Hoooo boy…. Okay. First things first, I done a not good and got this all ready to post on Friday and then…. Didn't. I forgot? I thought I did? I'm REALLY SORRY? Second, thanks so much to you guys for sending reviews and stuff! It really helps when I'm having a rough day to go into my inbox and read them! You guys are so cool! Second things second, I gotta say things get really intense here. There are hints of a type of abuse there hasn't been yet, but nothing explicit. There'll be more in the warnings. Also, we get some of Yoshi in this chapter! Oooh, what's gonna happen…?!hehe.

To Skye7Diamond: poor Raph indeed - you don't even know the half of it yet. MWAHAHAHA! I'm really curious! I wanna know this theory so bad! XD I guess I keep you in suspense as well so I deserve this.

To AkimiiTheWriter: Oof, that's graphic. Does it help if I tell you there's a happy ending? Lol probably doesn't. You'll hate him more after this one! XD

To Shaymandy: ah, don't worry. There'll be bonding, just more traumatized than before. XDXD. Sorry, it went a little fast, but how long did you want Yoshi to wait? Three years was a long time…

To StoryAdict: YAY! Thanks so much! I love your face! (even though I've never seen it, I still love it!) And I do, really, enjoy writing all this whump. XDXD

WARNINGS!: Physical violence, gangs, mentions of kidnapping, and !Xmentions of sexual abuseX! Please please please be careful I want you all to be safe!

Disclaimer: I don't own TMNT or the characters!

Raphael sat against the wall arms folded over his knees, head rested on them tiredly. It felt like an eternity since they'd come here, he had no clue how long it had been since they left the house. Since he screwed everything up. The boy took a few deep breaths, trying to think. Which was hard when he had never been good at thinking and was now in a situation that required a lot of it. Not to mention that he was being watched constantly. He shivered, trying to block out the memories from the past few days. Raphael closed his eyes, trying to pretend that he was still at home, even before Father got engaged. When everything was just normal. No evil plans, no nosy soon to be step-brothers, nothing. Just him and Father, lying and hiding and living in that house. It didn't work. Raphael felt the shadow of hands on him and whimpered, curling into a smaller ball. He just wanted to be okay, was that so hard? Apparently yes. Raphael had never been okay.

The door opened and Raph flinched, pulling himself smaller. Footsteps approached him and Raph took a deep breath before daring to lift his head and look at who it was. He was slightly relieved that it was Father, but also not.

"Get up." father snarled, grabbing his arm and hauling him upward. Raph glared at him, tugging weakly. "Stop that you insolent child!" he hissed, grabbing Raph's other arm and forcing him to look Father in the eye.

"What do you want?" Raph muttered. Father didn't reply, just dragged Raphael out of the room, Raph looked around warily, a bunch of the leaders of whatever the heck gang this was was standing around, obviously waiting.

"Will he do?" Father snapped, shoving Raph to face them. Raph stood frozen for a moment, then tried to make a break for it, only for one of them to grab him and hold their arm around his throat, keeping him there.

"Let go!" Raph snarled, grabbing their arm. The man narrowed his eyes, tightening his hold on Raph's throat and forcing him to stop, mostly because he couldn't breathe.

"Will he listen?" another man stepped forward, regarding Raph coldly. Raph glared at him. Father folded his arms, eyes narrowed at Raph, who shivered.

"If you make him," he said, Raphael felt a sense of dread creep into is gut. What was going on? Raph grit his teeth, then forced his head back into the nose of whoever was holding him. When they released him in surprise, Raph kicked them where the sun doesn't shine and took off, searching for an exit. "Raphael!" Father snapped, and Raph felt himself freeze for just a moment before dropping and scrambling between one of the men's legs, for once grateful he was so small.

"Get away from me!" he yelled, headbutting someone when he stood, Raph's eyes found a door and he started to run, heart pounding.

"Raphael!" Father yelled, obviously furious. Raph swallowed and then yelped, tripping over his own feet. No! He'd been so close! The man who had been talking to Father reached him and slammed a knee down on Raph's back, making him cry out in pain.

"Get off me!" he howled, "leave me alone!" but the man ignored him, grabbing both of Raphael's wrists and pulling them behind him, Raphael grimaced.

