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School
Mikan's POV:

I guess I really woke up on the wrong side of bed today. My hair looks like an insect house; thank God I don't care about how I look though. Yes I am awesome, don't need to tell me.

Sumire finally explained to me how she knows Koko, apparently they met before.

I peeked out to see if the Drama Queen was coming anytime soon, then I heard clacks. Yup she's on her way in 5, 4, 3, 2…1. "Mikan look back and run back to your room and don't look back, I'll come right after you just move your buttocks now." She said with a face that could only be defined as ferociously furious. I didn't plan on questioning her and just turned at my heel and went upstairs. The floor was cold against me bare feet and I could hear Sumire's steps behind me. Something tells me she's not overjoyed about her visit here. I entered my room and sat down on my bean bag and waited for her. She was now visible to my sight and stood at my door with her Gucci Bag in her right arm.

"Some son of a bitch followed me all the way here. He was cute, but a complete barbaric scumbag. He had the nerve to whistle at me just because I dropped my wallet. DO I LOOK LIKE A FREAKING DOG? I don't think so. But that man-whore just had to be so… AARRGGG!"

So it was Koko she was having a tantrum over, what a coincidence ay? I know I'm supposed to be mad since he did kind of disrespect my best friend but c'mon, it was Koko! I am sure he has his reason. And being the nosy person Sumire knows me to be, she didn't stop me from asking him why.

"So I talked to Sumire the other day and she told me about how you guys know each other. I was wondering why you whistled at her when she dropped her wallet." I said trying to sound protective but I failed when I let a smile slip. Seeing a grumpy/ pissed off Permy was absolutely epic.
"Hahahah! You see Mikan; I didn't mean to offend her it's just that she didn't even notice her wallet fall out of her bag. And I was holding my guitar at the time and I doubt she would have turned back if I shouted 'hey you!' So I whistled instead." He said in a masterly-fact manner while looking like a philosopher.

Permy is such a teenage drama queen.

We were in English class waiting for Narumi to come, though I quite enjoy the company of Koko. I look over to Anna and Nonoko who were talking about how fat they were getting with their grandmother in town. I see Hotaru torturing Ruka who looked like he was going to cry a river any moment. They my gaze falls on Hyuuga, who was staring right back at me. Is my heart made of ice? Cause I can feel it melt. Ok that was corny as fuck.

He had his chin in between his hands while his elbows were vertically placed on his desk. After a good and long 5 seconds. He broke our stare and looked at the front of the class.
Narumi enters with a big smile on his face. He was in a white blouse and purple jeans. Yes I literally mean blouse.

"Good morning my lovely little monsters!" he waved his hands around.
The whole class grunted with a 'hn'. Remind you of someone?

"I know all of you are busy with the movie making and everything. But this is high school so let me lay the pressure of you guys ok?" Are you serious? How can he say that but sound so nice at the same time?
"The report is due tomorrow...-"
"WHAT?" the class said in union, including me.
"Don't worry my sweeties; you'll have a partner to help you with it. Wont that be fun?" he said. Narumi's voice is really starting to bug me.

"Ok! So Anna your partner is…Yuuki
Nonoko with Daimon
Hotaru with Ruka
Mikan with Natsume
Luna with Koko
…."

It kind of went like 'blah-blah' after I heard that Natsume is my partner. Great I have a condescending bastard for a partner. A flash back of that burger incident came to my mind. I take a peek at Hyuuga from the side of my eye, he was asleep. Maybe it won't be that bad.

After school.

I take back every word and breathe I did during English class about even thinking that Hyuuga was a decent person. I felt my blood boil to the max. That creature left me to do all the work for this shit? Bitch hell no and I doing all the work and splitting up the glory!
He had the nerve to tell me to "I know you can handle it babe". Babe his forsaken ass!

And so it leads me to this picture. Me stomping my way to the soccer field to find the wondrous Natsume Hyuuga and get his pretty self to do the report with me. I open the doors to hear screams from every single angle possible. Wow. This is just practice; I wonder how much more they scream if it was an actual game. I don't get why the principal even allows the girls to stay and stalk while the guys practice. Annoying much?
I survived all the pushing and insults I got from the girls as I strived to get to the front. When I FINALLY somehow got there, Ruka saw me struggling and gave me a generous hand and pulled me.

