A.N: IMPORTANT- BEFORE YOU READ
1) Over the next days, I'm going to be correcting previous chapters (the best I can) and I will fuse the first and second chapters since it was supposedly to be like that initially and I just forgot. So even though this is the 11th chapter, I will change it later, and it will become the 10th but the story is just the same.
2) I don't mind you guys pointing out typos, as I've said in the past, I don't have much time to write nowadays and correcting chapters gets totally postponed to second place, so any help of yours is wonderful.
3) And last point, warnings include, as usual, swearing and sexyness between two very sexy gentlemen.
Enjoy the chapter!
[10]
He felt around the bed for another body and just found an empty cold place where Naruto should've been. No lingering warmth so he must've had left long ago. Kakashi threw his legs off the bed and dropped his head on his knees. He had imagined so many scenarios once he got to the mist and he couldn't have predicted this one. He couldn't have predicted he would fuck up another time. No one was perfect, people made mistakes, but Kakashi had to have pissed off some God. He had managed to singlehandedly not only put himself at danger but others as well because of his own choices, he had ended up in situations that amazed him and right now he had managed to ruin the one relationship he had.
Sighing he realized he needed a bath, during the night the nightmares and all that turning around in the covers had built him a nice layer of cold sweat, and the mist wasn't known for its exotic and welcoming weather. Problem was, he didn't know the layout of this house, he didn't know where the bathroom was and he didn't exactly have a change of clothes to change into. Though, opening a drawer he figured clothes were the lesser of his problems, unless Naruto was really petty when he got angry. Kakashi smirked, he doubted Naruto to be like that, even when he was mad at his friends. He got up and walked to the door, opening it and examining the outside, the coast seemed clear and looking up at the roofs he saw no Anbu or any of Sutomu's men. Walking out he headed for the only room in the mansion he knew of.
'This house must've cost a hell of a deal to Tsunade' Kakashi thought 'this is huge.' He looked at the gardens, which extended way past the limits of the strong stone walls that protected the house. He noticed that near their room there was a small lake surrounded by bushes and flowers, it had a rather calming effect. Maybe that was why Naruto had chosen that room.
As he got nearer the main room of the house, Kakashi began to hear Sasuke and Naruto's voices as they discussed loudly.
"Look here dobe! Whether you want or not, the two of them are useful here. Their expertise will help us plan out our attacks and defenses. They fought this guy already, they know more than us. Yamato is out of his leave already and already serving as Anbu, and judging by the time the mission is taking we can wait for Kakashi's chakra to return to normal."
"Kakashi is not staying here, are you made you bastard?!" Naruto yelled loudly and a crash was heard from the room "he is not fighting with us, how can you even decide that?! Look at him! He's not fully recovered yet, if he had to use ninjutsu he would likely pass out!" Kakashi dreaded being talked about as if he were a weakling. A slight pause in the discussion, most likely Sasuke waiting for Sakura to say something.
"He's right Sasuke." She sighed "Kakashi's sensei chakra has to completely renew itself, in a normal male adult that process will take weeks but it's impossible to tell you just how many those will be, it depends on many factors."
"Kakashi is not staying here, that's not even up for discussion. If he gets hurt that's on us."
"Fine, we'll send message when the next messenger comes by." Kakashi heard a chair scratching against the floor and a huge annoyed groan and suddenly he was facing Sasuke's face. Sasuke quickly closed the door behind him before anyone noticed he was there.
"Here's the deal sensei, in two days the ninja that takes our letters back to Konoha will come and very likely you will go with him." Sasuke stared at him in annoyance "Now, I know you won't go but I'm saving us all time and telling you to fix your quarrel with Naruto. Find a way to convince him or he'll personally take your ass back to Konoha if needed." Sasuke brushed pass Kakashi leaving him slightly confused. Sasuke wanting his help was definitely a new thing, so was Naruto wanting him to leave. Oddly enough it seemed to hurt him at a personal level, he even felt a bit ridiculous when he felt hurt that Naruto hadn't been against Yamato staying and he had been in the hospital as well.
He opened the sliding door and closed it behind him, immediately he felt a change in the atmosphere, Naruto and Sakura had been talking cheerily and seconds later a second person was excusing himself from the table. Kakashi stared at Naruto's back as the blonde left the room in a hurry. He felt his chest tighten and his eyes watering slightly. He wasn't used to have the blonde reacting in this way towards him. It was like the clouds had covered the sun and left him in a cold dark place he didn't want to be in. Sakura had a pitying look on her face but still smiled and mentioned for Kakashi to sit.
"You two… are definitely something I didn't expect." She chuckled as she gave Kakashi a serving for breakfast. Kakashi looked at her surprised "what? A girl catches on quickly." And remained silent while she talked. What was the point? At the moment it didn't seem like there was anything to talk about, maybe previously, but now Naruto didn't even want to be in the same room as him "You're over thinking sensei, Naruto's just sulking. You both do that. You think so much about what you should do, that you don't stop to think about each other's feelings." Kakashi glanced at Sakura as she hit the bull's eye "I'm guessing you did something you shouldn't have. That's just usual relationship problems…" she smiled awkwardly, leading Kakashi to think she was talking from personal experience "But if you had been the only one… you would've had apologized and everything would be fine, so the idiot probably didn't something he shouldn't have as well." She sighed "Think about him too sensei… and you'll solve your problem. Sasuke might seem like a jerk sometimes…" Kakashi raised his eyebrows making Sakura let go of a smirk "but he wants you two to be well because he cares about Naruto…and he cares about you too." Kakashi pondered on what Sakura had told him. Think about him too, had he really been doing that? Or had he just thought about himself? The answer seemed rather obvious to Kakashi.
