My final 10... would have had them up earlier if I wasn't such an idiot (I closed the first time without saving). That doesn't matter now though so I guess since the possessionshipping wasn't wanted this is it.

91) Cry Me A River- Julie London (Jehu)

'Love' I actually used to think that it was meant to be eternal, actually thought that Haou really meant something to me, that I meant something to him but he said love was too plebeian and that was when he ended it. It was hard those few days, weeks… I don't know, I guess it's even hard now. Thought I'd never shed a tear over something like that but the emotional heart break mixed with the physical feeling just tore me down.

So when he came back, as much as I wanted to hold him, tell him all was forgiven, I couldn't forget the pain he caused me. He had left his mark and it made it hard to move at all. Folding my arms as he waited for my response I could only tell him that I didn't believe him and that he had to prove him, prove that he really does love me. Unless he did that I wasn't going to be with him again because I didn't want to cry a river over someone who didn't really care.

92) Just the Way You Are- Bruno Mars (Why I try to keep my brother away from my music, no offense just not my taste) (Judai)

I guess everyone had their insecurities but I couldn't understand why Johan had any, he was perfect. Not only did he was the most beautiful emerald eyes as if they were really jewels, his sea blue hair that reflected the light just right or his body which to say wasn't nice would either be a lie or come from a blind person. No he had all that and then he had a great personality on top of that.

So when he going into a mood one day I formulated a plan to make his day better. I stuck sticky notes to everything with little things that I found perfect about him on the inside of his locker, books, lunch box. I however kept one till last and waited till I saw him coming around the corner when I placed it on my chest above my heart.

Johan's green eyes crinkled around the edges as smiled at the last one. "If you were a pokemon I'd use an everstone on you because you're amazing just the way you are," he read out loud, shaking his head at the reference, "I guess the best was saved for last."

"But that wasn't the last," I stated and told him to pull the note off my chest and read the back.

"'And all that's not even a small part of the reason I have given you my heart.' Who are you and what have you done with Judai?" the blunette accused jokingly, "It's either that or you've had above the daily dosage of cheese in take."

If I did it didn't matter when his lips were placed upon mine.

93) Poison- Alice Cooper (Haou)

Jehu, even the name struck something in me, plucking at a heart sting... calling me. To me that sounded stupid, half the time I didn't believe I had a heart. Still there he was, the sadistic thief who stole what wasn't his to have, stole me. I felt imprisoned, shackled to my lust which was chained to him. It was hard to imagine that anyone would ever have managed to take my train of thought away from me and make it so it all led directly to them and yet Jehu did. Magic wasn't real however when it came to what he had done to me I just couldn't be so sure, when it came to him nothing that I was certain of before seemed so.

He must have drugged me, fed poison into my veins, what else could explain it? If there was something I could think of none. There was one thing that had come to mind but I swore against it, it was love. I refused to believe the concept of love, if I accepted it then I'd realise that I'm already too far gone to do anything about it. It was like I was a fly caught in his web trying and failing to escape but unlike a normal fly I questioned if I really wanted to.

94) No End, No Beginning- Poets of the Fall (Johan)

It was like I was stuck in a rut, doomed to eternity of walking around and round in circles, unable to move forward or back. There was one thing that I knew would take me from this place but the fear in my heart, my being was too deep. I didn't want to leave however I knew that I had to, I was stuck with someone that I didn't love. She knew it, I think she always knew that she was some kind of substitute but her love for me clouded her judgement and mine was clouded by how I forced the feelings I subconsciously felt for my still best friend on her. The thing that stopped me was what would I do when it had ended.

Judai as I knew he would took me in without a moment's notice, I don't know what he expected when he saw me on his doorstep after hearing about my break up but I doubt it was a man who was finally free. She took some of our friends but I knew that I'd always have him. We spent so long together, I at one point often offered to go and find my own apartment however I shut up when I realised how much that hurt the brunette's feelings. I didn't realise how much my leaving would have caused him until we got into an argument about something stupid and then I found his lips on mine. I was glad for the new beginning.

95) Plans –Birds of Tokyo (Johan)

Sometimes having a plan seems like a necessary thing and yet even the best laid out plan can be forced to change for uncontrollable variables. I had a plan on the first day back at school after the summer holidays to finally ask out Edo Phoenix, what I did not expect was to completely forget about him the moment I saw Judai. I'd always questioned Romeo and how he could forget Rosaline when he saw Juliet, thought that he was an arse. I didn't think that maybe he wasn't really in love with Rosaline but the thought of her, like realised I was with Edo.

Love at first sight may have been real but it was far from being as strong as love was when you truly knew the other person and though I could already read his facial expressions I decided that for now I would earn his friendship. Maybe later we'd become something more.

96) Beating Hearts Baby- Head Automatica (Judai)

When I was younger I heard of the term 'heartbroken,' At first I couldn't understand how it worked, I thought that without all your vital organs working perfectly you would become sick or even die. I definitely could not understand how a heartbroken person looked perfectly alive, not even a little bit sick. The saying was deemed as silly and stored in the back of my mind to lay undisturbed until the day I finally knew the meaning.

