Chapter 10! Will Kalli give Santana another chance?
"I slept with her! I had sex with Brittany" Santana blurted out interrupting Kalli's words.
Kalli's heart stopped in her chest. Her eyes squinted as her brain took the in the information. "Your lying Santana, You didn't sleep with anyone" an uncomfortable laugh escaped her mouth.
"It's not a lie" The Latina was almost whispering.
Kalli laughed harder "Ok, I get it your upset. That's why you're messing with me" she tried to rationalize the situation. She struggled between her voice quivering and the half insane smile that crossed her face.
"I Wasn't Sure how to tell you" Santana looked to the floor after she saw the sadness and the look of pain on Kalli's face hidden behind the crazed smile the blonde had sketched on her face. She took another hard swallow.
Kalli took a deep sigh of guilt "If this about me being Jealous, I'm sorry" Kalli eyes were pleading with the brunette in front of her. "It was stupid of me to throw the drink in Brittany's face, I know." her voice sounding desperate, hoping this was all just a joke.
"You have a right to be jealous" Santana admitted.
Kalli felt her hear suddenly stop; as a wave of heat rushed through her body "You said nothing happened" Kalli's voice grew scary calm.
"I – I was stupid. I lied, but I'm laying it all out on the table now"
Kalli shook her head furiously "No. You – You didn't do it." She stated firmly before a disagreeing tear streamed down her cheek. "You couldn't have done it" she searched her girlfriends face hoping she would break out in laughter soon telling her this was a bog joke.
"I'm Sorry Kalli, but it's true" Santana tried to look upward to keep the tears from falling "I slept with Brittany" the words sounded like a cold whisper.
"You were drunk." Kalli seemed to be making statements instead of asking questions.
Santana shook her head slowly "No, I remember everything"
"So, she forced you." Another statement came from the blonde.
Santana's throat felt as if would close up at any moment "No" She stated harder this time "she didn't make me do anything I didn't want to." The brunette explained when a tear fell from her eye.
Kalli's eyes widened at the truth that fled from Santana's mouth. Her legs involuntarily began moving backwards towards the other side of the room. She couldn't stand to be near the brunette right now. "Did she know you had a girlfriend?"
"I kind of led her to believe I was single" the brunette was now looking towards the floor.
Kalli rolled her eyes with disgust causing more tears to roll down her face. "There is just no way you did it, There is now way"
"It was stupid and crazy, and I hate myself for it, ok. But that night I felt like a totally different person."
"But you've been lying to me every day!" Kalli's voice rose in anger "Every day since!" She pointed at her girlfriend with her index finger as she shouted.
Santana winced at her words "That night I just wanted to have fun, be somebody who wasn't stuck in a stupid parent trap, someone free" the excuse sounded pitiful but it was true.
"So, you're not a virgin, exactly" Kalli spat with venom.
"When my mom brought Antonio to the picnic, I wasn't ready f—"
"Don't you dare try to blame this on your Mom! Yeah, she has done some pretty messed up stuff to you, no doubt. But this one? Santana? This was all you!" Kalli growled as angry tears continued falling. She was still standing on the opposite side of the bedroom, not wanting to be near the Latina.
"I was looking for a way out, all right. To not think about was going to happen tomorrow" Santana sobbed.
"Are you worried about it now? Because you should be." Kalli's arms were crossed in front of her chest as she looked coldly through Santana.
"I didn't mean to hurt you Kalli." Santana moved across the room, placing her hand on Kalli's arm
"Don't touch me" Kalli jumped away from Santana. "Don't you put your hands on me, don't start worrying how I feel now" she shook her head dismissively
"You don't understand"
"Damn right I don't understand! How many times did you push me away Santana! Huh? Most people wouldn't have even been around a month!"
"That was the plan, but –"
"I'm not ready Kalli" the blonde mocked the brunette "Remember? You told me that! But I guess you're giving it to anybody you meet in a park now. Huh?" Kalli shrugged turning to face to the door.
"That's not what happened! I Lov—"Santana struggled to get the l word out.
Kalli laughed with anger in her voice "You can't even say it" her back was toward the Latina. "You don't love me" Kalli put emphasis on love "You gave it away to some random girl because you felt free one night." The blond laughed sarcastically.
"I'm sorry" the brunette whimpered.
Kalli shook her head slowly, her body felt numb. She couldn't even feel the tears streaming her cheeks. Before she left she needed to ask one more thing.
"Do you have feelings for her?" the blonde asked slowly turning around to face the darker girl again.
Santana looked up slowly meeting Kalli's gaze for the first time since their conversation started. Nodding her head slowly she let out a shaky "yes" as she sniffed.
Kalli felt a brick hit her chest. That was the only statement she needed to hear. "I'm through." She sighed shakily using the heel of her hand to wipe the tears "Were finished." Kalli grabbed her vest off Santana's bed. "I don't want to ever – and I mean ever – See your lying face again." She threw her vest on hardily storming out of the bedroom.
Santana's knees quivered until they finally buckled under her weight, clenching at her top as her sobs grew harder and harder. She wrapped her legs tightly to her chest, like she would when she was younger after her mother would leave her alone at night.
