Summary: He knew that if he decided on what felt right rather than what was necessary then he would destroy and shatter both his and Naruto's worlds. What he was about to do would be for Naruto's happiness.

Warnings: Yaoi, Underage, messed up timeline.

Pairings: KakaNaru

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto, all rights belong to Masashi Kishimoto.

A/N: Even though updates have been a bit slower than usual, I've not given up on this story, I've just been busy so please bare with me, I promise I'll update whenever I have the chance to. :)

Eight months. Eight long months had passed since he'd last spoken to Naruto. He could have said eight months without seeing the blond jinchuuriki but that would be a lie, only because he did often see him around the village but Naruto either never noticed him or refused to acknowledge his existence. Quite frankly it was getting to Kakashi more than he'd like to admit, in fact it was driving him mad. It was painful to see him interact with everyone he knew with such carefree words and an open heart and yet Kakashi was left in the shadows; outside of the circle of people Naruto felt anything for.

He stayed true to the words he'd told himself that night, he promised he'd give up following Naruto for his own satisfaction. Only now he really had no one to speak to, or rather he had no inspiration to speak to anyone else on a friendship level; he felt utterly alone and he hated it and he hated to admit that he hated it.

The talk with Tsunade had gone well, she was reluctant to let one of her best shinobi go but she finally agreed to assign him to a year long mission to the land of Wind, to help out with important diplomatic business; his job being to protect the higher ups he would be accompanying from Konoha in case of assassination. If things went well he'd been told to take on a new team to train.

He had one week left in Konoha to get his things packed and various other things sorted. Not that he really needed that amount of time, he was tempted to leave now but orders were orders. In the mean time he'd asked for a few more ANBU missions to keep himself busy, luckily his request was acknowledged and he was given regular guard duty; nothing too dangerous they'd said.

So here he was, standing on his regular rooftop in the middle of the village on a night much like the night Naruto had shown up and thanked him for something that Kakashi would have done in a heart beat regardless of what his orders were.

"I'm sorry," a quiet voice, still so familiar but one he'd not heard properly for almost a year. Heh, caught off guard again Kakashi mused.

This time the ANBU turned his head to look at the boy, moonlight silhouetting his figure. Kakashi's throat felt dry at the sight of the teen.

"You have nothing to be sorry for."

Naruto strolled over to the taller figure, stopping when he stood close enough that Kakashi could reach out and touch the boy who he no longer felt was real; he could be a figment of his imagination for all the man knew.

"I do...I'm sorry for being a dick. What I said...it was out of order."

The kid once again sat down on the edge of the roof, only this time Kakashi joined him, a silent gesture that told the blond he was forgiven.

A sad smile appeared on Naruto's lips as he looked at the Hound mask. "Hound huh?" He chuckled quietly.

Kakashi looked at the boy sideways. "Is something funny?"

"Ah no...no it's nothing...I just...ah no," he stumbled over his words and beamed at him. "I'm just glad we're talking again, it's good to see you properly after so long. I uh..." He blushed a deep shade of red. "I missed you."

"You barely know me Naruto."

Naruto frowned. "Well maybe not as much as...uh maybe I could get to know you? I have this awesome new jutsu I learned maybe I could show you?...You could help me improve it if you...like?" He was still blushing deeply.

Kakashi wondered what the boy was up to, was he trying to...flirt? It had been a long time since someone had flirted with Kakashi.

"Uh..."

"I mean it's cool if you don't want to!" The boy chuckled giddily and rubbed the back of his head awkwardly. "I just thought that maybe...Y'know maybe you'd be proud of me if you saw it."

Kakashi sat silently, thinking this through. It was a bad idea, he didn't think he could resist Naruto if their training session got a bit to...physical.

"No." That was put more bluntly than he would have liked and he could see Naruto's smile drop. "I mean...I would like that and I appreciate the offer but I don't think...I don't think..." He took a deep breath, trying to force the words out. "It's just that, I'm going away so..." He shook his head, now finding it hard to believe he was chucking this opportunity away. Maybe Naruto was genuinely interested in him, maybe he wanted to...no the boy didn't even know who he was speaking to. But if he did...If he knew what he was getting in to then Kakashi no longer had any reason to say no to the blond.

Naruto frowned, blush now gone. "You're going away?"

Kakashi nodded. "Yes I have a mission to attend to in the land of Wind for a year, maybe longer."

"W-what?! No! You can't go!"

Kakashi was rather shocked at the reaction he received. Why was Naruto so bothered now when they hadn't even spoken in eight months?

"Calm down Naruto. I have to do it, it's the mission that was assigned to me."

"No! Please you have to stay, I need you."

Kakashi sighed and stood up, putting distance between the two of them.

"You don't need me, you don't know me, you don't know anything about me."

Naruto, looking defeated, rose to his feet as well, not looking at Kakashi anymore. "Right, ok.."

If it were anyone else he would have brushed them off and dismissed them, showing as little concern for their emotions as possible but this was different, he genuinely cared what Naruto felt. It almost felt like a crime against all that was holy to deliberately hurt this boy.