"Yes I can see you have him under control," he said dryly, hauling Raphael up. Raph struggled, but this man was much stronger than the last one. Father looked furious and stalked over, fists clenched. Before Raph could even try to react, the man had driven a fist into his jaw, making dots appear in his vision. Pain wracked through his jaw and head, Raph grimaced and clamped his eyes shut. "We can use him, Saki. don't lose your temper now…" the man chuckled, adjusting his grip on Raph's arms. Raph shivered. "I'm sure we can break him into following orders. You'd be welcome to help in that." Raph cracked his eyes open warily, looking at Father, who was still obviously furious.

"Good," he growled, glaring murder at Raph, who felt himself shrink inside. If only he could run faster. If only he'd been able to reach the door. He just wanted to be away from all of these people, especially father and the man holding him now.

"But for now…" the man said, turning Raphael around to face him. Raph glared at him despite his fear. "We will keep him with us."

"Very well," Father growled, he turned and stalked away, a few of the men followed. The man holding Raph smiled, making shivers run down his spine. As the man dragged him into another room, Raphael was beginning to wonder if going with Father would have been better.

Raphael sat huddled in a small ball, smashing himself further into the corner of the cinderblock room. He had his eyes clamped shut, trying to forget everything. He was home, or he was with the Hamatos, or he was dead. He didn't really care, as long as he wasn't here and the past few hours hadn't happened. He whimpered slightly, pulling his legs closer together and to his chest. He just wanted to be okay, why couldn't he just be okay? His hands were still tied to the wall behind his back, which made it harder to curl up, but he did it anyway. People had entered the storage room several times since the man left, but no one had come near or spoken to Raphael. Not that he wanted them to. But that didn't stop him from cringing when the door opened again, and heavy footfalls echoed toward him.

"Raphael." Raph didn't open his eyes. He didn't want to talk to Father, or look at Father. He didn't want to be near Father. "Raphael!" the man grabbed his jaw and forced Raph's face upward, Raph instinctively opened his eyes, looking at his father pleadingly. Father smirked at his patheticness, and Raphael felt humiliated. Why did he have to care so much about the Hamatos? Everything would be easier if he just kept his nose out of Father's business! "I heard you had a busy day." Raph whimpered through the tape on his mouth, kicking one of his feet into Father's chest. Father released him and stepped back, eyes narrowed. "But you are still ignorant and impulsive." he hissed. "You will regret what you did, Raphael. You will regret it until the day you die." then he left. Raph hung his head, shoulders shaking. He already regretted what he did, he regretted everything he'd ever done. But he still didn't want Father to be able to control him. The only problem was that he might not have a choice. The door opened again and the man walked in, Raph's eyes widened and he felt like throwing up. The man chuckled, crouching in front of him and pulling out a knife.

"Don't look so worried, little cockroach." he said, forcing Raph's shoulder out of the way so he could cut the ropes. "Your father just thinks we should move the base. And he is probably right." Raph narrowed his eyes as the man hauled him up, forcing him to walk out of the storage room.

"Hun." Father looked at the man and Raph looked at the floor. "Take him ahead, there is a small problem I must take care of first." Raph glanced around, noticing that one of the younger men who was working with them was being held by two larger stronger ones, he had a black eye and a busted lip. He must have done something to make Father angry.

"Very well." Hun said cheerfully, pulling Raph toward a van. "Come, Roach. It would be best if you didn't try to get away." Raph nodded, letting himself be forced inside where his hands were tied to the armrest of a seat inside. The tinted windows would keep anyone from seeing him. He was hungry, but Raph knew that if he ate anything, even if it wasn't nuts, it wouldn't stay down for long. A few of the other men got in and then the van started, pulling out of the building. It was daytime outside. Raphael looked at the window longingly, wishing he could just run and never look back. But he couldn't. Raphael pulled his legs up to his chest again, not looking at any of the men. Instead, he just stared at the tinted window, wishing he could be outside.