Santana's back rose & fell raggidly from her breathing still a bit unsteady. Somehow she found herself on the living room couch still curled up in her little ball. Tears continued falling, but in a slower pace. Her face was now sideways with her cheek resting on her knees. The once bright chocolate eyes were now hazy, and glazed over as she stared off into space. Her thoughts went from Brittany to Kalli and then back to Brittany, but Santana was sure the blonde hated her for leaving her dripping coldly at the Grill. Santana sniffed once more, when she heard muffled laughing coming through the front door.
"Santana what's wrong?" Antonio was coming through the door with Eva. He immediately saw the small girls back rising and falling heavily.
"I screwed it all up" Santana's eyes stayed forwards, never lifting her head off her knees. "I told her. You were right. She never wants to see me again." Small tears were still escaping her eyes.
Antonio sighed, knowing what the brunette was referring to.
"Mija, What are you talking about?" Eva moved herself around the couch, kneeling to lower her face to look at her daughters. If she didn't know Santana's voice she almost wouldn't believe that was the same Latina girl from earlier. Her usual rosy cheeks were now dead and flushed. Her normally sparkly brown eyes were dark with red faded into the white of her eyes.
"Don't worry about it" Santana said dismissively. The last thing she needed was her mother on her case about this, all she would do is remember the date so she could throw in her face later. "Why do you even care?" Santana sat up quickly wiping away a few stray tears. The brunette's voice was a little nasally from all crying.
Eva gritted her teeth "Antonio, what's going on?" she whipped around expecting an explanation from the man.
Santana looked to Antonio "Go ahead tell her. Win some points?" Santana narrowed her eyes.
"It's your story to tell, not mine" he held his hands up defensively. He told the young girl from day one anything she didn't want him to tell, he wouldn't, and he was sticking by his word.
"Or not." She mumbled looking the other way.
"Santana, don't shut me out. Was it Kalli? Did she do something to you?" Eva questioned sitting softly on the other end of the couch. Antonio stood behind his wife placing a consoling hand on her shoulder.
The Latina kept her head the other way never budging. This was just what she needed. Not.
"Please talk to me. I want to help you but you need to talk to me. I love you Santana" the older Latina pleaded.
"That night I didn't come home? I had sex with a girl I just met." Santana slowly turned her head to face her mother, cheeks still wet from her tears "How much do you love me now?" her words were icy. She didn't feel loved at this moment, nor did she feel as though she deserved to be loved.
Eva's felt as though she had just been hit by a car. Her once pleading demeanor was now replaced with a shameful expression. Her body rose from the coach slowly backing away from the Latina just as Kalli had done a few moments earlier. "You had sex with a stranger" her eyes narrowed with confusion and infamy.
"Well, she not a stranger anymore" Santana spat sarcastically rolling her eyes.
"It's not true right? She's just saying this to hurt me." Eva looked at Antonio.
"She's telling the truth" Antonio replied quietly shrugging.
"Isn't that what you wanted, mom? No secrets! You and me sharing, bonding?" Santana mocked with fake cheer.
"How could you be so stupid to have sex with a girl you don't even know! What the hell were you thinking? Santana!" Eva's eyes were red with anger
Santana shrugged loosely "I don't know. I guess I couldn't help myself. It's in my genes." The words spewed from her mouth like venom
"Excuse me?" Eva was clearly offended.
"You act like when you and Papi were hooking up you weren't getting some from the side from a guy named hmmm..." Santana tapped her chin as if she forgot the name "what was his name, Uncle Will?" she crossed her arms over her chest "like mother, like daughter. Go ahead, mom, let me have it! Let me feel the love!" she scoffed before walking off. Santana grew angrier bringing up the old memory.
"Don't you walk away from me!"
"Must be that gene thing again, huh?" The little Latina was on a roll.
Eva shook her head "You want to cheap shot me? Go ahead! But I'm sorry if I don't want to believe my daughter is out Hoe-ing around!"
Santana turned slowly at the words her mother just said "It was my first time."
"Your first time?" Eva was surprised "Baby, I'm so sorry I didn't know. Are you ok?"
"Yeah, well it had to happen right?" Santana said dismissively looking down. "I have to go"
"No you are not leaving, until we talk this out"
"Give this a chance" Antonio added from the side.
"Meaning you talk, I listen?"
"No, meaning we handle this as a family" Eva's tone was stern
"So we end up screaming and throwing things" Santana rolled her eyes. This was the usual result of their 'talks'. "I think I'll pass." Santana walked past her mother, and out the door she went.
"how did I become so bad at this parent thing?" The older brunette dropped her head into her hands.
"Well there's nothing easy about it."
"Well, how are you so good at it?
Antonio chuckled "Anyone is good at it, when it not their own kid. No history, no buttons" he explained.
Eva laughed slightly " so how long did you know?"
"I knew about Santana and Brittany the morning I found her in the hotel. She was pretty upset. I had to drag it out of her."
"She lied, and you covered for her?" Eva questioned her fiancé.
"I needed Santana to know she could trust me. Figured keeping her secret would put us halfway there. Are you mad?" he did a fake pout that made the brunette giggle.
"I could never be mad at you." She said muffled, into his kiss.
The truth shall set you freee! lol
Well now that the secret is out we can move on with Brittana! But... there are definetly more secrets yet to be unwrapped(:
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