Your Beautiful Soul
Three weeks of training her ass off, staying late, coming in early and nonstop preparation from Punk her big audition with WWE was here. Punk and AJ flew in two days early so she wouldn't be jet lagged and spent the two days together. Punk was going to enjoy these two days because the minute she signed with WWE he had decided it was over. It wasn't that he'd be angry it was that he didn't want to hold her back. She was still hesitant about going forward with it as it was because of his feelings.
Punk knew how hard life on the road was going to be for her and how hard it was going to be to keep a relationship with him. He wanted her to accomplish her dreams and do so without worrying about him. It was going to hurt him a lot more than it was going to hurt her. He had truly fallen in love with this girl he had known a short amount of time but because he did love her he had to let her go. If it was meant to be they'd find each other again down the road.
Punk didn't go to the audition obviously or anywhere near the NXT facility so he waited back at the hotel that was a block over. He was to jittery about breaking it up with her and had hoped her audition went on for hours so he could avoid it. But to his surprise she walked in the door only an hour after leaving.
"Hey." he greeted. "I guess they didn't need much time to decide they wanted you." Punk laughed.
"No they needed no time." AJ said to him dropping her gym bag to the floor. "They didn't sign me Phil."
"What?" Punk asked stunned.
"They barely even gave me a chance. The minute I showed up they commented on my size and figure." AJ told him. "And the minute they did it knocked my confidence down. I had trouble running the ropes and my timing was all off. I just couldn't hack it."
"It was too soon." Punk said simply. "Don't worry about it."
"If I can't make it there I won't make it at all." AJ reminded him as she fell into the nearby chair.
"That's not true AJ there's plenty of places you can work." Punk assured her.
"I'm not trying out for anything until I'm actually ready." She said shaking her head. "I'm humiliated Phil the coach was laughing at me. He patronized me and thought I was some dumb kid. He wasn't wrong."
"You're not dumb AJ." he said firmly. "Don't say that."
"The worst part is I let you and Colt down." AJ sniffled.
"No you didn't." he said with a smile. "Getting a call up in the first place was huge."
"I failed." She frowned looking up at him.
"No you didn't." he assured her.
"I thought I was at my best and it wasn't good enough." She said to him. "Maybe I never will be."
"Trust me you will be. WWE is just stupid." Punk said to her. "They're also really difficult to get signed by. Colt never could get signed by them and he has a great career." he pointed out. "Plenty of wrestlers are successful without Vince McMahon."
"But that's been my dream. I never imagined being anywhere else but there. And I won't be unless I change things." She said to him.
"Change what?" he asked.
"The way I look." She said to him. "If they didn't seem so surprised by my appearance it wouldn't have bothered me and I would have killed it today!"
"What's to change?" he asked her. "You're perfect."
"You're only saying that because you're my boyfriend. Your opinion is irrelevant to me." She said waving it off.
"Gee thanks." Punk snorted.
"I need to get a job I'll go back to the restaurant and beg them to take me back." she started off.
"For what?" he asked. "The job distracted and exhausted you."
"Implants." She said to him and he rolled his eyes. "A hair cut, makeup-"
"No, no and no." Punk disagreed. "You told me you wanted to be a wrestler because you wanted young girls to look up at you the way you looked up to your idols. How could you do that when you're not even truly yourself?"
"I won't be able to do it at all if I don't get out there." AJ pointed out. "I'm just not pretty enough to do this." she then stood up and walked into the bathroom.
The plane ride home was quiet since Punk had insisted AJ needed no work done and she argued any point. If Punk didn't hate WWE before he did now, AJ's confidence was almost destroyed completely with less than an hour with WWE officials. He wasn't relieved that she didn't get signed but he wasn't too upset since now he didn't have to end things with her. But now he had a bigger job- he had to prove she was not only talented but beautiful.
Punk had never dealt with this before since most of his girlfriends were so cocky about their appearances. And if they did complain about how they looked all he'd have to say was they looked great and they'd move on but not AJ. She was far too stubborn for that. He was also worried about the reaction at the gym because he knew Brandon and the rest of the guys would just be brutal with her. He knew a lot of them were hoping she'd fail at this.