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"You're working as Anbu?" Kakashi sat on the stairs to the garden next to Yamato as the younger ninja drank a warm coffee.
"Hai. Thankfully Sasuke named me their guard so I don't have to go around pretending to be their servant. The Anbu squads are pretty pissed about that." He laughed and Kakashi joined in. They sat in silence for a while until Yamato talked again.
"Kakashi… what do you feel about Naruto-kun?" Yamato's voice was driven with seriousness. There was not a slight hint of the amusement it had felt just moments ago. Kakashi carefully leaned his head against the wooden pillar and closed his eyes. He breathed in the air of the cold morning and the smell of Yamato's coffee. That was a good question. One he should've had given more thought about "Kakashi?" A rush of wind told him Yamato had changed his position, probably facing him since the lack of an answer.
"I don't know." Kakashi answered truthfully.
"That's not really an answer. And I'm not sure if-"
"But I think I'm beginning to understand it." Kakashi interrupted, opening his eyes. In front of them it had started to snow. They watched as the snowflakes fell and slowly the ground went from green to completely covered in white. Yamato looked at him once again and smiled.
"You're an idiot senpai- And a bad liar." Yamato hurried.
"A liar?"
"You lied to me. But more importantly… you lied to yourself." He snorted and drank his coffee, quickly warming his hands around the mug and smiling "Ah… I wonder if Nanami-chan misses me."
Kakashi smiled.
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"Naruto!" Kakashi called, he'd been trying to get a hold of the blonde the whole day and much to his annoyance the younger ninja had been outright ignoring him. He was damn tired of this, to be mad was one thing but to ignore him was a whole other level. He walked quickly, grabbed Naruto's wrist and pulled him into one of the rooms.
"This needs to stop." Kakashi saw Naruto's eyes for the first time that day, wild and angry, and it was probably one of the few times they'd been like that "You're acting like a kid!" Fire lit up in Naruto's eyes and Kakashi realized he shouldn't have used that term.
"You lied to me. You lied to get away from me." Naruto yelled.
"And you lied about coming here! You told everyone else to hide it from me!"
"That doesn't change anything, I came here to catch this guy, I came here for your sake and I lied because I didn't want you here. You are nothing more than a liability!"
"I'm not yours to protect you idiot!" Naruto ripped his wrist off Kakashi's hold and with a strong palm against Kakashi's chest he threw the older ninja to the floor. Kakashi tried to get up but as he did so, Naruto took hold of both his wrists and pinned him to the floor.
"You're not mine to protect because you're not mine at all." Naruto's voice filled with sorrow "did it make you feel better Kakashi? All that time having a stupid kid following you around saying he loved you, he wanted you. Did it make you feel proud of yourself?" Kakashi stared at Naruto's lips as he said those words "I doubted myself so many times during this, for what? To be lied to? You only cared about yourself Kakashi. So I'm asking you, did you have fun playing your game?" Naruto smirked sadly "You're going home in a few days, and after I'm done with this mission I'm leaving. You should've have stayed in Konoha that day, and I damn wished you had stayed there." Kakashi could swear he heard his heart breaking.
Naruto stood up, dusted off his clothes and opened the sliding the door of the room.
"Given the situation, please pack up your things and choose another room to sleep, sensei." Kakashi heard Naruto's steps but didn't get up. He just stayed, laying on the floor, looking up at the ceiling.
I wished you had stayed there
He felt his eyes watering. How had things gotten to this point?
"Senpai?" Yamato's voice came from the outside but Kakashi remained silent, not moving an inch "senpai! Are you alright?" He was shaken and slowly helped to stand on his elbows. Yamato sighed heavily "I saw Naruto leave and he seemed furious, I figured you guys had another discussion." Kakashi's eyes were set on the floor "I can't believe I'm asking this, but you're fine right? Nothing happened?" Kakashi shook his head but heard Yamato point out he had a small bruise on his right elbow, probably caused by the friction of the fall "I'll ask Sakura for something for that. C'mon up, I'm taking you to your room."
Kakashi heard this and alerted he began to let go of Yamato's arms "No. Do me a favor and go grab my things for me."
"What?"
"My clothes and my bag, take them from Naruto's room. He doesn't want me there anymore."
"What the hell happened between you two?"
"What should've been done since the beginning. There's nothing between us anymore." Kakashi's voice saddened just by pronouncing these words out loud, but it was true wasn't it? This was what should've happened since the start, Naruto would be better off without him.
Yamato slightly tapped him on the shoulder and pulled Kakashi's attention "You are so dense senpai."
"What are you talking about?"
"You're an idiot that's what I'm saying!" Yamato shouted startling Kakashi "I'm going to be clear. You feel something for Naruto, why are you letting him go?!"
"It's the best for him."
"And you're the one that gets to make that decision?" Yamato asked with indignation "the best for Naruto is whatever he wants. And he wants you. So stop being so stubborn!" Yamato helped Kakashi stand up and promptly headed for the exit "I'm not grabbing your things, you do it."
He left the room and Kakashi could hear him murmur under this breath.
"Damn idiots…"
I wished you had stayed there
The words kept replaying in his head, non-stop and louder each time. Kakashi reminded himself, all of it was for the best.
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Kakashi had settled with another room. He didn't have his things however, since Yamato had fully rejected it, and Kakashi didn't want to set a foot in Naruto's room, his things would probably remain there until Naruto threw them out. Luckily, his possessions only consisted of clothes and nothing very essential that he desperately needed.
A knock on the door followed by Sakura's voice alerted him, it was dinner time. He wasn't feeling very hungry but he figured the pink haired girl would become worried if he skipped the meal. Opening the door slightly he found her waiting with a smile. Her smile quickly disappeared when she took in his depressed features.
