just keep trying
A:N: Disclaimer: I do not own rookie blue I only own the story I am writing
A:N; 2: there is going to be another jump in this chapter, and if I am honest with myself, I am a bit worried about posting this chapter, but, it is called just keep trying for a reason, and this chapter just wouldn't get out of my head. I apologise in advance for people who might not like this chapter
Chapter ten
Two months later- Sam's apartment
Sam sighed and entered his apartment , the one he rented a month ago, the one he didn't want to be in. He didn't want to be renting his place, but he had no choice. Things between him and Andy were not good at the moment, they were fighting heaps, and not spending time together at all.
it all started a month ago, and it was Sam's fault, all of it
a big case came up and instead of spending time with his family, and supporting Andy, through one her toughest decisions she had to make, and that was putting her father back in rehab, Sam put all his time and effort into working on a case.
it wasn't that he didn't want to help his wife out with the mess she was currently in, it was he didn't know how to support her. and instead of talking about it to her, he went back to the old ways he knew and shut everyone out, especially his wife.
finally, Andy had enough of Sam's attitude, and the way that he was acting , and told him she needed time away from him .
Sam wasn't surprised really, after all, they had spent all their time together fighting, over everything, even the smallest things, that shouldn't really matter at all.
but a month later, and Sam had enough time to think things over, and realize his mistakes.
it wasn't that Andy wasn't taking any of the blame on any of the fighting, she knew things were tensed with everything happening right now. it was just she was , well she was exhausted , and just needed a break.
Sam missed his kids so much more than he realized , he never thought that he would become a father, and when he found he was a dad, he was happier then he could ever imagine.
he made himself promise that he would not be like his dad, and that he would show his kids everyday how much Sam loved them, how much they meant to him.
But in that month, he let everything get to him, and he let it all bottle up inside of him instead of talking , instead of opening up to his wife.
Sam sighed at this thought.
Sam smiled when he's phone started to vibrate, knowing it was the kids wanting to say good night to him.
"Dada", Aiden said on the other line, which made Sam close his eyes and sigh. god he missed his
"hey buddy", Sam said to his son
"Dada come home, me misses you", Aiden said softly to Sam. "daddy misses you too", Sam said softly to his son, closing his eyes and letting out a breath.
"Dada dad", was the next thing Sam heard on the other end of phone.
Sam couldn't help but smile, his little girl was growing up.
Lilly yawned into the phone and Sam shook his head.
"go to sleep baby", he said quietly into the phone. "Dada', Lilly said into the phone. Again, Sam shook his head.
"sleep daddy's girl", Sam said quietly into the phone. All of the sudden the phone was dropped.
"thank you, I think she just needed to hear your voice", Andy said quietly into the other end of the line.
Sam didn't say a word, he just tried to get comfy on his bed.
'Sam", Andy said quietly on the other line
Sam closed his eyes and sighed. " I miss you too Andy", Sam said softly to his wife, his world.
Andy looked over at the kids, sleeping on her bed closed her eyes and sighed. She hadn't slept well hymn weeks. she missed Sam more than anything.
everything that could go right now was for Andy, and she had had enough of it.
"come over", Andy said softly.
Sam looked around his apartment and sighed. "If I come over, I won't want to leave", he said quietly to Andy.
Andy sighed on the other end of the phone and Sam took a deep breath. they hadn't spent a night together since he moved out, two months ago.
"Mamma", Aiden said suddenly and woke up and sat up looking around the bedroom for Andy.
Andy smiled at her son.
"mama's right here baby", Andy said to Aiden, who made his way over t o Andy
Sam shook his head sat up and looked around for his jacket. he missed his family way too much.
"I'm on my way", he said as he hanged up the phone and left his apartment.
Andy smiled when she heard the front door open and close. the kids were asleep on the bed so she slowly made her way off the bed and slowly made her way downstairs.
Andy ran downstairs and jumped into Sam's arms, and he held onto her tightly ,mainly because he had not held her like this in so long.
Andy kissed Sam, so softly and gentle but it soon got pretty heated pretty quickly. soon Sam was walking them backwards to the lounge chair in the lounge room and soon Andy's body went down on the lounge chair with a thud.
Andy looked up at Sam, who was smirking at her. he could not help it, he loved this women a ridiculous amount.
Aiden started to cry and Sam leaned his forehead against Andy's and let out a breath.
"he hasn't been sleeping well this week, his sleeping pattern's off", Andy said quietly to Sam.
Sam got up and gave himself a few minutes before going to see his son. he stood there for a moment, looking at Andy, trying to get his breathing back to normal.
Andy couldn't help but grin at Sam, who winked at her and made his way into their bedroom.
when Sam got to the bedroom he leaned against the doorway, just watching Aiden holding onto his blanket, looking around.
Sam couldn't help but smile when Aiden noticed him there. Aiden got up but fell down on the bed, and started to cry.
Sam rolled his eyes and made his way over to the bed, he didn't want Aiden's crying to wake Lilly up.
