hey, sorry this chapter is a day late. yesterday was beyond crazy. there is some stuff going on with my famiy right now so I'm gonna try my hardest to ud every week but it may end up being a few days late, just to warn you. but don't worry I will continue this story no matter what.

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Chapter 10 "Who Is Going To Catch Me" Collapse The Light Into Earth by Porcupine Tree

The smell of rain hung heavily in the air and the streets still glisened with water in the Las Vegas lights. Grissom watched as Brass drove away from the diner. Their talk had helped a lot; Grissom now had a clearer perspective on things. but he couldn't wrap his head around the truth of what he had done.

Brass had been understanding and gave his view on the situation without stepping on anyones toes. It felt nice to just talk about everything, hearing the words aloud in his own voice brought a sense of realization to the whole matter.

Getting into his car he drove back to the lab; although he really didn't want to go back there he knew he had to or else he would be hearing about it from Ecklie. That was one problem he really didn't need right now.

As he drove his mind wandered. What would life be like after this, so called, chapter of his life? He and Sara had been living together for quite some time now, what would happen to their place? What would happen at work? He knew neither of them would be willing to leave. Although, could they handle working side by side?

Warrick searched each room of the lab looking for Grissom with Nick right at his heels. "Come on, Warrick. Just take a minute to cool off. He's probably not even here!" Nick said, worried that his friend would end up doing something stupid.

"No, Nick. He cheated on Sara and he's going to have to deal with the consiquenses."

"Rick! Get a hold of yourself! I'm just as mad at Grissom as you are, do you see me chargeing through the lab-"

"What were you doing no more then five minutes ago, Nick? You were looking for him too. Just like I am. So don't lie to me." Warrick said, turning to face him.

Nick sighed. He had been doing the same exact thing just moments before. "Look, you're right, okay? But now seeing you like this, I know it's not the right thing to do right now. We don't know Griss' side of the story or anything. All I'm going off of is what Cath told me. We're jumpin' the gun here, Warrick. Just think about it okay."

Warrick's face softend, but his heart was still beating hard in his ears. "Then we'll find Grissom and listen to what he says. But first we're finding Sara. God only knows where she might be and what's she's going through."

Sara got out of her car and stood there, after all what was the rush? Catherine knew what was going on and Sara figured she'd understand if she took the night off. But then again Sara wasn't sure if she really wanted to take the night off. Where would she go? She couldn't go home. It would remind her to much of him and what he'd done.

As she walked across the black pavement she heard a familiar voice call out her name. She stoped and turned to see Greg running towards her. He stopped when they were about a foot apart from eachother. No words were spoken; they just looked into eachothers eyes. He looked troubled as he stood before Sara in the crisp air.

"You know." Sara said softly, saying it more as a statment then a question.

Greg didn't say anything, but the look on his face spoke a thousand words.

He took a step forward and wrapped his arms around her. He wanted so badly to tell her it would be okay. That things would work out. But he couldn't lie to her. Truthfully he wasn't even sure if things could get any better. Although he knew they had to, at the moment it was hard to see the light at the end of this dark and seemingly never ending, tunnel.

"Oh Greg...I'm so scared." Sara whispered in to him; her voice breaking.

Greg suddenly felt his own eyes fill with tears. All the years that he'd known Sara, he'd only seen her come close to breaking down maybe once or twice. Yet here she was, falling to apart in his arms. And he had no idea as to what to do or how he could help.

So he held her close. And he swore to himself he wouldn't let go until she was ready.

Grissom pulled into his usual parking spot. He started to head inside, but suddenly he stopped dead in his tracks. Sara. She was standing just outside the front doors of the lab with Greg's arms wrapped tightly around her.

His heart beat quickened and his palms began to sweat. Did he really want to face her again after the word's they had exchanged only hours ago? Could he hadle it? Better yet, could she? Grissom found himself just watching her. He could tell she was crying as sob's racked her body. She looked so small and fragile standing there. Like a child that was lost.

Grissom turned away, unable to look any longer. But he should have left sooner. When he heard his name being called, he knew it wasn't good. He turned to see Warrick walking angrily towards him; with Nick and Catherine close behind him.

Sara and Greg broke apart and looked to see what was going on. When Sara's eyes fell upon Grissom she felt as if someone shot an arrow through her heart. How much pain could one person take in one night before it was to much? Because right now, she was on the edge of breaking. Truthfully she wasn't sure if she could handle another scene with Grissom.

Greg, seeing that Sara was unsure of what to do, took her by the hand and held on tightly. If things started to take a turn for the worse, he would take her far away from here. He didn't know exactly where they would go but, but he would get her out.

"What the hell did you do Grissom? To cheat on Sara?! What is wrong with you!?' Warrick felt the anger rising within him and at the moment he didn't care if it got the best of him.

Grissom took a deep breathe. "It's none of your buisness, Warrick. This is between Sara and I. But I'll have you know that I am sorry and-"

"You're sorry, Grissom? Did you ever think about what Sara's going through? You stuck a knife through her heart and then yanked it around. And it is my buisness. Sara is family. You know I thought you were too, but I guess I was wrong."