"You know if you're going to get a job again please get a better place first." Punk said to her as she was back in her motel room now.
"I guess I'll be here forever training so I should probably look for something a little more permanent." AJ said falling onto the bed.
"Yea? Like a real apartment?" he asked her intrigued.
"I can't afford anything too big but I have a small savings account and have enough for something." she said to him. "Maybe I could get a room mate or something."
"I'd rather you be my room mate." Punk smirked.
"That's ok." She laughed.
"Are you not happy with him?" he asked bluntly.
"Of course I am." she said sitting up alarmed.
"You don't want to stay at my place, you don't care about my opinions when it comes to anything none wrestling related to you, you don't want me to help you and to be honest I think you're just using for me sex." he said childishly folding his arms.
"Are you serious?" She asked him.
"Maybe." He shrugged.
"I'm not using you for sex." she laughed and he screwed his eyes at her. "I don't want your money or your home. And as for the opinions on the things I want to change about myself physically I don't listen to them because you're a great guy and would never say 'you should do that'."
"I would be honest with you." Punk said to her. "I'm always honest and if I felt you needed to change something I would agree with you."
"Ok so you're honest." She shrugged. "So if I ask you a question would you be honest with me?"
"Always." he said to her.
"Is it true you were going to break up with me if I got signed to WWE?" she asked bluntly and he was taken back by the question.
"It's not that simple." Punk said to her.
"It's a yes or no question Phil it's very simple." she argued. "Was that your plan?"
"Yes." He said honestly.
"So all that talk about us making it was bullshit? You lied about that?" AJ asked him.
"I wasn't lying when I said that stuff I meant every word I just changed my mind." Punk said to her.
"If you want to break up with me Phil then just do it. I'm not getting signed anywhere anytime soon so I'll be sticking around." AJ pointed out.
"I don't want to hold you back." Punk said to her honestly. "I didn't want you to start this great chapter of your life but you wouldn't enjoy it because you'd be worried about me."
"So are you glad I didn't get signed?" she asked him.
"No." He said to her. "The selfish part of me was a little happy but after seeing how it really rocked your confidence no."
"That little rumor didn't do much to help my confidence." she said to him.
"Who told you this AJ?" he asked her. "I didn't tell anyone hell I probably wouldn't have even gone through with it! It was just in my head!"
"Brandon." AJ said to him. "He heard you talking to Colt the day before we left and told me."
"Why didn't you ask me about it?" he asked her.
"I didn't believe it that's why." She said with watery eyes. "I thought I meant a little more to you."
"You mean more to me than you know. That's why I was going to do this." Punk said to her. "This was for you not me."
"Right." AJ said not believing him. "I'm really tired maybe you should just go-"
"I'm not leaving AJ." He said cutting her off.
"They asked me about you." she admitted surprising him.
"Who?" Punk asked.
"The coach I don't even remember his name." AJ said to him. "The minute I walked in the door."
"What did they ask you?" Punk asked growing angry.
"Just if it was true I was getting 'private lessons' from you." She said to him. "It made me feel really cheap too."
"I'm sorry." he said to her.
"I lost my dream job, confidence and almost my boyfriend today." she said with a sad bitter laugh. "I really think I need to sleep this day off."
"You didn't almost lose me." Punk said to her. "The minute you walked in that door and looked at you I knew I couldn't end it."
"I don't know what to believe and now I'm scared that every time I get called for something you're going to dump me." She said to him. "I love doing this but having you in my corner means a lot to me. I don't think I'd be able to do without you."
"You won't have to." Punk promised.
"How am I supposed to believe that?" she asked him.
"Because I love you, that's how." he said with a steady voice. "I love everything about you actually. The way you wrestle, the way you laugh, the way you cheat at video games, the way you support yourself, the way you never give up, I love the way you look and most of all I love the way that you love me and take care of me and listen to me and the way you don't take my shit." he laughed.
"I do love you." she agreed.
"I know you do." he smirked. "I don't want you to change a thing about yourself because I fell in love with this body it matches your equally beautiful soul." Punk leaned in and gave her a tender kiss.
