It had been two days, two long days. Bella was trying her best not to scream but she would moan in pain. He back would arch up and her eyes would squeeze shut. In the middle of day one she started counting, it took me a while to understand that she was counting my breaths. I could tell that she loved me more than I thought. I had gotten up and lay in the bed with her, holding her and putting my hand to her forehead to ease the fire.
It was now the end of day two and I could hear her heart beat spike up, her thoughts cut off and I called for Carlisle. He came up to my room and looked her over before turning to me.
''It's ending, Edward. She's almost down.'' I sighed but then I thought about the time.
''But it's only been two days, it should take another day, Carlisle.'' He thought for a moment, but I was too worried to listen to them.
''I
believe that it's because she already had venom that her change
didn't take as long.''
Alice rushed into the room looking
worried, she blocked her thoughts from me and I internally cursed the
day she learnt that.
''What's wrong? Why can't I see her?
Is she okay?'' I sighed.
''She's finishing her change, I can't read her mind anymore either so I'm guessing that the slayer power is staying like that.''
''That's great, I guess? Well, Jasper can't feel her pain anymore. '' Carlisle laughed and the whole family joined us. Esme looked at Bella like if she was her daughter. I thought one day she would really be part of this family.
''Oh, Edward. She's gorgeous.'' I heard a snort come from Rosalie but ignored it.
''She's always been beautiful.'' I smiled and heard another snort come from Rosalie, I gave her the most menacing glare I could but she snarled back at me.
''What's your problem Rosalie? Are you too stuck up to notice that other people in the world can be beautiful too? Are you jealous of her REAL beauty?'' Emmett had to restrain her from attacking me. Carlisle and Esme were in the middle of us while Jasper and Alice held me back. Someone crashing into the corner of the room took us out of our fight. I turned to the noise and relaxed.
Bella was in the corner crouched; she looked may I say…sexy. I took a step towards her while Emmett and Jasper stood in front of the rest of the family to protect them. I won't lie; I was scared in this moment. What if she forgot me? What if she hates me? Why did she hide? Why did she lie? Is she okay? Will she attack? I took another step and she stood up fast. She seemed shocked that she could move that fast because even I didn't see her movement until after she stopped moving. She, in turn, took a slow step towards me. I smiled at her and she ran into my arms and kissed me. Most of all the questions I had were answered. I saw Emmett grin and Jasper relax but watch her movements. She was holding on to me a little too hard and it hurt, I tried to shake it away but I scared Bella. She backed up into the wall; the look on her face was sadness.
Nice going Edward. You've made her sad.
I sighed and walked towards her, you could hear the rain outside.
''Bella? Are you all right? You were just a little to strong with your hold on me and it hurt. Okay?'' She still stood still. ''I love you Bella.'' She gasped and took a step.
''I love you too Edward.'' She put her hand on her mouth. Her voice was beautiful, heavenly. She must have been surprised by it. I took her in my arms and just held her. Carlisle stepped forward.
''Bella, are you thirsty?'' Bella looked puzzled and her hand flew to her throat. ''Yes, that in the back of your throat is the thirst.'' She nodded and squeezed my hand. She didn't squeeze to hard, so it didn't hurt.
''Love, do you want to go hunting?'' She turned to me and touched my cheek, then nodded.
Alice who had left the room came in with a huge mirror looking smug. I shook my head at her and she glared.
''I want Bella to see herself and the clothing I got her.'' Bella looked at me then looked down at herself seeing the new clothing on her.
''Who-''
''Alice came in and changed you because your other clothes were all bloody and torn up.'' She mouthed and oh and looked towards Alice with a smile. She turned her gaze to the mirror and gasped. Her eyes widened.
''Is that me?'' I smiled and answered her.
''That is every single beautiful part of you.'' I heard Rosalie snort again and wanted to rip her throat out. Bella looked down as if she was guilty. I took her hand and pulled her towards the door. ''Let's go hunting shall we?'' She nodded.
We rushed out into the forest and stopped at the river. She looked towards me and raised an eyebrow.
''Are we swimming?'' I laughed.
''And ruin that pretty little dress of yours, I think not.'' She smiled and me then it disappeared.
''Then what-''
''We are jumping.'' She looked shocked. ''I'll show you.'' I took a couple steps back and ran and pushed off the ground and did a flip in the middle of the air to land in the middle of the forest on the other side. I waited for Bella to come so I sat on a tree branch. I waited a couple seconds before crying out.
