Steve spent most of the night watching Sam sleep in his arms. There was something…off with her. He couldn't put his finger on it. She had this look in her eyes. A look he hadn't seen before. A look he didn't know the meaning of. Yes they were in a terrible and heart-breaking situation right now, but he had seen Sam upset. He had seen her hurt. He had seen every aspect of her, but this was something he didn't recognise and if he was honest it frightened him. He didn't like not knowing. Keeping his sleeping wife close to him he lent his head gently down onto hers a soft sigh passing his lips. As a gentle knock came on the door, Steve lifted his head up. Seeing Danny he offered him a little smile before he gently moved off the bed and headed quietly off the room, making sure Sam was still sleeping before he quietly closed the door after him. "How are the kids?" Steve asked looking to his brother in law as he ruffled his hair a little. He was tired but his main focus right now was Sam. He was so worried about her.

"Alfie's in school and Mary has Lily. I thought I'd try and keep everything normal as possible for them." He looked through the window to his sleeping sister then looked to Steve. "How she doing?" He asked with a soft sigh.

"Honestly? I don't know." Steve admitted looking to him. "I told her about the baby….she was upset naturally, but….I don't know Danny, there's something in her eyes…a look I haven't seen before. It's like I'm talking to her…but she's not really there. She seems…dark. As awful as that sounds."

Danny sighed as he looked to him and rubbed his forehead a little.

Steve frowned a little to his reaction and looked to him. "What?"

Danny looked to him. "If she's in the state I think she's in, we're in for a very bumpy ride my friend."

"Meaning?" Steve asked folding his arms across his chest.

"Meaning that is not your grieving wife in there, that is the spawn of Satan."

"Danny!" Steve scolded looking to him. "We've just lost a baby and you call her the spawn of Satan?!" He shook his head looking to him. "That's low even for you."

"No. You don't understand." Danny interrupted looking to him. "You said she seems dark? I know the side you're talking about. It's a side I haven't seen for a very long time but clearly it is still there."

"You're going to have to do a lot better than that." Steve told him with a shake of his head.

Danny sighed. "Remember a few years ago I said about our grandfather dying on Sam's birthday?"

Steve nodded a little.

"Well…that's when it started. Sam adored our grandfather more than anything in this world. When he died it was a living nightmare for her, even more so because he died on her birthday. He died of a heart attack…but Sam wanted someone to blame. She needed to blame someone. But she couldn't. So she bottled everything up. She became this person who was cold. She'd go out drinking every night…"

"I thought she was fourteen when he died?"

"She was. But that didn't stop her Steve. What she wanted she got and she dug herself a hole which got deeper and deeper until one day she didn't come home. We were out searching for hours for her until I eventually found her in this spot where grandad used to take her. She was their balling her eyes out. Right there and then she let every emotion go. Let all the hatred towards the world and everyone go and was just a grieving teenager. She's going to be exactly the same as she was back then. She has no one to blame because the person she wants and needs to blame isn't around. She's going to be full of anger and hate and sadly you're going to be in the firing line for that."

Steve sighed and shrugged a little bit. "Maybe things will be different this time…"

Danny shook his head as he looked to him. "It won't be Steve. You said it yourself. You saw darkness in her eyes. That darkness is going to come out and until she can let go of all that hate and anger it's not going to be pretty. She's nearly let that side out before. Remember when she was pregnant with Lily? When Catherine took her and Sam nearly choked her to death? That darkness started emerging but somehow you managed to talk her out of it. I don't know if you'll be able to do that this time and as horrible as it sounds she will be a living hell until she is able to let go and just grieve."

Steve looked to him in disbelief. He couldn't believe he was saying all these things! "Danny she's your baby sister…"

"Which is why I'm telling you this. You need to know what you are dealing with Steve. Believe what you will…but I know my sister and I know what she's going to be like."

"Difference being she's not fourteen anymore and she's my wife. She's able to control her emotions more…"

"She lost a baby Steve. It's an emotion she's going to struggle with massively. It's an emotion any woman would struggle with…"

"And I'm going to be the one to help her. She's not going to this dark place." He told him with a shake of his head.

"Steve…"

"I should go back in." Steve cut in looking to him. "I'll come and get the kids later, get them back in their own beds. Back into a routine. Hopefully Sam won't have to stay in too long. I'll text you later." He mumbled as he headed back into the room with Sam. Seeing her awake he offered her a little smile. "How you feeling?" He asked as he headed over to her and perched himself on the edge of the bed.

Sam looked to him and gave a small shrug. "I want to go home." She stated shrugging once more.

"Well hopefully they'll let you go as long as everything is alright with your kidneys and your wound is healing. I know you don't like staying in hospital too long."

"I'm fine I just want to go home." Looking away from him she rested her head against the pillow and stared ahead of herself going off into her own little world.

Steve looked to her and gave a soft sigh. She was going distant. He could see it. He could feel it. "Well we will have to wait and see what the doctors said. We don't want you to end up with an infection if we go home to soon."

"I'm fine." She told him once more not looking to him and keeping her eyes locked ahead of her. She felt so numb. She couldn't distinguish how she actually felt right now. She knew one thing. She felt angry. One of the most natural thing a woman is supposed to do and she couldn't do it. Couldn't keep her baby safe. Couldn't keep her baby alive.

Steve kept his eyes on her. He could see she was thinking. Knew her thoughts were going over and over in her head. He didn't know how he knew but he could sense it. She was too focused when normally she'd be chatting away and be socialable with whoever she was with. She couldn't even look at him right now. He didn't want Danny to be right about her, but he had this feeling at the pit of his stomach that he was right and right now he had no idea how he was going to get her out of this. Danny's words kept going over and over in his head. He didn't want this to affect his family or marriage but he had a feeling they were all about to be put to the ultimate test and he just hoped that he and Sam were able to come out of this together.

I will apologise in advance if this is a very sore subject for readers.

I will warn that things will get darker from here on out .

It's something i want to explore and a side of Sam i want to explore as it is a side we have never seen before.

Thank you all for your continued support and i hope you will like the rest of the story :)

Much Love

K xx