I don't own Blindspot or any of these amazing characters, but if I did…we wouldn't be in this mess now. This is not any type of spin on Friday's episode…I just can't. This is a very short one shot written before they broke my heart. If you haven't seen the most recent episode…don't read what I wrote at the end. Would hate for my therapeutic purge to ruin anything for you.

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Jane gathered up the snow and began to make snowballs. She lined them up along the stairwell. She was smiling even as her fingers began to numb.

She'd called Kurt and asked him to come down and help her with some groceries. He'd seemed puzzled by her request, because, she didn't normally go shopping without him. She knew it was a lame excuse, but it had worked so…she continued to get ready. She was actually peaking over the edge of the railing waiting for him when the first snowball hit her.

She turned around to see him standing behind her his own line of snowballs waiting.

She gasped when she realized that he had cover and she was now totally exposed. He laughed as he fired off the next missile. It hit her at the center of her chest and she gave up the idea of cover and began to loft her own volleys at him. She only hit him half the time, but she had more ammo.

By the time their arsenal was depleted more than just her fingers were numb, but she was took off running, her laughter trailing behind her as he bore down on her.

Kurt felt his own laughter break out at the happy sound. When she'd called him, he'd been afraid something was wrong. He rushed outside, barely taking time to grab his coat. Coming out the back alley he'd rushed around the front looking for Jane. She'd looked like a little girl and he'd been entranced. He'd watched her for almost a full minute before he'd realized he better get on with it if he was going to have a chance of outmaneuvering her.

That's when he'd begun gathering his own snowballs. He knew he didn't have as many as she did, but he couldn't wait to see her happiness and let the first one go.

He hadn't been disappointed by her response. He couldn't remember the last snowball fight he'd had. It had been a long time ago, another lifetime ago.

Once he was out of ammo he ran toward her. Her eyes danced as she turned to run.

He caught her easily and his arms came around her from behind and lifted her off her feet and into his arms. His face buried in her neck and she ducked her head trying to get away from his tickling.

"Stop!" She gasped.

"Never," He whispered into her ear.

She reached back and her hand encountered his bare ear.

She stopped laughing and looked over her shoulder in concern. "Where's your hat?"

"I forgot it," He admitted.

Jane immediately removed her scarf and went to wrap it around his head.

"No," Kurt denied, "Keep it on."

"I'm fine," Jane insisted ignoring his protest.

Now that she had turned to face him and her arms were lifted high to make sure he was warm, he couldn't resist leaning down to claim a kiss. His arms tightened around her as he lifted her up against him.

She looked up at him with a soft expression and a little smile.

"What?" Kurt demanded as she studied him silently.

"I love you," Jane whispered. His endearing face peeking out of her scarf made her smile.

He was doing some watching of his own.

The look on her face as she watched him held him transfixed. Her nose was red and he couldn't resist leaning down and nudging it gently as he responded, "Love you too."

"Want to build a snowman?" Jane asked with a twinkle in her eyes.

He could never resist this woman. The freezing cold had chased everyone inside and he knew they should be going inside as well, but he'd help her build their snowman first.

"I don't want you getting sick," Kurt warned her, "So I'll help you build it, but then you have to agree to join me in a hot bath."

"Deal," Jane said with a sexy little smile.

"Let's hurry," Kurt said hoarsely.

She let her hand run down his back and squeezed his backside.

"If you want your snowman, you're going to have to stop that," He warned her.

"Can't take the heat?" She asked him even as it began to snow on them.

"I'll remember to ask you that later," Kurt warned her.

"Promise?" She let her other hand join her first.

"Jane…" He warned her dropping his forehead against hers.

She felt his immediate response against her.

"Maybe the snowman can wait…"

He was relieved to hear that because he didn't think he could…

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Okay…obviously written prior to the Clem bombshell. I am NOT okay. AT ALL. I considered trying to write something that would help this horrible situation, but I've got nothing. NOTHING. If she cheated, and it looks like that's where all this is going, I'm going to have trouble getting past that. Fact is… I won't be able to do it. My heart hurts. It wasn't just the shock of the revelation it's also the way it was presented. She spent the ENTIRE season 3 insisting to Kurt that as long as they didn't keep secrets from each other, then Roman would have nothing to use to come between them. HAVING AN AFFAIR IS A PRETTY BIG SECRET! Deep breath.

Then, the way she was treating Kurt about his lying to her…can't go there yet. Now let's think of the flashback, very little hesitation and seemingly no regret. Talking to Clem about how much she loves Kurt…after just sleeping with him, not okay. Miss you kiss goodbye, not okay. Flirting, not okay. Nothing about any of this is okay. She actually seemed happier with Clem than she has with Kurt. He's been over the top in love with her and she's been understated about her love for him. The closest she's gotten to showing him the type of love he's been giving her was when she said he was her happy ending.

With all that being said, I'm starting to want him to find someone else. I said it. I can't believe I could say it…he deserves better. If this is what they're doing to Jeller, I want no part of it. I can't make it better. They can't either. That they think they can is alarming. What they find forgivable and what I do is VERY DIFFERENT.

The ONLY LIGHT I can see is the possibility that she HASN'T slept with him since she married to Kurt, but he turns out to be Avery's father or someone from her past. He was her former lover not a current one. She confesses that she kissed him and was tempted and Kurt understands how alone she felt and tries to accept it. But if the story is she did have an AFFAIR during the eighteen months she was gone, I can't see the show surviving this.

Martin Gero said that he would never mess with Jeller since their relationship is the driving force of the show. They are the end game. It will be okay. Remember the ratings dropped when they went through the Allie pregnant, Nas story line? REMEMBER? They have to know that this will kill the show for many people. That he thinks that we will like where this is going…inconceivable, they cannot be that far removed from their fan base, can they?

None of our beloved characters are acting like themselves. Kurt would never shoot someone he had no line of sight on and he would never leave Avery behind, even if it meant he would die. HE WOULDN'T.

Jane would never flirt so easily and sleep with another man after walking away from her whole life out of her love for Kurt. SHE WOULDN'T.

These are not the characters we know and love.

This is not the Blindspot I want to see.

My birthday is Monday and ironically enough I posted my first fan fiction that day last year. Since then I have written 389,845 words, 169 chapters, received 1012 reviews and had 190,230 views of my stories. For the most part I have been given good feedback and although my writing isn't for everyone, even those of you that didn't love what I wrote did it in a classy way, so thank you. I might not love where Blindspot seems to be heading, but I do love this fandom.

My biggest regret right now is that I have nothing in my head that can fix this. I wish I could.

My husband was just asking me if there was anything special I really wanted for my birthday. Sadly enough I just want someone from the show to give an interview or release a sneak peek that reassures us that she DID NOT cheat on Kurt. That's the only thing I really want and the one thing they can't or won't give us. So much for this season being lighter, escapists retreat people need right now. I have never had a show physically affect me before. I literally couldn't sleep last night. I'm not saying that I will never watch the show again or I will never write about my favorite couple again, but if they run with the she cheated angle, it will never be the joy it once was… I'm so sad.

On a final, determinedly optimistic note…Monday is my BIRTHDAY! I refuse to let this travesty of justice ruin it (see I'm trying to stay positive, sob, sort of…not really, it's ruined) So have a piece of cake or some sickening fattening thing with me. We all need something to look forward to and desert is always the answer! Hang in there, this isn't going to be what we want to happen, but we're still all in this together.

Did I mention that I'm NOT okay?