"You can't run from me, I won't be able to do this if I'm constantly worried about you thinking you're doing me a favor by breaking up with me." she warned him. "It won't help me it would break me."
"I get it now." He said to her.
"Good." She said kneeling on the bed and tugging his t-shirt up so he would pull it off.
Punk stood at the foot of the bed and let her kiss his colorful chest while her hands played with his belt. Punk looked down at her and just basked in the fact this beautiful woman took care of him this way. She had no idea how gorgeous she really was. Punk stepped away and AJ frowned as she looked up at him and pulled her t-shirt off now and gently pushed her onto the bed. AJ watched with anxious eyes as he pulled off her jeans now and let them fall to the floor.
"You have no idea how good you look right now." he said licking his lips.
AJ had to admit how good he looked but her mouth went dry. His jeans were undid only at the top and she could see his bulge growing by the second. His jeans were begging to be pulled off but when she tried to sit up he pushed her back down so she was lying flat on the mattress again. Punk slid her panties down her amazing legs and then stepped out of his jeans. Once Punk's member was visible to her she unknowingly licked her own lips and was ready to pounce on him which she tried to do. s
"You are a very eager beaver." he laughed grabbing her by the arms and put her back in the center of the bed.
"Don't you want me?" she asked. "I really want you."
"I clearly want you." he said gesturing towards his hard thick shaft.
"I want you in my mouth." she said almost desperately.
"You really a dream girl." he laughed. "You had a bad day and I'm going to cheer it up for you."
Punk's hand rested on her torso and he began to move his hand lower but she clasped her hand around his wrist and halted his movements.
"I can do this on my own." She pointed out.
"Oh really?" he asked amused.
"I'm not a prude Phil." she said to him. "Do something I can't do."
"You're killing all of my fun." He said annoyed as he got onto his bed and spread her legs.
Punk was sitting up on his knees in-between her legs and towering over her. AJ's only visual was Punk's dick and she wasn't complaining. She began to arch her hips up looking for some kind of attention from him. Punk grabbed himself and began to tease her folds. He had full intentions of putting a condom on but he wanted to feel some of her juices against his bare skin first.
"Inside." She moaned enjoying the contact.
Punk's head rested at her clit and massaged it for her and she let out little cries.
"You're so fucking wet it's crazy." he said to her.
"I really want you." She grinned lustfully.
"I want to play with you." he smirked. "You're most beautiful like this."
"So I should have went into my audition with no pants or underwear dripping like a faucet?" she asked with a laugh as he continued to tease her.
"No this is my visual only." he said to her with a smug smile. "Do you remember what I did to you the last time you thought you weren't pretty enough to wrestle?"
"You fucked me in a chair." she laughed slightly then Punk slipped just the tip of himself into her.
"What else?" he asked not moving.
"We were in front of a mirror." she answered quickly wanting him to get on with it. "There's only one tiny mirror here in the bathroom." She smirked.
"I'm not going to say it or make you watch it even though when you're coming your face is so hot." he grinned. "I want to take a picture of it and look at it every night."
"Why a picture when you can have the real thing?" she teased.
"I'm going to make love to you so good you're going to feel like the most beautiful woman in the world." He warned her. "You're going to know how good you are by the time I'm done with you."
AJ sat up and grabbed his face and pulled him into a searing kiss as she slowly pulled him back against the bed with her. It was enough of a distraction that Punk slid into her body fully now. Punk laced his fingers with her as he pushed their arms above their heads and slowly rocked into her body. AJ spread her legs further apart to he had more space.
AJ's lips pulled away from his as she cried out against his tender thrusts. There was something very intense about this that drove AJ wild and clearly Punk as well. His thrusts were so hard but slow at the same time as he left kissed on her neck. AJ began to clench around him making it unbelievably tight for him and hard to get in. He stopped kissing her neck and buried his face there and growled into her neck as he used all of his strength to push into her now.
AJ came first and a few tears escaped her eyes but Punk quickly kissed over the few drops causing her to smile as he came a moment later. It was at that moment that AJ realized Punk didn't have a condom on because she had never felt that before with anyone. She was frozen place as Punk grunted a few times before finally pulling out of her.
