Chapter 10
Chakotay stormed through the corridor heading towards B'elanna's location, following the computers tracking system he continued on to her quarters.
Chakotay pounded the chime, not bothering for a response he just waltzed straight in, heading for the replicator, from which he ordered a large glass of whisky.
"Come in Chakotay and please help yourself". B'elanna said sarcastically as she entered the room.
"SHE'S PREGNANT!" he shouted while draining the last of his whisky.
"What? Who?" she replied with a confused look on her face.
" Kathryn she's pregnant, this cannot be happening" he said while ordering another drink.
When he turned back to B'elanna, she had a stunned expression on her face.
She walked toward Chakotay took the glass off him, pushed him onto the couch and looked into his eyes.
" Did you just say the Captain is pregnant?" in a soft but firm tone.
" Yeah she's seven weeks and guess what? It's twins" he said in a raised voice while pushing himself further into the couch.
"Well what are you going to do now?" she said.
" What do you mean? What am I going to do? I'm doing nothing". He all but spat at her.
"What! You can't just do nothing these are your babies to aren't they?" she said getting right into his face.
"Yes they're mine" he said while pushing his hand through his hair.
" Well like I said, what are you going to do?"she said.
" Nothing" he said in a faint but stern voice.
"What about the Captain how is she?"she asked curiously.
" I don't know! she told me she was pregnant, we yelled at each other and I left her there in the briefing room."
He paused.
"The look on her face B'elanna I can't get it out of my head" he said.
" You're picking up a habit just leaving her Chakotay and it's not fair on her or the babies"she said.
" I had to leave be'lanna, I can't go through this again, I just can't" he said in a sad tone with the most faraway look in his eyes she has ever seen.
"What do you mean again Chakotay?"she said.
He looked straight up to her face with the most heart breaking look in his eyes.
"Just before I went to the the academy, a woman from my village who was called Tuka, the wife of my best friend, died just after giving birth, and my friend Kenai got killed in a shuttle accident three months before she was due. I was named as godfather and I adopted the boy he was called Chayton, it means falcon. When I was away the Cardassians came and destroyed my home, they killed my family. I found his body six weeks after the attack in a mass grave filled with woman and children, I had to identify is body through DNA records, he died of a phaser blast to the chest, still in his cowboy pyjamas I gave him. He was three years old. That was one of the main reasons why I resigned and went and joined the Maquis. I can't get attached my heart can't take it again". He said with tears running down his face and landing in his lap.
"Oh Chakotay I'm sorry I didn't know, but this could be your second chance with someone you love, because we both know you love her and she loves you so don't deny it" she said with tears from the story he just told.
" I can't deny it B'elanna, I do love her with everything in me, I love that woman so much that it scares me, I don't want to lose any more people I love"he said.
" But if you keep pushing her away and leaving her, you will lose her and that will hurt more because that would be your fault and no one else".
"But B'elanna I held her in my arms, I felt her lips on mine, her body underneath me and I was in complete heaven when she screamed my name. I had everything there within reach but when I realised I could have everything, I could also lose it and I can't do that to us both". He said with a blush coating his cheeks and his eyes sparkling as he went down memory lane.
He quickly wiped his eyes in his hands and stood up already heading for the door, he turned to B'elannna and thanked her for listening.
" Your welcome old man, any time my door is always open, but Chakotay how is she doing?she asked in a worried tone.
" I don't know Lanna," he said as he left.