They were all sitting around the bed, not speaking, and it felt like everyone was holding their breath. Leonardo sat with his feet propped up on his chair, arms wrapped around them while they waited for Dad to wake up. Mikey was sitting on the window bench with mom, and wrapped around hers and head on her shoulder. Donnie was standing, right at the end of the bed, eyes trained directly on their fathers face. He'd been stable for nearly a week after being discovered, severely malnourished and injured. Leo felt dread sink into his stomach as he thought of why they'd even found out he was alive… Raph. No one had heard or seen anything about the red headed boy, and Leo worried about him. But they had their father back, and that was only a bit more important in his mind, Leo tried not to feel guilty when he realised this, and instead focused harder on watching his father breathe. In, out. Over and over, a steady rhythm.

"Please wake up…" Leo whispered softly, resting is chin on his knees. "Please Dad." and then it happened. Dad's eyelids flickered, then slid open, and his hand traveled up to a bandage around his head.

"Daddy!" Mikey gasped, sitting upright. He and Mom were both instantly by Dad's side, mom clutching his hand with watery eyes.

"Michelangelo…?" Dad asked, astonished. "Shen."

"Shh, it is alright Yoshi." Mom gently brushed a hand over his grown out hair. "You will be alright."

"Dad we were so worried about you." Donnie said, moving around the end to stand on the other side of him. "We thought we might never talk to you again."

"Donatello…" Dad said, eyes welling up with tears, then he looked around and Leo stood, standing next to his twin.

"We're all here, Dad." he said, smiling brokenly. "We got you back."

"How did you find me?" Dad asked, wincing as he sat up. Mom put a hand on his shoulder, obviously wanting him to lay down. Dad reached up and patted it. They all looked at each other.

"That…" Donnie hung his head. "That was Raph. Raphael…." Dad frowned, confused. Leo cleared his throat.

"Raphael Oroku." he clarified. "Saki's son."

"He had a son…?" Dad asked, rubbing his forehead. "Where is this boy now? I must thank him."

"That's the problem…" Donnie said softly, Leo wrapped an arm around his twin's shoulders as they began to shake. "S-Saki… um…" he blinked away tears. "Saki isn't… isn't a great Dad to have… he hurts Raph."

"Where is he?" Dad asked, more alarmed now. Donnie closed his eyes, Leo wrapped him in his arms, letting Donnie break down on his shoulder. "Leonardo?"

"Saki found out Raph knew." he said, "and he took Raph. We… they haven't found them yet." Dad stared at him, obviously horrified, then moved like he was going to get up.

"Yoshi!" Mom chastised, pushing him back down. "You are not well!"

"Shen…" Dad said, looking up at her. "Saki must be stopped, this boy must be-" the doctor walked in, that fake grin plastered on his face.

"Hamato Yoshi." he said, "you have regained consciousness, But getting out of bed would be unwise at the moment…" he added, seeing that Mom was holding him down.

"When may I get up?" Dad asked, eyes bright with anger. "I must find the boy." the doctor knew exactly what he meant, because he'd been filled in to the whole story by a hyperactive, worried, Michelangelo.

"Based on your vitals," he said, glancing at his paper. "You will receive a check up soon and then once you feel you are ready you may stand up. But we will be keeping you at least another day." Dad scowled, obviously not happy about that, but lay back against his pillows. The doctor smiled, scribbled something down, and walked out.

"Very well." he said, "Shen have you heard anything?" She shook her head, wiping tears away.

"Yoshi you must get well." she said gently. "The police will find Raphael." Dad looked doubtful, but took a deep breath and nodded. Leo knew what he was thinking. That the police hadn't found him in three years, how could they trust them to find Raph before something horrible happened?
"Where have you been staying since I left?" Dad asked, staring at the ceiling.

"We had an apartment." Mikey spoke after a moment of silence, everyone else was too emotional. "And… then about a week and a half ago, Mommy decided… uh…" he gripped dad's hand tightly. "Th-that she should get married again. Um, no one knew about Saki, what he did to Raph… um…" Mom bowed her head, covering her mouth. "We… we got evicted from the apartment, so we moved in with them. It was only like a day before Raph told us about you, and then they were gone." Dad didn't answer, and Mikey just lay his head on the bed next to him.

"I am so sorry Yoshi." Mom said, wiping tears away.

