Still Stephenie Meyer's

a/n: Not to lecture but I'm a bit OCD :) so this is just a bit of explanation. Earlier I said the M-rating is for language and suicide content, and also for lime/lemons. Lemon means the fic will feature explicit sex scenes. Lime denotes a fic has sexual themes but is not necessarily explicit. For this fic, I'd say the story is "citrusy" which means it has both lemon and lime. After this chapter I'm not putting up the lemon/lime notice again since it's going to be pretty much repetitive. Thank you ... to continue ...

Chapter10/Need

My heart beating fast, I slowly opened the bedroom door.

The sun had set and the room was in shadows. I could still see her outline lying on the center of the bed.

Bella was sleeping on her stomach, like a child. But she was no child. My breathing quickened.

The sheets no longer covered her, kicked haphazardly at the bottom of the bed. Her dress had ridden up high on her thighs.

I slowly approached the bed, mesmerized by the sight of her sleeping form.

What would it be like to make love to this woman? And I knew, deep in my bones, that it would be different.

I need to have her.

I uttered an involuntary sound for she stirred, waking up. She shifted on her back, her legs bending and she stretched, back arching.

I stood motionless, my cock rock-hard. My eyes never leaving her face.

She became aware of my presence and she slowly turned her head towards me.

I tried to open my mouth, to say something to her. All I could give her was the sound of my harsh breathing. I shuddered.

Fucking breathe, Cullen.

I stared at her, my mouth dry. I licked my lips. I had no more strength to fight this and fuck it all, I love her.

Bella, like a siren rising from the sea, slowly sat up. She did the one thing that would snap me out of my lustful stupor. She looked up at me and whispered one small word.

"Please ..."

I took a step forward and she met me half way.

She reached up, grabbed my hair in her tight fists and sealed her mouth to mine, our tongues mated. I grabbed her behind and pulled her body impossibly closer, both of us tilting our heads to have better access while I plumbed her mouth deeper.

She ripped her mouth from mine, gasping, and dragged her lips lower, licking the base of my neck.

My hands trembling, I lifted the hem of her dress but her bodice was too tight around her breasts. All I could think of was that I had to get my hands on her or I would go fucking mad.

I found the zipper at the back of her dress and tugged it down.

I guided her to the edge of the bed until she was sitting down, her legs spread, feet on the floor. I knelt down between her thighs, my arms around her waist and swooped down, taking her bra-covered nipple in my mouth. I heard a growling animal-like sound and realized it was me.

Her bra was so thin and lacy it added more friction for her. She moaned and arched her back, giving more of herself.

I unhooked her bra and slid the straps down her shoulders, licking the tops of her breasts. I slowly removed the lacy cotton and just stared at her. I took a moment to feast on her pale tits and their roundness made my dick throb painfully.

I fondled and squeezed one breast and licked, laved and bit the nipple of the other one. She cried out, emitting those fucking sexy breathy sounds. I suckled her tits for a long time, not missing an inch of skin.

Bella leaned back, and I stopped, watching her with hot eyes. Her chest was heaving.

"Do you really want this, Bella?" I said slowly, huskily. I could barely say the words.

She didn't speak but leaned closer and brushed her lips sweetly against mine. She took my hand and placed it between her breasts. That was all I needed.

I slowly removed her dress, leaving her panties on. I straightened up and in seconds I was naked before her.

I stood motionless, and I felt the heat of her gaze. Has she seen a naked male before? I stood straighter and clenched my fists, wanting to stroke my cock for her, to show her just how much more aroused I could be, all for her.

She stared up at me, her dilated eyes shining, and slowly dipped her head. She was looking at my erection. She swallowed, her fingers raking her thighs.

She had a shocked expression on her face and for a moment, she looked fearful.

I continued to tower over her, striving for patience. I was so fucking hard my knuckles had gone white from clenching too tight.

She tipped her head back, looking up at me in wonder. I released a relieved sigh.

"W-will it hurt?" she whispered.

I touched her face, gently caressing her cheek. "Yes." I couldn't lie to her. "But I could make it less painful."

I pulled her up until she was standing in front of me, my hand palming her breast. I could feel her frantically beating heart. "I promise you, Bella. I will not hurt you intentionally."

She slowly nodded and licked her lips. I leaned down and licked them for her. I could do it more thoroughly.