"Naruto's not there sensei, he asked for his meal to be taken to his room. Don't worry. Are you eating with us?" Kakashi didn't understand how that was supposed to cheer him up, nevertheless he gave her a small smile followed by a quick nod.
He followed her around the corridors quickly arriving to the table. Sasuke and Yamato were already sitting there, discussing plans and ideas, when the two of them arrived. They sat on the table and quickly Sasuke changed from their talk to address Kakashi.
"Sutomu is coming here tomorrow. He is only arriving at night and judging by what we have previously seen, he will hang around the place until late in the night." Kakashi noticed Yamato and Sakura turning their stares away and wondered why they were doing it "also" Sasuke continued "as I stated before. Naruto is the only one whose lack of presence is understandable and therefore you're staying with him tonight until Sutomu and his men leave the house." Kakashi grimaced awfully.
"I doubt he wants me in his room."
"I don't care, it's your problem." Sasuke answered back nonchalantly and just continued eating. Yamato and Sakura now looked back at him, sadness in their eyes. Kakashi sighed.
Kakashi woke up with a scream stuck in his throat. Steadying his breath he realized he had had another nightmare. But this one was different. He remembered clearly seeing the back of a black and orange jersey going away and no matter what he did or how fast he ran, the jersey kept getting further away until it just simply faded into the darkness.
I wish you would've stayed
He gave himself a tap on the head to wake up and got out of the bed. Sutomu was coming to the house after dinner. One of Sasuke's never ending pleasures was having to entertain the bastard every week or so to make acquaintances. In retrospective there was no way Kakashi was staying with Naruto. Things were bad as they were and they weren't in need of a whole night of discussions. By this time Naruto would've been warned by Sasuke already. Kakashi wondered how that particular discussion must've gone.
He grabbed his shirt from the chair and dressed it on. If he was planning on staying here he would be forced to buy a closet full of yukata worth for a year. Sasuke and Sakura were posing as completely normal people, therefore they wore normal clothes. Kakashi couldn't honestly point out the last time he had worn clothes that weren't part of a ninja's regulations. Unfortunately that also meant his wardrobe was full of Shinobi clothes.
He put on his shoes as he headed for another breakfast, which undoubtedly wouldn't have the blonde there. Again.
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It was 8 PM and Kakashi was sitting in his room reading an Icha Icha book. It wasn't his, it was Yamato's and he had stolen it as a small payback for not bringing his items back. Honestly this was one of the first books, and Kakashi could remember the phrases by heart, he was, in all honesty, very bored. Suddenly he felt a chakra spike and realized he wouldn't be bored for much longer. The sliding door opened with great strength and revealed an annoyed blonde.
"Why didn't you come to me?" He asked and Kakashi could tell he was refraining from being angry.
"Ma… Naruto-kun told me I wasn't allowed in his room so I stayed here."
"Don't play stupid Kakashi. You know this is not what I meant."
"That's sensei to you." Kakashi replied dead serious staring back at Naruto. The blonde sighed, and Kakashi could see his fist tightening around the frame of the door. He could've swore he saw a hint of reddish tint to Naruto's eyes before he blinked again.
"Get up, you're going to my room." Naruto ordered.
Kakashi had never liked being ordered around, and he definitely wasn't about to start "I don't think so."
"I wasn't asking, sensei."
"I know." This was going to be a hard night, Naruto sighed, walked a few steps to the bed, and before Kakashi knew what was happening he was thrown over Naruto's shoulders.
He was about to shout for the blonde to let go of him as Naruto spoke quickly "I wouldn't advise you to yell, since you wasted so much time, Sutomu and his men are here already and I don't want to fight today." Naruto ripped the sheets off the bed and threw them around Kakashi's figure "stay still please." Some of the anger in Naruto's voice was gone, and somehow that please Kakashi, even though he knew the younger ninja was still mad.
They walked silently through the corridor, Kakashi's brain marveled in the nostalgia of Naruto's warmth. He would miss this. The walk to Naruto's room seemed longer than he had remembered. Finally he was thrown to a bed and the sheet was removed. He didn't look at Naruto even though he felt his stare on him. He got up, grabbed his bag and took one of the most recent books of Icha Icha and just sat back again.
Not long after that Kakashi was falling asleep, as the Icha Icha book fell of his grip and allowed Naruto to finally watch the older ninja in peace. The slight trembling he noticed made him wonder whether Kakashi was still having those nightmares. He grabbed the book and dropped it on the desk, before exchanging his clothing. Looking back at Kakashi he realized the older ninja had been wearing a yukata, Sasuke must've given him one of his. Naruto only removed Kakashi's mask, allowing him to breath better as he slept. He stared at Kakashi's slender body and there was no denying the wave of lust that came over him. Except he did deny it, he lay down on his side of the bed and covered them both with the sheets before falling asleep himself.
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Kakashi woke up involved in cold sweat as he trembled. Now this nightmare he knew only too well. He knew coming here was a bad idea, he should've given it more importance but he couldn't think straight when his problems involved Naruto. He looked to the side and heard the blonde snoring lightly. He figured he was sleeping soundly and slid from the bed. Fresh air, yes, that was it, that would make his head better. The fact that these dreams were still happening, even sleeping next to Naruto, disgusted him to no end. Sutomu had to disappear this time. There were no limits to what he could do with drugs like those, no one he couldn't force to submit. Surely Kakashi hadn't been anything of an opponent that night.
Kakashi tripped on a step leading to the garden and fell, he noticed small drops of blood dripping from his knee where it had hit the floor but disregarded it but then he noticed his mask was gone. Reddening slightly he realized Naruto must've had took it. He sat near the lake and pulled his knee to his face, trying to see the damage done, he wasn't usually this clumsy, but even Hatake Kakashi was doomed to make mistakes every now and then, even if he had already filled his quota recently. He noticed the slight movement had left most of his leg exposed and firmly accepted this was one of the reasons he hated wearing these types of clothes.
