We returned to the ship the moment I made sure that my brother had forgotten everything, tired, wanting to give the explanations that I should, however, Zale left without speaking to me, so I advanced through the ship to reach the throne room, standing with my mother, whom I looked at for a couple of seconds before bowing my head.
"Are you okay?" I heard her ask me, which made me nod. "Has something happened?" She questioned, but despite wanting to tell her that I had seen Mon-el, I held back, shaking my head.
I sighed, maybe I should do it, maybe I should apologize to her, but doing so meant having to retract everything I had said earlier, for as much as I had said things wrong, there were others that had not been.
"I think I owe you an apology, Mother," I whispered, finally approaching her, getting her to look at me in surprise. "I shouldn't have ... I shouldn't have told you these things," I began. "You may not be my biological mother, but you're my mother" I looked directly into her eyes. "You gave me a home, you raised me ... you couldn't have done it, but you recognized me as your daughter without having to do it" I said, "You said that I chose you, but I don't think that would have been enough ... I mean ... you wanted to, too," I said, looking at her, waiting for her to respond.
"Apologies are accepted, little one." She smiled slightly as she brushed the hair off my face. "I understand you don't want to leave here, Mya, that she's something important to you and I'd like to offer you a deal," she said," I can't force you to return to Daxam, I will not do it, it's more when Cadmus stops acting, I intend to allow you to stay here with them, but I still need an heir" she explained watching me, but I could not decide to speak. "You can talk to Zale and think about it, "she said.
"I don't think he wants to talk to me right now," I said in a whisper.
"Try it, little one." She tried to cheer me up before holding me close to her.
I allowed her to hold me for a couple of seconds, pulling me away from her to advance in my search, but the truth was that I felt that it was going to be difficult for him to listen to me, much more after how he had looked at me the last time.
I entered the room without being sure if he would be here, watching him sitting on the bed with his head buried in his hands, not lifting it to look at me, only pulling away the moment I sat next to him, so I closed my eyes and let me fall on the bed.
"I don't know who I'm most angry with," he said, getting me to look at him with icomprension. "Obviously I need your explanations, but I'm aware that I could have stopped it." He looked at me for the first time. "I knew all this was too much for you and I didn't do anything to prevent it, I allowed it to continue" he blamed himself.
"No, Zale, don't blame yourself for this," I asked, getting closer to him. "It was I who made that decision, not you," I pointed out. "There was a time when all this was up to me, I thought it was the easy way to end this, "I began to cry." I'm sorry, I'm sorry for putting you in that situation. "I looked at him through tears.
"Shh, calm down, honey, it's all right, you're okay," he whispered, hugging me. "I'm sorry you had to face your brother," he commented to me, shrugging my shoulders.
"My mother says she'll allow us to stay as long as she has an heir to take back to Daxam, to reign," I explained. "I don't know what to do," I admitted in a whisper.
"When would that be?" He asked, raising my face.
"I don't know, we have to take into account how fast my hair grow and how fast they stop CADMUS" I replied hugging him even more.
Zale hugged me back, holding me close to him before forcing me to lie down, resting my head on his chest as I relaxed with his touch, closing my eyes sleepily.
"It's going to be all right, Mya" he kissed my forehead.
It had taken three years to finish with CADMUS, during which we had remained in the ship, although I had to admit that I had been allowed to stay as long as I had wanted and had been possible at Beth's house, it could be said that recovering the lost years.
I looked at Zale without hiding the smile, watching as he remained asleep, so I could not help caressing his hair as he began to try to open his eyes, to look at me.
"Hey" he smiled grabbing the hand I had on his hair, locking it between his own before pulling me towards him to hug me "How are you?" He asked worriedly.
"Nervous," I answered sincerely, allowing him to hug me.
"Me too" he whispered kissing my hair.
When we reached the throne room, my mother was waiting for us there, smiling at us both the moment she saw us there. I grabbed Zale's hand unconsciously, trying to be as relaxed as possible, especially as I followed my mother to the lab, feeling my nervousness increase at times.
