11. Twins

Philip was holding my hand while I was having the ultra sound done.

"I don't want to know the sex," I said calmly.

"Let's find out," Philip smiled. This would be more exciting if only Shane could be here, I thought sadly.

"Well, I can tell one thing there is more then one baby here," ultrasound tech said in her soft voice.

"You mean?"

"Yes, you two are having twins," she smiled.

"Twins. Wow," I said taking a deep breathe.

"So do you want to know the sex?"

"Yes, I changed my mind," I admitted. I had to know if Shane was right. Was I having his son?

"Looks like a girl and a boy," She said showing me the images of the babies.

"That's wonderful," Philip said squeezing my hand.

Tears started to fall down my face and now everything was real. I was having these babies without Shane. This was not our plan when I got pregnant. Shane was supposed to be here. Not Philip.

"Twins, I am just overwhelmed " I whispered to Philip.

"Everything will fine. I am here," he promises.

I hold his hand, and look at the sonogram pictures. These are my babies. Mine and Shane's.

"I guess we won't have to worry about Emily being lonely," I smiled.

"Nope. Two playmates right here," Philip says touching my tummy. He takes my hand and we walk to the car.

"I have something to tell you," I said looking into Philip's eyes.

"I am sure I can handle anything after finding out we're having twins," Philip smiles with his light brown eyes.

It's so strange to him call the babies his. They are mine. Mine and Shane's.

"Well, my mom and sister are coming down. They are wanting to give me a baby shower her since you did not think it was a good idea for me to travel," I said taking his hand.

"That will be nice," he says getting the car.

I get in the car, and shut the door. Philip smiles at me again with his light brown eyes. He would not be smiling in a minute.

"Rick may be at the baby shower," I whispered.

"Why?"

"Well, I did not tell Amy about the kiss between Rick and I. So of course she invited Lori, and there is a good chance Rick will be there," I said gently.

"Tell your sister to ask Lori not to come," Philip says harshly.

"I can't do that. I am not going to be rude. Look, you will be at the baby shower and Lori is going to be there. It's not like Rick and I would do anything in front of the two of you. And we don't want to do anything anyways," I said taking his hand.

"If Rick there you can't go," He says firmly.

I get out the car, and Philip follows me. He grabs my arm, "Where are you going?"

"Away. I don't know what the hell your problem is. My family wants to have a baby shower for me and because Rick might be there you say I can't go. I wanted our relationship to work this time, but I don't think it can. I don't want to be submissive to someone all the time. It's not in my nature," I said walking away.

Philip was losing his mind. Thinking I had some secret relationship going on with Rick. I had done everything he asked. Even un added Lori and Rick on Facebook. But it was not enough. Nothing would ever be enough for him, I decided.

And I had three babies to think about now. What was I going to do now?

13. MARRY ME OR ELSE

"Andrea, get back in the car. Where do you think you're going?"

"I need space. I am going to call Michonne to come get me," She said reaching in her purse for my cell phone . Her blonde hair is falling in curls and covering her face.

"No," I tell her grabbing her purse.

"Just leave me alone."

"Andrea, you are embarrassing yourself. Everyone is looking at you. Please let's go talk in the car," I said gently.

Damn, Andrea always so difficult. If I tell not to be around Rick, then it should never be an issue again. She should do as I asked.

"Fine," She says getting in the car.

"Look, don't forget who has been there for you. I have loved you and supported. This is how you want to repay me? Rick will use any reason to get back in your life," I say holding out my hand for her.

"Listen, Rick and I had one kiss. It lasted maybe a minute. That's it. Rick is a good man. He is not going to leave his wife and baby. And even if he would I am not going anywhere. I have been here for you too. Even when all my friends call you obsessive. I have defended you. What more can I do to reassure you of my commitment?"

"Marry me. Show everyone how much you love me," I challenge her.

"Philip…" Andrea says looking for a kind way to reject me once again.

"Here's your purse. Call Michonne, Carol, Daryl, Rick, or whoever you like," I snap at her.

"You want me to go?"

"You said you needed space. If you want to end it, we will. If you can't marry me why should we waste anymore time? I mean you were saying no, right?"

"You're being irrational," Andrea says looking through her purse.

"What are you going to do Andrea? Are you going to run away from your problems or finally grow up?"

"Why do you make me choose? Can't I just go to this baby shower? Rick and I aren't going to do anything. "

I liked seeing her ask for my permission. I like her begging. She feels vulnerable, and she needs me. That put me in power. I didn't give a shit about Rick being there. I was only using that to get my way.

"You can go. I won't be upset. But I want you to go as my wife. We're already living together anyways. Please?"

"Yes, I'll marry you," Andrea says looking into my eyes.

"When?"

"After I have the twins. Let's get things a little more settled and then we can get married," Andrea pleads.

"All right, you have the babies first. A few weeks later we'll go the courthouse and get married," I tell her as my grin broadens.

"Yes, that will be the plan. I'll tell everyone at the baby shower we're engaged," she breathes.

"Well, you need to take of your wedding rings that Shane gave you then," I said callously.

"I am not," She starts to say.

"You can do this Andrea. Give the rings to me," I commanded.

She slowly takes them off her fingers and hands them to me. I see pain in her eyes, and I get off on her hurting her. Deserved her right for hurting with Shane in the first place.

"There you go," Andrea says almost in tears watching me the rings in my shirt pocket.

This was the first step into getting rid of Shane from her mind. She was going to have to learn to focus more on me.