"Sakura! You are such a whore! Get your hands off Ruka!" some girl screamed followed by a "hell yeah" from the surrounding girls.

I did the mature thing and just acted like I didn't give a shit, Ruka smiled at my maturity.

"Where is your rubbish best friend?" I screamed into his ear in hopes he heard me. He smirked at me and pointed somewhere into the field.
I followed his gaze and let's say I was… dazzled!

I saw Hyuuga, he was shirtless. The sweat that dripped from the tip of his bangs when he moved his head. The way his muscles contracted with each other. How serious the passions in his eyes were. He wouldn't let the ball pass to anyone other than him. It seemed like his team mates didn't mind as long as he scored too. He was almost tackled but managed without effort to move swiftly to the right and there you have it. The practice game was over, Natsume once again sent the crowd of girls screaming his name over and over again. Psh. How annoying.

He walked towards me and Ruka breathing heavily. He grabbed a towel from his bag that was on the bench and wiped his sweat away. Did he just completely ignore me?

"Hyuuga, I am not going to do this report alone so you are going to help me or I swear I –" I was cut off.
"Ok, let me just take a shower" he said annoyingly, towel clinging on to his neck. He went to the boy's bathroom and so did the rest of the soccer team.

I sat on the bench and waited patiently for Hyuuga. I stared at the field because there was nothing better to stare at when I thought I heard some behind me.

"Hello my love~" it sang to me like the devil was inside him. I felt my whole body freeze. Beads of bleak sweat started to form on my forehead. My mouth went dry and everything went wavy. My vision is doubled.
Suddenly I felt arms around me and they were big, just his were. These hands that once touched me in a taunting way. Those hands that made me feel dirty, no matter how many times I scrap my skin I would still feel his touch on me.
He had his head nuzzled in my neck, he slowly lifted his head where his lips were against my ear.
"I've missed you…" he cooed like it was funny.

"Sakura!" I heard a voice ahead of me. I tried with all my will to look up only to look back down because it was too bright. Wait why is it bright…? Why is he even here?

My eyes shoot open like lightning bolts sent from Zeus. I felt the hard wood of the bench that I was ostensibly lying on. I couldn't see straight but I saw a shade of red and that was enough for me to know who it was.

"Mikan are you ok?" Natsume said, I didn't miss the trace of genuine concern in his voice.
I sat up and rubbed my eyes hard; I felt the liquid that couldn't get out because I was asleep. Why did he appear in my dream, no it was a nightmare. I look at my arms to see goose bumps everywhere. I didn't answer directly but I had too eventually.

"Let's just go already Hyuuga, we have a load of shit ass work to do" I say in a manner that was a bit more of me. He examined me for a bit from head to toe.
"Hyuuga, are you checking me out?" I say giving him the peculiar look.
"You wish I would take a second look at you lil girl." He smirked. That's good he let the awkwardness go.

We went to my house, as expected and started doing our report. We both didn't know much about our topic so we decided to do some research. I was sitting on my bean bag while Hyuuga was lying on my bed.

Honestly, I realized I would have liked it if Hyuuga not take a peek at me every 3 minutes. I shifted in my beanie but it still felt uncomfortable. There is no tension it's just maladroit.
"Hey, you want something to drink?" I ask.
"Yeah sure."
"Is hot chocolate ok?" I asked while getting up from my beanie

He nodded and continued to read his book. I walked out the door and a gush of relief entered my body.
I took out two mugs, some cocoa powder and milk powder. I pour in a generous amount of hot water and start to stir it up.

"You know what Sakura?" Hyuuga's voice startled me. He was standing behind me by the kitchen door.
"Don't scare me like that you idiot! And yeah, what?" I tried to show least interested and I did!
I heard him take a few steps towards me; I felt his tall build behind my back. For some reason his body was always warm. Not like the Jacob black warm but it was just cozy. I could hear his breathing, how his ribs contracted.

I was still stirring the hot chocolate even though I knew it was well mixed. I felt his hands go around my waist. They were quite big. I then felt his lips slowly leave kisses from my lower neck going up until he reached my ear.
"I've never been to a girl's house and not anything intense with them except you" his husky voice murmured sexily in my ear.
I felt his grip tighten in around my waist .