"Oh my, what a pretty flower we have here." A dark laugh from behind him made Kakashi freeze as if his body had died "I always fancied that hair color." Kakashi's eyes filled with tears, this couldn't be happening, this had to be a nightmare! But he couldn't wake up- why wasn't he waking up?! Just let him wake up please!
"Won't you look at me you pretty thing? The Mayeda's didn't tell me someone like you was here." The sound of footsteps nearing made Kakashi shudder in fear "You don't need to be afraid!" he laughed again. The footsteps came up to a climax just behind Kakashi and he felt a heavy hand touch his shoulder.
"Won't you come with me-" Kakashi didn't look behind him, he didn't dare, but he didn't need to look to know who else had joined them.
"Oh, Kai-san, what a pleasure to see-"
"Take your hand off of him before I break it." Naruto's voice sounded surprisingly scary and its chill made Kakashi tremble, immediately he felt something drop on him and recognized it as the thin blanket on top of their bed. He wrapped himself up, covering the most of his face that he could. He couldn't let Sutomu know who he was, the field would transform into bloodshed over his stupid mistake.
"Now, now… That wouldn't be smart kid, you probably noticed I brought a lot of protection tonight."
Kakashi gulped, Naruto wouldn't be an idiot to- "Try me."
"Kai?" Sakura's voice interrupted their predicament, followed by Sasuke's.
"What's going on?"
"Ah, Mayeda-kun, nothing, it appears I just had a meeting with Kai's… lover I presume?" Sutomu chuckled.
"You presumed well, get away from him." The heavy hand was taken from his shoulder and one much warmer settled in, quickly calming him.
"Ah… Yes, you met Yuki-kun. I'm sorry, Yuki wasn't supposed to be wondering the garden at this hour and Kai was always very possessive of him.'
"Yuki-kun? Well now I understand why you wouldn't take my girls. You've found yourself something much better huh." Kakashi felt Naruto leave his side and suddenly there were lots of sharp breath intakes.
"Kai? What are you doing?"
"He's hurt, I can smell the blood, if you did anything to him I'll-" Kakashi stood up on shaky legs and threw his arms around Naruto's waist. Naruto let go of Sutomu's shirt and slowly turned to hear Kakashi, voice mortified, whispering lowly.
"I just fell. I'm sorry. Please." Naruto spared one last stare at Sutomu, who was grinning like an idiot and turned to Kakashi.
"Sutomu-kun, we still have business and lots of sake inside, let's go and leave these two alone. I'm sure they would prefer it."
"Surely."
The other three left and Sasuke sighed as he managed to avoid the first problem on their side, he knew having Kakashi here wouldn't be an advantage but a hindrance. He glanced at Naruto pleading him to take Kakashi inside and hide him for the rest of the time.
Naruto understood the stares Sasuke had been sending his way during the whole time, he turned at Kakashi and noticed the older ninja trembling. Of course the blanket wouldn't be enough, much less with what he was currently wearing underneath, he was supposed to be sleeping beside Naruto and underneath a couple more blankets. He mentioned for Kakashi to sit back again and when he did Naruto squatted in front of the man, lifting his leg on his lap. He inspected the knee, it appeared to be messier than it really was, especially since Kakashi had just smeared the blood on himself and the blanket. He sighed and looked at Kakashi's face.
"You're blushing. Why are you blushing?" Kakashi's startled face showed he didn't expect such a direct question from Naruto and he struggled to answer.
"Clothes…" Naruto heard Kakashi muttering and frowned looking at his own clothes.
"Huh? It's a standard male yukata from the mist." Kakashi looked to the side and ignored Naruto's confused face in favor of ignoring Naruto's stupidity.
"What? I'm not getting- oh" Kakashi glanced back and noticed how Naruto's eyes devoured him, how they took in his knee and just kept going up from there. He felt his body getting sensitive as it suddenly turned hot against the chilly windy night. Naruto gulped and softly dropped his leg on the grass and advanced, his body towering Kakashi's.
"You were angry at me." Kakashi's torso arched up as he leaned back and Naruto leaned forward. The awkwardness of doing this covered in a blanket wasn't lost to Kakashi who tried to unwrap himself from the blanket but was quickly stopped by Naruto.
"I still am, and don't take it out, the point is not showing your face sensei." Naruto grinned mischievously and finally managed to get Kakashi's body laying flat against the grass, underneath his "I have to thank you."
"T-thank me?" Kakashi's voice gagged as Naruto's whispered near his ear.
"Yes, now I won't have to reject Sutomu's offers again. By Kami I was tired of him offering me his girls." Naruto laughed and got off a slightly angry Kakashi.
"I bet you were really mad about that Naruto." Kakashi's distant voice made Naruto frown.
"Didn't you want to leave me? Why the hell does your voice sound angry?" Naruto asked.
"Because I am angry!"
"Why?!"
Yes, why? Why was Kakashi angry? He was feeling all these things, he was asking himself all these things and he had no answer for any of them. Why was he so rash when it came to Naruto? Why did all always choose the wrong options? Why was he so angry and why was he so happy about having the blonde finally next to him again? Why was he so reluctant to leave him and so worried about leaving him alone?
"Why did you come here for me Kakashi? Why did you leave Konoha that day to go after me?"
He wouldn't turn back home without Naruto, he remembered thinking that but at the time it was different than the reason he came after Naruto again.
"Kakashi."