''Bella? Do you need me to show you again?'' I heard her foot steps and looked around. I heard a thud a couple miles away and rushed towards it, I looked around for her then heard a 'boo' come from above. I looked up and saw Bella hanging upside down fro ma tree branch laughing. I advanced and grabbed her around the waist.
''We have no time to play around silly.'' She laughed and flipped backwards. She must of noticed my shocked face.
''I'm trained in martial arts and gymnastics.'' I took her hand and started walking around when I could smell some deer near by. She looked puzzled.
''Close you eyes, let yourself feel your surroundings. Smell the air and tell me what you hear and smell.'' She closed her eyes and spoke.
''I smell deer? It's a couple kilometers away.'' I smiled.
''Yes, you're right. Now let yourself go on instinct.'' She sighed and then she was gone, I tried keeping up with her and followed her until she stopped her chase and looked to the west. There were humans hunting. I stepped in between her and tried to get her attention.
''Bella, don't do it. Think of their families, their lives.'' Her jaw clenched and her eyes darkened completely. She was loosing control.
''I. Need. It.'' She spoke through breaths. She then started running off but I caught her and pounced on her, keeping her from killing them. I held her down while she thrashed. ''LET ME GO. I WANT THEM. I NEED THEM.'' She was dry sobbing and it broke my heart but I wasn't going to let her do this. She stood up and broke my grasp on her. She rushed off and I tried to catch her but she was gone, I couldn't see her. Then, I smelled it, human blood. No, she had killed them, she had drunk them. How could she? HOW COULD SHE? I went home to find her sitting on my couch, staring at the wall.
''WHY WOULD YOU TO THAT BELLA?'' She sniffed.
''I needed it Edward, it smelled so good.'' I snorted.
''DID YOU THINK OF THEIR FAMILY, THEIR LIVES, LOVES? TELL ME YOU DIDN'T EVEN THINK OF THE CONSEQUENCES.'' She pushed back onto the couch.
''No, I didn't. It just smelled so good.''
''You need to stop this, you need to hunt animals. DO YOU WANT TO BE A MONSTER?'' she looked away from me. I sighed and walked downstairs and sat at the kitchen barstool. Esme was looking through some home renovation magazine. She looked up to me.
''Do you think you were a little too harsh?''
''No, she needs to think of what she does before she does. If she wants to hunt humans then so be it, I hate that she doesn't even try.'' I heard a window break up stairs and saw a shadow go into the forest. I didn't care who it was, I was to mad at myself for letting her hurt those poor humans.
''Edward, she isn't even a day old. She doesn't have control.''
''But I hate that she doesn't try.'' I saw the shadow come back soaked from the random rain shower there was outside and jump up to the third floor. I got up and walked slowly to my room. My mood hadn't changed and Jasper came out of his and Alice's room.
''Edward, will you calm down. Your anger is too much for me, I'm going to break something if you don't calm down.'' I growled and started walking again. I heard a sob then felt the front door open and close. Carlisle must be home.
I kept walking and got to my door to talk to Bella, I opened the door to find the window broken but no one inside. I looked around but no one was there. I rushed downstairs to see Esme sitting on the sofa.
''Is Carlisle home?'' She looked up.
''No, but I heard the front door open and close. Why?''
''I heard it too, I thought Carlisle was home but I can't find Bella.'' She looked sad.
''She's probably trying to hunt properly dear. Why don't you wait upstairs for her to come back.
I did has I was told and went upstairs. I sat down on my couch. It smelled like her, my angel. I don't know how long it had been that I waited but it was a long time. That's when I noticed it, an envelope addressed to me on my stereo.
Edward,
You hate me and I don't blame you. I'm just going to be a burden in a household of angels. I am leaving, I'll try and get better, make up for the bad that I have done for you. I can't take it back but I will get better. Even thought you hate me and never want to see me again as well as probably don't love me, know that I love you so much. Try and be happy and thank you for everything.
I love you with all my dead life.
Bella,
I sobbed. I sobbed so hard that my whole entire body was shaking. She thought I hated her, and thought I didn't love her. I was stupid, why did scream at her? She was a newborn, they don't have control. It was poring outside, I had never seen so much rain in my life. Alice and Esme came in to see what was wrong and I showed them the letter. They looked at each other and then the whole family came in worrying. All of their thoughts were around Bella except for Rosalie.
That idiot deserved what I told her, she's useless. A traitor for drinking a human. She should have never entered our lives. All she did was corrupt us and then turn on us. And I told her she was stupid, why would Edward love her? Didn't he show that he hated her when he stormed off? But no, she has to be naïve. God, I'm happy she took my advice and left.