suddenly screams.

Sean comes running into the room. "Alex!"

Alex looks at him, "I'm sorry, I have to go!" She screams, trying to run passed him. He grabs her waist, pulling her close to him. "Let me go! I want out of here!"

"Alex! Calm down!" Sean yells.

"Go where Alex?" Nikita screams.

Michael, Owen and Birkhoff appear in the doorway blocking Alex's attempts to escape Sean's grip around her.

Alex begins to cry, "I don't know what's going on! I don't belong here. Let me go! I want out of here!"

"Alex," Birkhoff says calmly. "Where do you think you are?"

"Division." She replies. "I can't be here!"

"That's good, she still remembers what Division is." Owen says.

"Why wouldn't she?" Nikita asks, walking up to them. She looks at Alex, who was still trying to fight Sean's grip. He held onto her so tightly, scared to ever let her go. "Alex, what's wrong? You're safe now. This is a safe place."

Alex was whimpering, trying to rock back and forth. "I'm so sorry, so sorry." Sean held on tighter. "I don't know what's wrong with me. My head hurts, I'm so confused."

"Nothing is wrong with you." Michael says.

Alex starts to cry again. "Please let me go."

"I can't Alex." Sean says.

"You're hurting me."

"Alex, please. Let me help you." Sean whispers into her ear. She calms down slightly and he loosens his grip a little.

"Hey Alex," Owen says "Do you remember what happen to you?" Alex shakes her head. "I was afraid of this."

"What is the last thing you remember?" Michael asks.

Alex looks around at everyone in the room. Sean was still holding onto her, there was no where to run. "I was shot." She says looking directly at Nikita. "I don't know who… or why. I just woke up here, confused. I'm so sorry." She lied, Alex knew exactly who shot her and why.

"You don't remember Amanda?" Birkhoff asks.

"Amanda?" Alex asks confused, shaking her head. "No… sorry I don't know."

"Do you remember us?" Michael asks. Alex shakes her head, a headache forming. "Alex…"

"Michael." She says. "I know who you are and who Nikita is. You're all Division."

Sean loosen his grip more and turns Alex around to face him. She looks away. "Alex…" He says softly, trying to find her eyes. "Do you remember me? It's me..."

Alex tries to look away, she couldn't understand what was going on. Why she was in Division. All she knew was that this place was bad and it needed to be shut down. "Alex." Sean repeats her name. "Please, can you just look at me?" Alex tries to pull away, her instincts telling her to run now. Get away from Division. Sean pulls her into a hug, her face buries in his chest. "Alex, I love you. Please don't run away again."

His voice sounded so familiar, the headaches subsided for a moment. She looks into his brown eyes, and gives him a small smile. "Sean."

Sean smiles at the mention of his name in her voice. "You're safe now, Alex. I'm not going to hurt you." And she believed him.

Alex visibly relaxed, signs almost back to normal. She steps back, looking at everyone in the room again. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to freak anyone out… I just need some more time to think about what happened."

"I understand." Nikita finally says. "Take all the time you need Alex."

Alex gives her a small smile and walks out the door.

Nikita, Michael, Birkhoff and Owen return to ops where they find Ryan at the round table.

"How's Alex?" Ryan asks facing them.

"She just needs some time alone." Nikita says leaning against the table. "Adjust to being back, she's been through a lot."

"Well, whatever Amanda did to her it's not the same thing she did to me." Owen tells them. "Alex still remembers who she is and what Division is."

"That's good." Ryan replies.

Birkhoff frowns. "I don't think this is the last of Amanda's lessons though."

"Amanda wanted Alex for a reason." Owen agrees. "The way we got her back so easily doesn't add up."

Nikita closes her eyes sighing. She was already worried about Alex, so she didn't want to think about Amanda and what her motives were right now. She really wished everyone would stop worrying, she was tired of worrying.

"Hey," Michael says, causing her to open her eyes and look at him. He places his hands on her arms. "Relax, right now the important thing is that Alex is back safe and sound." He gives her a reassuring smile then turns to face the others, "We'll deal with Amanda later."

Alex walked toward the old recruit rooms, she slipped through one of the doors and slid down against the wall. Taking a moment to breathe.

"What am I going to do?" she questions out loud. "I need to get away from this place. Division killed my father... I have no family anymore. This isn't right, Division needs to be stopped, I need to stop Nikita."

There's a knock on the door. "Alex, it's me Sean. Can I come in?"

She doesn't say anything, only curls up into a ball. "Leave me alone, everyone in Division is evil. I can't trust anyone."

Sean walks into the room, sitting beside Alex on the ground. "Hey."

"I don't know what to say." She says to the ground.

"I don't either." Sean replies.

She looks up at him, "Really?"

Sean smiles, "Yeah. I've waited so long to see you again. I didn't think about what else I would say. I just wanted to see you again, you know... to make sure you were okay."

Alex wonders why he was being so nice to her. "Thanks." She turns to him, thinking about her messed up memories. She saw flashes of Sean here and there, but she couldn't put the pieces together. Somehow she didn't think he was a bad person. She remembers him not technically being a part of Division.