"I won't be gone forever, I'll be back again when the mission's over, maybe then you could show me some new techniques you've mastered."

What a poor attempt at cheering someone up. Great going Kakashi.

"When are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow morning," Kakashi said with a hint of an apology, never looking away from those bright blue eyes, burning them into his memory in dread that he would ever forget them.

"Do you think that we could talk for a bit longer? It's just that I don't want to go home quite yet and well...everyone else is in bed." Naruto questioned hesitantly, with a hint of sadness and uncertainty.

"Sure," this time Kakashi remained standing while Naruto lay flat on his back and looked up at the stars.

"Do you have a have a girlfriend or a wife, Hound?"

"No," Kakashi said nonchalantly, briefly considering whether he should have mentioned his ex-wife but decided against it. The kid was just being curious.

"What about a boyfriend?"

"No, but even if I did do you think I'd tell you?"

Naruto snorted with laughter. "I guess not, you've always been pretty secretive."

Kakashi frowned, they'd only ever spoken a few times yet Naruto was talking as if they'd known each other forever.

"I used to have a boyfriend," Naruto said factually. Kakashi cringed, he really didn't want to know of the escapades between Naruto and Sasuke. "I thought I loved him at one point; I thought he was the one..."

Frowning, he turned to look at the figure stood to the right of him.

"But I found out it wasn't actually him I loved."

"Who was it that you mistook your love for Sasuke for?"

Naruto smirked. "It would be too easy if I just outright told you."

"I'm not guessing if that's what you want me to do," as much as Kakashi wanted to know it probably wasn't all that a good idea anyway.

"Hmm...no but I do want you to answer me one thing..." The boy was now sat up facing him.

"I'll answer if it's within reason."

That wicked smirk was still plastered on Naruto's face. "So tell me how you knew it was Sasuke when I didn't even mention a name?"

Kakashi shrugged, giving off the complete opposite impression of what he was feeling inside. He wanted to slap himself for becoming too comfortable around the boy to not even notice the kid hadn't mentioned a name. Fuck.

"News spreads quickly in this village."

"Yeah but you don't seem like the type to listen or even memorize irrelevant, barely worth knowing, gossip...Hound."

Silence.

"Or maybe we should start calling each other by our real names shall we...Kakashi."

Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.

"I don't know who you think you're talking to but-"

Kakashi was interrupted when the blond teen forced the older man to face him and snatched the ANBU mask from his face. The two stared at each other, for once Naruto was almost impossible to read but Kakashi however, was like an open book, shock and everything he'd been feeling since he parted from the boy, wide open for anyone to pick apart.

He couldn't move, his muscles refused to work because the one person he had ever truly loved, the one who owned his heart and still does, was stood mere inches away from him. Their bodies so close, their breath mingling (when had Naruto pulled down his mask?); Kakashi was sure Naruto could hear how fast his heart was beating behind his rib cage.

And then, finally, after so many agonizing minutes, or was it hours, Naruto closed the gap between them; soft, warm lips pressed again cool, dry ones. Arms snaked around Kakashi's waist, trailing lightly up the contours of his armour. Kakashi was in bliss, the onslaught of his thoughts and feelings too much that he hadn't even reacted; he couldn't.

It had ended as quickly as it had begun; Naruto pulled away and took a few steps back, believing himself in the wrong for kissing his ex-sensei. The lack of reaction from the older man had probably seemed like he wasn't interested.

"Im sorry-"

Kakashi lunged, not allowing Naruto to finish his sentence as he took the other in his arms, pressing their lips together in a ferocious kiss, teeth clanging against each other, hands roaming each others bodies. Kakashi moved from Naruto's mouth to trail small kissed and bites down his jawline to lick and suck at the tender flesh of the blonds throat. The noises Naruto was making were beautiful, drawing feelings and emotions forth from Kakashi that he hadn't felt in a very long time.

Just as they started to gain more heat between them, Kakashi fully intending to take the blond right here and now on the roof, the younger of the two backed off. He looked utterly disheveled and it sent a jolt straight to Kakashi's groin just looking at him.

"Are you ok?"

Naruto nodded, trying to catch his breath. His hair was messy, his pupils were fully blown and a pink tinge coloured his cheeks; if that wasn't a sign that he was horny as fuck then the very visible bulge in his trousers was, Kakashi mused.

"Yeah...It's just I think we need to talk before..."

Kakashi swallowed, he didn't want to lose Naruto a second time; as much as he knew he deserved it after everything he'd done. He gave a stern nod, willing his body to calm down.

"I have some questions-"

Kakashi mentally berated himself, of course he had questions, but the silver haired nin didn't think he was in the right frame of mind or even prepared to answer any of these to the best of his ability right now. So much had happened in such a short amount of time and he was still trying to wrap the facts around his head.

"Naruto. I have no right to ask this but please, I need some time to get my head straight. Perhaps we can talk at your apartment when I finish my shift?"

Naruto looked away but nodded slowly.

"Yeah...I'll see you then."