I know what you guys are thinking, that I would so turned on right now and just do the guy like any other girl would do. But not me…

"Hyuuga don't fucking touch me." I told him with my eyes closed, I was surprised by the coldness in my voice. He couldn't see me but I knew that he knew I was serious.
"What if I don't?" he said mockingly.

SLAP!

I felt my whole body lose its balance and my eyes couldn't hold it back, so I just let them fall. I hugged myself tight trying to control my shivering form. Through the tears, even if my vision is blurred, for the first time I saw Hyuuga shock and a bit worried about someone.
I am shaking tremendously, down on the floor. I felt Hyuuga try to hold my shoulder but I just slapped it away.
"Natsume…" I quivered. I could barely look at him.
He didn't say anything buy just stared at me with a poker face. I forced myself to look at him. Those ruby eyes that pierced my soul, but even through this entire malady I felt like I belonged to him when he looked at me. But right now not even those eyes could make me forget about what happened that night.
"I'm…tainted enough…don't ever lay a single finger on me ever again" my voice cracked in the middle. I felt stupid.
Hyuuga just walked out of the door.

I was left there with my head between my legs and my arms hugging my knees. It was like reliving the past again. I felt dirty. How could I let a guy so vile touch me? How could I let my guard down? How was I so blind to the fact that he was just a criminal on the loose? Worst of all was, how could I let him do that to my best friend? If only I had warned her, she would be with my right now. She would fucking still be alive and laughing with me right now.
It's my entire fault…it's all my fault…

I couldn't take it anymore… the pain was just to excruciating to ignore. I have to get it out. I have to let the pain leave…
I stumbled a few times trying to get up. When I was standing I opened up a drawer where utensils were kept. I saw a sharp knife, I force my shaky hands to hold it steady. I bring it close to my wrist, just then a strad of my hair got in the way as if trying to stop me from doing this. This is the only way… I want the aching to stop. I want to scrape off my skin because of how dirty it feels. Just when I was about to do it I saw something shine at the side of my eye. I turn to that direction and see my reflection on the metal frying pan that hung by the wall.
I saw how useless and agitated I looked. I looked like a mental person who ran away from the hospital.

"MIKAN SAKURA!" I heard a voice from the door. I swiftly turn my head and see Permy standing that fear evident in her eyes. Must be because of the knife I'm holding against my wrist.
"Please Mikan, don't do this…put the knife down and I promise everything will be alright." Tears started to form in her eyes.
"How can you saw that everything will be alright?" I smiled at her. Her eyes widened as she looked at me helplessly.
I look at the wall, fresh tears forming again.
"He took my dignity Sumire… moreover he took my best friend away from me…I'm the fucking reason she killed herself. How long do I have to live like this? How long do I have to pretend that everything is just glamorous huh?" I don't even know who I'm talking too anymore.

"It's not your fault Mikan, it was her choice whether or not to kill herself. Just because she did does not mean you need to follow her footsteps!" she yelled at me.
I look at her, I didn't know what I was looking for but then I saw Hyuuga standing behind me. I felt my mind pounding like a drum.
"Help me…" is the last thing I said before I blacked out.
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Natsume's POV:
At the Hospital.

I never thought mi-Sakura was the suicidal type of person. Yeah sure she's a lil off but I did not see that coming. And fucking hell the guilt was eating my brain. I called Sumire up cause I was abit worried, like she'll ever know that thought. And when we went back to her house she was holding a damn knife ready to cut herself.
I was standing a few feet away from her bed. Sumire was by her right side holding her hand and crying softly. I gave then their space and decided to wait outside the room. It hurt seeing her in that condition. For the first time in my life I actually got scared of losing a person. I place my hands behind my head and bend down.

The look in Mikan's eyes… they were so hurt. I can't help but run the words she said over and over again in my head. Who was he referred too?
I let out a long sigh.

"Thanks for telling my Hyuuga. Who knows what would have happened if you didn't call me." Sumire said as she quietly shut the door.
"Sumire I think you know I'm not the nosy person but why is she the way she is? She looked so frightened when I touched her and she usually does not do that." I remembered the other times I held her.

I observed Sumire I saw her hands fidgeting with her skirt. She knew what it was but she didn't if I should know.
"Do you really want to know?" she said looking at her hands like it was diamonds.
I waited for her to continue.

"Mi…Mikan was raped by her best friends boyfriend."

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I hope you guys like this chapter! Sorry if there are any spelling mistakes…

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Nikki