"Shen, do not cry." Dad said gently, reaching up and caressing her face. "It is alright. If I truly were gone, I would want my sons to have a father figure. You could not have known." then he fell silent, taking Moms hand and looking around at all of them again, eyes full of love. After a moment, someone knocked on the door and it opened moments later. They all turned, and Leo's eyes widened when he saw the detective who was working on finding Raph.

"Mr. Hamato, you are awake." the man said, walking over. He looked terrible, obviously hadn't slept much.

"Did you find anything yet?" Donnie demanded, looking up from Leo's shoulder. Leo had nearly forgotten he was still embracing his brother, but didn't release him yet. The detective sighed, putting a hand over his eyes.

"A man in a local gang, the Purple Dragons, came forward." he said softly, "he said he knew where Saki and Raphael were, and that the boy was in bad condition. But when we went there today, it was deserted. And the man who had reported it was dead." Leo felt his spirits plummet. "We have found DNA evidence, they were there for a few days at least."

"Where is he now?" Mikey asked, blue eyes wide.

"We are searching for him." the detective promised. "The building across the alley from it had security cameras which we are now searching, and we are have every officer in the nearest three states on the lookout for the vans the man described to us."

"Do you think you'll find him?" Dad asked, eyes sharp again. The detective ran a hand through his hair, combing it back.

"I don't know, Mr. Hamato. You must want to help this boy, who without, you would have not been found. But I just don't know."

"I understand." Dad said softly, closing his eyes for a moment. "Thank you for what you are doing." the detective inclined his head, glancing around at all of them.

"I came by because I knew you would want to know." he said softly, "but I need to get back to the office."

"Of course." Mom said. "Please try your best."

"I will." the man said, smiling weakly. "We'll find him, Mrs. Hamato. Whatever state he's in, alive or not, we will find Raphael."

"Thank you." with that, the detective left and a nurse came in, probably to do Dad's checkup. But Leo was staring at the door, feeling like his very bones were rattled.

Alive or not. He thought in terror. They might find Raphael, but they might not be able to thank him.

Raphael took a deep breath, closing his eyes and leaning his head against the closed door, listening intently. Why? Because he had nothing better to do. That and the fact that Father had wanted to speak to Hun and Takeshi immediately, taking the two men away from their little 'game'. Raph shuddered at the thought, trying to block out the memories. To do this, he listened.

"The betrayal worries me, Saki." Takeshi was saying. "If one man will turn, who else might?"

"After the display? Only stupid ones." Hun scoffed, Raph grimaced at the sound of his voice.

"I should have known." Father growled angrily. "I should have known that self-righteous Hamato would want to find him!" Raph scowled. What were they talking about?

"The boy is traumatized." Takeshi snarled, "do they really want a traumatized child in their care?" Raph blinked. Were they talking about...him?

"Traumatized, yes." Hun said. "But also very entertaining…"

"I am not here for your enjoyment!" Father snapped, Raph cringed. "What I am here for is to ask how we are to keep them away!"

"It has worked so far." Hun said dismissively. "And we have not even broken the boy completely yet, he still carries defiance in his eyes." this made Raphael a little happier, but only on a miniscule scale. So he wasn't completely broken yet… that was probably good. Wait, who were they trying to keep away?

"The little brat is the reason Hamato Yoshi is not dead." Father growled. "I want you to break him so he will not recognise his own reflection."

"We are working on it." Takeshi snarled, Raphael shuddered, hugging himself. He wanted to know what they were talking about, who was looking for him? Then his eyes widened. It couldn't be, could it?

"And what would Yoshi even do with the child, Saki?" Hun asked, confirming what Raph was thinking. "He will never be like a regular child." but Raphael didn't hear the rest, his head was spinning. They wanted him. The Hamato's were looking for him, and that meant Raphael had to find a way out.

Lol did I tell you not to get too attached? Almost forgot how freaking brave Raph gets in these chapters lol. Brave, reckless, gryffindor all the way. Lol. Though, this isn't a laughing matter. The mentions of sexual abuse are very minor here, but for the rest of the story there's mentions of it and there's flashbacks. None are very explicit but I just really want you guys to be safe and happy reading my story - even if it's not a happy story. Thanks for reading and please review!

Until Friday,

-Jelly