October 10
Dear Diary,
I love Nick.
Did I really just write that?... Yeah I did. I think its true. I mean I haven't really had any experience with love. But he makes it easier. When I'm with him it doesn't hurt as much.
A lump of guilt formed in Chloe's throat she remembered when Brooke and Nick were going out. It started in late September. They seemed pretty happy together. But then he and Brooke broke up and Chloe had started going out with Nick. She didn't think it was that big of a deal at the time but now… Maybe it was.
He tells me I'm beautiful. I don't believe him, but its nice to hear.
He tells me I'm a great dancer. He's lying, but that's okay. I lie to myself too.
We've been dating for a couple weeks now and I haven't cut myself once. The scars on my wrist have almost healed. Now they're just lines, reminders of what I used to do.
Maybe one day I will tell him. He might help. He could heal me. Maybe I'll get better. That's a nice thought… I'm going to go to bed now with that thought in my head. Maybe I'll get better.
Love
Brooke