Here goes another update I stayed up till like 2 am writing this for all my lovely fans out I would like to thank you all. This is all happening because of you guys. Enjoy.
OH AND BEFORE I FORGET I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA. GOT IT,GET IT, GOOD.
"Yes, Kikyo look at me look at how I have turned out. You may not remember me" Kikyo stared at the door in confusion it oddly seemed to her that she knew what it was talking about yet didn't know what she was talking about. "I am the door you should have taken 50 years ago."
Kikyo's eyes widened in fear, this path she was walking that seemed to go on forever was the 50 year gap that she never had. "I should have taken this path?" she said out loud. "Yes, this is what your future should have been like but you were a fool." Before Kikyo could protest the door starts to glow and she hears a loud thud. As the dust cleared and the bright light dimmed it revealed a now slightly open door. Kikyo stood there shock over-flowing her body, should she take the door or is it a trap?
"Enter me and see what your life could have been like 50 years ago if you hadn't died" She debated in her mind if she should enter did she really want to see what her life was like if she hadn't died? What if it is not what he planned to be? What if it showed her protecting the jewel until she died and Kaede took her place? She turned around to look down the now completely dark path she took before and ahead of her to the door now open. Before she entered she asked, "Why are you so scratched up and beaten? Has someone else tried to enter my door?"
The door let out a chuckle, "Not just anymore but that half demon that accompanies your lonely heart. He has tried to bring you back and relive that day hoping that you two would have the future you planned but all has failed. I have not seen that demon for almost 48 years." Kikyo's shoulder slumped down the thought of Inuyasha giving up on her hurt even though it was just the Inuyasha that lived in her heart. She took a step forward and placed her hand on the now open door.
Her fingers were inside the open door while her fist cupped the edge and begin to slowly creek it open. She walks in to a beautiful meadow with different colored flowers growing in every direction. Kikyo felt strange the tightening in her stomach told her she had been her before. She looked around trying to figure out how she knew this place. She searched high and she searched low walking into the endless valley. Her eye caught a hold of something, something white and black and maybe red. She spun her head to the figure to see herself standing there as if waiting for someone.
"What…the…" she whispered at the wind carried her words away. She stood there watching herself, she took a step forward and then another and another. Every step was carefully taken as if afraid she might fall and startle the imposter in front of her, "Who are you?" she calls out to the image in front of her. But the imposter seems unfazed by her presence she stands there as if she didn't hear any voices. Now Kikyo was standing behind her the woman made no movements as the real Kikyo behind there made it obvious she was there. "I asked who you were" Kikyo reaches out to touch the woman but her hand goes right through her and out the other end.
Kikyo retracts her arm back full speed trying to figure out what just happened. She once again tries to touch the figure but her hand goes right through her. It feels as if she was trying to grab air and lock it in her hand no matter how hard she tried she could not. She walks around the figure and stares at her features. She reaches out and tries to touch the girl's cheek. She looks at herself forgetting how she looked like. It has been so long since she was able to look at her face well face to face.
She saw how sad her face looked, how her age was kicking in and the worry lines outlined every inch. Her eyes looked puffy as if she hadn't gotten any sleep and her hair was tied up in it usual manner. She felt sorry for the face in front of her, she could feel the pain of this person just by looking at her face and then she remembered that she was looking at herself. She didn't like the way she looked, this person looked too sad and lonely it seemed as if she was carrying the world on her shoulders and she had no time for herself.
Kikyo could see right through, the act that she was putting on the act that she maybe a miko and she maybe tough but she could see the pain of being alone and just wanting a normal life plastered all over her face. She steps back to take a look at how her body was, she wasn't the one to complain because her body was okay well hidden behind the miko clothing. Her eyes grew in shock as she saw herself in front of her take out the Shikon no Tama. "This…this is the day 50 years ago" just as the sentence escaped her mouth she heard an all too familiar voice. "Kikyo…Kikyo I am here"
The real Kikyo turns to face the person in which the voice came from to see Inuyasha running full speed on all fours to her. She turns to face her old self to see that pain and anguish that outlined her face disappear and all the emotion that were held back released just by the sight of this demon. She wasn't the girl that Kikyo just saw 2 minutes go, no, this was a whole new Kikyo a Kikyo that she was afraid to show. She smiled at the thought of how much of an effect Inuyasha had on her.