She reached up and hugged my neck. The shock was gone, replaced by a primal need to possess and be possessed.

I lifted her up and carried her to bed. I lay on top of her, careful not to crush her. I captured her lips again and kissed her deeply. I felt pain in my chest. I wanted this woman so fucking bad.

I nudged her knees apart and settled between her legs, my hardness poking her belly. My mouth still fused with hers, I caressed and fondled every line and curve. She arched her back and plunged her small hands in my hair, panting.

My mouth followed the fiery path of my hands, my attention lingering on her perfect pink-tipped breasts. I couldn't get enough of her tits.

I nibbled and pulled, smoothening my tongue all around her areola, my thumb and forefinger rolling her nipple in between. Bella's gasping was becoming more erratic. I suckled harder.

She pushed her hips against me; her movement inadvertently aligning my cock with her female flesh. I licked my way back up to her earlobe. I bit the tiny skin.

"Your nipples," I groaned, breathing hard. "I could suck them all night."

She moaned. I barely stopped myself from pulling the crotch of her panties aside and thrusting fast and deep inside her.

"Do you know what else I'd like to taste?" I breathed into her ear. She shook her head once.

I cupped a hand on her. She gasped, her fingers dug onto my shoulders.

I slipped my big index finger inside her soaked panties and touched her. She inhaled sharply and instinctively opened her legs wider. I groaned again. I inserted another finger and rubbed her swollen skin.

I licked my way from the tip of one breast to her neck, and completed the trail by flicking the back of her dainty ear. I whispered to her what I would do next. She jerked and moaned a little louder.

I slid down her body, slipped off her panties, and proceeded to do just that.

I wrapped my arm around her hip, lifted her to me and buried my face between her legs. She choked off a scream. She grabbed my hair and pulled.

I stroked and sucked her little nub for all I was worth. She tasted so fucking sweet. My tongue slowly traced her opening three times, five times. I hummed when I dipped my tongue inside, inserting as deep as I could. I licked her from her opening to her clit. Repeatedly.

I tightened my arm around her hip and lifted her higher, diving. And I didn't stop until I felt her flesh pulsing, her legs shaking. Still, I didn't stop what I was doing. I couldn't. I wanted to lick her dry.

I rubbed and tugged until I felt her muscles clenching again. I straightened up, fumbled in the drawer of the bedside table and took out a condom. I tore the package, slipped it on my cock and spread her legs even wider.

"Bella, look at me," I growled.

For the first time at least, I wanted her eyes on me when I thrust inside her. She opened her heavy-lidded eyes and looked at me.

"Put your legs around my waist," I said hoarsely. I gripped her hips, willing her to yield to me. And fucking-so-slowly-I-almost-died, I entered her.

Bella made a little sound and I stopped, my teeth clenching hard. She was so unbelievably tight. I pushed forward, stretching her narrow entrance.

"Oh god -" I blurted out. I strove for coherence. "Are you alright?"

She bit her bottom lip and nodded. I saw a tear roll down her cheek. Gently, humbled, I wiped it away.

"Do you want me to stop?" I grunted. She shook her head and shifted her hips a little. I grunted.

"Bella -" I pulled out half way and shoved, going deeper. She cried out, her legs tightened around me. "I need to move," I gasped.

She nodded jerkily. I shoved and she moved beneath me. I gritted my teeth hard and pulled out slowly, her flesh squeezing my cock so fucking tight. I pressed back in filling her.

I could feel my arms straining with the effort not to pump in and out like I was fucking dying to do. I leaned down and tongued her nipple. She arched her back, taking more of me inside her.

She was keening and I reared up, watching her face. She was ready to come.

I slid my hand between us and rubbed her. It did not take long. Her entire body shook and she stiffened, her back curving, and a soundless scream on her lips.

I stared at her beautiful face as she orgasmed, awed. And while I was watching her come, her most intimate muscles clenching around my cock, I exploded so powerfully I almost blacked out.

My next conscious thought was that I was crushing Bella. I slid to the side and looked at her.

Blushing madly, she was regarding me with large, shining eyes. She opened her mouth but no words came out. She was unable to speak yet but I couldn't think.

I did the only thing I was capable of still doing. I pulled her to me and hugged her tight.

There would be time for words later.