"Hey, what are you thinking about?" Sean asks her.

Alex looks at Sean again and smiles, he looked so concerned. "Listen, I'm going to be honest with you." She says, turning to face him fully. He looks at her, finding her bright blue eyes. She looks away slightly blushing, "My memories are a little messed up right now. I don't remember how I got here or what happen, and I don't remember exactly what went on between us but…" She looks back at him, "But what you told me earlier… you know… about you-"

"Alex, I'm here for you." He cuts her off. "I just want you to know that, I'll always be here for you."

"I believe you." It was the truth, something was telling her deep down he was telling her the truth.

He gets up and offers her his hand. "Are you ready to make a comeback Miss Udinov?"

Alex laughs. "Yes, I am." She says as she grabs his hand.

Sean leads Alex to ops where the others are. When they reach the round table, Nikita is hesitant to approach her, afraid she would run off again.

"It's okay." Sean tells her, noticing this. Alex gives Nikita a faux smile and pulls her into a hug.

"I'm happy to be back." Alex lies. Nikita sighs in relief, and hugs her back.

"Aww," Birkhoff smiles. "BFF's!"

They break from the hug. "Shut up, Birkhoff." Nikita and Alex reply in unison.

"Well, it's true." Birkhoff replies shrugging, everyone laughs.

Ryan walks in, they turn to him. "Sorry, it's urgent. The President has a top secret mission for us."

"Wait," Michael replies giving him a look. "That's not what we agreed on. We're supposed to clean up Division, not go on missions for hire."

"I know, but this is the President." He says, "We can't say no to her."

Nikita raises her eyebrows. "Why not?"

Ryan sighs. "She has been worried about Division for some time now. She's afraid of agents being kidnapped and exposed."

"Sorry." Alex replies sheepishly.

Nikita shakes her head. "Don't worry about it."

"The President has a contingency plan." Ryan explains. "She doesn't want any more assents potentially exposed. If we're exposed, she won't hesitate to wipe us all out."

"What!" Nikita yells angrily. The others look at Ryan, a mix of anger and confusion in their faces.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Michael asks angry as well.

"If I told you when we started this that the president had a gun to our heads, how would you have reacted?" Ryan says looking between the two.

"The real question is, how would everyone else in division react?" Michael replies.

Ryan nods. "Exactly, under Percy it would be obey or die. I come in, promise a way out and people learn that there is one small catch..."

"There would be no predicting their actions." Michael finished, sighing.

"So, what are we supposed to do? Keep it on the down low?" Birkhoff asks.

Nikita nods, though she didn't like it. "For now," She looks at everyone. "I know we're not one big happy family, but we are in this together. For better or for worse… I need to believe it's for the better."

Owen nods. "Alright, what's the mission?"

Ryan hands them the blue file containing the information about their mission. They begin to read the file and their eyes widen in shock. It said they had to assassinate the President of Chad while he's in Paris. They look up at Ryan, anger in their eyes, they weren't supposed to be doing these kinds of missions anymore.

Alex looks up at Ryan. "This is a kill mission?"

Ryan nods. "Yes."

"No." Michael says glaring at him. "You told us there would be no more kill missions."

"It's just one mission." Ryan tries to reason.

Birkhoff shakes his head. "No, first there's one mission then there's more and it won't stop."

Nikita looks over the file again and considers it. She rather not do this but if it meant protecting the people she cared about from getting hurt…she may just have to.

Alex shakes her head. "This isn't right."

Sean nods. "We're not supposed to be doing this, Division is supposed to be different now." Alex stands up and runs out of the room clearly upset. Sean sighs, giving them one more look before following her. Nikita sighs she knows they're right but they didn't really have a choice right now.

Michael looks over the files again. "If we're going to do this, we have to do it quietly with no foot print." Nikita glances at Michael who meets her gaze. He knows this isn't right, and seeing Alex so upset isn't helping either but he couldn't risk them being wiped out… he just couldn't.

"Are we really going to do this?" Owen asks looking between the two.

Nikita sighs. "It looks like we have to."

"I still don't agree with this." Birkhoff replies. "But, I'll help you because we're all in this together."

"What about Sean and Alex?" Ryan asks.

"I'll talk to them" Nikita says, looking towards the door. She needed Alex with her on this, she couldn't imagine doing this mission without her.

Alex was walking at full speed toward the training room. She didn't know where else to go.

"Alex!" Sean called, "Wait up!" He sprinted up to her. "Why are you always in such a hurry?"

"Huh?" Alex stops and turns to face him. He looks at her. "I just need to get out of here." She says, looking around dazed again. Something else was on her mind.

Sean blocks her path. "I'll come with you."

She shakes her head, "I don't know where to go, or what to do now." It was strange being back in the place for years she was trying to destroy. Everything was so different. "I'm scared."

"What are you scared of?" He asks her, concerned.

