Sorry... this chapter is a short one. The next couple are too. I'll update again tomorrow before I have to go back to work. :)
10. SLEEP
MPOV:
Sleep.
For the first time in a year, one whole night of pure uninterrupted sleep. I could never sleep before. I used to stay up watching TV, wondering where you were, why you didn't call. But now that you're back, now that you're sorry, I can sleep. Knowing that you're next door helps. Mom said that you could stay as long as you wanted. She's good like that. She just forgave you, even though she knew how much you hurt me.
I don't think you can stay long though because you have to get back to the band, but you told me something today. You said that you were going to move back to New York. The only reason that you moved to LA was because you didn't want to be reminded of me and of what you had done. Your publicist pushed you to move. He said that it would be best for the band that way.
But now you're coming back. I couldn't be happier. I know things are going to change now. I know that it will be hard to go back to school. I just keep telling myself that there are only a few more months and school will be over forever. Well, until college that is.
I don't want to think about that now though. I only want to think about you. How perfect you are. You can't imagine what it was like to get something back that you thought was gone forever. Maybe there's truth in the saying that if you love something you should let it go. If it comes back to you it's yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be.
You came back to me. Does that mean that it's forever?
I laugh lightly, my face pressed against the pillow so that no one can hear. I'm only 17. I feel anciently old, but eternally young at the same time. I think I'm invincible, but I know that nothing lasts forever.
I roll over and close my eyes again. Maybe we can be the first thing that lasts until eternity. Maybe. Maybe.
Sleep.
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I love you all,
-Nikki