For 30_kisses theme at LJ
Title: Dreams and Reality
Theme: #6. 夢と現の間 (the space between dream and reality)
Wordcount: 327
Summary: Soon, the line between dream and reality began to blur
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She couldn't sleep.
She hadn't been able to sleep since that day. Every time she closed her eyes, she'd see it. Like a broken reel, the scene of the Strike fading with the light would play over and over again in her mind.
So she stared into the darkness of the room blankly. She didn't cry. Her tears have run dry by now, and she couldn't cry anymore.
Crying wasn't going to bring him back anyway.
Her head hurt from the lack of sleep. Her body was protesting with fatigue, but her mind wouldn't rest. Maybe if she kept this up long enough, her mind would get tired too.
She closed her eyes again and tried to sleep in the lonely coldness, trying to remember the warmth of his embrace and the feel of his soft lips, trying to hold on to those memories, hoping to comfort herself and ease her mind, until she was finally able to slip into a dreamless slumber.
Sometimes she'd see him out of the corner of her eye, and could almost hear another pair of footsteps echo behind her. If she didn't turn around to check, she could believe that he was still here, following her just a step behind as she walked through the empty halls of the Archangel.
But when she would forget and turn around to talk to him, reality would come crashing back, and she'd realise she was only dreaming.
So she spent the days like this; she dreamt when she was awake, and reality haunted her while she slept. Soon, the line between dream and reality began to blur, and her conciousness swung from one to another, until she wasn't sure what was real and what was not anymore.
She wanted to keep dreaming, because only then was she able to see him. She'd let reality fade in order to meet him.
Because she was sure he was there, in the space between dream and reality.