"You didn't pull out." AJ said to him and he hadn't even realized it. His eyes widened in horror as he looked at her now. "It's ok I'm on the pill." she assured him.
"Fuck I'm sorry." he said running his hand over his face. "I've never slipped up like that ever before."
"It's ok." she said rolling onto her side and looking at his tilted face. "It was different and it was a first for me. No man has ever...well you know."
"A first for you? Good to know." he smirked.
"I kind of like knowing there's something of you in me." She whispered blushing slightly.
"Does it make you feel beautiful?" he asked teasingly.
"It really does." She said honestly. "Thank you." She said giving him a sweet kiss then resting her head on top of his still heaving chest. "I love you."
"I love you too." he said kissing the top of her head then both drifted off into a peaceful sleep.
The next day at the gym Colt was beyond nice to AJ about the entire thing and offered very encouraging words. She had assumed that Colt warned the guys to not rub it in AJ's face because she could see they were all dying to say something to her as they snickered and whispered behind her back. Thanks to Punk and the night before though she wasn't as upset as she thought she'd be and tonight was only going to make her happier because Punk was taking her to a hockey game. She was skipping late not training and heading straight out with him.
"Hey Meredith." AJ greeted as she slipped on a small Blackhawks jersey that Punk had purchased for her.
"Sorry about you tryout AJ." she said looking into her locker.
"It's ok it was there loss." AJ shrugged closing her locker door. "Are you ok?"
"Yea just really tired." She said with a forced smile.
"Are you sure?" AJ asked unsurely.
"It's nothing I can talk about with the coaches girlfriend." Meredith smirked.
"It's not like that." AJ said to her. "Training and our personal lives are separate. We've agreed to not miz the two."
"I really can't discuss AJ." Meredith said closing her own locker door.
"Stop and just talk to me." AJ said stepping in front of her. "What's going on?"
"I did something stupid." Meredith admitted. "Or at least I think I did I don't even remember."
"Tell me." AJ encouraged.
"On Saturday night a big group of us went to the bar. It got out of hand." Meredith whispered.
"What did?" AJ frowned.
"I don't even know. One minute I was at the bar dancing with the guys the next night morning I'm home in bed." Meredith told her.
"So what's wrong with that?" AJ asked.
"I had on no clothes." Meredith cried. "I was sore, I had bruises."
"Oh my god." AJ murmured.
"I asked the guys if they saw who I left with and they said some bald guy who was buying me drinks but I don't remember any of it!" she cried.
"Did you go to the hospital?" AJ asked her.
"I showered first. I just wanted blood tests to make sure I didn't catch anything or get pregnant." Meredith told her.
"You should have gone to the police." AJ said to her.
"And say what? I got drunk and can't remember who was I was with?" Meredith asked her. "Or whom."
"Whom?" AJ asked.
"The doctor that examined me couldn't get samples because I was clean but the bruising on my legs point to more than one attacker she thinks." Meredith told her.
"You have to go to the police Meredith!" AJ insisted.
"I can't AJ! I can't split my focus." Meredith argued.
"The guys only saw you leave with one guy though. Maybe they saw something else." AJ suggested.
"They would have told me AJ." Meredith said to her. "Don't ask them about it either because they won't tell you anyway and I don't want anyone knowing. And I mean anyone." she said to her knowing she was referring to Punk. "They'll send me home or think I can't hack it."
"I don't think they would do that but I'll respect your privacy." AJ assured her. "If you need anything you could call me." Meredith looked up behind AJ then put on a big s mile.
"Thanks AJ I'll see you tomorrow. Night coach." She said walking past Punk who had obviously come in to find AJ.
"Now that jersey looks great on you." Punk grinned.
"Thanks." She said with a forced smile as she grabbed her purse.
"Something wrong?" Punk asked her.
AJ knew the right thing was to tell Punk and not just for Meredith's sake but so the boys would be forced to be more honest about what happened that night even though AJ already had a good idea of what truly went down. But she knew keeping her word to Meredith was just as important.
"Right as rain." She said happily and Punk slung his arm over her shoulders and walked her out of the gym.
A/N: Thanks for your amazing reviews everyone! I appreciate them all! :)