YAY! Chapter ten! R&R This one's quite interesting.
Disclaimer: I don't own Hetalia or it's charaters.
"What is it?" Matthew asks, sitting down in a chair across from Russia.
Russia looks down with his scarf and plays with it quietly, biting his lip. He still wasn't sure that he was in love with Matthew. Lithuania had made sense when he gave Russia his advice but . . .
Russia didn't care; it wanted to be one with everyone, starting with Canada.
Ivan didn't know . . . in fact, he was actually kind of scared.
As much as Russia tried to deny it, Ivan was scared.
Ivan was scared; he stared down at his scarf. He wanted to just say it. He wanted to but Russia was refusing to say it.
Russia wasn't afraid of anything.
Ivan was scared of being alone.
Russia enjoyed torturing the Baltics.
Ivan just wanted some company.
Russia loved blood.
Ivan loved sunflowers.
Russia wanted to take over the world.
Ivan just wanted a friend.
Russia wanted to kill anyone that stood in the way.
Ivan wanted to be loved.
Russia didn't fear anything; he was feared.
Ivan was afraid of betrayal . . . of being alone . . . of rejection . . . . . . . . of Russia.
Russia was fierce, blood thirsty, dangerous and ice cold.
Ivan was childish, playful, scared and hated the cold.
"Are you going to say anything or can I leave now?" Matthew asked, his voice breaking the silence, unaware of Ivan's internal struggle.
Ivan frowned and shook his head, he held up a finger indicating the he should wait a moment and Matthew sighed. "Fine, I'll wait." He pulled out his notepad and started doodling to pass the time. Ivan nodded gratefully and focused on the voice in his head.
Let me say it!
No, foolish child.
Why?
You are weak. Take him over. Do it. Now.
Ivan shakes his head.
N-no!
Do it! He has no love for you. No one does. Who can love someone as cruel as you?
N-no! Y-you are the cruel one! N-not me!
He doesn't know that, only we do. Take him over.
Why?
Canada is second largest; take him over now. Do it before he gains more power and becomes larger than us.
N-No! I . . . I d-don't care! I-I won't do it!
INSOLENT CHILD! Do as I say!
Ivan shakes his head harder; he doesn't want this.
N-no! It's-it's wrong! I won't do it!
DO AS I SAY!
I won't! G-go away!
Foolish child! I am a part of you; I will never go away!
Go away! Shut up! I don't care just, just LEAVE ME ALONE!
The voice doesn't reply, Ivan looks down and realizes his hands are shaking violently. He lets out a shuddering breath and takes a gulp of vodka.
He hated the nation side of himself; it was terrifying and wanted to kill everyone. It scared him; this was the first time he had defied that side of him so much. He didn't want anything that it wanted.
Matthew looked up at Russia and slowly looked him over.
What the hell? He looks as though he's just been through hell and back.
Russia must have tried to make him do something.
Matthew started slightly.
Gah! Don't scare me like that Canada.
Why?
Never mind, and what did you mean by that?
Russia, tried to make Ivan do something and it looks like Ivan refused.
What? Isn't he the same person?
There's the nation side of him and the human side. Like us, I am Canada; you are Matthew. Like your brother, there is America and there is Alfred. The same logic applies to the man in front of you. There is Russia and there is Ivan.
Okay . . . I'm going to pretend like that totally isn't a creepy thought and ask that you continue explaining what you meant.
About?
His nation tried to make him do something?
Oh that. Yes, The nation half of him must have wanted him to do something very badly.
How can you tell?
I just can.
Oh.
Odd thing though, It looks as those he's told the nation half to back off . . .
Is that a bad thing?
Maybe? I don't know. I don't think he normally defies the nation half of himself though. I think he normally just follows along with what Russia wants.
Why? I don't listen to you all the time.
Ha, yeah you don't. Although if Russia was in your head all the time how would you feel?
Terrified.
Well there's your answer.
Oh.
Matthew blinked and looked at Ivan curiously. So who was in charge at the moment? Russia or Ivan? Well, only one way to find out. "Russi- um, . . . Ivan?" He asked slowly.
Ivan started and looked up, surprised.
The kid's in charge Matthew. Careful though, the nation could regain control at any moment. He is a child controlled by a demon.
Will do. Though aren't we all?
"Did you have something you wanted to say to me?" Matthew asks slowly.
Ivan blinked a few times, after a few moments he nods uncertainly. " . . . . . d-da."
Matthew's eyes widen slightly in surprise. ". . . Well?"
AN: Well how was that chapter? The italics are basically the "Nation side" of them and the "Human side" of them talking to each other. The bold is the Nation half, the non bold is the human half.
How'd I do? I think it's a little funny Canada and Matthew are on a first name basis and seem to get along.
Anyway, REVIEW PLEASE! I reeeeeeeeeally want to know what you all think of this chapter!
Au revoir!
JWR