HISTORY REPEATED CHAPTER TEN

CATE

We were in the car on the way to the hospital; I was in the back seat with Lux whilst Baze was driving stony faced. He hadn't said more than a few sentences since we'd left the courtroom and to be honest I thought he was reacting great.

Being thrust into parenthood was one thing but grand-parenthood at thirty two? That was definitely something to freak out over. I'd been in Lux's situation and I knew how scary this whole thing was but she seemed to be getting a bit out of control, her breathing was doubly erratic and her eyes kept closing involuntarily.

"Lux, honey, I know this is hard, hold on okay, Baze's getting us there as fast as possible. It's okay." I whispered draping my arms around my daughter. It seemed so ironic to think that until only three days ago the last time I'd seen this girl was when she was not even an hour old. Now I was helping her through one of the toughest times in her life.

"No...Cate...I...can't...breathe." Lux gasped, she clutched her chest, oh my god, I'd forgotten, the hole in her heart. She's had it fixed but something as physically challenging like childbirth would put a strain on her heart and, oh god, she could be seriously ill. I felt sick; we had to get her to the hospital faster.

"Baze, we have to get to the hospital quicker, Lux's heart's playing up and putting her and the baby in danger." Baze nodded grimly as I got back to Lux. I felt him speed through some red lights; we'd deal with that later.

"Ssh, ssh, Lux, not long now honey; long, deep breaths, come on you can do this." I encouraged Lux, she was turning paler and I was relieved to feel the car stop at the hospital. Baze got out and ran inside reappearing with three nurses, a doctor and a wheelchair. I un-buckled Lux's seat belt, cursing as my fingers slipped over the clasp. She was lifted into the chair and we were whisked into the hospital before I even got a chance to remind Baze to lock the car.

My phone started ringing, it was Ryan, crap, I'd promised to meet him for dinner, it was 5pm now. He'd been out of the meeting for ages. I answered the call as we carried on dashing through a maze of disinfected corridors.

"Ryan, oh my god, Lux is in labour, Baze and I are up at the hospital, I can't make it for dinner." I said hurriedly as we turned into another long corridor.

"Oh god, uh, is everyone alright, you sound out of breath." I could practically picture Ryan pacing and tearing his hair out at the thought.

"We're not sure. I'll call you when I know something." I said before disconnecting the call and racing to Lux's side as they wheeled her into the operating theatre. A caesarean? That could only mean one thing; the doctors didn't think her heart would hold up.

"Wait, what's going on, where are you going, we're her parents." I tried to explain to one of the nurses. Baze seemed calm; he obviously trusted the hospital staff.

"Calm down sweetie, we deal with these sorts of things on a daily basis, we're going to get Lux here set up in the theatre then one of you can come in." The nurse said soothingly, I nodded and clutched onto Baze as we watched Lux be wheeled into theatre.

The doctor appeared a moment later.

"Miss Cassidy? Mr Bazille? We're going to have to perform a caesarean section on your daughter, it's their best chance, don't worry, they are safe in our hands." The doctor smiled reassuringly.

I nodded and sat down on the bench slightly along the corridor.

"Please, do whatever you can, we've only just got her back, and we can't lose her." Baze whispered, I don't think he thought I could hear but I watched the tears fall from his eyes. He cared for Lux so much, it was incredible.

The doctor nodded and left. Baze watched him go and came and sat next to me. He put an arm round me and held me as I dissolved into hysterical tears.

I could feel his chest shaking with sobs but he kept silent and simply soothed me until I was exhausted.

BAZE

I had to be strong for Cate, there was no way she could see me give in. I already knew I wouldn't be going into the room to sit by Lux when she was having the operation. Cate would take that role and I'd be allowed some privacy to myself.

Cate was exhausted with tears and was now simply shaking in my arms. I felt so frustrated and trapped. How was it fair that I couldn't seem to tell this kid that had come into my life to tell her how much I cared about her? I hated to think, it broke my heart, but if I didn't tell her soon I might never get to tell her.

"We're ready for one of you now." The friendly nurse said as she emerged from the room. Cate pulled away and stood up, she smoothed out her clothes. "Honey, we need to keep your daughter stable okay? So that means you've got to be strong, try your best not to get upset in front of her, we don't want her to panic, it'll put more strain on her heart." The kindly nurse said, she smiled sympathetically at Cate and handed her a tissue. The nurse chivvied Cate of into the theatre, I got up and turned the other way down the corridor, I had about ten minutes to myself. I found the men's room and in the privacy of it I gave in. My entire body felt like it had shattered, everything I understood about life became meaningless because all I wanted was my daughter to be okay. I couldn't even control that. My life wasn't in my hands and that frustrated me more than anyone could ever realise.

A/N: Sorry I didn't update yesterday, I finished this at about midnight GMT so I thought it would be a bit late to upload it.

How do you all think Bug will react to finding out his kid has been born just when he rejected it? And how do you want to see Ryan involved in Lux's life?

Hope you all have a good weekend (:

(There will be some flashbacks next chapter)

Twitter: BeccaLUX314