Grissom felt the words hit him like bricks, but somewhere in him, he knew he deserved every bit and more. He'd hurt Sara in a way he never thought was possible. It was only right for him to feel pain too. "Look Warrick, I know what I did was wrong and I regreat it like you wouldn't believe. At the moment I just don't know what to do next. I want to make it better, but I know I can't. So please forgive me if you can."

"You think she knows what to do right now? That she has it all planned out. What about your job Griss? Are you going to transfer Sara for your mistake? Did you think about that? Did you think about how this will affect everything?!"

Grissom's jaw clenched but he didn't say anything. He had to bite his tougne to keep from getting after Warrick. But he knew if he did that he would get himself into more trouble.

"And just so you know, hell will have to freeze over before I will even begin to consider forgiving you."

"Warrick, come on man. That's enough." Nick tried to coax his friend to take a step back but he held his ground.

Catherine stood silentlyl in the backround, watching everything unfold. Glancing at Sara and Greg every few seconds to make sure she was okay. A heavy and cold silence fell over them, before Sara's hushed voice broke it.

"Warrick, stop."

He turned to look at her, surprised.

"I know that you are only trying to help, and I am unbelieveably greatful for it, but Nick's right. That is enough."

Grissom stood there in shock. Was Sara really helping him out?

"But Sar, I thought that-"

"You should have talked to me first before going at Grissom like that, Warrick. You're putting words in my mouth and although I may feel exactly how you said, you didn't know that. So please, just stop. Otherwise you'll end up doing something stupid. I don't want to see that happen, I don't want this night to get any worse then it already is." Sara's voice was serenely calm and collected.

Grissom looked at Sara, astonished that she would actually stop Warrick from yelling at him. He thought that's what she would have wanted right now.

"I'm sorry, Sara." Warrick said. Although he felt ashamed for his outburst, he would not be apologize to Grissom for it.

Greg looked from Sara to Grissom, wondering what would happen next. He could tell that Sara was on the verge of breaking down again and he didn't want to see that happen. "Cath, I'm gonna..." He trailed off, tilting his head towards Sara. He knew he didn't have to say it aloud for Catherine to understand what he meant.

"Sure. I'll cover for you with Ecklie." She said softly.

"Sara?" Greg spoke quietly, tugging on her hand. "Come on, let's get out of here."

She didn't say a word as they walked away; leaving three of their closest friends in silence. And leaving the fourth, whom they had thought to be their friend, in such a state of epmtiness and pain that he never knew to be possible.

The sun was just starting to peak over the Nevada moutains as they drove in silence. The dark clouds of rain now fading in the backround. Greg kept throwing glances at Sara. Asking if was okay felt like a stupid question but one that he very much wanted an answer too. But he kept his mouth shut. Knowing she would talk when she was ready.

Greg headed to a spot he travled to offten, when he needed to clear his head after a tough case. He thought that would be the best place to go right now. When the car came to a stop he looked over at Sara again. She still held that same blank look on her face that she had for most of the drive.

"Do you want to talk?"

Sara didn't respond right away. She sat there, watching the sun rise over the moutains. It looked so peaceful and surreal.

"You know we spend our whole life waiting for something good to come along, it's like we miss the whole point of living. We're blind to the small things. The every day moments that make us smile and laugh. Even the stupid things, when we just find ourselves smiling out of the blue at some random thing. We waste so much time worrying about what will come, what will be, what will happen, that we miss what's right in front of us.

Then in a blink of an eye, the good things are gone. And we're thrown into never ending darkness. We keep searching for the light, for just one happy moment. Then we realize that we had it all. We had it all right in front of us and we lost it. We let it slip through our finger tips without a second thought. Now, we'd give anything to have it back. But it's gone forever." Her voice was rough and corse with each word she spoke. Like it wasn't even Sara that talking.

"Everything seems to pass so slowly. A second turns into forever. And the darkness presses down on us. Smothering us. We can't breathe, we can't fight, we can't see. We're forever lost in the nothingness. And we look back on those moments we thought were so stupid, so pointless, but now we'd give our life for them. You think you have it all. People who love you. A family that cares. And in a second all of that can go away.

It can disappear before your very eyes. Because sometimes you're trying so hard to focus on it that you can't even tell when it's fading away. You can't see the edges becoming blurry. You can't tell that it's drifting farther and farther away from you. Until it's to late. You can't go back. You can't change it. You can't make it better. You just have to keep going, like it's just another bump in the road.

But the fact is, it's not. It made such an impact on your life that at the time you can't even realize just how big is. Because you're trying so hard to stay strong. To have hope that things will get better. That you miss that your wound is open and bleeding.

And you're moving so fast, that you don't even realize your breathing is becoming harder, your heart rate is slowing, and your falling. And no one is there to catch you..." Sara turned to look at him, her eyes filling with tears once again.

"Who's going to catch me?"

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