Aiden just sat on the bed, waiting for Sam to come over to him. when Sam sat on the bed, Aiden crawled over to him and rested his small head on Sam's chest.
"someone needs more sleep", Sam mumbled into Aiden's neck.
about five minutes later, Aiden was asleep on Sam's chest. Sam smiled down at his son and got up and slowly put Aiden on the bed. he rolled his eye when Aiden wouldn't let go of the blanket.
Sam bent down and looked at lily and smiled down at his daughter and kissed her cheek.
he slowly made his way downstairs and looked around for Andy. he slowly made his way into the spare bedroom and leaned against the doorframe and smiled at his wife, who was lying down on the bed, looking through books.
Sam made his way over to the bed and sat next to Andy . Andy leaned against Sam and he rested his head against her shoulder.
Sam sighed when he saw what Andy was looking at. It was more per meant rehab places.
"Tommy not doing too well?", Sam asked Andy carefully.
Andy turned around and looked at Sam and shook her head.
Sam turned Andy around so she was facing him and rested his head against hers for a moment.
"I stuffed up I know, let me make it up to you, I need to make it up to you", Sam said softly to Andy, who was wiping tears away from her face.
she moved her head close to Sam's and kissed him softly on his lips.
Sam took control and kissed Andy and pushed her down on the bed and straddled and kissed Andy on the lips, making her moan softly.
Sam grinned when Andy moaned a bit louder when he moved his hips against hers slowly.
without even getting up, they somehow both got each other's clothes off and suddenly Sam was on the bed and Andy straddled him and his and attacked his neck, making Sam moan softly.
Andy kept kissing his neck and stopped at his ear.
"you don't need to make it up to me, were in this relationship together, I should of talked more, let you in more", Andy said softly while pulling Sam's boxers down.
Sam flipped them over and put the bed sheets over them.
about an hour later, Sam and Andy were still in bed, Andy asleep on him, and Sam was playing with her hair.
He heard Lilly start crying through the baby monitor and slowly got up and found his clothes and made his way into their bedroom.
Lilly was sitting up, tears in her eyes, and was looking around the bedroom. Sam shook his head and made his way over to her.
"DADADAD" Lilly started to say and Sam shook his head and sat next to her.
"hey baby", Sam said softly to Lilly, who slowly made her way onto Sam's lap.
soon Sam realized why Lilly woke up cranky and got up and made his way to the change table.
when Sam was finished changing Lilly's nappy , he rested his head against Lilly's head for a moment.
"daddy's missed you", he mumbled into her neck, making Lilly giggle and Sam smirk and shake his head at her.
the rest of the night Sam and Andy and the kids just stayed home, watched some cartoons, and played with the kids until they were both ready for their bath's an bed time.
Andy didn't want Sam to go back to his apartment that night , so he stayed the night back with his family.
the next day- Early in the morning.
Sam groaned when he felt boo come onto the bed. He looked up and sighed and got up and took the dog outside, knowing that's where the dog wanted to be.
Sam smiled when he heard Lilly starting to cry and made his way to her bedroom.
he changed her and brought her downstairs, and smiled when he saw Aiden on the couch waiting for the TV to be turned on.
Sam shook his head and turned the TV on and went into the kitchen and started making the kids breakfast.
Later that afternoon- Sam bringing his stuff back to the house.
Sam brought the last box of his clothes into his and Andy's bedroom and smiled. he shook his head when he saw Aiden running through the hallway and sighed when he saw Aiden fall down and start to cry.
Sam made his way over to Aiden and picked up his son. "that's why we shouldn't run in the house", Sam mumbled into his son's neck, making Aiden giggle softly and Sam roll his eyes.
the rest of the day was just Sam and Andy and the kids, lazing around the house , not doing a thing at all.
later that night- Sam and Andy's bedroom
Sam was breathing heavily, still on top of Andy, who was smiling up at him.
Sam bent down and kissed her slowly on the lips. Sam sighed and got off Andy and pulled her closer to him, and looked down at Andy and kissed her once again.
"Tommy should stay here with us, while he's getting better", Sam said softly to Andy, who looked up at him.
Sam nodded his head.
"his family, your dad, and he's going through something and he needs our help", Sam said looking down at Andy, who was nodding her head.
Sam let out another breath.
"his not my dad, I have to stop comparing the two of them , I'm sorry", Sam said softly to Andy, who sat up took Sam's face in her hands and kissed him softly.
"You are not your dad, you will never become your dad, you are a much better person than your dad", She said to Sam, looking at him straight in his eyes.
Sam closed his eyes and sighed and nodded his head.
"Sam Sweark", Andy said to him, which made Sam look at her.
"you are a good person, a good dad, don't let this one mistake make you change your mind", Andy said to Sam, pointing her finger at his chest, making Sam sigh and he brought her closer to him.
god he loved this women.
Sam kissed Andy one more time and she fell asleep in his arms. Sam looked down at her and turned around and turned off the bed lamp.
yep, this is where he was supposed to be.
Not in some stupid apartment alone, no he was meant to be here , with his family.
"Time for some changes", Sam mumbled to himself before falling asleep.