Alex glances at him, then stares at the ground, shaking her head. "That's the thing… I don't know. My head keeps telling me to run, get as far away from everyone and this place."

Sean looks at her, "Oh, but-"

"But part of me is telling me to stay." She says, looking up at him again. "It's like I have some unfinished business here."

"Well, what do you want to do Alex?"

"I just need some time to figure things out."

Sean felt like he was losing Alex all over again. He didn't know what to say, he never knew what to say. She was waiting for him to say something, anything. Convince her staying in Division was a good thing, but even he knew it wasn't. He never wanted to be here. Sean contemplated asking Alex to run away with him again. She could escape, that's what she wanted. To get out of here. "Alex, I-"

"Alex!" Nikita called out from down the hall. "There you are!"

Alex glanced at her and looked back at Sean. Her eyes timid. Sean stepped back, giving Nikita space to talk to Alex. He slowly walked away, as Alex watched him disappear around a corner, she turned to look at Nikita.

"Alex, hey about the mission…" Nikita begins.

"So Paris mission is still on I see." Alex says with destine in her voice.

"Hey come on, it's not all bad."

"Nikita, it's a kill mission. We agreed, Division was supposed to be done with these kinds of things."

"Pierre Batouala, the current President of Chad is a very corrupt man." Alex stares at her, waiting for more information. "Last night John Little, Batouala's CIA handler was found dead in an ally in Paris. Just before his death, Little stole a list containing the names of every covert American operative working overseas in the oil industry."

"So? Let the CIA handle this then." Alex says crossing her arms. "You don't need me."

"Alex, if Batouala uses this list to prove CIA involvement, he can kick the American oil companies out of his country and make a sweethearts deal with the Russians." Alex continues to stare at Nikita, waiting for her to give her a better reason for killing this man. Nikita sighs. "He's attending a reception in Paris tomorrow night. There, he'll hand over the file to a Russian intelligence officer. We need to take Batouala out at the party and retrieve the list before he meets with the Russians."

"Nikita, you're talking about another assassination, something we keep saying Division doesn't do anymore."

"The list changes things, Alex. Batouala has seen it. American agents all over the world will be exposed if we don't find him and make that list disappear."

"That doesn't mean he deserves to die." Alex says. "Why does the President want us to assassinate this man? Why not just retrieve the list?" Nikita looks at her confused. "Once he doesn't have it, he won't have evidence to claim the CIA was involved. The Russians aren't stupid, they're not going to want to work with this man once they find out he has nothing to offer them. Case closed."

Nikita looks at her, hesitating. "Come on Alex, Batouala is not some innocent. He runs a corrupt government who tortures and murders anyone who gets in his way."

"I don't know Nikita… something about a kill mission for the President doesn't seem right."

"If we don't go through with this, a lot of innocent people could die."

"The people inside the CIA? Or the people inside of here?"

"Both." Nikita replies. She questions why Alex was trying to argue with her over this. The old Alex would've jumped at the chance to help take down any corrupted person who took away innocent lives.

Alex sighs. "So you're trying to win over Danforth and the President?" Nikita stares at her. "As long as they see Division as an assent, they won't try to wipe us out?"

Nikita was getting upset, she needed Alex on her side. "If it's the life of one really bad guy versus 300 lives, guess who loses?" She says annoyed.

Alex rolls her eyes. Nothing has changed. Everyone kept telling her Division was supposed to be new, different, better than when Percy and Amanda was running it and Oversight had a gun to their heads. "We're supposed to be cleaning this place up, Nikita. Not making it dirty again."

"It's not like it was before. No one is holding a gun to anyone's head anymore." Nikita says, trying to convince Alex. "I have the gun now, and I choose when and if I want to use it." Alex shakes her head. "It's under control."

"As long as the government is calling the shots. We'll never be in control."

"Alex, please. It's just one mission, a good mission. I wouldn't have agreed to do this if I didn't think it was a good mission."

"So Division goes back to the way it was when Percy and Amanda was running it?" Alex says, "Kill missions for hire, Oversight threatening to wipe us out at any moment? When does it end?"

"It's just one mission." Nikita says again, "I can't do this without you." Alex looks at her, conflicted. "Please Alex? We need you."

Alex knew this wasn't right. But she can't just stand by and watch Nikita go after this man. She had to do something.

"Alex, can I count on you?" Nikita asks. Alex puts on a brave face and sighs. Nikita visibly relaxes, knowing she had won her over.

"You know, I've always wanted to go to Paris." Alex says.

Nikita smiles. "That's my girl, I'm glad you're back."

Whaaaat! A kill mission! O.o There supposed to be done with that! Looks like things are going to be as easy as Team Nikita thought specially with a very confused unstable Alex running around. Things are going to even more intense, be prepared. But, Yay! Alex is back, safe and sound! Things with her are going back to normal now...or are they? You're gonna have to read and find out and who knows I might just post a little sneak peak on my twitter so look out for it ;). First thing's first though...you gotta review! lol Please tell us what you thought about this chapter and see if you can answer our new question which is:

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