Chapter 10

Piper felt her heart doing loops in her chest. It was really Alex standing there. Piper just stared and stared, until Alex finally broke the silence. Do I look that much of a mess to you, that you just have to stare at me like that. Piper cracked a half crooked smile, you can do to me as spring does to any kind of tree she said. Bringing Alex's face to a smile almost all the way around. Piper had to fight her urge to throw herself at Alex, but she figured since Alex hadn't made a move yet, it was best to wait. She couldn't get her eyes off her, she was so gorgeous, with that sexy smile, and those glasses tiltet half way down her nose. As if Alex could read her mind, she pushed the glasses back in place. The silence fell over them again, not an awkward silence, a silence with a thousand words lying there between them.
Piper felt almost dizzy, Alex noticed and led her over to the scene, they both sat down and Alex carefully took Pipers hand, and intervened their fingers until they were locked together. Piper felt a tear fall down her cheek as she looked over at Alex. But she couldn't see her face, Alex was looking down at their fingers, Piper felt she maybe she was hiding her face, so that Piper wouldn't see it. They sat like this for quite some time, Piper didn't dare to say anything, she was so afraid that Alex would leave and the moment to be over.

Finally Alex spoke, Piper held her breathe, all she could think about was feeling her soft lips against hers, feeling her warm body pressing up against her. Piper had to concentrate to hear what Alex was saying, all she could see was those lips.
I haven't forgiven you, and I don't trust you she said, Piper felt her heart sink to her stomach. But I can't be without you, I can't lay awake at night knowing you are so close and not being around you. You are the one for me Piper Chapman, and I can't do anything about that, but I need you not to break my heart again. I need you to not fuck me over again, because I don't think I could get through it.
Piper could feel her own heart breaking, she knew Alex was right as she said this to her, and Piper knew she loved her. All this was a bit new to them, Alex had always been the one in control. Piper had always been the insecure, vulnerable one. Piper could get a word out, she just swallowed and swallowed, squeezing Alex's hand so hard that Alex gave her a strange look. After a while all Piper could say was I won't. She knew it wasn't going to be enough, but for now it was all she had. She wasn't prepared for this, and she really wanted to think through what she said to Alex, and she needed to be sure, that all the Larry shit were over.

She couldn't let Alex suffer through anymore of her shit. Piper smiled at Alex and she moved towards her, clenching her body tight against her, and she couldn't hold back anymore. She found those soft lips, and they kissed, a hungry kiss, a kiss that said more than a thousand words. Piper had lost track of all time and place when she heard someone cough discretely. She had to pull herself away, it was sister Ingalls. Now you to girls I think you have to take it somewhere else, 'cause Caputo is coming with the chaplan. Piper and Alex looked at each other, and smiled, both a kind of shy smile. Like this was their first time dating. Alex said a bit clumsy and shy goodbye, and walked out. Piper just sat there looking after her, still in shock over what had just happened.

She stood up with her tool belt, just in time before Caputo came in, she mimed thank you to sister Ingalls, whom just smiled and nodded at her.
What are you doing here Chapman, Caputo said when he got in. He looked around, as if he was expecting to see anyone else. Piper pointed at the broken lamp, Luschek sent me sir. Ahh, I see, well get to it then inmate, Caputo said looking at her over his glasses. Piper hurried against the scene and the broken lamp. Piper couldn't concentrate at all about the lamp, she was just smiling, couldn't hold it back. Caputo looked at her as if she was crazy, she hoped he wouldn't ask her what it was. But it seemed like he decided not to bother, he probably filed it under more crazy woman behavior.

Alex headed back to the laundry, she had been heading back from the doctors office, where she had been to get her eyes checked, when she had seen Piper go into the chapel. With many good memories fresh in her mind from that place, and a crazy urge to just rap her arms around Pipers thin body, she couldn't help herself. She followed Piper into the chapel.
And now as she was walking towards the laundry room, all she could do was smile. Her Piper, she had kissed her and it had felt so good. She had wanted to ask more, say more, but she was so afraid of the answers. If Piper told her she was still in love with Larry, and that she would marry him after all, Alex couldn't bare the thought. For the first time in her life Alex admitted to herself that she wanted to be with Piper for ever, not for some years while things were easy and funny. No she wanted more, she needed more, she needed a life. A life with Piper, but it had to be her Piper, not Larrys Piper.

After dinner, which had been spent by Alex and Piper looking at each other like two teens in love for the first time, and of course Nicky shaking her head cracking some wiseass jokes about it, Piper walked over to Alex's bunk. She felt so nervous, like she was fourteen again, sneaking out. Alex was laying there just looking up in the air. Piper stopped, remembering what had happened last time she was here. Alex looked up at her, she smiled, well Ms Vampire, you need an invitation today to. Piper smiled and walked slowly over to Alex's bed. She smiled shyly and sat down, Alex pulled her closer, she was still the dominant strong one of them. Piper leaned in close to Alex, and felt like she could sit like this forever. After a while Alex starting stroking her hand, playing with her fingers, and Piper could feel a desire like only Alex could make her feel. She felt her whole body tensing up, and started rubbing up against Alex, she could hear her breathing heavy also. The sparks between them flying. Nicky came in, and turned around almost immediately. Dear lord you to got chemistry, what are you dry fucking each other or what. You know everybody can see you to love each other, so just fix it alright! She said leaving the room smiling.

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