I felt him grip me hard the moment we were there, waiting for them to let us in.
"Are you ready to meet the babies?" My mother asked.
"Babies?" At that moment I was completely lost.
"Yes, little one, they're twins," she said to my surprise, even to Zale's.
I nodded slightly despite not being, advancing along with her inside, stopping us the moment I saw the incubators of the babies, having to close my eyes to relax, wanting to prevent the tears I stored in them to go outside. However, the moment I felt Zale's arms around me, I allowed tears to slip down my cheeks, not wanting to face that moment, noting how he wiped them dry before kissing my forehead and asking me to relax, a fact that I really tried, although I did not get it. Finally I followed my mother to approach me, watching them, identical twins, there was no doubt about it.
"One of them will return to Daxam with me and the other will stay here with you, it is your decision," she explained. "The names also are." She smiled slightly.
"Jax and ..." I looked at Zale without knowing another name to choose.
"Zander" he completed with a smile.
"Can I hold them?" I questioned doubtfully, wishing I could.
"I would advise you not to fancy yourself with both," my mother warned me, nodding.
However, I wanted to catch them both equally, for I knew that I would not be able to bear the fact that I had not held my son for one time.
I hugged him slightly feeling as he placed his hands on my face, which only managed to make me cry as a smile was drawn on my face.
"You will make the difference when you reign in Daxam, little one" I started to whisper. "I trust in you to do it, you are the future and I know that your grandmother is going to take care of you, but do not let her guide you in a bad way, because in some moments she can do it" I caressed his face, listening to my mother's laughter in the background, but I did not stop. "Remember that we adore you little, your father, your brother and I, that we will always be there" I kissed his forehead before to turn to Zale "Can you hold him?" I asked, leaving him in his arms.
I approached my mother with the intention of saying goodbye to her, because yes, today would be the last day I would see her and, as hard as I could not recognize it, I would miss her.
Without even saying anything, I hugged her without being able to hold back the tears any longer, sobbing over her shoulder as she stroked my hair without allowing herself to cry.
"Thank you," I whispered, pulling me away from her. "Take care of him, please, you're taking a part of me and I just want to make sure it's going to be okay." I looked her straight in the eye.
"It's going to be okay, little one" she wiped my tears. "Are you going to live with your mother?" She asked, so I shook my head.
"We're going to Metropolis, I still need time," I said in a whisper. "I think I'm going to miss all of this," I said, threatening to cry again.
"Hey, I'm going to miss it, too," she said, turning to hug me. "Especially being able to keep you close, Little one" She brushed her hair away from my face. "Greet your brother for me, okay?" She asked.
I nodded slightly with a small smile, losing it the moment she beckoned Zale to come closer, which made the tears return to my eyes.
I took the little boy in my arms, feeling as Zale surrounded me in turn with his, keeping me close to him.
I kissed his forehead as I watched him again, grabbing his hand, watching as he encircled my finger, clinging to him as if he was asking us not to do it.
"We adore you, buddy" I whispered." Make a difference, Zander. "I stroked his face before giving him to my mother, feeling tears streaming down my cheeks.
"It's time, Little one," my mother whispered to what I nodded slightly, embracing Zale, burying my face in his chest, because I could not continue with this.
I knew we were no longer on the ship, the moment I heard him whisper to reassure me, that everything was going to be all right, although I was aware that he was just as shattered as I was.
However, when he separated me, he forced himself to smile, but his eyes said the opposite, indeed, the tears threatened to leave them.
"Mya, he's going to reign as he should" he stroked my hair. "We have to focus on Jax, okay?" He grabbed my face, getting me to nod, even though I knew I could not easily forget the fact that one of my babies was going to be so far away from me, even though I knew that it would be all right, but I still had the feeling that they were taking a part of me.
Thanks for reading,
Ayrin