"I wanted you to go away." Kakashi started, looking at Naruto with all the honestly he still had "I wanted you far away from me, the further the better. I kept pushing but every time you'd come back with your smile and your warmth and you just wouldn't care. I've done so many mistakes in my life and I don't know how you can just close your eyes to them. I'm not good for you. You deserve someone better." Naruto raised his head and looked at him like he hadn't in days, gone was the angry stare in the blonde's eyes "I didn't know what to do, what to say, what to- I don't understand myself, I'm angry, I want better for you and yet… I want everything I can get from you. I want all of you. I don't understand myself anymore, I'm doing all these mistakes and I'm not myself, I just can't think right when it's about-"
"Me?" Kakashi nodded struggling with his embarrassment "I wished you would've told me this sooner Kakashi." The blonde sighed and caressed his face "I wouldn't have hurt you like I did." Kakashi looked to the side "I'm like that too. I can't think right… I can't think at all when I'm deciding what to do about you." The blonde grinned and Kakashi's heart felt renovated from ashes "And if I'm not wrong… what you're describing seems like-"
"Is he alright? I brought some ointment for his knee!" Sakura's worried voice as she ran over to them interrupted Naruto.
"We will leave this for another time." Naruto whispered to him "Thank you Saku-" Sakura hit him on the head.
"You two are idiots! Sasuke rushed Sutomu to leave but you could've caused hell today!"
"Well-"
"She's right." Sasuke appeared from the edge of the corridor "I don't care about your lover's quarrels, but if you two mess up this bad again I'm sending a request to get you your own house. Go ruin someone else's mission." Naruto frowned taking the ointment from Sakura's hand "Also Kakashi, I already sent a letter to Shikamaru so he starts doing your fake identity. You got yourself into this."
"No-" Naruto started.
"You don't have any choice, next time lock him up inside the room. Sutomu took an interest to him and invited you two as a couple to his party."
"Easy, we're not going." Naruto answered back.
"I'll excuse you two from this one, but there will be others so be prepared. He's not leaving now." Sasuke turned around and Sakura followed him.
Naruto was visibly bothered by this and Kakashi frowned "I'm not a weakling Naruto, I'm a ninja as well." As if ignoring him, the blonde stood up and cooped him in his arms heading back to their room. As they headed back Naruto broke the silence.
"I'm not saying that." Kakashi frowned, remembering Naruto calling him a liability not too much ago "But I wanted to protect you. I wanted to be sure you were safe and this guy wasn't near you in anyway, ever again… How am I supposed to do that if you're now here? And now you'll even be forced to see him." Naruto said those words as if somehow he blamed himself over Kakashi's presence.
"Then realize I want to be here to make sure you're safe too. That's unfair of you too Naruto-kun." Kakashi rested his head against Naruto's chest and allowed himself this moment of calmness.
"I love you." Naruto stopped walking, but in contrast Kakashi's heart suddenly picked up"when I woke up and didn't see you by my side I felt like my life had drained away, when I remembered who was here, what he did to you, what he could've done, for a moment I just thought about killing him. And then there was the light in the tunnel, the star in the night, I had to find you, to make sure you were alright." Kakashi's eyes followed Naruto's lips as he muttered each word, sometimes choosing instead to look at Naruto's eyes "I love you Kakashi." Naruto chuckled "And that's why it hurt me that you ended up in this situation because of me. You said you only made mistakes, but would you have done that mistake if it weren't for me in the first place?" Then Kakashi realized what Naruto had meant when he said he had been doubting himself all that time, he truly had.
"That day wasn't your fault, and anyone else's but mine." Kakashi raised his hand and placed it on Naruto's cheek "I decided to go on the mission, I decided to stay and I decided not to call you right away. That said, it was my mistake."
Naruto smiled and kept walking "You made some stupid mistakes."
"You're telling me." Kakashi answered back.
Naruto entered their room and gently dropped Kakashi on the edge of the bed. Slowly he got on his knees and ripped a bit of his yukata, taking Kakashi's leg to clean the bloody mess on Kakashi's knee.
"I can do that on my own, Naruto-kun."
"You can, but I want to do it." Naruto opened the bottle and took a gentle amount smearing it on top of the cut. Slowly he applied it until his hand started roaming the rest of Kakashi's skin.
"Yuki huh? Snow… Snow pale skin. I was wondering why Sasuke gave you that fake name. Guess now I know why." He dropped down and kissed the skin on the inside of Kakashi's thigh, earning him a rather undignified yelp by Kakashi's part "I missed you." Naruto grinned and suddenly spread Kakashi's thighs pulling them around his waist.
"It doesn't sound like you're still mad Naruto-kun."
Naruto smiled and descended his torso flat against Kakashi's and kissed the grey haired ninja's neck "I've learned something that made me very, very happy." Kakashi was confused but threw his head back, subconsciously giving Naruto more free space to play.
"W-what?" Kakashi's struggle to form coherent words pleased Naruto to no end, maybe it was the acquired characteristics of his fox counterpart.
No, you're just a pervert
Naruto's laugh at Kurama's answer called Kakashi's attention "You'll learn it in some time. Now… I haven't seen you for weeks and I've been angry at you the past days." Naruto pushed Kakashi back and slid his knee between his thighs "I won't let you rest tonight sensei."
Kakashi gulped and pulled himself back on the bed, supporting his upper body on his elbows "We should sleep – ah!" Naruto's pushed his knee between Kakashi's legs, and his lips came around to bite the outer shell of Kakashi's ears.
"You can sleep the whole day today but now you're mine." Naruto pulled Kakashi's arms and put them around his neck "I missed your smell, your taste, your voice. I've gone crazy in here, alone and waiting to be back to Konoha and have you." The blonde grinned "I can't believe you actually thought I would leave you alone if you came to me." Kakashi stared at Naruto and realized how this situation resembled a naïve lamb that had willingly wondered into the God's abode to be sacrificed. Kakashi chuckled and smiled at Naruto. This idiot wouldn't change in a million years, but it was fine, more than fine, it was perfect. Kakashi let himself once more be pushed back but instead of resigning himself to be eaten alive by the wolf he decided Naruto had had his share already. He wrapped his legs around Naruto's waist and swiftly switched their positions leaving a startled Naruto beneath him.