She was truly free when she was with him, she didn't have to put on a charade just to be noticed by him, he loved her for her. For once she didn't have to be the miko that everyone wanted her to be because when she was with Inuyasha he made her feel like an everyday person. Inuyasha finally reached Kikyo and quickly embraced her and she returned the hug. Kikyo stood there watching as the heat enveloped her body as well. Oh how she missed Inuyasha, how she wish she could feel his arms around her protecting her like any man would for the woman they loved.
He pulled away and without the slightest hint bent down and kissed the woman in his arms. She pulled away and rested her head on his chest as he pulled her closer. "Kikyo…I made my decision and I chose to be with you. I am willing to become human so you and I can be together forever." The real Kikyo's head jerked up so fast that it felt it could fall off her shoulders at that moment.
She could not believe what she was hearing that was his decision but why are they doing this now? Naraku should have shown up and destroyed this blissful moment. She eyed the valley making sure that he was no where around. The eerie voice from before now returned as the world around her was on pause, the bees stopping buzzing and butterflies froze in place and the two lovers in front of her made no movements as the voice spoke, "Child this is what was supposed to happen 50 years ago…this is your past…this is what should have been but never has been."
The voice disappeared and the world begun to move again. The old Kikyo reached into her kimono sleeve and took out the jewel shard, she watched as Inuyasha eyed it with desire. "Are you sure that is what you want. I do not want to be the reason you regret losing your powers" her voice didn't sound as her usual voice. Inuyasha stood there rethinking his idea, "If I become human how will I know I will be able to protect you Kikyo? How will I be able to slice demons in half without my claws? How will I sense danger with my powers? How will I jump from tree to tree with my powers? How will I hear danger without my demon ears? How will I smell blood lingering in the air without my demon powers?
No, none of that matter now because I have you…Kikyo. In order to give all that up to be with you it is well worth it. I do want to be human and to be with you. I want to have a house by the end of the countryside. A house we will build together and together we will manage. We will find food together and we will raise our children together and fill that house with love. I want nothing more than to see you happy and I want no one else to tell that I love besides you, I do not want a house that we do not build together, I do not want anymore lonely nights, and I want nothing more than to wake up every morning with you by my side."
Both the old and real Kikyo had tears in their eyes. The real Kikyo felt her heart drop as she fell to her knees crying, oh how she wished this was her life, how she wished that Naraku never showed his ugly face into their lives, how she could be lying in Inuyasha's arms as she watched her children grow up and leave out into the world. How in her final moments on this earth she would have her loving husband in whom she loved in lifetimes ago and lifetimes to come cradle her as he told her how much he loved her and that they would find each other in their next life and wish her a safe trip to Heaven and reminding her that he will search for eternity until he finds his angel once again in their new home in the sky.
She let out a cry that could make any person's heart sink into sadness, she lets the pain and tears of 50 years spew out of her body and she slammed the dirt ground below her hating every moment that Naraku ruined. Her fist throbbed at each impact, her body shook and her eyes burned as a side of Kikyo that she never knew she had exposed itself to the cruel world. She listened as the jewel started to take effect and turn the man she deeply loved into human she could hear through the jewels power coursing through his body; Inuyasha still whispered I love you to the woman in front of him.
Even though his mouth was not saying it his entire body and soul were screaming it and Kikyo heard ever last one of them. She continued to let all the pain course through her body as they exited her either from her agonizing tears, the vigorous shaking of her body or the powerful blows that her hands were presenting to the earth. She blamed all her problems on the one person in whom she hated the most the man that ruined what could have been the most special moment in her life, the man that did ruin her life. She hated being here she hated seeing what could have been, she was tired that there was so many could've, should've, and would'ves.
She hated Naraku with every fiber of her being she hated him so much that sending him to hell wasn't good enough. She hated to see this dark feeling lingering in her but she had no choice she could not help but harbor this hatred for it hits her now just why she cant live with Naraku still out there.