It was quite a while 'til that happened since I was a late developer when it came to anything romantic. Yet I wasn't completely immune to love and I believe that the exact point when I first felt it was when I saw Johan for the first time. Being romantically inept it not only took my own realisation but the help of others to come to the conclusion that I was in love and then further help to know what to do. Sadly I had gotten there too late, finding out before I even told him when Edo declared the news to the rest of us and I received sympathetic glances from those with me.

That was when I came to understand what heartbreak was, I was still able to sit there, talk and smile while on the inside my heart physically hurt and left me numb inside. I then knew that having a broken heart wasn't literal; it wouldn't cause death even if it did feel like a part of me was dying on the inside.

97) Love Story- Taylor Swift (Johan)

I on a whim had decided one day to watch a whole bunch of romantic movies and the more I watched them the more the next became predictable. There were mostly two lines to go on: First boy meets girl (Brokeback Mountain the only exception), they fall in love but can't be together, get together anyway, there is a heart retching tragedy and they overcome all odds and get their happily ever after. Second is that they meet, hate each other but go through a series of events that bring them together in the end and once more a happily ever after.

Life is not a romantic movie... its life.

In life we may never meet our 'perfect other half' amongst all the people that we see because all the people we do see is such a small amount of the whole and then a large chunk of all the people we see we will walk by without a single glance. Yet people still find love, so it may not be the one and yes my lover Judai may not be the one but I would not give him up anyway. Generic romantic films may be entertaining but life is far better.

98) Heal my Wounds- Poets of the Fall (Judai)

There was eventually a day that I had never predicted would come but inevitable all the same, the day we I would no longer be needed and that a new hero would take my place. When that day came I felt lost in both the world and myself, unable to know what to do next and felt completely useless. I was obsolete and when something became obsolete it tended to be thrown away.

It was in a cafe, doing nothing astounding or extraordinary when he came back into my life. Johan when buying a coffee recognised me amongst the other patrons and asked to sit with me, the thought of refusal never came to my mind. We just sat and talked for what passed as something so fast and yet in reality were a great amount of time. Instead of leaving it like we could have that day we shared numbers and promised to keep in contact with each other and we certainly did.

Every time we met we were able to conserve about all types of things with ease and yet not once did Johan bring up anything to do with having a lover being it male or female. I found it odd because though I had the excuse of never being in one place long enough to start a relationship he had a stable life, was good looking and really for him to be alone was a strange concept. So one day I brought up the matter and he confirmed my thoughts I couldn't help but ask why.

"Because though I've had my fair share of partners none of them could work out when I could never forget about you," was his reply and one that caught me by surprise.

I tried to open my mouth to formulate some sort of reply but I couldn't, especially when Johan pressed his lips to mine. My brain short circuited for a bit and all I could think was that the feel of his lips of mine not only felt pretty good but right as well. Before he could move away and take my lack of doing anything as a form of rejection I cupped his cheek and deepened the kiss with everything I had. My direction in life that may have been foggy had become as clear as day.

99) Indestructible- Disturbed (Johan)

Being a super hero and one who was virtually impossible to hurt lead me and most to believe that I was pretty much indestructible, I guess Judai didn't get the memo. He was a part of the original three, Ryou, him and I, and he was my best friend. Ryou had left for College a while back, dealing with his own issues and leaving us behind (I think it was cause we cramped his style) so then for a while is was just Judai and I.

Later others joined us and for some reason they kept on commenting to each other that we were like the heart of the team (super hearing). In a way it was true, we were the bestest of buddies, always around each other. It wasn't until we were both mature enough to realise that we acted exactly like a couple that we became one. Our relationship was secret from the others… at least it was until that fateful day. We were fighting Nemesis (his name fit really well) and Judai was shot. Unlike the rest of us Judai relied on gadgets, still human to the utmost degree. In my anger let's say Nemesis is now no more.

I spent hours in hospital by Judai's side, only half a person, that's when the others guessed. When Judai woke up I couldn't have been happier but then he told me he couldn't feel his legs, the way he said it broke my heart. Guilt racked my soul, telling me I should have done something, anything. Judai offered, when we found out he was never getting feeling back, to let me leave so he wouldn't be a burden of me. That was it, that was the point that made me truly crack and burst into tears, in that moment Judai who had been through some much was comforting me. After everything we had done together, every hardship I was not going to leave him behind.

100) Home- Dream Theatre (Judai)

The definition for a home was a place where someone lived but that is only the clinical definition for it; a home is something more than that. To me a home was where one belongs, where a person's loved ones were and a place to take refuge after the day had taken it out of you. A home was a place to live and to make memories, a place where the good memories outweighed the bad.

When I was a child I didn't really have a home, my parents often left me behind and let the neighbours babysit me, when I applied for Duel Academy a boarding school in the middle of the sea I knew deep down that they wouldn't miss me. It's strange I guess that school, a place often dubbed as a jail had so easily became my home to me, my first home.

Once I left DA it had taken me a while to gather my bearings and find my new home and it turned out that it was with Johan. In truth it wouldn't matter where we were because a building would never be my home but the blunette I loved dearly would always be it. Everyone can appreciate having a home but in a way since I didn't have it as a child a just couldn't take it for granted and had to make sure that Johan knew that his home was always with me too.

I'd just like to thank everyone who has read and enjoyed these.
-J/A