"I thought you said you wouldn't let me rest Naruto-kun." Kakashi gave a slow roll of his hips and pulled a perfect groan from the bothered blonde. It didn't last long until Naruto's hands were slipping under the yukata and tightening around Kakashi's ass, grabbing it so strongly Kakashi was sure he'd have Naruto's handprints on his ass in the morning.
"Next time I'll take your underwear while you sleep, Kakashi!" Laughing Kakashi drew louder moans from Naruto each time he rolled his hips against the blonde's. Their erections started to become clear to both and Naruto's hands roamed on Kakashi's back until he found the linen edge of Kakashi's underwear and tugged it down forcefully making Kakashi stumble on top of him. Naruto snorted before Kakashi hit him on the head and rose on his knees, allowing Naruto to gently pull it.
"This would be a lot easier if I could just rip these." Naruto pointed out.
"Are you an animal?" Naruto opened up his mouth to answer "Don't answer that." He smirked. Kakashi grabbed the seemingly offensive item and threw it on the floor. Naruto leaned in his face, breathing in deeply, Naruto's warm breath ghosted over his sensitive skin and Kakashi trembled under his hold "I missed you." Naruto took hold of Kakashi's chin and turned his head until their eyes met. At this point the silence in the room was only broken by their heart hammering violently against their ribcages. Keeping the eye contact Naruto leaned in until their lips were touching, softly and slowly. Kakashi expected the rush he was always met with and found himself surprised with the sudden gentleness, with soft and smooth touches. It felt rather nice, and surely it was something he wasn't used to have. What was Naruto playing at? Not too soon he felt Naruto's hands room over his body, touching, feeling with confidence and a strong grip, and sometimes even wondering twice over the same spot as if checking every inch of Kakashi's skin. Naruto separated their lips for a quick second and opened the yukata that fell, revealing Kakashi's shoulders and chest, barely hiding any of Kakashi's body at this point. He stood naked before a fully dressed Naruto. Kakashi took in the lusty gaze Naruto sent over him and was soon taken in another long kiss, followed by another and another. And by Kami, Naruto had learned to dominate a kiss since their first sloppy kiss, he had learned just how to draw Kakashi to the limit and leave him breathless, he had learned to give out the perfect proportion of tongue strokes and the sharpness of biting Kakashi's under lip.
Along the needy moans Kakashi let go, he realized he hadn't been hearing Naruto at all, the blonde had been softly murmuring words in his ears every now and then. Naruto's hands went flat against Kakashi's shoulders blades.
"This yukata came really handy" he laughed "look at this –"he mentioned to Kakashi's waist "I'm unwrapping you like a gift." The blonde's dirty remarks made Kakashi's ears burn. They kissed for a while until Naruto finally decided the yukata was being a nuisance. He removed it completely and Kakashi couldn't suppress his shiver against the cold caused by his nudity.
"Is the room cold?" Kakashi nodded and Naruto began removing his clothes. Kakashi's heart kept beating against his chest. Curiously he had been the one that always ended up naked, but the the furthest he had seen Naruto was without his black undershirt. Naruto hadn't been wearing his usual jersey and the yukata from the mist town made him appear to be older and definitely a little more mature. Said yukata had just been dumped unceremoniously on the floor. Kakashi wondered if he should complain but at this point, did it really matter?
Naruto ran soft fingertips on his back and Kakashi stilled the desire to arch into his touch and just get lost. Once again, startled, Kakashi was flipped and his back met the soft mattress. Naruto leaned on Kakashi and there it was. That radiant warmth Kakashi had missing all those weeks. He threw his arms around Naruto's waist and pressed his face against the blonde's chest.
"Warmer?" he felt the resonating of Naruto's voice and the following chuckle "Yes." Naruto's fingertips now danced around his chest and he pulled back to grip Naruto's chin and pull him towards himself. Naruto smiled to him and moved his fingers down, as if trying to learn his skin by touch. By the end of this week Naruto would know his body with his eyes closed. Naruto's mouth connected with Kakashi's neck, who let out a little gasping moan. Naruto's hands were warm and setting the places he touched on fire, it was exquisite and surprising how he managed to do so, so easily. Naruto's lips moved down and he flicked his tongue over Kakashi's nipple. Kakashi let out a breath as a spark of electricity rushed down his spine and into his groin. As if he wasn't hard enough already. Kakashi wondered if he should be responding like this, Naruto was after all, doing nothing that hadn't been done to him already, only it had been women doing it in the past. But never had he felt so much pleasure for things as simple as touching him or kissing, he had never felt quite like this.
Naruto's mouth teased his nipples while Kakashi squirmed underneath him. Where had he learned to do this?
"Your skin is so creamy and nice." Naruto looked up at him "have I told you I love it yet?" he smirked. Kakashi made an effort to nod and gave up as Naruto's lips attached themselves to his nipples once more.
"S-stop…" Kakashi attempted to complain.
"Why?"
"It's already so sensitive there…"
"So you're telling me to move on?" Naruto grinned as Kakashi's eyes accused him, and ghosted his hands over Kakashi's hipbones. It was an area of Kakashi he found strangely attractive, and he would die before he admitted he had many times caught a glimpse of it as Kakashi changed shirts and dreamed of leaving his mark there. In fact, as he glanced at Kakashi he realized, the marks he had left from their previous encounter had left Kakashi's body long ago, but tonight they would return to decorate his beautiful white skin. There was nothing quite like the contrast of the reddish irritated marks and Kakashi's pale skin. Except maybe Kakashi's reaction to seeing them in the morning after. Naruto leaned his head and pressed his lips against the centre of Kakashi's stomach making sure to suck the skin lightly, overcoming the navel, and kept doing that until he got a little above the area Kakashi was just begging him to get to.
