All I could think about was what Nick told me at sunset. As much as I wanted to just blow off his words, I couldn't. Joe should've called off the wedding by now, but he hasn't. What if he isn't actually going to call it off? What if he is using me? I know one thing, as much as I try to hide it, I love Joe. It's wrong and stupid, but I love him. He makes me happy and feel important, wanted. If he breaks my heart I'm not sure what's going to happen to me. I know for sure I'm going to be a mess and him being married to my sister is not going to help that.

"What's amatter Riley?" Joe wrapped his arm tighter around my shoulder.

"Nothing." I gave him a weak smile as I rested against his chest.

"You're lying. But I'm not going to question you because you don't want to tell me." Joe gave me a concerned look as I mentally debated interrogating him about the wedding.

"Do you love me?" I glanced up at him, my eyes searching for his answer.

"Yes." He smiled and kissed me. "That's not what you wanted to know is it?" I glanced away and nodded.

"Why haven't you called off the wedding?"It was a full moon and its light illuminated everything in sight. It made everything look eerie, yet gorgeous.

"I'm waiting for the right time."

"When's the right time going to come? Is it even going to come up?"

"It is Riley. I just don't know how to break it to Vanessa."

"Just tell her the truth." I snapped back.

"Yeah just tell her 'Hey Babe, you look gorgeous today but I can't marry you. You see, I'm in love with your underage sister. We've been having an affair for awhile right under your nose. I'll pick up my things on Monday. Thanks.' I can't be blunt with her about this. She'll ruin your life Riley. Make you miserable. I can't let her do that."

"Sure you can't do that, but it's okay having me plan your wedding? I'm miserable having to share you with her. Especially when it seems like you'll choose her in the end." I stood up and paced.

"I'm not going to choose her." Joe walked out into the meadow muttering something under his breath.

"Prove it to me then." I stood in front of him and crossed my arms over my chest.

"How? I'll do anything for you." The way he said that made my heart beat a little bit faster. Maybe he's not lying when he says he loves me.

"Please, call off the wedding."

"I told you, I'll do that when the right moment comes up."

"It's been over a month. You guys already chose a place to have it. You set a date. She ordered her dress and your tux. I'm sorry if I'm overreacting but it sounds like you have no intention of breaking up with her."

"I'm going to. You have to trust me."

"I can't. I just can't." Joe ran a hand through his hair signaling he's frustrated. "When it comes to my heart being broken I don't think I can trust anyone."

"I understand that, but why does this suddenly bother you. Last night you weren't like this. Hell, this morning you weren't like this."

"I tried overlooking it." I avoided his gaze.

"You're lying."

"No, I'm not." I still avoided his gaze. For the first time I'm openly lying to Joe and it makes me feel horrible.

"Yes you are. Does someone know about us? Did someone say something to you to make you freak out?"

"I'm not freaking out," I beg to differ, "But yes someone knows. Nick knows. I guess we aren't as secretive as we thought."

"When did Nick tell you?"

"Today. Right after he kissed me." Did I just say that? I closed my eyes hoping that when I open them again Joe would forget what I just said.

"You guys kissed?" Jealously flooded his face. "Is that why you question me? Do you like him?"

"No. I do not like Nick that way."

"You say that after you kissed him?"

"He kissed me!"

"But you kissed him back right?" Joe yelled this and messed with his hair. I've never seen the jealous side of Joe before.

"Yes. You know what? I did and I enjoyed kissing him. If you can have a relationship with Vanessa why can't I have one with Nick?" I was so angry. Angry at Joe, angry at Nick, and angry at myself. I can't believe I just said that.

"Fine. Have your little relationship with Nick."

"I will. At least I know he loves me and no one else."

"If you don't believe that I love you, then I have no idea why you want me to call the wedding off. If I don't love you and you don't love me then why are we in a relationship?"

"This isn't a relationship," I held back a few tears. This never was and will never be. "This is an affair. I'm another girl who's stupid enough to believe that her lover was going to leave his girlfriend."

"Do you really believe that?" Joe's voice softened.

"Yes," I nodded, "This is a fling. I was too naive to notice."

"Then this is it, isn't it?"

"This is what?"

"The end." I could barely nod. Even in the middle of the night, with tears blurring my vision, Joe looked stunning. All of his features were illuminated making my heart ache even more. This is all my fault. "I do love you Riley. It's a shame you don't believe me." His voice cracked and I noticed he was crying. This only made my tears come faster.

"I love you too Joe. But this relationship can't survive on love alone."

"There's no way to stop this is there?"

"No. We knew it would end this way. It's just earlier than expected. Now you can marry Vanessa and be happy with her. Live your fairy tale life and forget about me."

"What if I don't want to forget?" Joe reached for my hand and as much as I wanted him to hold it, I pushed it away.

"You're going to have to. You have to marry Vanessa and I have to disappear from your heart."

"This isn't what's supposed to happen. We are not meant to say goodbye."

"Yes we are." I sobbed and Joe stood there silently. We should have never said hello.

"If this is what you want, then I have to let you go." I don't want this. "I love you so much Riley and all of this is my fault. I should've called off the wed-"

"No. This break-up lies solely upon my shoulders."

"I can't let you take the blame."

"You have too. It's my fault and I'm sorry you wasted your time with me and risked your relationship with Vanessa."

"This wasn't a waste of time."

"That's what you say now." Joe gently brushed away my tears with his thumbs.

"Goodbye Riley." His voice cracked as tears slid down his cheeks.

"Bye Joe." We hugged each other and Joe buried his face in my neck like he always does. I'll never feel that again. I'm truly losing him. I struggled with myself as I let him go. Why am I doing this? He looked completely devastated. I'm letting you live the life you're supposed to live. You're going to have your trophy wife, huge mansion, and everything you ever wanted. With me there would be nothing and I can't let that happen to you. You don't deserve me, you deserve her, amazing and wonderful Vanessa. Before we could say or do anything else, I ran away. I ran back to the cabin. I ran into my room and sobbed openly. This is really over. I ruined this thinking I was protecting me, but deep down I knew this affair with Joe would never last. I wouldn't let it. Joe is better off with her. I know it and he knows it. Who knew goodbye could hurt so much? I said I wanted this and now I have to deal with it.