Cupping his hand behind Kakashi's neck, Naruto started a slow descending slide as Kakashi's body arched up, allowing Naruto to place a soft kiss on his navel. Kakashi bit a moan as that hand passed his bottom and pulled his thigh to once more spread around Naruto's waist. It seemed to Kakashi that Naruto had a thing about having Kakashi spread out to him. It embarrassed Kakashi how much he didn't care and actually got hot thinking about it. He didn't dislike it, he liked the pressure of Naruto's weight holding him against the bed, pressing against his hips, just as much as he liked the never ending warmth the blonde provided. Now that he thought about it he wasn't nowhere near being cold, but instead felt feverish warmth and wetness down his body. Naruto pulled back and pressed his legs between Kakashi's legs, intimately, knowing exactly the reaction he was looking for. Kakashi released a lovely groan and pushed back against Naruto, loving that his member was finally getting some attention. Kakashi kept pressing against Naruto but the friction just wasn't enough, he was still hot and needing, he needed Naruto to do something now.
"Naruto?" He called pleadingly. The blonde looked up at him and smiled mischievously, this was all part of his plan "hurry…" Kakashi complained, lifting his arm over to pull on the blonde's shoulder.
"Easy Kakashi, I'm getting there." Naruto went to work on Kakashi's chest and Kakashi settled back on the bed, angling up to give him easier access. Every time, almost against his will, loud groans were ripped off of him as Naruto found his newly discovered sensitive spots. Naruto was spending a vast amount of time exploring every single detail of Kakashi's body. He wanted to know all the spots that made Kakashi squirm, he also learned that Kakashi had a rather cute triangle of moles on the inside of his thighs. It was the little things such as this that Naruto wanted to know by memory. He was intent on tasting every bit of skin available to him.
Kakashi's head was officially going into overheating, with all that licking, biting and kissing, his body had gone from bothered to hyper sensitive. There wasn't a place that Naruto touched that didn't go into a frenzy of electricity on all of his nerves and immediately set on fire just to stop and start again. Naruto wasn't just teasing him, he was killing him.
"N-naruto…" Kakashi called over and over again. "Plea–ah!" Kakashi threw his head back so hard that if the sudden immense pleasure he was feeling wasn't there he could've swore he had broken his neck and died. He let a lust-filled moan so loud, as Naruto's mouth closed around him warning less, that he was sure everyone in the house had heard it. At this point he didn't care about Sasuke's smug face in the morning, just as long as that wet heat kept closing, and contorting around him. The pleasure washed over him like waves in the ocean, each one heavier than the previous and sending him soaring over it. He moaned again, thrusting his hips up, sliding deeper into Naruto's heat, unable to contain himself after all that time. Kakashi knew from the very moment he had dived into this that he would last little time. With a few thrusts he came and cried out loudly enough to feel mortified over the noise he had just made. But he was too gone, too gone to care about it. After a couple of seconds that felt more like hours, the pleasure haze dissipated and when it did he noticed Naruto smiling down at him.
"Was it good? It was my first time trying and I wasn't sure-" Kakashi nodded, refusing to acknowledge out loud that this kid had just made a complete moaning mess out of him "Good" Naruto answered back happily. Naruto's face took a puzzled luck as he figured what do to next. Kakashi noticed this confusion and felt ironically happy that the blonde was actually stopping to think about things. Reddening, Kakashi pulled Naruto to him and wrapped his legs around the blonde's waist, nudging Naruto's groin with his.
"It's your turn Naruto-kun." He called softly, smirking at the blonde above him. Naruto's confusion wasn't cleared out but slowly the blonde started reddening.
"Really? You want that?" The blonde struggled with his words as Kakashi rolled his hips against Naruto's "I didn't think you'd want to – and aren't you still recovering from your injuries? I don't know if we –"A lusty moan filled the room as Kakashi grinded harder.
"You're worrying about that now?" He asked amused.
"Well… yes, it would be…" Naruto paused as small, quick groans left his mouth "hard on your body- Kami!" Kakashi managed to smirk proudly. Kakashi lifted his arms and pulled Naruto to him and whispered on his ears.
"I'm letting you." Naruto's head went up at the speed of light. It was hard to miss the anxiety, the hope and the excitement in those eyes. And all of a sudden, the sadness as well. Kakashi was more than confused, didn't Naruto want this?
"I don't have the bag!" Naruto complained hitting his head against the mattress. Kakashi pulled him and asked him to be still.
"What bag?"
"It's still at your room…" Naruto's head fell against the mattress again with a loud thud.
"My room? Oh…" He meant that bag. Kakashi looked at Naruto's disappointed look and suddenly an idea came to his head. Oh he'd never hear the end of it.
"Naruto-kun." He called. Honestly he was still mortified by the idea of what he was about to ask, and he knew, he absolutely knew that it would become really obvious. And although it took some time convincing his own mind, one look at Naruto told him that it was more than necessary, he wanted it "Go ask Sakura for this…" he leaned over to whisper on Naruto's ears "tell her it's for my injuries and by Kami, convince her you I'm fine and I that I don't need her to check me." Naruto slid off the bed and grabbing his yukata, dressed it on with no effort whatsoever to put it out nicely. Kakashi winced at how obvious their activities would be from the state of his clothes. Still naked Kakashi pulled the sheets and fell back on the bed. Kami… his heart wouldn't stop beating. What was he doing? He was a long way ahead from the Kakashi from weeks ago.
Senpai should end it before it becomes more serious. Yamato's words echoed in his head.
Ne… You're really dense, it won't become serious- never. And so did his. But they were untrue, it had become more serious. His feelings had changed.
He'll want something more senpai.
Something more? Yes. Something more. Something more that Kakashi also wanted and was willing to give to Naruto. His heart was beating so fast against his chest it hurt. Was he realizing something?
You'll get tired –
That kid fought hell for you, made a two day trip back and forth in one.
I'd wake up one day to find you moved on –
You've been sleeping for almost 16 hours too. Naruto's been here for all those hours.
You don't know what you want –
I love you.
You want relief –
I felt like my life had drained away…
Something warm to fuck at night –
And then there was the light in the tunnel, the star in the night… I had to find you.
I'm too old for these jokes –
I'm not joking.
I'm just not the one –
I love you.
Kakashi's eyes filled with tears as he realized something he should have realized from the moment he made his first mistake. The reason for all these mistakes, the reason he was angry, the reason he was happy and the reason that no matter what he did, his heart wouldn't stop ramming against his chest every time Naruto smiled. At that moment, it was the legendary day Hatake Kakashi realized that, all costs and against all his wishes, he had, without any shade of doubt, fallen in love with the idiot, kind, hero of Konoha, Uzumaki Naruto. And suddenly, his heart skipped a beat. The realization fell on him. For the first time in his life he was… in love with someone.
The door opened and Naruto was back with a small vase in his hand. Kakashi reddened up looking at him. Somehow, the idea of what was about to happen, knowing he was in love with Naruto made him feel a hundred times more vulnerable. Naruto returned to bed and slid between the sheets returning to warm Kakashi's body.
"Are you sure?" Naruto's anxiety was clear and Kakashi nodded quickly he looked at the vase inquisitively and Naruto smiled "supposedly has numbing properties for the pain." Kakashi burned up, Sakura knew. Kakashi spread his legs once more and closed his eyes as he listened to Naruto opening up the ointment. A sleek finger pressed against him and he let out quite an embarrassing yelp.
"Alright?" Naruto's worried voice quickly followed, not moving.
"It's fine." Naruto kept moving inside of him, it wasn't painful, merely uncomfortable and odd in a way, Kakashi felt full as Naruto kept it going. After a moment it gradually became more tolerable. Eventually another finger followed and that one bordered on the painful side. Kakashi kept still, adjusting to the pain as Naruto noticed and caressed his skin, trying to appease the older ninja. Finally it turned into a strange mix of slightly bothering and pleasurable, Kakashi found himself releasing small moans as Naruto stretched him.
Eventually the fingers left him and Naruto pulled back. Kakashi took deep breaths as the blonde readied himself.
"If you turn around it won't hurt as much." Kakashi listened to the blonde's advice but shook his head. He gave no explanation to the confused blonde as he would never admit that he wanted to face Naruto as he did something so intimate as he was about to do. Naruto grabbed one of their pillows and softly lifted Kakashi just enough to put it under his hips. Kakashi pulled Naruto to kiss him deeply and just as the blonde pressed against him, his lips were the only thing keeping him from screaming.
Fuck. It hurt.
He honestly wanted to push Naruto off of him, but remained calm and took deep breaths. The look on his face must've been noticeable as Naruto stopped, already halfway into him.
"Are you hurt?" Naruto's worry filled voice was gentle on his ears and he smiled and shook his head.
"Keep going. Please." Naruto felt reluctant but pushed further inside Kakashi, going around with his hand to take the older ninja's member in his grip. Kakashi moaned, the pleasure served as a good counterpoint to the pain, and strangely enough made him feel better. Kakashi let himself relax and Naruto eased up a bit, sliding further and finally all the way inside. With his other hand Naruto took hold of Kakashi's hip and pulling away, he slowly slid back in another angle, the friction and pressure making Kakashi release a loud groan. This was a whole new experience for Kakashi, letting Naruto in and out of him felt strangely uncomfortable and good to the core of his being. The pleasure started to grow as Naruto rammed gradually stronger against him, Kakashi pushed back against him, wanting that deeper feeling.
Naruto felt warm heat and lovely tightness as he sank inside Kakashi's body, he was sure he wouldn't be able to endure it much more. Kakashi constricted around him, forcing him to grip the ninja's thigh each time he let go of a loud groan.
Just as the pleasure was starting to peak for both of them, Naruto managed to hit something inside that had Kakashi rolling his eyes back and his nails craving on Naruto's back "Again-oh please, again- there!" He didn't care how needy he sounded as long as Naruto hit that magical place inside of him again. And as sure as that, Naruto just kept perfectly sliding inside of him, hitting that place every time. This pleasure was nowhere comparable to anything he had ever felt, everything seemed so faint next to this. Each time Naruto pushed in, Kakashi moaned loudly, pleasure travelling on his veins to every inch of his system, setting him on never ending fire.
He prayed that it would never end but surely enough as he felt the pressure increasing, accumulating inside, his fingers gripped Naruto's back and his toes curled as he came, the blonde's name on his lips just right before he settled down on the bed, breathing heavily. He felt wetness inside of him and finally opened his eyes to see Naruto looking wore down as he struggled in order not to fall on Kakashi. Feeling Naruto pulling himself out was a strange feeling. The blonde lied down next to him, his breathing has hazardous as Kakashi's.
Finally, Naruto turned to Kakashi, kissing him deeply.
"I love you."
'I love you too' Kakashi thought, but for now he decided to just throw an arm over Naruto's arm chest, nuzzling the other's neck with his nose, before the both of them dozed off.
A.N: So yes, this just happened, late Christmas present I guess :') it was actually part of the reason I took so much to write this chapter. I hope you all enjoyed this it and if you'd like, leave a comment saying what your favorite part was *winks*.